Remember to Breathe
The plane ride to Seattle was quiet. I read a book and listened to music. I didn't try to talk to my sister. She didn't look at me. Grandma slept the whole trip. Grandpa was on his phone the second he could be. I didn't know what I was doing there. Now, I am sitting in my new room, in Forks, Washington. I am so lost. I don't want to go home, I don't want to be here. I run out the door as far as I can. The world spins around me. The next thing I know I am at a beach. I sit and watch the waves. I wonder if my parents are watching me. Probably not- and if they are they are probably wondering what the hell I am doing. I wish I knew. Time passes and I feel so alone. I start to walk into the cold water. It starts to pull me in. I don't know what I am doing. Everything in my body is telling me to go back, but I just want to sink deeper. I want everything to be quiet. Its too loud.
I am slammed up against a hard, warm body. "What are you doing!" a gruff voice yells loudly at me. I don't even have it in me to tell him that I don't know. The next thing I know I am being carried out of the water. I haven't slept for days. His body is so warm, I want to sleep. "What is your name, girl- please, tell me-are you okay? Shit what am I gunna do?" I hear more people come running towards us. Their voices are all in the background. The only thing I concentrate on is the voice of the guy whose arms I am in. I am being wrapped in a towel- they ask for him to put me down. He refuses. I hear the word "imprint" being thrown around. After that I black out.
What in the world is going on? Everything comes crashing back to me. Did I seriously walk into the ocean and try to drown? That is not even funny- God Loretta what the fuck is wrong with you? You could have died. I must be going crazy. I can feel the tears streaming down my face. I finally look up at my surroundings. I am on bed, in what appears to be a plainly furnished room. A strangled cry escapes my mouth.
"You're awake thank god, are you okay?" The anger in the voice startles me.
"Uhhhhhhhhh yeah, fine, thank you…listen I am sorry I put you in danger. I don't know what I was thinking. I-"
"Stop- what the fuck were you doing?"
"I don't know"
"Like hell you don't"
"I wasn't thinking"
"Clearly"
"Look I am sorry, if you just point me to 125 Carol Lane, then I will be on my way. Thank you for saving me." His face softened.
"Let's get you out of these clothes.- I mean your clothes are soaking wet, you need some new ones." I almost laughed at his worried expression. "Do you have a name?"
"Loretta, look I am really sorry, I will be on my way- I didn't mean to cause so much trouble."
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The plane ride to Washington state wasn't that bad. Loretta didn't try to talk to me, which was good, and the food was decent.
… I don't really know what to think, what to say. In my mind or in real life. I was leaving everything I knew behind to live with my grandparents. Possibly the most boring people in the world. We had been flying for about a half an hour and I already hated the silence. New York was so alive, bustling and moving. Seattle was a major city though, I was sure that all would be well.
-
"What do you mean we're not moving to Seattle? You said-"
"I said we would be landing in Seattle, that was all. Really dear you must learn to pay attention."
I sighed and tried again. "Then where are we going to be living?"
"Forks."
"Forks?" Who the fuck names a town after dinnerware?
"Yes, oh darling you'll love it. It's quiet and peaceful and so picturesque."
"Ok, will there be any more surprises that I should be aware about before we land? I don't have to share a room with Loretta do I?"
"No darling. Now put on your seatbelt we're about to land."
Ok so maybe not all would be well.
My sister was insane! Absolutely, one hundred percent insane!
We're barely in this God forsaken wetland for 12 hours and she already runs away and almost kills her self. Stupid girl. I parked the car and slammed the door, stomping up to the little house I banged on the door as hard as I could. A man in a wheelchair opened it.
"Hello."
"Where is she?"
"Where is who?"
"That idiot girl who thinks it's a good idea to tread into a riptide!"
"You must be her sister."
Unfortunately. I take a deep breath "would you be so kind as to lead me to her?"
"Of course."
He led me to a tiny room at the back of the house.
'Thank you."
He nodded an left.
Taking another deep breath I open the door. Inside the small room were my sister and a man I didn't know. I caught her eye.
"What the fuck were you doing?!"
Loretta and the man exchanged a glance.
"We fly all the fucking way to Forks fucking Washington for you to leave me with Grandma and Grandpa! To abandon me in this fucking wetland all on my own?"
I feel the tears collect in my eyes and quickly blink them away. I couldn't deal with loosing her too, despite her being the pain in the ass that she was.
"I wasn't thinking."
"Obviously. Get your things, we're going. You need a warm shower and a fresh set of cloths."
I grabbed her things from the floor and saw her and that guy share a look. I quickly looked away it looked like they were having an exceedingly intimate moment, which was weird since they had met about three hours ago. Things sure were weird in Forks Washington.