#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.
Kathryn Janeway sat alone in her quarters. She enjoyed some time to herself, but she knew that she would much prefer to have the company of a particular handsome first officer than ever be alone. There had been a time not too long ago when he would have spent the evening with her, they would have talked and laughed and enjoyed one another's company. Something had shifted recently. Kathryn was unsure what it was but Chakotay was pulling away from her and it was breaking her heart, more so than even when they had had to go back to Captain and Commander after New Earth.
Kathryn desperately wanted Chakotay to come after her, if he did then at least she would know that he still cared.
Kathryn finally crawled into bed around midnight exhausted from her day, avoiding Chakotay had only succeeded in making her day more challenging than it needed to be. Lying alone Kathryn considered if the man was really worth all the pain that he was causing her. He had been with other women over their journey as much as it had broken her heart.
A realisation hit Kathryn during her thoughts of her first officer, he had broke her heart in the past, but maybe, if they could start something new, her heart could start to heal. A new found hope filled Kathryn Janeway and the pain of heart break faded just a little, it was a start.