This WILL be quite a short chapter, and I apologise for that. However, I think what happens in it is vital for understanding the comments made at the end, so please don't feel mutinous! :D
Might have an advert appearing on YouTube made by my good friend Ellie, who Rose is slightly based on. It's her account, not mine, in fact she doesn't spend much time on it either, she has two favourites and no videos – because she's a freak :D with an obsessive and unhealthy crush on Hikaru. I mean really.
I LOVE YOU ELLIE 3
Anyway, the song the song the song...
Number seeeven wasn't it? Check yes Juliet?
I think it was. I can't be bothered checking.
Well, you all know Hikaru sometimes refers to Rose as Juliet, so that's the whole name side of things, and it's all about how together they run away from their troubles just so they can be together away from her father and Alexander's prying eyes.
Ok? All good?
Great. I want to get writing.
I own nothing but my OCs. Obviously.
Or this would be real, not just Fan Fiction!
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I've known it for far too long. This seemingly unhealthy attraction to the younger Hitachiin. It causes me great distress, as you would imagine. I won't go into a soppy love rant about how his eyes shine or his hair falls that little bit differently than anyone else's, because I'm not a love struck teenage girl attempting to convince myself he's the only one for me dispute it only being a flimsy attraction in a form of a chaos bound crush.
After all, I am a love struck teenage boy attempting to convince myself he's NOT the only one for me despite it NOT being a flimsy attraction in a form of a chaos bound crush.
Damn Kaoru.
As I said, I have known it for far too long, however in this case, the 'it' is relative. It could either mean my attraction to Kaoru, or it could mean Kaoru's attraction to Rose.
In either case, it doesn't matter. Kaoru doesn't seem to realise his feelings for her, and thinks of them as a brotherly, 'I like her because she's a lovely friend and is my brother's girlfriend' thing. He thinks he sees her as a sister.
Another thing 'it' could mean is Becca's flimsy crush on Kaoru, believing she has some form of a chance. Outshined by your unintentional best friend. It must hurt. I can tell she sees it too.
Still, Rose remains oblivious. She does seem to be completely smitten by Hikaru, much to Kaoru's oblivious dismay.
Although, it does make me wonder.
Hikaru was the oblivious one about his crush on Haruhi when he first met him.
And now he fell for Rose instead.
Does that mean that they will contradict or mirror now, in that Kaoru will fall for someone soon after he learns of his crush on Rose, or he will truly love her endlessly.
Is he Hikaru's opposite or parallel in this case?
There is no way to tell.
Yet.
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Rose, Rose, Rose. You've gotten all the boys falling for you, haven't you? It doesn't surprise me.
You're the best.
I'm the best.
We're meant for each other as a result of that.
It's like one of those cheesy American High School love stories. Head cheerleader and the surprisingly 'hot' (damn actors) geek who is a social outcast, and they fall for each other, and this and that, and there's a fight between the quarter back and the geek for the girl.
There's the obvious choice, the Quarterback, Hitachiin. The pretty, popular, physically perfect person who you claim you love, who you have dubbed 'Hika-kun'.
Perfect? Pathetic.
Then there is the geek, me, whom you would be the happiest with, whom with, you could become something of a goddess. Beauty and Brain. The perfect couple. Imagine the children.
We need no brawn in our life. We need nought but our love.
But, unbeknownst to most, I believe there is a third party for your affection. The floater, who believes she will end up with the quarter back, so has stepped back admirably.
The quarterback's best friend.
I don't know his name. I know he stepped to your side when I appeared at the airport, protectively, if not subconsciously.
He loves you too.
I think.
He is somehow related to the Hitachiin boy I think? In either case he is unimportant, for I love you, so you are mine, and not his, nor Hitachiin's.
I will claim you as my own.
You are not his girl.
The geek will win.
The game has begun.
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I'm not as oblivious to as people seem to think. I do realise my feelings for Rose. However, I know very well that Hikaru loves her. My feelings are lesser than that. Far less. Ergo, Hikaru gets the girl.
It's not like I'm lonely. I've forced myself to see Rose as a sister, and I'm content with that. Hikaru means more than she does. I think Rose is beginning to equal herself with me in Hikaru's eyes, which I suppose is how it should be.
So, I'm okay with that.
Not all that sure about Becca and the Shadow King though.
I know they both like me.
I'm not BLIND.
Kyoya – I really don't feel anything for him. I'm straight, regardless of what the fan girls seem to think. Geez, incest, really? But really, I feel awfully pitying of Kyoya – I would hate his situation of unrequited feelings. I have the same with Rose I suppose, but I've moved on already, despite what some people seem to think.
So let's dispel that from our minds.
Becca, well, she's lovely. I don't know. I feel awful about what happened with her parents – and I felt a twinge of anger towards them, almost protective, like what I would feel if it was Haruhi, or Rose in her situation, which has really confused me. I don't know if I like her though, I barely know her, and it's obvious she has all the 'bad boys' falling all over her in Britain.
I'm unsure.
Anyway – it doesn't matter. I don't want anything like a relationship at the moment.
But I know next time I see Kyoya it will be unbearable.
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I hate this now.
I'm starting to detest myself for these feelings, this reliance I have on him. Before I met him, I was completely self reliant and totally self assured. I didn't need anyone, just Dad and I, happy. Now I need to know he's there, and that he's okay, for my mind to be at ease. I'm like some lovesick little child.
And I hate it.
But, I suppose, whenever I look up, and into his eyes, I don't mind as much.
I hate the control he has over me.
But I suppose, somehow, I do love him.
Actually, that's why I hate him.
Wow this was short. I guess it only takes a little bit of writing to describe how I feel.
Still hate him.
Damn rich bastard.
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It's difficult to explain my emotion on this matter. I know the one word that describes it, but there are so many levels to it just one word underestimates the power it has.
I'm being ever so slightly 'sappy' as she would put it, but hey, even these apparently over emotional words are inadequate at describing the pure feelings of love that I wish to shower upon her until the day she dies.
But if I use all the words that even slightly describe her, then I would be spending all my time writing them instead of spending the time with her.
So, I'll attempt to keep this blunt, as she would so sweetly do so.
Haruhi is my world and more. Really. I am the luckiest man in the world. The moment she came and chased me down in the carriage was the greatest moment of my life, even if I was petrified of her getting hurt in that fall. But in either case, she is safe, and she is mine.
She let me make our relationship public at last.
How life is good!
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I'm scared. I'm really scared.
I'd never admit it – except from when I admitted it to Kaoru, but that's completely and utterly different because it's Kaoru – but when Rose told me that she completely trusted me to save her, I've been scared stiff. Because if something does happen, and I can't save her, I've not only lost her, I've betrayed her trust.
I'm shit scared.
But other than that (and the obvious problem of Alexander – what the hell is his problem?), life is actually perfect.
I have Rose, and I don't see us breaking up anytime soon, and I love her. Wow, I love her.
I have Kaoru, and despite whatever the hell he said in his sleep about us breaking apart (that worried me a touch), we're as close as ever. It's great, he and Rose seem to have this mutual understanding that I need time with both of them, and that neither comes before the other, and it's just amazing.
It helps that they get on really well. And I know there's nothing between them because I... well I know them. I can tell Kaoru HAD a thing for her, but it's passed, which is also brilliant.
I can honestly say everything's great.
So stay like this.
Forever.
Please?
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It's become very clear to me that Alexander has dramatically changed. I never would have thought he'd love me. Does he even mean it?
I don't know.
I can't believe this has happened. Now, of all times, it had to happen, when I was so happy.
It's just my luck.
Father rung me about five minutes after Hika and I arrived at the Hitachiin estate. He (rather angrily) explained what was to happen.
I just... I don't...
I refused, obviously.
But then Alexander rung.
And... h-he has...
Oh god.
There's nothing I can do.
I love Hika so much, and I'm going to have to...
I can't...
I won't...
I-I have to though... there's nothing else I can do.
He won.
He actually won.
And I'm completely defenceless.
Even if I told Hika, there is nothing he could do.
I can't tell him. It'd kill him.
But... Oh Hika...
Romeo and Juliet never did have a happy ending.
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The geek always outsmarts the quarter back.
Prepare to lose her Hitachiin.
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ANND SCENE.
So, who thinks they know what has happened, and why Rose can't simply refuse?
TRY AND GUESS.
Also, I'm afraid no one won the John and Edward reference game. Because no one TRIED.
Pchht.
Rose's ringtone in Chapter 12, when Hikaru wakes her up in the middle of the night with the whole Romeo and Juliet scene, was a megamix of the songs John and Edward performed over the seven weeks they were in the live shows.
Better luck next time guys!
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