Hey guys, just so you know, that last chapter was just a preview of what is going to happen later in the story. So here's the first chapter. I hope you like it

Carlisle was taking small shards of glass out of my arm. We were the only ones in the house. Everyone cleared out because of the blood. It's my 18th birthday today. I'm at the Cullen's, and I got a paper cut. How smart am I. Reviewing my day I guess I can see I'm more in over my head then I'd ever realized. A simple paper cut, and Jasper attacked me. It isn't his fault though, and I'm not mad at him. My arm hurt so badly at that second, I was fighting hard to hold back tears, and to not through up. I wanted so badly for Edward to be here with me right now and hold me. But I was going nearly insane at the smell. I didn't deserve him. But, I'm selfish. I would die without him.

"All done." Carlisle said as he began putting away his doctor's equipment. "How do you feel?"

"Dizzy, kind of freaked out." Wasn't that hard to guess.

He helped me stand and my beautiful angel walked into the room, he looked like he was in pain.

"Bella," He whispered wrapping his arms around me. "I am so, so sorry. I didn't expect that to happen." He buried his face in my hair. I wondered if he was crying.

"Uhm, it's fine. Can you take me home?" I was biting hard on my lip to keep from crying.

"Of course Bella." He took my good hand and pulled me gently behind him.

He opened me door and helped me put on my seat belt. He bent down and kissed me gently on the nose before moving to the driver's seat. He took my hand as we began driving towards Charlie's house, but he wouldn't speak. I could feel my nerves bubbling up to my surface. I was desperate for him to say something, anything.

"Are you going to come up?" I knew the answer, but I had to get him talking.

"I need to get home tonight Bella." He said without looking at me. I bit down on my lip again. He seemed so distant.

"For a few minutes? It is my birthday after all." I said in a matter of fact sort of tone, looking at him out of the corner of my eye.

He smiled slightly, it didn't reach his eyes. "For a few minutes." He repeated. "But, then I do need to get home Bella." He looked at me this time, there was some unspoken emotion in his eyes, and I didn't want to see it. I looked down at my hands trying hard not to cry. "Are you crying?"

I hadn't even realized it, but there were salty tears dripping down my face. "No," I said as I wiped my face with my sleeve.

"Bella," he mumbled pulling the car over and turning to face me. "Bella, why are you crying?"

"It's nothing." I mumbled. What a lie.

"Bella, you aren't a good liar. Does your arm hurt?"

"No," it was actually starting to sting, but it didn't actually hurt. Not a lie.

He sighed. "Bella, I'm sorry about what happened today. I told you in the beginning that you shouldn't be around me. I told you I, my family is dangerous. You should have believed me. Bella-"

I cut him off. "Stop, Edward stop it. Now. Please." I didn't want to hear anymore. I didn't want him to think he was so bad for me.

"Bella?" He looked confused.

"That was only to be expected Edward. It doesn't matter. It's over and done. Nothing bad happened."

He looked utterly enraged. "Bella, nothing bad happened? Do you know what just happened?!" He was shouting now. "He was going to kill you." His voice cracked on the word kill.

I looked away. "But he didn't, so,"

"Bella," he said exasperated. He began moving the car again, and I continued to look out the window. I didn't want him to see how upset I was.

Thanks for reading Chapter One! Please write me a review, what do you think should happen leading up to my "Preview" part of the story? I'll have the next part posted… Uhm, soon. I'm not too sure when. This only took me like 20 minutes so…