Hey everybody! First of all I want to say that I'm really (and by that I mean really really) happy, you decided to read my story. I'm totally new to the whole fanfiction-writing thing, and this is my first story in english (which is NOT my mother-language, so please be kind if there are some mistakes^^)...so I need you to give me some reviews, and tell me if you like the story; what is good and what I should do better!

Okay, let's talk about the story now....if anyone of you hasn't seen the season 4 finale and doesn't want to get spoilert you should stop reading NOW!!

The story is set in season 5 some time after Booth's surgery, but in my universe this whole Brennan-wants-a-baby-thing has never happend...yeah you'll find out that I've changed some small details (okay, this is maybe a big one, but the others really aren't that important - except of Brennan's past before and at the foster care...I've kind of rewritten it )...I call that artistic license^^
Maybe it will be a little OOC, but I just had to write this story down because it was on my mind since I re-read the book "My sisters keeper"....yeah I know, those of you who know the book (or the movie) probably have absolut no idea how the plot of it fits into "Bones", but what should I say? My brain does funny things when I'm bored ;-)

Plot: One day Brennan breaks down during an interrogation, because some memories from her teenage-years suddenly came back. Booth wants to know what's going on and finds out that there were a lot traumatic things about her past which he didn't know.

Disclaimer: Bones belongs to FOX and not to me, neither does the book "My sisters keeper"
If there are any similarities to other stories, I apologize for that, but I haven't done it on purpose because I really wrote this on my own!

Gravity

Chapter 1

"Booth."

"We found out the identity of our victim. His name is Robert Palmer."

"Great, Bones! I'll check out if there are any relatives or other useful information. Call you as soon as I've found something."

Three hours later he parked his SUV in front of the hospital.

"What are we doing here? I thought we're going to tell Ms. Palmer, that her husband has been murdered."
"We do."
"So we're at the hospital because…"
"Because she is. She gave birth to her child a few days ago."
"Oh, okay."

He noticed the suddenly very reserved tone in her voice, as usual when their conversation-themes include children – except Parker. She really seems to like his son, for which he's more than grateful. But why does she have such an antipathy against other children? He just can't figure that one out….and God knows he really tried hard.

He led her through the main entrance, his hand – as always – at the small of her back. In the past it would've scared the hell out of her – not the touch itself, but the intimacy, which it provided - but as time gone by, she got used to it. Got used to him. She had accepted Booth as a part of her life, as her partner and friend. Maybe more. But she just couldn't allow herself to think of him as more than her best friend. She was definitely not ready for that. For a relationship with him. Of course she trusted Booth, more than he would ever know – she even let him look behind these high walls, which she had built a long time ago to protect herself from the rest of the world. She did it only a few times, but she did it. No one else ever got the chance to look behind them, except from Angela. But her whole life she had been abandoned by the ones she loved, and even if he said so, he can't promise that he would never leave her. He worked for the FBI, for God's sake! He could get shot and die every day – already did. She just didn't know if she should do it; let all those feelings come to the surface, because if she did, there would be no turning back. And she knew, if something would happen to him, if he died, it would kill her. She always pretended to be a strong and independent woman, but most of that was a well built and protected façade. Fact was, she wouldn't be able to get through that another time. Couldn't stand to lose the one person she really loved. – Again.

She was that deep lost in thought, she barely heard what Booth said to the nurse at the counter. Obviously he had found out where they'd find Margaret Palmer, because he thanked the nurse and moved towards the elevator. As the doors pulled open at the 3rd floor Brennan froze in shock – unable to move.

"Bones – you coming?"
"Where are we?"
"Neonatology."
"I know that, what I wanted to say is – Why are we here?"
"To talk to Margaret Palmer. Obviously the fact that her husband had been missing for two weeks had caused her that much stress, that her baby came 4 weeks earlier than planned."
Somehow she managed to step outside of the elevator, but the fear still streamed through her body, which didn't allow her any straight thoughts.
"Bones, are you okay? You're as pale as a wall."
"Everything is fine Booth, really."

She knew by the look of his eyes that he knew she was lying. He never bought her lies. And of course she lied. Nothing was fine. She was only a few steps away from a mental breakdown. But he didn't say anything. Obviously he knew that now wasn't the right time to ask questions. He always knew. And she was very grateful for that.
She didn't know if she could stand being in that room; seeing all those little babies in their incubators. "Yes, you can.", she told herself, "You can – and you will." She straightened her shoulders and followed Booth into the small room. As soon as she put her feet through the door, she knew that she had been terribly wrong. How could she ever think she would be able to keep the memories far away at the back of her brain, where she kept them over all these years, once she stepped into that room? Of course she couldn't. They flooded her with such intensity, that she felt like drowning within seconds.
She managed to stay there for a few minutes, but when she realized, that she wouldn't be able to keep the tears from falling, she knew she had to get out of there as fast as possible.
"Booth, I….I don't feel quite good, I think I should wait in the car."
Even she noticed how thin and broken her voice sounded. He looked at her with worried eyes, but nodded.

She hurried to the car and closed the door at the same moment as her walls broke down and tears began streaming down her face.

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