How are you liking my fanfiction so far? I just wanted to let you know that I started another fanfiction that's going backwards; it's Twilight with a twist haha. Ok, so just so you know, I thought of some really intense stuff to add into this. It will be later in the story though, after he leaves (*gasp* does he leave?) and also after he comes back (maybe he doesn't… You'll have to find out haha). So keep reading and reviewing and tell me how I'm doing. Thanx!
Chapter Six (A/N: Ok guys here it is.)
The day that followed was a nightmare. I was afraid to let him think, so I insisted on going to school, he'd spend the whole day checking on me, watching me, so I didn't have to worry. Unfortunately, I did worry. I worried about him, how he was so distant from me. How he never wanted to make real conversation. How he never really smiled or laughed, and how Esme and Alice both looked at me like they were worried about me.
In the cafeteria I noticed that Rosalie and Emmett were late, weird. Jasper wasn't there either, Alice sat beside me as usual, with Edward in front, and said nothing. I felt panic close my throat. I couldn't eat. No one said anything. The other Cullens never did show up.
Edward drove me home, like he always did, but wouldn't stay. "Bella, let's go for a walk." That was unusual. Before I could react he had opened my door and taken my hand, helping me out of the Volvo. At first he didn't say anything, he just pulled me along into the forest beside Charlie's house. He stopped only a few yards in, still insight of the house, and leaned against a tree. Some walk.
"So," I began, trying desperately to make him say something, and not think about right and wrong.
"Bella, we're leaving." He said, his face neatly composed. "We've been here too long already. Carlisle's barely able to pass for thirty, and he's turning thirty three soon. We have to leave."
"Oh," It took me a few deep breathes before I could speak. "I'll come with you."
He shook his head. "Bella, you need to stay here, for Charlie." He starred at me, watching my expression as everything he was saying clicked into place.
"When you say 'we',"
"Yes, I mean my family and I. You can't come with us Bella." He didn't move. He just continued to stare at me.
"So then you stay, wait a few years, then take me with you." I begged. "When we graduate, we can go to college, or we can move somewhere we can be together."
"Bella, I don't want you to come." He tried to sound exasperated as he spoke. I turned the words over and over in my head, trying to make sense of them. 'I don't want you'… "I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not Bella, and I'm not human." His words were harsh.
I continued to search the words for their real meaning. 'I don't want you'… I spoke each word separately in my head until finally they all made sense. He didn't want me anymore. "That changed things then." I managed to choke out. I was surprised by how natural my voice sounded, when on the inside my heart was bleeding, and falling to pieces.
He didn't say anything.
"Will we keep in touch, will I ever see you?" I had to know, though I was scared I already knew the answer.
"No." His answer – the one I had feared – was cold, icy and cruel. His tone was flat. "I won't do this to you again. I won't ever make you suffer. It will be as if I never existed." Pain shot through me, stabbing my dying heart. I shook my head trying to clear it.
"No, it can't ever be like that." I whispered.
He took my words for a different meaning than I'd intended. "I won't leave you any reminders, I'll be nothing but a memory." He paused, something in my expression must has distracted him, his neatly composed face flickered something I thought was pain, but that couldn't be it. "Your kind, you forget things easily, time will heal you. My kind though, I won't ever forget. We're easily distracted though." He was deliberately trying to break apart our differences to make me see something I didn't want to be there. I felt numb.
"If that's how you want it." I said each word slowly.
"It is." He continued to stare at me. His face was smooth, expressionless. But his eyes showed anger. He was mad at me, I'd done something wrong. "Good bye Bella." He stepped forward and kissed me gently on my forehead. I stopped breathing, and I could swear my heart stopped too. But he didn't seem to notice. I reached out for him, but he was already gone. I walked aimlessly trying to find him, if I stopped searching, there would be no hope.
He's, gone.
I felt darkness consume me and I waited for unconsciousness to drag me under. He's Gone.
That was it. My life was over. He was… Gone. The emotion that devoured me was over whelming. Everything began to spin as the darkness enveloped me mercifully. I felt myself collapse.
I woke what seemed like only seconds later, but the sky had been covered. I think. I couldn't see anything. The clouds could have just done a good job of covering up the sun. Of course it had. Covered up my son. My beautiful angel was gone. I felt tears running down my cheeks, and a burning pain inside my chest, I couldn't breath. Soon enough aching sobs were ripping through my chest. Leaving me shaking pitifully on the wet cold ground. Wet, cold. The two things I had before hated with such a passion had become my life. The wetness of my home, and the coldness of my only sun. I felt so cold and weak.
Something was suddenly hovering over me. I think it was a person. I couldn't tell, I could barely see at all. I was amazed I could figure that much out. Over the darkness, blurred vision from my tears, and the sobbing. When she spoke her voice took me off guard and I choked.
"Bella." Rosalie bent down and put her hand on my shoulder. I should have shivered, but her cold hand was surprisingly comforting. I didn't understand why she was being so nice, or why she was here. But whatever the reason I didn't want her to leave.
I tried to look up at her, but no matter how many times I wiped the tears from my eyes, new ones came to take their place.
"Bella, sweetheart what happened? Everyone is very worried about you." She was sitting at my head, petting my face.
"R-Rosalie?" I stuttered between sobs.
She pulled me onto her lap carefully. "Bella, what happened?" She pulled me close to her and I could feel her tension. She was obviously only trying to keep me calm until I told her all about… him.
My tears came faster and I could barely breathe between my broken sobs. Something was missing inside of me. I knew what it was. But I couldn't admit it to myself.
"Bella, I understand if you don't want to talk to me. But this is very important. Edward is missing." Then she quickly added an ending to that statement, "And you are obviously very upset." So that's what it was. Well obviously she'd be worried about her brother. I guess putting up with me for a while was worth getting her answers.
"H-he's g-g-gone." I could barely get the words out. I sobbed more loudly now.
"Gone where? Bella please tell me." She pleaded.
"He doesn't want me." I could feel the darkness closing in on me again. But it hesitated as sudden motion startled me. I was still in her arms, but she wasn't on the ground anymore. We were moving. Fast. Through the trees. I've never experienced a better thrill than being carried by a Vampire.
"It's alright Bella. You'll be fine." She hugged me closer.
How could she say that? She never knew what it was like to lose the one you loved. My soul, my whole life was taken away from me all in the same minute. I was left with a hole where my heart should have been. I was broken.
It seemed like hours, but what could only have been minutes, before we broke through the trees and into a large clearing.
"Bella!" I heard a deep familiar voice call. I looked up into Jacob's eyes. His shaking hands grabbed me and ripped me out of Rosalie's arms. "Bella! Are you ok?" He was hysterical.
"I'm fine Jacob." That was nothing but a lie. He obviously didn't fall for it. He knew me better than that.
"Bella, what happened?" He looked on the verge of tears. I must have looked awful.
Sobs began chewing me apart yet again. I shook nastily and Jacob held me tighter to him chanting what was meant to be comfort into my ear.
A bunch of men and women emerged from the other side of the trees. I recognized some of them. Mr. and Mrs. Newton were there, and some of the Quileute boys, Charlie, and the most beautiful of them all, Carlisle.
"Bella! Bella! What happened to you?!" I heard Charlie scream.
"She's fine, I don't think she's hurt. The blood- Rosalie Cullen found her." Jacob reluctantly handed me to my hysterical father.
Carlisle walked with him to my house. Jacob followed silently behind them, closely followed by Rosalie.
I didn't realize we were home until I felt a soft surface beneath me, which turned out to be the couch.
Carlisle was kneeling beside me. "Are you hurt Bella? What happened to you?" He had my hand and was carefully checking my pulse. Rosalie hovered over my head with a flash light and was checking to see if my pupils were properly dilated. I couldn't cry any more. I was empty.
"I'm, I'm, very tired. I want to go to bed now." I said sitting up slowly. As I stood I waited for my head to clear, when it didn't I took a careful step only to find the floor swirling up at my face. Three pairs of hands were suddenly on me. And all at the same time I heard two people saying that they'd help me upstairs. In the end it was Jacob who helped me.
I woke up in the dark. There was something cold on my forehead. When I opened my eyes it disappeared, and I saw beautiful topaz eyes staring down at me.
The light flicked on. I sat up before I could be consumed by my pain. Two cold arms wrapped around me. "How are you Bella?" Rosalie asked me quietly. I didn't answer. She sighed, "I'm not supposed to be here, if Edward finds out he'll rip my head off." She didn't notice me wince at his name. "We're supposed to leave you alone."
"He broke his promise." I whispered, I closed my eyes and leaned into her. After a few minutes she stiffened and moved in front of me. Three huge teenage boys launched themselves through my window.
"Get away from her!" I heard Jacob hiss, trying to be quiet and not wake Charlie.
"If you touch her I'll rip your head off mutt." Rosalie hissed back.
"Jake, calm down." I mumbled hoping I hadn't hurt his feelings. I had to keep Rosalie with me as long as possible, she was all I had left of, him. I noticed Jared and Sam hovering by the window. Cautiously Jacob moved towards me and my hostile Vampire 'friend'. He sat carefully down beside me on my bed. He reached his arm out for me and I moved around Rosalie to him. He wrapped both arms around me and kissed the top of my head, I snuggled into his warm chest, for the first time feeling whole. I didn't want to move, but I had no choice when Rosalie hissed at the boys to get out so Charlie wouldn't freak.
"You smell bad." She murmured.
"Thanks, that's a first I've heard that from a Vampire."
"No, I mean, you smell like them." I thought Jacob smelled good. I sighed. "You should eat, do you want anything in particular?" She asked.
"No, I'm not hungry." I said into my pillow.
"Ok then, I'll pick something." She was back in seconds. "Cereal. Eat." She shoved it at me as I tried to sit up. I managed to pick at it for a while. She hesitated. "Bella?"
"Yea?" I answered cautiously. I dropped the spoon into the half empty bowl.
"I need to leave. Edward will kill me, no exaggeration, if I don't." I froze. "I won't be gone long. I'll tell Alice not to look for me, and I'll tell everyone I'm hunting. I'll come back in a few days." She shook my shoulder trying to relax my unmoving stance. "I'm going to have to ask you to stay out of trouble though." She looked at me probingly. She was looking for my promise.
"No trouble, come back soon though ok?"
"Ok." She hugged me before leaping from my window. I had to do something, stay out of trouble so she'd be back, and keep my mind off of, him. I showered quickly trying to get rid of the hidden Vampire smell. I grabbed my keys and ran out to my truck.
"Hey Bella." Charlie said from the open door of the cruiser. "How are you feeling?" He stepped towards me.
"I have to go to La Push." I tried to move around him.
"Just one thing Bells, I know you won't want to talk about it, but I need to know. Did he leave you out there alone?"
"It was my fault Dad, he left me right in sight of the house, I tried to follow him. Can I go now? Please?" I could feel myself going to pieces yet again.
"Sure Bells." He kissed my forehead after a quick awkward hug.
I jumped into the cab of my truck and barreled as fast as my old engine would let me, down the highway to the Black's house. It took me all of ten minutes.
Jacob was at the door before I parked. He opened my door and wrapped one arm around me. He didn't say anything, he just held me. I was fine with that. He kept me in one piece. I could breath again. Quil and Embry came up behind him.
"Is Bella here for the celebration?" Embry chimed.
"Shut up Embry." Jacob snapped with unnecessary intensity. Acid leaked into his voice.
"Aw come on, it'll be fun! Take her mind off things." He insisted.
"I doubt it Embry. Now get off my property." He threatened shaking his fist.
"Fine, fine chill." He walked backwards over to his car.
"Hey Bella, are you ok?" Quil asked. That's why I liked Quil, he was always so nice. I nodded a reply before turning my face into Jacob's chest.
"What celebration?" I asked Jacob after his friends left.
"It's nothing, I wasn't going to go." He looked away. "Do you wanna do something?" He asked.
"Like what?"
"I don't know, we could drive down to Port Angelis and see a movie?" He changed his mind when he saw my expression. "Or we could just hang out at my place." He offered.
"Sure Jake."
"A party? And we're not invited?" Paul said behind Jake. These boys, always appearing out of nowhere, one after another like they live off of some movie script.
"Can we come?" Jared asked sarcastically.
"Sure why not?" Jacob said shrugging. "We were just gonna hang out anyway."
"Don't expect us to not come." Paul said flashing his sparkly white teeth. Jake rolled his eyes and I smiled slightly. Jared noticed, his own grin widened.
That was probably the longest chapter I've written. Ooh what's going on with Jared and Bella? I just want to put in that none of the Quileute boys have Imprinted yet. Haha Did Jared Imprint on her? Nah, we would have noticed that already. R&R please!!