Chapter 2

Jared and Kim

Jared. My life, my lover. He' s perfect in every single way. The only problem is that our relationship is one sided, on my side. I don't even think he's ever said a word to me?

Oh gee shocker there. He thinks your some dork. I can't stand that voice. It just puts down my dreams.

I sat down. I love Mr. Green, not as much as I love Jared but I love him because he gave us assigned seats and I sit beside Jared. Aren't I just the luckiest girl in the whole wide world?

I bet Mr. Green's math classes are fun and maybe, maybe sometimes interesting. But I can never pay attention because I'm always thinking of Jared.

"Kim!"

Oh crap did he just call my name? umm yeah idiot he wants you to answer the question.

I just looked at him like a complete idiot trying to figure out if what he asked.

"125" I would recognize that voice even if I was underwater.

"125!" I stated before even thinking about it.

"Nice job Kim that's correct."

I sighed letting out the breath I was holding in.

Jared told me the answer. He told me the answer!

I turned around to give him a thankful smile. But he just forgot I was there and started to talk to his friend Ryan.

Of course he's going to forget you. You're a nobody! Ow now that hurt. I can somehow feel the truth in those words.

The rest of the day was uneventful. Anna knew something was wrong but waited for me to say it. When I didn't she tried but went nowhere with it.

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When I got home I went straight to my room. I looked at myself in the mirror.

Eww. My hair frizzes up in the rain.

My eyes are way too close to each other and their tiny.

My lips are to full.

My complexion is an ugly russet brown version. It's not nearly as good as Brittney's or Samantha's.

My hair was okay I mean it was long, jet black and silky. My sister Claudia won't let me straighten or curl my hair with her things so I'm stuck with it in a ponytail or leave it out.

I started to critise my body. and gave up knowing that I'm never going to stop I went to go take a long hot shower. The hot water calms my tense muscles.

I got out and went to my room.

I dressed in my most comfortable PJ's not caring if it was only 5pm. I brushed my hair getting all the knots out before I do anything else.

After the biggest struggle in my life just to get my hair to look descent.

"Dinner!" my mom has this thing with us having a "family" dinner. She just can't accept that are family is slowly falling apart.

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Ugh! Fish again if she serves us fish ever again I think I might puke. I am more than positive that I have a phobia of fish now.

My dad was about to dig in until my mom slapped his hand and said "Say grace!" my dad moaned. "Dear God we thank you for the blessed food you have given us, and letting us remember that were more fortunate than other families with this meal. Amen" he said it rushed. Man he must be hungry.

After dinner I walked to the grocery store, it's only a few blocks away, and nothing ever happens in La Push.

I went in and went straight to the back of the store in the frozen aisle. Got the jumbo size of strawberry ice cream, and went to the cashier, who might know my mom. Wait hold that thought this town is so small everybody knows my mom. The cashier whose name escapes my mind looked like she wanted to talk to me after I handed her the cash but I just said "thank you" and got out as fast as I can walking.

When I got home my mom was in her bedroom and my dad was in his office reading or something. And Claudia was in her room probably painting her nails, reading 17 magazine and listening to her iPod.

My mom left me alone in the living room after about 3 minutes.

I walked to the DVD collection. And picked out the Notebook.

I placed it in the DVD player and let the previews play, while I was in the kitchen getting the ice cream I bought and a spoon.

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The credits came on. I was crying and there was no more ice cream.

10:30 pm I should really get started on my homework. I turn off the TV and DVD player and get my bag and go to my room.

I put my iPod on its docking station and pressed play. I started to do the math homework Mr. Green assigned us, and did the best I could.

When I was done it was midnight . I went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. Then put my hair in a ponytail.

I went to bed and just started to think of Jared and drifted off into a dreamless slumber.