JACOB POV

My heart jumped when I saw my Nessie, beautiful, charming, and safe entering angel like to the room. After Nessie was next to me, safe……….I felt extremely happy……..and I knew that, while we existed, I would be imprinted on her.

Seeing her again had produced me such a happiness that I treasured every second of my life that she was in to, and by itself, my mind wandered through every minute with Nessie, when I was her brother, her friend, and my mind stopped in the day Nessie realized she loved me……

I stood up excited, it was her 5 year old birthday, and she was just coming back from visiting Denali clan for a month, I was waiting anxiously for 1 pm to arrive .I didn´t care being just her best friend, for me, she was everything, and I couldn´t wait to see her again .I had wrapped a picture of us made up a puzzle, a giant brown teddy wolf, flowers, and a handmade collar for her. I had everything ready, in my desktop, and I was lying in bed, the thought was making me sleepy, maybe like that time would move faster. The clock seemed to advance slowly just to upset me.

Suddenly, some scratching woke me up; it was Leah, impatient at my window. I threw the window a pillow, but she scratched louder.-Shut up Leah!-I yelled, but she only scratched louder. When I turned to her direction she turned her snout to the clock. It marked 12:30, I jumped out the bed, showered, perfumed, and wore an entire casual outfit to receive her, since, nobody would believe someone going out on shorts to the airport during fall.

I rode my rabbit as fast as it could go, I ran to grab a seat in front of the door on which she was supposed to arrive. Her presents filled two more chairs, and some people "waved at me" or wished me "a good day" for that, but I didn´t care ,since I was sure that she loved this kind of attentions, she was so spoiled.

-Oh Jacob!-she yelled when I reached her view, she ran towards me and wrapped me in her arms, but his time, it felt different, it felt like a wave of electricity through our bodies, the way she was hugging me changed, she grabbed my neck –I realized that, I love you- she whispered, and then, the rest of the world was unimportant to us, and we kissed, for the first time, passionately, her unique smell started impregnating in all my skin, we came closer and I hugged her even tighter, the clock had seemed to stop for us, and all we could see, hear or focus in was in the other and in this passionate endless love we both felt now, and from that moment on, we weren´t able to separate again, until Edward´s –ugh-was heard behind us, and from that moment on I was no longer her best friend, now I really was her soul mate.

Something woke me up from my trance, it was the young male bloodsucker, pointing in my direction, and I started listening his words, in the start, I didn´t understood, but suddenly words got more and more meaningful, I shivered inside me, and I wanted to run away with my Nessie before she kept listening, but my own body stopped me, it was grounding me by forbidding me to move, because even I knew that this had to happen, but both of us were stupid, and lend the chance of saying it go, without thinking about it, but in our minds we would always carry the remembers of when we thought it.

-Aro, do you mind?-he asked, and that mentioned Aro walked in my direction, Bella bent her head and I felt her yield out of my head, the bloodsucker leaned and grabbed my left paw, I closed my eyes and I covered my snout with my paws, I didn´t want to see anything, least Nessie, that seconds ago was watching carefully the scene Volturis made up, I knew they´d planned all this since they kidnapped her, and this was their last move.

-Well, that´s undeniable, he loved her, so much, and she seemed to correspond him for whiles, especially when you came to us, dear Edward- Aro finally said, Nessie opened her eyes wide like plates, she blushed with fury, -Stop lying at me, STOP IT!-she yelled, pretty loud, I covered my face even more, I didn´t wanted to see if she was talking to me, I felt how my eyes were starting to cover with tears, and I couldn´t make a sound ,move, reply, nothing, I was blocked in fear & pain.

- It is true, and you should know it was fair for her to know someday, you just couldn´t keep this from her during all the eternity, and if I was her, I would´ve liked knowing-the fucking blonde said, stupid blonde! Why did she say that? I knew she despited me the way I despite her, but didn´t she realize she was harming Bella too by saying that kind of things.

I sighted my eyes in Nessie, who blushed another 3 more tones, -What? You are a big pair of liars, how could you do this to me? This is unbelievable!, and YOU! Stupid mutt, go and look for another idiot that believes on your stupid imprinting, because I´m not the idiot that gives up on every stupid lie you say, you both are the worst creatures in the world, and dad, you are way more masochistic that of what I ever imagined, you leave my mom without caring about her, well maybe that wasn´t such a big mistake, she had a dog to lick off hear tears, you guys really make up a great team your secrets were the best kept secrets in the history of secrets on Earth ,oh and just to establish my point, I don´t want to see their faces again, never!-she yelled in our direction, painfully, I hated hurting her like that, I didn´t care about myself in that moment, all I wanted was to run to her side and sooth the pain reflected in her eyes, but again I was blocked, and I realized I wasn´t punishing myself, the young bloodsucker was doing this to me, and I knew I deserved it, and I felt so stupid, I was hurting my Nessie, I had destroyed her life, and by immediate reaction, my life too, without counting Bella and all the Cullens, that now were suffering because I´d had an stupid crush on stupid Bella!!!

Before I breathed again my Nessie had left the room, running out to a place I would never find, I was sure of that, and that stupid young bloodsucker ran after her, how could he dare to try to go comfort her if this was his fault?

I tried to run after them, but the blonde Volturi stopped me, and she gave one of her pain shots, which burned to my last fiber.

After that we left the castle in a second, without saying anything else. When I recovered I felt fury, I was blaming him and Bella for something I´d done, and for things I didn´t say, but now it was too late, I´d lost Nessie forever, and the more I tried to blame others, the more I realized it had been my fault, nobody´s else. I stared at the Barbie, that seemed to be pleased by the recent events, because she stared at me, she wasn´t smiling, but I could feel the happiness and satisfaction in her facial factions, while she sat calmed at the van.

-Rosalie Hale, how could you do this to ME!?-Bella yelled furiously, I could see a red flame in her eyes from outside the van, my wolf eyes captured everything.-It wasn´t to you, it was to him-she replied calmly pointing me,-Didn´t you realize you involved me in all this too?-Bella yelled again, but the Barbie had no reply for that.

I stopped following the van, I didn´t want to see them anymore, I didn´t want their accusations, and I didn´t want them to blame them, and now nothing tied me to them, and I had more important boundaries, like my pack, that depended on me to be a pack.

I kept running, awesome I had no clothes; I thought about it and decided I was going to steal some of a hunter I found in the way. I felt lost, if I didn´t have Nessie, my life was empty, I had nothing to hold on to keep living, to keep making an effort to be good at anything, my pack was the only reason to stand and not jump from a cliff, wait, that isn´t such a bad idea, see any cliff around?

BELLA POV

When we arrived to our new house, if you can now call it a house, it looked totally different. A big whole opened wherever you looked, you could see Nessie eating in the kitchen; hear her laughing in the living room, jump at the sofa, rise in the window, read in the empty room, she was here only a couple days, but now we were back and we knew she was lost forever, she left a piece of her in every part of the house. I felt so guilty, if I´d just told her before, she would be here right now, making my life sunny and bright.

I started to cry, well to do my poor vampiric imitation of a cry. Edward came to hold me tight,-It´s not your fault, don´t blame yourself-he whispered in my ear, while he kissed my forehead.-Edward, it does be my fault, I should´ve told her since the start, I know her, I can imagine the terrible things she thinks of us right now-I replied, how could he say it wasn´t my fault?

-Well, if you insist n seeing things like that, love, then see that then it isn´t only your fault-he said, as it remarking it to Rosalie, and to Jacob if he was here.-Then what are you insinuating, that it´s Jacob´s fault? Or Rosalie´s?-I asked. This was the first time in my whole life I was mad at Edward.

-No I don´t think that way, but in case I´d have to choose, I choose option number 2 of 3 please-he replied at my question .He couldn´t blame Jacob, he was only another victim , he had always been just my victim, my best friend and my own personal victim.

-It´s my fault, and if it isn´t mine, the it´s nobody´s fault Edward, you´re all my victims, specially Jacob, can´t you realize it?-I asked, angrily. How could he blind enough no to see it, since I met them I only made them suffer one time after another.

He denied with his head, and then he hugged me, trying to be persuasive, as usually.-I won´t discuss it with you-I said, he agreed, and we both stared at the window, I was wondering what had been of my poor daughter, I couldn´t even imagine her alone, in the rough human world, mixed up in the danger of myth creatures one. I sat at the couch, and let the emptiness of the night make my sadness grow.

When it was about 7 am Carlisle asked for permission to miss the school´s Doctor´s Office today, and he was given. I spend the day the same way I spent the night, until it was 1:15 pm, something made me pretty upset

I heard Rosalie turn on the TV and move on with her life normally. She changed channels one after another, 12 times all the channels, how could she behave like that?

-Listen Rosalie, if you´re waiting for a TV show named "I´m Nessie and I´m here " well, I´m sorry to announce you aren´t going to find it, so better move on and do SOMETHING!-I yelled at her, sick of her arrogant behavior. She didn´t say anything, she just stood up and got out, where I saw her take giant ice cubes and throw them making them 10000 of little ice pieces. I got out and stood up in front of her. She raised an eyebrow, quite threatening as she usually is.-Don´t blame me, blame yourself or the mutt, I have nothing to do with this-she said, clearly blowing me off. She was really asking, supplicating me to hurt her.

I walked toward her and faced her face to face, -It does be your fault, you shouldn´t have told her, but you did, and you ruined our lives, happier now Rosalie? Because you always said you loved her, but just look at how much you harmed her, I´m never going to forgive you, NEVER!- I yelled at her, hoping to open her eyes and make her see the damage she´d done, just by talking, then, I flogged the door and ran to Edward´s side.

-Calm down, you shouldn´t have spoken to Rosalie like that!-he said, trying to make me laugh.-I know, I know, I just couldn´t hold it in anymore-I replied. He kissed my forehead and we both sat at the couch, he hummed my lullaby, it calmed me, even though it no longer made me sleep.

-You have to move on, really, because you can no longer go to the Volturis to suicide-Tanya said, when Carlisle called her to ask for Nessie. She was right, but moving on was just so hard. It was harmful facing the idea of never seeing of knowing of your daughter in your whole life.

Suddenly some steps were approaching the house and the bell rang, Carlisle opened friendly