Chapter 12

Sorry I haven't updated in forever, but I've had class and I'm getting hammered with homework, and to top it off my internet was working and I wrote this chapter out, but then I lost everything when my computer began to act stupid, so I wrote it again, sorry for the delay. Oh and thanks to everyone who reviewed, I got 31. Yes! (:

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It was Sunday morning. The last day of the weekend then I have to go to school. Isn't that perfect?

Today I'm going to have my first date, I'm so nervous. Technically you already had your first date, so it's just you're first REAL boyfriend. That voice in my head is so annoying. It's still mind boggling that I have been putting up with this for 16 years.

Well last year and you came to my house on a Sunday morning I won't be here, I would be in Forks at the church, since my mom is weird but she gave up on that when Claudia and I stopped waking up and just went with dad.

I woke up around 10 am. I made my way downstairs and got out a bowl of Captain Crunch. I went to the living room and turned on the t.v. watching some old reruns of Tom and Jerry.

I couldn't help but let my mind stray back to Friday night, I think that could have been the best night of my life. I have a real boyfriend, and I had my first kiss and to top everything off i was totally making out with Bradley. I never thought something can change in a matter of a glance.

The day went by fast. I was just lying on my stomach on my bed listening to music. And I could help but get the feeling I'm being watched, I think I'm going crazy because any other normal person would totally call the cops but not me, I think it puts me at ease when I feel like this. I looked at the clock 6:00 pm.

Shit. I looked down and I looked like crap. I went up to my mirror and started to brush my hair, and put it up in a sloppy pony tail. All of my good clothes were in the wash. And I have old shreds of my old wardrobe still.

I got out a shirt that had a monster on it and said I live in your closet (I have a shirt like that.(: ) and put on some worn down jeans I looked at myself in the mirror and I didn't look the slightest bit attractive, but Bradley won't care right? You keep telling you self that. I gave that voice a mental eye roll.

I applied mascara, and I heard a knock on the door.

I ran down the stairs and answered the door. And had a smile on my face which dropped when I looked him in the eye

"Hi Kim." What is Jared doing at my door?

"Hi" I replied and gave him one of my dirtiest looks I could muster up. I hate the fact that I have to look up. His face looked sad and he looked tired and worn out almost like my jeans, but worse, much worse. It hurt me to see him like that I was about to hug him and tell him everything was going to be alright, but then I remembered he ditched me.

"Why can't you just leave me alone, I got the hint on Friday." I told him he looked angry, but I could tell it wasn't because of me. Then I saw him shaking. I know you've liked him for like ever, but you have Bradley now, and he can be some psycho path.

"I'm really sorry; I can't even describe to you how sorry I am." He told me. There was defiantly guilt and regret in his words. I wanted to forgive him but I can't.

"Well; sorry my ass. I never thought you would do that and look at what you do." Pain was all over his face. I so badly wanted to hug his huge figure and tell him everything is going to be okay. But I didn't.

"You have to go. I have a date tonight." I said putting as much venom I can in the word date.

He started to shake, real bad, he was starting to blur. "Are you okay?" I ask him reaching out to him touching his arm, and his shaking subsided a bit. "I have to go" he told me and ran of my porch and into the forest. "Jared!" I yelled before the forest and devour him. He turned around. He looked like a wreck, how he can look so bad when he looked just fine a few seconds ago. "It's dangerous in there, you might think I'm crazy but there's these giant wolf that are in there!" He laughed but it didn't reach his eyes. "Don't worry about me, I'll be fine." He smiled at me. I somehow was able to melt with that smile. How is that possible aren't I supposed to be mad at him? "But…" I was going to deny that but he was long gone. I closed the door and turned on MTV waiting for Bradley.

8:00 pm, when is Bradley coming. I even fixed my makeup and now the Real World is coming on. I went upstairs and took off my makeup. Then the doorbell rang. I ran downstairs to answer it.

I opened the door to see Bradley standing there.

"Hey! Bradley what took you so long?" Then he looked angry; I didn't know what to do.

"What?" I asked. "I saw you talking to that other dude, he was close to you." He must have saw me and Jared I didn't even know we were that close to each other it just felt natural to me. But of course I'm not going to tell Bradley that.

"So I'm guessing dinner's off because you are way too jealous for my liking!" I yelled at him. How dare he, I'm no cheater. "I guess it is. Friday I saw something." Then he looked at me in disgust. Then I remember I wasn't wearing makeup right now, did he only like me because I was wearing makeup! This got me angry. "What did you see?! Because quite frankly I saw the Bradley I remember I guess California changed you. Oh and I think the thing that disgusts you is me wearing no makeup!" I was beyond pissed there isn't a word that could describe how mad I was. "Oh so you're putting all the blame on me, you're the one whose acting like a slut to the first good looking guy you see. And sorry that you are more attractive with makeup on, but the Kim I talked to and kissed was vulnerable and loving, but not anymore you're just some big old bitch!" I was fuming and shut the door in his face. How dare he! What an ass! I think he might be gay. The voice tried to comfort me but it just made it worse.

I ran upstairs looked out of the hall window and saw that he was driving away. I ran to my room and cried.

I heard my phone vibrating. I looked at it. It's text message.

Unknown number: R u OK?

Who the heck is this? I dunno maybe some stalker. I'm not worth stalking. Yes you are because if you're not worth stalking then that means I'm not worth stalking. That voice is so, self centered. I copied the number down and texted back: Who the heck r u?

I put down my cell phone and to change in my P.J's , my eyes are red and puffy from my crying.

I used to be love drunk but now I'm hung over. My phone was ringing. I looked at the number it was the same number that texted me. Should I answer it? Well no duh.

"Hello?"

"Hi. Kim. It's me Jared." How did he get my number?

"Oh. Hi." There was a silence for a few seconds but it was awkward.

"Jared how did you get my number? And why are you asking if I'm okay?"

"Oh…Uh …. I got your number from Anna. Well at around 8 I was going to come over to your house and tell you how much of an ass I was." I can hear him taking deep breathes right now. "And well, Kim I heard you yelling. Then I heard him call you a slut and a bitch." He sounded like he was going to beat him up.

"Jared don't worry about it. Okay. We had something but that is long gone."

"I don't know, Kim you sound like you were crying." "Uh...Well, I was it hurt, a lot I've never been called a bitch or a slut, maybe because nobody notices me but it hurt." I can feel the tears coming in again. "Don't worry about it; those were lies so he can feel better about himself." I was crying and that just made me smile. "Do you want to come over? I mean Claudia is at some sleep over and my parents are in Seattle for the weekend, and since I haven't ate anything I can order pizza." I can't believe I just asked him that, stupid, stupid brain. You know you can't resist him he's huge and did you see his muscles imagine how big his… I don't want to think about that.

"Um... I guess I can I'll be over in about 5 minutes." He accepted, wow I must have done something right.

"Okay, I'll order the pizza when you get here."

"'Kay see you." And the line went dead.

I must have been hyperventilating, and I don't even know why, I can't have any feelings for him. Then why did you invite him over? Then I heard the door bell. I looked at myself in the mirror crap I'm in my P.J's and I look like crap. Who cares?

I answered the door and there was Jared, looking mysterious, sexy, with his hair wet making him look dangerous. I shake my head, I'm not supposed to be thinking like that, and I scolded myself.

"Hi" he said. He looked dangerous and that made him look adorable his eyes were beautiful, when he was nervous. "Stupid thoughts" I muttered to myself. "Excuse me?" he asked looking confused. Damn it I said that out loud. "Nothing." Then I realized that he's still outside. "Oh sorry, you should come in."

He stepped in. "So what would you like to have on the pizza?" I asked since I promised I was going to, well I didn't promise but I said I was. "What type do you like?" "I like Hawaiian pizza, but you're the guest so you should choose."

"Well I like Hawaiian, so I'm fine with that." "What size and how many?" I asked. "Uh… 3 Large." Okay man I think I could only eat the tops of 5 slices.

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We were watching America's next top model, when the bell rang. "Yes, pizza's here." "Yes, finally!" me and Jared were making fun of some of the girls on the show. I answered the door laughing and had the money in my hand. "Kim" I looked at him. It was Bradley. Oh that's just great. "What do you want? Because last thing I remember is you calling me a bitch." "Kim, babe I'm sorry about that I was mad." I can't believe he's doing this. "What are you doing here?" Bradley asked I looked behind me, and saw that Jared was here. "Kim what is he doing here. Hey your living up to the words I called you earlier. I'm sorry if I'm interrupting something. Kim I never knew you'd go and fucking sleep with him!" that hurt a lot. I felt a teardrop go down my face, and before I could process what was happening I slapped him. All of a sudden Jared wrapped his arms around my waist and started to comfort me. It felt like we were made for each other. See, I told you. I didn't just think that. And more tears kept on falling.

Jared turned me around so I was facing him. "Kim stop crying you should cry for him his worthless." And he wiped away my tears with his thumb. "You know I heard you" Bradley said. "Leave, or I'll make you sorry for moving back to La Push." And with that Jared shut the door. I went and sat on the couch. I couldn't stop crying. I hugged Jared, just glad he was here. He was drawing small circles on my back to soothe me, which worked. He didn't even care if I was ruining his shirt. I stopped crying, finally after 10 minutes.

"I'm sorry about that." I said pointing at his shirt. He just laughed.

"Don't worry about it, it doesn't matter."

"Thanks, I mean it; you're not like other guys."

"I can't believe I kissed him" I mumbled

Then Jared started to shake. I put my hand on his arm "Jared are you okay?"He stopped and the doorbell rang. "Yeah" he muttered. "I'll get the door" I brought my money with me. I opened the door. "3 Large Hawaiian Pizza." The guy said. He was blonde with blue eyes, most likely from Forks. "Thank you." "That would be $31.50." I gave him $40. "You can keep the change." I told him and smiled at him, then closed the door.

"Jared the pizza is here." I put it on the table.

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I didn't know a person could get that much. I had a bit of the first pizza and he ate all my left over's and ate 2 whole pizzas.

"Wow, you eat a lot."

"What can I say, I'm a growing boy." He said smiling at me. All of the earlier events long behind us.

Then a question popped up in my head."Jared on Friday you asked me out, and I waited for an hour but you never showed up, and that's how I saw Bradley and yeah… What happened?"

"I'm sorry about that truly I am... I was going but then my boss called me and made me go to work even though I started a few hours later. And my boss is strict so I didn't have time to go tell you. You can even ask Paul."

"Oh" that seems reasonable I can't believe I was so mad at him when he just had to work.

I threw out all of the trash, and went back to watch TV with Jared. He started to ask me simple questions like what was my favorite color and I asked the same. We then fell easily in conversation this is going to turn into something more, I just don't know what.

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Sorry I haven't updated, but my teachers aren't letting me slack, so yeah I'll try to post chapters up as soon as possible but it's a bit hard so I don't really know when they're going to be up.

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~Kelly