Disclaimer: Body to body. Skin to skin. I don't own it so don't turn me in.

Author's note: I know I said I would update yesterday but ff is playing up for me. Does anyone know why it won't let me upload chapters?

BPOV

That week proceeded as normal. I went to work, came home, ignored Jacob (my boyfriend), and went to bed. I am such an ungrateful cow. Jacob was hot, loved me and had an ok sized cock. I mean I wasn't going to do much better. I knew I was pretty I got told often enough but I wasn't anything special. It's just that he was so annoying sometimes and he had the worst habit ever he always farts just after he comes. How off putting is that. I knew I would never find the perfect man because I had had him and lost him but really could I ever be happy? Or would I only ever be just OK? Jacob deserved better, he deserved someone to love them with their whole heart. So it was Friday and I had planned a dinner and was going to break up with Jacob. As I was standing in the kitchen I was suddenly hit with déjà vu. I felt like I had already been in the same position before but instead of hoping for the future I was destroying it. Jacob played for the Arizona Diamondbacks with Phil that is actually how we met and how was due home any second. I mentally gave myself a pep-talk. OK Bella you can do this. Remember it's not working out, you don't feel a spark, you just want to be friends.

"Hi I'm home" called Jacob from the hallway. Oh shit. Oh God. I can't do this. I can't break his heart. Oh my God I think I'm going to throw up I'm so nervous.

"I'm in the kitchen" I replied. He came into the kitchen and gave me a kiss on the cheek. "Why don't you sit down while I serve dinner, we need to talk"

"Yeah I wanted to talk to you too"

"OK" I said as I put the plates on the table. "You go first."

"Well I think we should take a break for a little while" I almost choked when I heard that. I was not expecting that. Oh my shit. If he says he wants to fuck other people I am going to die.

"Why?" I manage to choke out.

"You are just so emotionally vacant. I love you. You know that but I don't think you love me. I mean you can't even say it." That part was true ever since Edward left I can't say it. It gives people too much power to hurt you. Oh well at least I haven't got to break up with him now.

"I understand Jacob, I really do. I am sorry that I can't say it. I want to but I just can't."

"Well how about you give me a call when you figure out what you want. I will wait for you to call one way or the other. I should probably move out huh."

"No don't be silly Jake; this is more your apartment then it is mine. I'll go stay with Mike for a little while, just until I figure things out."

"OK I'm going to head out while you pack some stuff up. I'll see you soon. I love you." With that he left. First things first call Mike.

"Hello" Mike sang into the phone.

"Hey it's Bella"

"What's going on hooker?"

"Well first of all of I'm a hooker you are my pimp. Second of all me and Jake split and I need a place to crash for a while."

"Oh baby girl are you alright? Why did you split? Is Jake alright? Is he still there? Do you want me to kick his ass?"

"Question overload. Yes I'm alright. I'm emotionally vacant. He seems alright. No he is gone and you couldn't kick his ass. He is huge and plays baseball."

"Alrighty then we will start from the beginning. Of course you can come over, I'll come pick you up and help you pack. The reason you are alright after a break up of a yearlong relationship is that you are emotionally vacant when it comes to men. Straight men anyway. I very seriously doubt Jacob is alright, that boy loves the shit out of you and I wouldn't personally kick his ass. I am not the butch in my relationships. I would get someone else too."

"No it's fine don't get one of your bitches to kick his ass just come and get me so we can go home and get drunk and eat ice cream."

"I'm on my way sugar."

Author's note: Again sorry for the delay. If you have any comments, questions or suggestions let me know. Thanks for reading.