Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the books. If I did they would not be suitable for children.

Author's note: I want to thank my fantastic Beta CullenxVamp. I'm sorry for not updating sooner but FF would not let me upload chapters again.

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BPOV

How much did I drink last night? Even my teeth are aching. God damn Mike and his vodka gel-lo and vodka milkshakes. He is very creative when it comes to vodka. I haven't felt this bad since my first college frat party. Me and Edward got invited and thought it would be fun. Of course he disappeared with some guys he met, playing football in the yard. Guy's were just handing me drinks, as soon as I had finished one I would have another in my hand. By the time Edward came back inside an hour and a half later. I was passed out on the couch; while some drunken frat boy tried to feel me up or so I am told. Edward punched frat boy in the face, picked me up and took me back to my apartment. The hangover I woke up with lasted for three days. I didn't drink again for nearly a year I think this will rival that party, I was so fucked up out of my mind that night, I almost swore off anything with alcoholic for life! I am certainly not remembering a lot from last night. I have a flash of an image. Me and Mike singing along to the Spice Girls using dildos as microphones. Oh dear God. I really hope I am imagining that; I wouldn't be the least surprised if we actually broke something. I laid there for about ten minutes before I had to bolt to the bathroom, fuck me. I think I threw up everything I had eaten or drunk in the last week. I emerged an hour later to find Mike asleep on the dining room table. He was wearing a Geri Halliwell British flag dress. Now where the hell did he get that? I look around at the apartment and let me tell you it is trashed. It looks like a frat house the morning after a party. I am not even going to attempt to clean the way I feel right now I will just throw which would add to the mess. Why did I get so was wasted again? Oh yes, Edward. I must say maybe it was a mistake to talk to Mike about it. His answer whenever I am upset is to get me drunk. When Edward first dumped me, OK that was more me than him but still. When I broke up with Jake and now every time. Perhaps it's time I called in my girls. Though it may be a tad awkward seeing as Alice is his sister and Rose will be his sister in law but they are my best friends and maybe they will be able to look at this subjectively because they know us both. Mike just wants to remove Edward's balls with a spoon. I kind of do too maybe I can hit him hard enough on the head to make him stop being such an ass.

By noon they were at Mike's apartment I was feeling much too rough to leave the apartment today. Mike still hadn't moved but I did check his pulse and he has one so I am not too worried. I let them in and led them to what was the living room under the empty bottles of vodka, jack, beer and some German shit that I had no idea what it was. Fuck how much did I drink? Shit last number I can think of is eight; no wonder I threw up for an hour. "So what's up Bella?" asked Alice as she surveyed the apartment.

Before I could answer Rose cut in "did you and Mike have a party last night and not invite us?" she asked.

"No, it was just me and Mike, I think" I said, I really couldn't rule out the possibility of no one else being there.

"Christ Bella how are you not in the ER right now for alcohol poisoning getting your stomach pumped?" asked Alice incredulously.

"I have developed a high tolerance" I said even though I was wondering the same thing now that she mentioned it.

"You drunk more than me, Alice, Jazz and Em could drink put together. Where is your partner in crime?" asked Rose.

"On the dining table" I replied simply, like I said it every day. They both looked to where the dining table was situated and burst out laughing. Now that the hangover had waned a little I notice that Mike looked like a drag queen with the amount of makeup he had on. Bright pink eye shadow, false eyelashes, pink blush and red lipstick. I picked my phone if the coffee table and snapped a picture of him. This was going to be blackmail material for years. They both turned to me when they heard the click of the camera on my phone.

"Why?" Rose asked the same time Alice asked "how?"

"Absolutely no idea. Can't remember a lot of what happened."

"Well what happened for this" gesturing around at the living room "to happen?" Rose asked.

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

Alice chirped in saying "every time you are upset or even have a bad day at work Mike gets you trashed, don't think we haven't noticed, the state on this place it must have been really, really bad."

"It was"

"So what happened hun?" asked Rose.

"I slept with someone" I said really not wanting to tell them who.

"So what is the big deal, I have lost count how many one night stand and flings you have had" Rose said. Well if I didn't feel like a slut before, I did now. Was I that bad?

"This was different" I said.

"How? Who was it?" Alice asked. She had to ask, didn't she?

"Edward" I mumbled hoping by some miracle they didn't hear.

"Edward. As in Cullen?" Rose shouted.

"Yeah" I said as I burst out crying. What were they going to think of me? I couldn't lose them, they were like my sisters. They both rushed over to me and sat on either side of me while hugging me. After cooing in my ear that everything was going to be alright for ten minutes the tears finally stopped.

"Honey you need to tell what happened. I mean where did you see him? What did he say? What did you say? You hated him so how come you slept with him? Did it feel like old times? Was he good?" Alice rushed out in one breath.

"Calm down I will tell you, starting with why he left in the first place" and I did leaving no detail out. I told her what he said when he left me, they didn't know about this and offered to castrate him. I told them of how I thought he was gay and what I told Jessica. I told them of how we saw each other at the club, I told them of how he told me he had changed and wanted to give us another chance. I told them that it was among the best sex I have ever had and then I told them what he said this morning.

"I am going to kill that fucking idiot!!" yelled Rose.

"I am going to tell mom" said Alice. At this I laughed, I can just imagine Esme's reaction to what Edward asked me. Esme had always considered me a daughter just like I had always considered her a mother. She would not put up with anyone disrespecting me, not even her own son, especially her own son she had raised him better than that.

"So how are you feeling about this whole thing?" Alice asked.

"Well I feel worthless, like I am not enough for him, you know? I feel angry at him and angry at myself for giving into him. I am grieving for my Edward, for the love of my life because I feel like he has died. He isn't my Edward anymore he is someone that doesn't care about anything other than getting his pole waxed."

"He is an asshole honey, forget about him." Rose tried to comfort me.

"That's the thing though; I have spent the last three years trying to get over him. Why do you think I slept with all those guys? I just wanted to forget him. I thought I was over him. Then he comes back into my life and within an hour I am in his bed." I was interrupted by a phone ringing. Alice excused herself to answer it. Me and Rose stayed silent while we waited for her to return. When she came back her face showed she was worried.

"What is it Ali?" I asked worried myself.

"It's Edward. He's in hospital."

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