Edward was trying to keep up with me as we were running back to the house, I was thinking that I felt a little more comfortable now.
"So Bella, I don't know I was wondering, if maybe you wanted to hang out here for a tonight, I mean it's kind of lonely back there at the cabin, and well it would give you a chance for everyone to get to know you a little more," Edward said and he looked kind of shy when he asked me this.
I couldn't help but smile at this. Edward was being nice and sweet and I hadn't seen this shy side of Edward before.
I thought things through a little bit, It wouldn't hurt to hang out there would it? I didn't think so. It would only help me gather some more information.
"Sure, I'll hang out I guess," I cracked a smile and he was smiling right along with me.
"Where should I stay, I mean I know there isn't going to be much sleeping going on, but I'd like somewhere to put my stuff," I said as we were getting closer to the house. Some thing was telling me that we should leave now.
Edward stopped before entering the front door.
"What's the matter?" I questioned wondering what had stopped him.
There was a, what was that was that an embarrassed look on his face. "What's the matter Edward, just go in," I ushered for him to enter .
Edward turned to face me.
"I, don't think that we should enter through the front door, I think maybe we should go through my bedroom window, it would be safer that way," I didn't get what he was saying to me.
I made the look on my face that asked him that I had no idea what was going on and for him to explain a little further.
He bent down a little bit to explain this to me.
"Well they all have another mate, and well they kind of like to spend their evenings together if you understand what I'm talking about," Realization clicked in and I was suddenly glad that we were entering through his window, but it wasn't that inviting when there was pounding going on a few rooms down.
Edward and I each picked up a book from his book shelf and began reading. He put some soft music on, but that didn't really help cover up what was going on.
I slowly rubbed my temples and sealed my eyes closed trying to block out the noise. It wasn't working.
"How long do they go at it?" I asked Edward looking back at him.
"Well Carlisle and Esme go about the first part of the night and then Jasper and Alice go through half of the night and well Rosalie and Emmett," Edward cringed. "They go all night long, until the sun comes up, Emmett well he likes to keep things going I guess," Edward shrugged and every time there was a scream that could be heard throughout the house, I would look up at Edward who would be looking down at me and we were thinking the exact same things. These noises didn't just go in one ear and out the other.
Edward and I were still vampires and we still had those strong sexual feelings, but Edward and I didn't get near one another again that night for fear that things would turn out bad.
I stayed on the sofa while Edward lay on his stomach on the floor reading. We were quiet for most of the night lost in our books. I'm glad that it stayed that way.
The sun had come up and Edward and I had just finished our books.
"Well thanks for staying, I'm glad I had some company," I looked away as he stood from his laying position on the floor. He inched closer to me, a little closer than what I was expecting.
"Your welcome Edward, I'll stop by again later this evening if you want me to?" I asked wondering if he'd want me back again.
His face brightened when I mentioned this.
"Yeah sure, my family would be more than happy to have you back here Bella, as would I," He picked up my hand that was laying flat on my hip and brought it up to his mouth.
Edward pressed his cool lips to my hard marble flesh and kissed it like a gentleman would.
I would have been flushed red right about now.
"I'll make plans of coming back," I smiled softly.
Both Edward and I knew that I was changing, something about last night had changed my attitude towards everything. It was as if the old Bella had come out of her shell. I was cold and alone when I lived with Aro and did everything that he wanted me to do and there was very little freedom, but when I was hear with Edward, it was like I was allowed to do whatever I wanted and I didn't have to be punished for it.
Like the night before, I exited the Cullen house hold through Edward's bedroom window landing on the ground with a thud.
I couldn't help but look back up and see the handsome vampire standing there at the window looking down at me with a small smile on his face.
Edward admired me and that was the truth and it didn't really bother me at all.
It was like having a high school sweetheart, except he wasn't really my boyfriend.
I ran through the forest feeling lighter than air, when I ran into something.
"Bella?" This person asked. One sniff of the air, and the sound of his voice I was as stiff and as motionless as possible.
I knew what he was and I wasn't going to let some high of being around Edward let my guard down.
I got down into my defensive stance and hissed at him. I had not a clue who he was personally or how he knew my name, but he was dangerous to my kind.
"What are you doing Bella?" He asked again stepping closer which was a bad idea.
Once he did this he got a scent and took a few steps back. "Bella, don't you remember me, it's me Jacob?" I took another step back and furrowed my brow.
That name rang a bell. How did I know that name. He could tell that I still didn't understand.
"Bella don't you remember me, we were like best friends a long time ago, I thought you were dead, don't you remember I was going there in that parking lot and I was going to save you, but I didn't make it there in time, don't you remember that Bella?" He asked again and I wracked my brain trying to think back that long ago. I can hardly remember anything from my human life.
"Jacob Black?" He asked. He still looked rather stunned, like nothing was making sense to him either.
I thought back to the times in my life when I lived with Charlie and Renee, friends? Who were my friends? Was this Jacob Black my friend? He said he was. I couldn't seem to remember.
"Bella, everyone in Forks thought you were dead, I was devastated. Your dad was crushed and so was your mother, that's why they got the divorce because you weren't here anymore. Your death affected everyone, but the thing I don't understand is why your still alive?" I listened to each and every word and the memories were flooding back.
The facial features of my family members and all my friends and what we used to do.
I kept myself up by holding onto a tree. I couldn't believe how much my death had affected people.
"Oh my God, I didn't know," I covered my mouth quickly thinking about it again.
"Bella, please tell me how your still alive?" Jacob inched closer, this caused me to draw away from him.
He was my enemy and nothing was going to change that.
"I can't you tell Jacob, take in some breath and maybe you'll understand," Jake did exactly that and he about gagged.
"Your one of them," His tone suddenly became angered. He wasn't all sweet and innocent like before. Realization hit him. "Why?" He choked out taking a few steps back.
"It was the only thing that Aro could have done to save me," I spat back feeling the venom form in my mouth.
"Aro, who the hell is that?" Jake closed his eyes and held onto a tree as well, but this time I figured it was for a different reason.
"He's the one who saved my life, and kept me living, you should be thankful that I'm still here," I yelled. I kept my ground, but I was also cautious as to what I was doing besides, Jacob was a werewolf and I couldn't be to careful.
"Your a blood sucker Bella, why should I be thankful?" This kind of stung. He said we used to be friends and here he was being totally mean to me.
"I don't know if I remember being friends with you, why would I be friends with a dog," This got him and he quickly changed into something that I haven't seen in years. I remembered Aro talking about them, but I had never really seen one only in the books that I have and nor have I seen one this close up. I gasped and stepped back a little more, if that was even possible.
He was huge and I wasn't expecting this. I had never fought one before.
Jacob snarled in my face and I just hissed in response.
Just then a few other wolves made their selves known in the area. I was surrounded, dead meat.
"Bella get back!" Behind me the Cullen family stood ready to protect me.
It was Carlisle who spoke.
"Sam, call your wolves off, Bella here didn't mean to cause trouble, she's new here, and well maybe Jacob and them got off to a bad start," Carlisle spoke for me.
I wasn't ready for a war. If there was going to be a fight, sure enough Aro and the rest of the guard would be here within a heart beat. That wasn't needed in the little town of Forks.
The one that Carlisle was talking to changed back to human form and quickly changed. It made communication a lot easier.
"Jacob, did she fight you in anyway?" Sam asked the russet colored wolf. It must have answered because Same spoke to us once more. "We are sorry that this little thing started up, Jake shouldn't have over reacted. We will go now and make sure to keep him on his land," Sam nodded and back away and then finally dashed off into the forest. The rest of the wolves followed him, it was dead silent.
"What was that Jacob doing here anyways?" Carlisle asked mostly to himself.
I couldn't seem to understand that either.
"I don't know, but if he comes back, I'm going to tear his head off," Emmett pounded his fists together.
A soft hand was placed on his chest. "Save it Emmett, he did no damage, let's just forget this all happened and head home," Esme spoke softly.
They turned to me, I was still stunned and couldn't move, why hadn't I done something, I should have acted like a true Volturri, but instead I just stood there like a coward.
The rest of the family ran off, but I felt Edward come up behind me.
"Everything okay Bella?" His smooth hand was placed upon my shoulder, probably trying to help me calm down a little bit.
It really shook me.
"I can't believe I just stood there, I didn't even do anything, he could have tore me to pieces if it wasn't for your family, but me, all I did was stand there like nothing was happening," I said to myself, even though Edward heard every word that I had said.
"It's okay Bella, he took you by surprise, they didn't belong here anyways. You weren't ready for that to happen. Do you want to come back to the house, or would you rather go back to the cabin?" Edward asked me.
It was pretty lonely back there in the cabin, but I felt like a pest if I was there to much.
"I don't know, maybe I shouldn't," I looked down at my feet, and as soon as I looked up I noticed that Edward was a lot closer than I realized.
"Just be at school then," He leaned in and pressed a quick kiss to my forehead before turning and leaving.
My body warmed and I was now missing Edward's presence.
I shook the feelings off and headed back to the tiny cabin.
"Isabella, can I speak to you for a moment?" I heard the voice and I turned. I could place that face anywhere. I just didn't understand what it was doing here in Forks Washington.
"Demetri?" I questioned turning and looking at the figure.
I remembered him clearly. We used to be a thing. Made love every night, talked shared thoughts and loved one another. At least that's what I thought it was, but one day he wasn't the same and he didn't act the same.
He was much more demanding and wasn't as nice. "What are you doing here, in Forks?" I asked as he stepped closer to me out of the shadows. There was a cocky smirk upon his pale white face. The woods around us grew silent and I was not filled with fear this time because I knew of him and I knew what he could do.
"Isabella, how nice to see you once again, it's been to long," That smile on his face never left. It made my stomach turn, before I would have thought it to be cute.
"What do you want Demetri?" I noticed that I was now walking in a circle, we were circling one another like we were about to fight off.
"Well Aro sent me to see how you were doing by yourself, everyone knows that your the favorite and nothing bad can ever happen to Aro's precious little girl," Venom stained his words as he was getting closer.
I hated being called that, it made me feel weak. I knew I was his favorite just by the way he treated me and watched out for me, but I didn't want that. I just wanted to be like everyone else.
"Shut up!" I yelled at him.
"Hum, you haven't changed that much Isabella, still the angry stubborn girl that I fell in love with, you know I still love you, nothing is ever going to change that," Venom was in my mouth now and I wished I could have spit it at him. I hated him for the lies that he was telling me right now.
"You don't love me, you mistaken this emotion for lust, all you ever wanted me for was sex," In one swift movement, I was pinned to the ground unable to move.
"You know what Isabella, I think your right about that, you did have a beautiful body, and I love your hot tempered attitude and I can't believe that you actually believed that I was in love with you,"
I snapped at him, but he quickly pulled his head away. I hated him for this, he was cruel man.
"Get off me!" I yelled struggling against his hold.
"I don't think so, not when I came this far to do this, what Aro doesn't know won't hurt him, besides his little girl has to grow up sometimes," he breathed. I pinched my eyes shut. His strength was superior to mine, there was nothing I could do and Edward wasn't here to save me either.
I stumbled back home with weaker legs and my body feeling a little more tuckered. My hair was a mess on the back of my head, an array of leaves sticking in it, dirt covering my body, my clothes torn to shreds. All dignity lost.
There was nothing that I could have done to save myself.
I had been violated and there was nothing I could do now, it was done and over with.
I turned the warm water on in my bath tub that I was provided with and filled it up a little over half way and disposed myself of my clothes and stepped into the warm bath water. I soaked my stone hard body in the water and relaxed letting the heat take me over.
How could I let something like that take over me. I was Isabella, I was supposed to be stronger.
I wanted to curl up in the corner and die. It wasn't that easy. I knew it wasn't.
I tucked my legs closer to my body. I slowly rest my head on my legs. Tears would not fall. They would never fall.
My body shook and I was taken over with anger.
"Bella," There was a knock at my door and the voice sounded as if it was already halfway into the house.
I gasped and looked down at my nakedness. Edward couldn't see me in this state, but then I was angered that he would just walk into my house uninvited.
"Are you home Bella?" He asked me.
I got out of the tub and pulled my robe up over my body.
I slowly walked out of the bathroom.
"Edward, what are you doing here?" I asked as I held my robe closed. Confused expression crossed over my face. I held onto the wooden door frame in the bathroom.
"Bella, I didn't mean to intervene on your bath, I was just," I stopped him and finished his sentence.
"Concerned about me? Isn't that what you are always doing? Worrying about little Bella, the one who can't protect herself. Well maybe you need to be concerned with someone else because I can take care of myself, I don't need some other vampire helping me," I felt myself breaking down again.
Edward came to my side as I crumpled down onto the ground. I covered my mouth as I gasped for unneeded breath.
"Bella what's the matter, what's wrong, please tell me?" he questioned. He knew that I wasn't myself right now and that something had happened. My mood wouldn't change just like that.
"I don't want to talk about it, so just leave me alone," I pulled away from him and clawed at the door frame trying to pick myself up.
"Bella, stop it," He pinned me down to the ground with his hands placed on my wrists and his legs on mine. I tried to push him away. I didn't want his condolences.
"No, no, no," I rolled my head back and forth on the ground. I wasn't myself anymore this was just ridiculous. I was to damn stubborn. "Bella, speak to me tell me what's going on, I don't like to be left in the dark you need to tell me what's going on with you," Edward was slightly demanding, but he had a right to be because of my actions.
"It was, Demetri," I sputtered.
"What did he do to you Bella, Bella you need to answer my questions." He leaned down into my ear. "What has he done to you my Bella?" He questioned. My body warmed once more at his sweet voice, and his comforting words.
"I didn't know what he was going to do, he just kind of attacked me, there was nothing for me to do," I whispered feeling awful. I didn't want to talk about this.
"What is he like?" Edward asked once more.
"He's awful, he was the one that I thought I could put all my trust into and never let go. He was the one who told me that there was such thing as love among vampires. I was led into his sick world of thinking sex was love, it wasn't, it was just his act of lust and I was led in the wrong direction,"
Edward rubbed my face with his thumb and finger. "Oh Bella, love why have you had to go through so much torture?" Edward asked now running his whole hand down the side of my face and my neck.
" I don't know, I don't want to feel pain anymore," I placed my hand over my heart.
Edward looked down at where my hand was placed.
The pain that I felt in my heart was much worse than the pain that I felt physically.
Edward pulled me up in his arms and held me close.
"Bella I want to welcome you into my home, I want you to live with me and my family, I do not want you to be in pain any longer. Please hear what I am asking you and come live me, Bella I ," I looked up at him at what he was saying.
He looked truly hurt.
I lifted my hand from my side. "Edward I cannot stay with you and your family, it is not right, I do not belong, I've realized since I've been gone that this is not where I belong, I am not like you and your family. I was become a Volturri and that is how I must stay Edward. I know you don't want to believe that, but that is what must become of me. You can either stay or go, it doesn't matter to me, I'm leaving anyways," I stood realizing what I must do.
"Bella please, you don't need to do this, you can still become one of us, you don't need to be like them, you are better than them," Edward pleaded with me.
I walked to him and took him in my arms and brought his lips to mine in a quick passionate kiss.
"I'm sorry Edward," I stared deep into his eyes. "But it's to late for me,"
A/N: Sorry for the long wait, still been a little conflicted with what I wanted to write. Sorry if the ending is a little epic and deep I was watching Lord of the Rings and so that kind of affected my normal writing style XD please review cuz it'll make me really happy :p