Edward and I sat next to one another on the plane. I sat there without moving a muscle. If Edward wanted to make some kind of move, he would pay for it after we got off.
"Bella, you know I don't really understand you, I don't know why you can't trust me and my family to take care of you?" He questioned. I watched his hand that was on his knee. I kept eying it, just waiting for it to make it's move on mine.
"I don't want your family's protection, and the only reason I'm going back to Forks is because I'm going to live in my house, and I can take care of myself" He smiled and brushed some hair away from my face. I got warm internally, but I hoped that he didn't notice anything. I took a deep breath when he moved his hand away. He just liked touching me and he couldn't seem to get enough of me.
"You need me Bella, and sooner or later, your going to realize that you can't live without me, your going to want me with you all the time and want me to stay by your side," I gulped and hoped that he wasn't right about this.
"I don't think that's ever going to happen," I mumbled looking beside me, trying to avoid eye contact with him. I could feel him grinning like a opossum.
" I think you are wrong Isabella, because I can easily go to Alice and ask her what she sees in out future," I quickly turned to him and glared. He never stopped grinning.
"Emmett can I sit next to you?" I asked looking over at Edward's older brother. He flashed me a big toothy grin and allowed me to come and sit with him. I was glad that he wanted me to sit next to him. Good for me that he already had a woman and wouldn't be touching me.
"You should have stayed here beside me Bella, your going to get real tired of Emmett real fast," Edward leaned back in his seat and I gulped I didn't think he was that bad.
A few minutes later.
"Bella, you know what I think you should let me look out the window sometime," He messed with my hair. I really didn't know what kind of condition my hair was in right now. I would look over every now and then and see Edward's smile getting wider and wider.
"Do you see what I mean Bella, you should have stayed over here with me," I didn't know what was worse, having the romantic flirt touch me all over and say how much I was going to fall under his spell, or have the annoying funny one poke me and bug me and tell me how pretty I was. Okay he was kind of a flirt, but he wasn't serious like Edward was.
It was still kind of late and we would be landing in about an hour or so and Edward was busy reading a book. I looked over and every time I did, he seemed to know that I was looking at him and he would look up at me and smile. I would quickly avert my eyes in the other direction. Just when I thought I would get some time to think on my own, Edward started to chuckle. I glared at him and then met eyes with Emmett.
"So Bella, tell me this, have you and Edward gotten down and dirty yet? I mean like down and dirty in the sheets?" I wanted to slap that wide grin right of his face. What was he? A freshman in high school again. What a pervert.
"No and I don't plan to," I crossed my arms and now I really wanted to get back over to Edward, this was getting really tiresome.
"Come on Bella, you two gotta bump uglies sometime or another," He nudged me in the arm and I growled at him hoping that he would hear. "I know that he wants to, he's told me," Emmett looked at his little brother. I looked over and there was his brow furrowed. He was angered that Emmett had told me this.
"Shut up Emmett," He growled. I couldn't help the smile that toyed at my lips.
"Oh but Edward, little brother I know you want to screw her, you told me all those things you wanted to do to her when she first got here, yeah you were crazy about her," Emmett was stopped by Edward standing up and covering his mouth.
"I said shut up Emmett," Edward stuck his other hand out towards me. "Would you like to come over and sit back with me Bella?" He was being nice and polite and that smile said it all. It was the cute embarrassed smile. How could I turn him down now.
I slowly took his hand and he brought me up from my seat.
"Do you want me to turn the light off?" He asked me. Something about him right now was very alluring and was making this moment kind of sensual. I don't know what made me nod my head, but I did it anyways. The light went off and it was dark where we were sitting.
Vampires didn't sleep, but something about this situation was making me extremely worn out.
"Edward, would you like to explain to me why you said all those things about me when we hardly knew one another? I thought you hated me?" I said this being half serious and half teasing. He probably didn't want to talk about this.
"I never hated you Bella, I just didn't like that you hated the world practically, you didn't want anything to do with anybody, that's all. And Bella, I did think those things about you, but I didn't really want you to find our from Emmett," I thought it was kind of flattering and cute that he thought those things.
"Well thank you Edward," I don't know what had gotten into me today, but I found myself leaning against Edward, with my head resting on his shoulder, there was very little arm room, so I kept my hands and arms to myself. Edward thought otherwise.
He took hold of one of my arms and weaved it into his pulling me closer.
I was about to protest, but this was way to comforting, so I let him do this. He was being extra polite today.
We stayed in silence the whole way back and before I knew it we were running back to his house.
"Are you sure you wouldn't rather stay with my family and I?" Edward offered. His brothers were already on the run and probably already home. I thought again.
"No, I want to go back to my old home, thank you for the offer though Edward. I smiled and turned to head back to my old house, the place where I grew up as a child. "Bella, wait," I turned back and Edward was standing there with a flower in his hand. Were had he gotten that. He must of knew that I was thinking something along the lines of that.
"I am very fast," His smile came back to his face and he looked rather cocky that he could show off his speed in front of me.
He slowly handed me the flower.
"Thank you Edward," I mumbled taking the flower in my hands. He stepped forward and whispered into my ear.
"I want to do things the old fashioned way Isabella," He pressed a quick kiss to my forehead and stepped away into the darkness.
I was warm once more and really, I was flattered by this. I didn't really want to get pushed into a relationship and I was thankful that Edward wasn't really taking this fast just because we were vampires.
I ran back to the scent of where my old home was. I could never forget it. It looked old and kind of run down, but still in good shape. I hadn't been there in years. It was a wonder it was still standing. I entered the dusty place and looked around to see if I could find a light switch or something.
I turned the lights on and the memory's came back to me once more. I smiled and walked around. There wasn't any furniture, so I would have to get some money that I remembered Charlie and Renee had saved up for me. I had plenty, and that was just the money that they had saved up for me, that wasn't counting what I had saved for myself.
I didn't really have anything that I wanted to do right now. I was so bored. I wish there could have been someone here with me. It was kind of scary. I laughed in my head at this. I was a vampire and the fact that I was alone scared me most.
I couldn't wait until I got some furniture up in this place and got it looking like it used to again. I thought back to what it looked like before I left. Such a lively home. I missed it.
As I stood there in my home, I realized that there was nothing for me to do. I was all alone. That struck me a little more than other things had. Alone, there was no one here to talk to and tell me that everything was going to be alright. There was no one here to ask me to come do something with them, or help with something. I had to fend for myself.
I wrapped my arms around my body and brought myself closer to me I guess. I felt this odd feeling of loss in my chest. I missed being with Edward and the rest of his family. I liked hanging out with them. They were all so nice and welcoming. I enjoyed everyone's company.
Just then I heard a I heard a loud boom of thunder. I ran outside and it was raining. Like usual. I ran through the woods. I didn't want to stay in that house alone. I wouldn't be hurting myself to much if I just stood outside there home. That would at least make me feel a little more like I wasn't completely alone.
I leaned up against a tree and looked in at all the lights that were on and it looked warm. I mean this weather didn't bother me and it didn't make me cold, but it looked more cozy inside. I wouldn't dare walk up to the front door and ask to come inside.
"What are you doing out here in the rain?" I gasped and turned around. I couldn't believe that I didn't notice him standing there behind me.
"Edward," I gasped taking a few steps away from him.
"I'm not going to hurt you Bella, I was just curious as to why you where out here in this weather. It's kind of nasty," Edward's voice was calm and soft and it was just as welcoming as his home.
"I don't know, it was just kind of empty back at my old house, I thought getting a little run would be better than sitting in that dust filled house all night," It needed a lot of work before it was back to what it used to be.
"And you just ended up needing to take a break here?" He asked me. A crooked grin spread out across his face. I couldn't help but turn away from him and look back at the house.
"It just looks so warm and welcoming," I whispered. He rest a hand on my shoulder as he stood behind me. I turned and looked at him. I couldn't help but notice how handsome he looked. He was wearing a light blue shirt that was kind of thin, so it clung to his cool hard pale chest. His hair was covered with droplets of water and a few of those droplets trickled down his nose and over his lips. Those beautiful plump lips.
"Well your welcome to come in and put some dry clothes on and hang out for the night, we need one more person for our card game anyways," His hand was placed on my back as he led me closer to the house.
"Edward I don't know, I don't think your family will accept me, not after what I put you and your brothers through," I whispered. I was rather reluctant to go back into the house.
"Come on Bella, they don't hate you at all, they want you back, everything seemed so complete when you were with us, gosh Alice needs someone to go shopping with, and your the only one who she wants to go with because Rose is just to stubborn," I laughed at this, I never knew what was up her butt.
"What about Carlisle and Esme, will they still want me back?" I asked Edward looking up at him with my innocent eyes.
He brought his hand up and lightly caressed my check. This sent chills throughout my body.
"Esme is in love with you, do you want to know why?" Edward stepped in front of me and brought me into a hug. It was warm and gentle and I actually felt that Edward didn't want me just because he didn't have a soul mate yet. This hug was something that I had never been given before. "It's because she knows how happy you make me and the rest of the family," I thought Edward's words through my mind a couple of times and I had to really think.
"Why do I make you happy? I thought that I bugged you and that you couldn't stand me because I was to stubborn for your taste?" I asked him softly with the rain collecting in my clothes and my hair. I didn't mind, I could always get new ones.
"Bella, I love it when you are like that, one of the reasons that I like you so much is because you never give up, yes you are very stubborn and sometimes I think that you should just drop it all and realize how much you really mean to me, but I like that you don't ever want to get hurt and I understand now why you have that shielding ability, it suits you perfectly," He kept me close to him in the hug. For the first time in my life I felt the warmth. It wasn't just that warm feeling that you get when you sit by a fire, it the warmth of when there is someone else in your life and they really care about you and they want what is best for you. This is exactly what Edward was giving me right now. I think it's called love. Edward pulled away, but he moved his hand down my arm until he took my hand in his. He grabbed it and closed his hand around mine. He stared at me with a little smile. What I got from his eyes was that he was happy with what I was doing and would wait until I was comfortable enough. I took a deep breath and closed my hand around his. There it as again. I felt that warmth. We ran together back to the house and he brought me into his home. His family was sitting in the living room and they were watching the T.V
"Bella!" Alice yelled and she ran to me, but then stopped. "I think that you two are going to need a change of clothes," Alice said looking at me.
"Actually Alice, do you think that maybe I could get a shower?" I asked her. I was drenched, but a nice warm shower would have felt really good.
Alice nodded quickly. "Yeah sure Bella, I'll just find something for you to wear and I put it in the bathroom and you can slip into it when your done," Alice took me by the hand and led me away from Edward, who looked kind of disappointed about that.
I hadn't been here that much and I forgot how big it really was.
"Wow I really love your house, it's so beautiful, light and open," I spoke as I looked around. I was feeling a lot better now. For some reason, I guess it was because there were a lot of people in this house, who really cared about me.
"There's the bathroom, towels are in the closet space, and you can take as long as you need, we will all just be downstairs watching T.V?" I don't know what brought me onto asking this but I did.
"What about Edward?" I asked her nicely trying not to sound like I was to concerned about him.
"Well I'm sure he'll probably be downstairs with us, but if not maybe he'll be reading in his room. It's interesting Bella, that you are so interested in what he's doing," She grinned and then ran away, I guess she didn't want to fight. I stepped into the bathroom and stripped myself of my clothes and got the warm water running. The bathroom filled with steam. I stepped under the warm water. It was the greatest thing that I had felt in a long time. It made my whole body relax. I looked around for some shampoo. I found some in the corner and poured some into my hands and ran it through my hair. I was very slow with this washing process. I wanted to stay in here for as long as possible. It felt so nice. I found some soap and a wash cloth and covered it with soap, then pressed it to my shoulder and covered my body with suds. The wash cloth ran over my stomach and over my hips, inner thighs, ass, I dropped the soapy cloth to the shower floor and pressed two of my cold fingers to my cold slit. I moaned in pleasure as I slipped those two fingers inside of me and began to rub. I used slow and long strokes. Pleasure rippled through my stomach. This felt so good. I leaned against the shower wall and pressed my fingers deeper within me. I let out a long throaty moan. I was lost in my own pleasure and I didn't even take notice that I was in a house full of vampires that could easily hear me. I thought of Edward. What if this was Edward touching me like this. I groaned and my insides clenched together a little bit. I pushed my fingers in and out faster, picking up the pace, causing heat and friction. My hand slapped against the shower wall and I felt my orgasm start to come and take over. I was almost there. I then let my thoughts take over and cause me to release. I thought of Edward wet in this warm shower pleasuring me himself.
"Edward!" I gasped as I shook and trembled from this pleasure. Then a noise brought me out of my trance. There was a small groan and the bathroom door closed. I was scared stiff. Was there someone in here? Or had they been in here and already left. I peeked out of the shower door and there was no one in here I looked around and I saw on the counter top that there was a nice folded up shirt. It looked like one of Edward's.
Where was the clothes that Alice had given me? I wondered and I couldn't seem to see them. I turned off the water and wrapped a warm fuzzy white towel around my body and looked some more. Nothing but a big white shirt and a pair of underwear. What? Had Edward come into the bathroom intending to switch the clothing, but then when he heard me pleasuring myself, did he decide to stay until I was finished. What If it was him and he knew. I cursed under my breath. Why had I allowed myself to do something so stupid. I dried myself off and slipped the big white shirt on over my body and put on the underwear. I was without a bra and I was wearing Edward's shirt. I felt kind of sluty.
I walked out of the bathroom and found Alice standing at the door.
"What are you doing wearing that?" She asked me.
I growled. "This was the only thing that I could seem to find to wear, so I put it on," I wouldn't lie, but this was rather comfortable. I didn't mind wearing it, but I didn't know what the rest of the family would think.
"Here Bella, let me get you something else to wear," She started off towards her room.
"I like this Alice," I spoke up. She turned and looked at me like was nuts, or I had something. I looked at her in the eyes sternly.
"Come on Bella, you can't go downstairs looking like that, every male is going to want to jump you, that's why Edward snuck it in there while you were pleasuring yourself," Alice eyeballed me. I looked down at my feet, yeah stupid move Bella.
"But this is really comfortable can't I wear this," Alice stopped looking through her closet and turned to me.
"I'll give you some bottoms to wear with that, because you are surly not going to go downstairs with just a shirt and underwear on," Alice threw me some fuzzy pajama pants. She was about to leave the room when she turned back to me.
"Bella you better make up your mind on how you feel," I looked up at her and stopped examining the pj's. "Your mood swings are really confusing him," She walked out of the room and left me to my thoughts. I was confused with my own emotions. I didn't know what to think about Edward. He was so complex and different and my mind didn't want to be with him, but I guess my body wanted him.
I put the bottoms on and walked back down to the living room.
"Well there she is, good to see you again Bella, how was your shower?" Emmett asked with his eyebrows raised. I glared at him and went to sit by myself in an empty chair. I was embarrassed at my own actions and I hated myself for moaning his name when I came. I didn't even look up at Edward, I didn't want to see his face.
"Well now that everyone is down here, why don't we go in and play a game or something.
"I know what kind of game Bella and Edward could be playing," Emmett teased as he stood and walked away with his family. I wrapped myself up into a little ball on the chair. I was embarrassed.
"Can it Emmett," I heard Edward's voice getting closer to me. He placed his hand on my back.
"Hey are you alright Bella?" He asked. I got chills from his voice and looked up at him. He was so sweet and caring. My nonbeating heart swelled. He was smiling, but he was also concerned about me too. I slowly nodded my head and looked back down at my knees.
He slowly rubbed my back. "It's okay Bella, I forgive you for what happened in the bathroom, even though it was the hottest thing that I have ever heard slip from those pretty little lips of yours," He moved away and I slapped him as he walked away.
Pervert for listening while I was pleasuring myself.
He was a couple feet away from me.
"Come on Bella, we have all night to play games and hang out with the family, it wouldn't be any fun for you or me if your just going to sit in that chair," I looked at his hand that he wanted me to take and then looked back up at him. That cute crooked grin was there and I couldn't deny him. I took his hand and he helped me up and pulled me closer to him. I wasn't very comfortable with him doing that, but it sure did make me feel loved.
For at least two or three hours we played board games from the closet, the ones that hadn't been pulled out in a long time. I had a lot of fun. Edward kept his hand in mine under the table most of the time. That was until Emmett made a comment about it and made both Edward and I growl. (Okay just for your info, they are going to get drunk okay, It will just make things a little more interesting, so bear with me on this one alright)
"Okay who wants something to drink?" Esme asked as she stood up. She had a glass of wine a few hours ago and this was her third one, she was getting kind of drunk.
We all agreed that we would have a little something to drink. That little something turned out that everyone was either tipsy or all the way drunk. I was I knew that and so was Edward because now his arm was around my waist and he was claiming me as his.
"Okay I have a new game and everyone has to play, it's spin the bottle," Emmett put a bottle in the middle of the table. I was now suddenly nervous. I could end up kissing someone I didn't want to. Oh this wouldn't go well. "I'll go first," Emmett spun the bottle and it slowly landed on Esme. We all laughed and I let out a breath. I was so thankful that it wasn't like Jasper, that would have been weird. He kissed his mother figure on the cheek.
"No Emmett, you have to kiss her on the lips, that's the rule," Jasper yelled from across the table. He looked at her and gave her a quick peck. Everyone laughed. It was Jaspers turn. It landed on the one person that he loved. Alice. They were making out on the floor after that. It was Edward's turn now. I gulped I wondered who he would get. It landed on Emmett. Everyone at the table yelled.
"Ah Edward, you gotta do it, come on it won't be that bad," I nudged him in the side and he didn't look happy about this.
"Come on little brother, come over here and give your big brother a kissy wissy," Emmett puckered his lips.
Rosalie and I pushed the men to one another. Edward cringed and Emmett just grinned.
"You gonna do it, today while we're young Edward," Rosalie called. Edward slowly moved in and kissed his brother on the lips and pulled away gagging and spitting. I burst a gut, that was too funny.
"Okay Bella it's your turn now," Alice said to me grinning. I took a deep breath and spun the bottle. It kept moving around everyone. Edward was still trying to rub off his lips from that last kiss.
Everyone gasped when the bottle stopped and it was pointing in the one direction where I knew it was going to land. Right on Edward. Edward turned around and looked at his family.
"What?" He asked confused. He looked at me and I was moving closer with a smile. Remember I was drunk out of my mind right now.
"I spun the bottle Edward," I leaned against his chest and his attitude changed. A wicked grin crossed over his lips.
"Does that mean you get to kiss me?" He asked leaning against a support pole in the house. I nodded my head. Everyone was waiting for this. "Well then Isabella, be my guest, my lips are yours fort the kissing," I got up on my toes and pulled his head down to my level and pressed his lips to mine. They tasted amazing. It was the best kiss I had ever given, and have ever gotten. Everyone was cheering behind us.
I pulled away, but Edward still wanted more and he pressed his lips to mine once more and shoved his tongue into my mouth.
"Okay you two love birds can stop now," I pulled away and looked into Edward's eyes. He looked happy. This time something else came over me. I couldn't help but kiss him again. This time it was more of a romantic kiss. It was beautiful as his fingers tangled int my hair and he pulled my body to his.
"You guys can stop now," Emmett called.
I pulled away breathless. "I don't feel good," I said and ran right to the toilet.
For about 15 minutes Edward stayed with me rubbing my back while I puked up red wine. My vampire stomach couldn't hold it, it wasn't used to it.
"You gonna be alright Bella?" He asked me nicely he pulled my hair into a pony tail and I slowly nodded my head as I had gotten rid of the contents in my stomach.
He picked me up and carried me off to his room and laid me down on his couch.
"There you go Bella, just lay down for a while and relax," my head was spinning. No more wine for me anymore. I thought to myself. Edward stayed with me the whole time and he softly rubbed my back. Every 15 minutes he was asking me if I was alright.
This man was way to caring. I closed me eyes and tried to relax. I knew I wasn't going to sleep, but I prayed that I would.