Edward's Point of View
Bella was upstairs in my room and she was reading her new books. I was glad that I could buy them for her. I wanted to give the world to Bella, but she just wouldn't allow it and that killed me from the inside. From Bella's body language I knew that she was falling for me and that she wanted me just as badly as I wanted her, I just needed to push her a little more and get her to admit her feelings, the thing was that I had no idea how.
I wondered if I should go to Alice, but then I didn't feel like dealing with her hyperness and how cute it would be when Bella and I finally got together.
Carlisle, I didn't feel like bother him. The only person that really came to mind was Rosalie. She knew exactly what it meant to fall in love and she knew what she liked said to her and done to her.
"Why are you asking for my help," she didn't bother looking up from her magazine. I grew impatient with her. Rosalie didn't know how to be nice sometimes.
"Because your the only one who I can ask about this kind of stuff, you are the most human of this coven," I said to her sternly. She sighed and closed her magazine.
"So you want Bella to admit her feelings to you so that you both can be happy together?" Rose asked me again. I nodded my head and took a seat. I tried to calm myself and not get to upset with my sister, she was hard to get along with sometimes.
"Well the first thing that you need to do is not be to pushy. That's the one thing that pushes a girl away from you, if you keep revolving yourself around her and asking her to love you, it's never going to happen," I sunk in my seat, that was the exact thing that I was doing.
"Second, make her happy, do things for her that will make her happy, find out her favorite things to do, or kinds of things she likes and buy them for her and she will be happy, then her happiness will spread to you and you'll both feel a lot more comfortable together," I listened to her words carefully soaking them into my brain.
"Go on," I coaxed her into telling me a little more about what woman like.
"Well, knock off the sexual stuff, that's also going to push her away. Save that for when you two are really intimate and she finds that stuff sexy," I remembered Bella asking why I was always so sexual. I would have to learn how to stop myself from saying things like that. "Kind of going along with that, be romantic, buy her flowers and chocolates. A gentleman, which I know you are, but let her see how nice you can really be and don't make her feel uncomfortable, let her slide into things herself," Rosalie explained and I was already feeling a lot better and knowing what I needed to do.
"Thank you so much Rose, I'll take those things into consideration, I really do appreciate you for telling me," I stood and went to my car. I didn't think that I needed to tell Bella that I was leaving. I was going to go shopping for her and buy the things that she liked. I knew what kind of music she liked and a nice bouquet of flowers would probably make her day. I was going to do everything that I possibly could to make her happy.
I drove to the nearest store and looked around trying to find something that she would like. Couldn't find a single C.D, but that was when something hit me. Maybe she would like something a little more handmade. I could make a C.D for her. I could record a piano song or two for her. That would make things that more important to her.
I got the flowers that I knew she would like and drove home. I was excited as I couldn't wait to start practicing again. Ever since Isabella came to Forks, I hadn't had the time to play because my mind was elsewhere. I walked in through the door and greeted Bella coming down the steps. She stopped when she noticed me.
Bella's Point of View
There was something different about the house, it seemed a little more empty. I had finished my second book and I was still in the reading mood, but something wasn't right, so I headed down the steps and stopped when Edward walked through the door with flowers in his hand and his eyes searching for something. That something was probably me.
"Edward, where were you and who are those for?" I came all the way to the bottom of the steps and stood before him.
He rubbed his hand over the back of his neck, which was different for Edward because normally he was very upfront and not this shy.
"I got them for you Isabella," Something about the way he said my name gave me goose bumps. Why was he being so polite all of a sudden. I eyeballed him and took the flowers from his hands. They were pretty I would admit, but what was he doing going around buying me flowers. This was so unlike the Edward I knew a couple of hours ago. He must have talked to someone.
"Thank you for the flowers, they're beautiful," I looked down into them and there was a little note from him. He looked me into the eyes.
"Just like you," He whispered softly. I took the little card and read it in my mind.
It said "To the woman that I've always dreamed of having, Isabella. Edward"
It was so sweet. I didn't know what to say.
"Thank you so much Edward," I stepped forward and wrapped my arms around him and pulled him into a gentle hug. I felt him sigh against me as his arms slowly wrapped around mine.
"I just thought that I should get something nice for you Bella," I slowly pulled away and studied his eyes carefully. He was as calm and cool as ever. What had come over him.
"Is everything okay Edward, you seem kind of different?" I asked stepping back and heading towards the kitchen to put these in some water.
He followed slowly behind me, but he didn't bother touching me like he normally would.
"Nothing is wrong Bella, I think I'm just noticing your beauty in a different light," I warmed up a little bit at his comment and tried to suppress that smile that was tugging at my lip muscles. This was probably just one of his games.
"Well thank you I think," I turned and he nodded his head and turned away from me. That was clearly not normal. "Edward?" He stopped and turned around with a surprised expression over his face. "Yes?" He asked me eager to find out what I wanted with him.
"Where are you going?" I couldn't help but ask, but it just seemed like all the time he was with me and never left, now he was going somewhere without me. Something was up.
"I was just going to do some practicing. I haven't done that in a while and think that I should start back up again. You know where to find me Isabella," He grinned and strode away. Something about the way he was acting was a lot more attractive than it was before. What was he doing to me?
I leaned against the counter top and thought about Edward and why his mood was changing like this. I didn't get it, he must have talked to someone about what it's like to get the girl of your dreams. I couldn't think of a person. The only person on my mind was Edward. I sighed and rubbed my temple. What was I going to do. I didn't know if I would let myself give into Edward, or stay this way, but something was telling me that I was already giving into him and there wasn't anything that I was going to be able to do about it. I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard the most beautiful music. It was coming from the living room. It was Edward playing on the piano. I had never heard him play before. The sound of the music drew me into the room. I went closer to him and sat down next to him and watched him play. He did not stop and he didn't look up at me. He kept his eyes down at the keys as his pale fingers glazed over each key to make the perfect note and make the music. He played perfectly. There were no flaws in his music. The music came to a slow stop as he was finished with that song. I was in complete awe. I couldn't believe what I had just heard.
"Edward?" I questioned. I didn't know what to think. I didn't know what I wanted to say to him. He slowly looked up into my face.
"Yes Isabella?" He asked not seeming to know what I was asking. I quickly thought through what I wanted to say to him.
"Where did you learn to play such beautiful music?" I never would have thought that Edward would be the type of guy who liked to play the piano.
"Well, when you have a lot of time on your hands and there isn't someone else in your life, well you have to find something to do, and music was the thing that made me happy," He grinned at me and I felt myself warm up. This was something that I didn't know about Edward and I was kind of glad that I knew this about him because it was rather interesting.
"Your really good, I didn't know that you could play something like this," I explained to him. He didn't move towards me and nor did he touch me. It was kind of upsetting because I looked forward to his touches and light caresses.
"Thank you Isabella, I was wondering, is there anything that you are really good at?" He turned towards me and stared waiting for my answer. I thought about this for a minute and tried to think back to the things that I was good at. Nothing came to my mind. The only thing that I could really think of was that I was good at reading. I looked down at my hands and thought for a moment. What was I really good at.
"I don't really have anything that I'm really good at Edward," I rubbed my hand up my arm and kept looking down. Then I felt it. His fingers underneath my chin bringing my face up to look at him.
"I'm sure there is something that your good at Bella, don't think that you aren't good at something," His eyes were glowing with what I thought was happiness and love. I knew it was love. My heart swelled at this. This man in front of me really did love me and he wanted me because of who I was. I still had some thinking that I needed to do. I sighed once more.
"Well I don't really know what that is Edward, I haven't really been out to do anything to know weather or not I'm good at something," I admitted to him. This time Edward looked down and sighed. He brought his eyes up to mine again.
"That just means that I'm going to have to take you out so that we can find something that your good at," I felt myself lighten up that Edward wanted to take me out somewhere.
"Bella why don't we go shopping?" I thought about this for a moment.
"For what?" I asked him again I didn't understand what the occasion would be for.
"Well don't you realize that Christmas is coming soon and that we are going to need to go Christmas shopping for the family," Edward stood from the piano bench and went to the front door. I was still lost as to why he wasn't touching me or holding me anymore. It was like he was completely ignoring me, but then he was saying all these nice things and giving me the flowers and buying me those books. I didn't know how I could repay him for that.
"Where are we going to go shopping?" I knew there weren't many places to shop here in Forks, so that meant that we were going to go out of town again. Edward grinned back at me before calling out the store with the best prices, so said the commercials "Walmart," I chased after him and got into the Volvo and we were off. I noticed that he didn't bother taking my hand either, or trying to get close to me in the car. I was kind of disappointed.
"So what made you want to go to Walmart?" I asked him nicely. I knew there wasn't anything special there, but it would be good shopping for Jasper and Emmett and Carlisle. We would have to buy nicer stuff at nicer stores for the ladies. They deserved better than Walmart. We got to the store and I stood beside Edward as he pushed the cart. I didn't realize until we got into the store that it was almost completely empty. It was two in the morning.
"Alright, I know what Emmett wants," Edward smiled at his own thoughts. I looked at him waiting to know what Emmett wanted.
"He wants a Wii," Edward grinned. That was a big gift, but I knew that Edward could pay for it. I was going to try and help pay for it too.
"What the heck is that?" I asked him. I had never heard of such a thing.
"Some kind of game system that he's been dying to have for the longest time, I don't know, he's been talking about it for the longest time. You know how he's a kid at heart," Edward teased and we went to the electronics to pick it up for him. "Jasper wants some kind of headphone, he said the real expensive kind "Bose" Edward looked at me and I shrugged. I had no idea of this new kind of electronic stuff. It was kind of funny to see Edward pushing a cart around Walmart, just the way that he was kind of hunched over and pushing it through each of the isles. I couldn't help but laugh at this. He stopped and looked at me.
"What?" He questioned with a confused smile on his face.
"It's just that you look kind of funny pushing the cart like that, I don't know, it's just something that seems so human to me," I giggled and covered my mouth. He stopped and turned around and looked at me.
"You think I'm funny?" He questioned. I couldn't help but nod my head. He stepped closer and this was the first time that he got closer to me today. I felt the heat that was in my body run directly downwards. "Well Isabella, if you think I'm so funny," He came to me and picked me up with very little strength and placed me in the cart.
"Edward, get me out of here right now," I complained feeling that my butt was to big to get out. He started pushing the cart again pretending that he was looking for something. He looked really cute hunched over pushing the cart. I wasn't happy about him pushing me around like this though.
"Edward are you listening to me, get me out of here right now," I tried to get him to listen to me. Nothing was working. He started to pick up speed as he was going through some deserted isle's. I couldn't help but laugh as the wind ran through my hair at the speed that we were going.
"Edward stop, your going to fast," I laughed and threw my arms up as he turned corners make the cart make a screeching noise against the tile. He slowed down in the dairy products section. I sighed and kept my arms up hoping that he would get me out.
"Would you mind helping me out Edward? I'm a little stuck," I nibbled on my bottom lip and tried to look up at him with my puppy dog eyes. He walked over to me slowly and looked down at me.
"Hum.. poor Bella, stuck in a shopping cart at Walmart. What am I going to do with you Bella," He stroked his chin continuing to look down at me. I crossed my arms and glared at him.
"Your the one who put me in here, now your going to help me get out," I kept staring at him. He leaned down a little more.
"Make me," He grinned and started walking away.
"Edward Masen Cullen, you get your cute little butt back here and help me out of this cart," I covered my mouth, after I said what I did. I didn't mean for it to slip out, but it did and I knew I would regret it. Edward came back quickly and stared me down with his light golden brooding eyes.
"What was that Bella? Would you like to repeat that to me once more?" He asked nicely, but with a tone of teasing in it. I didn't want to say it again so I shook my head and retorted the words that I shouldn't have.
"You heard me," I spoke. I knew he had, otherwise he wouldn't have came back for me. I gulped wondering if I should regret what I had said to him. He leaned down to whisper into my ear.
"Yes I did, but I want to hear you say it to my face," I felt my whole body grow warm.
"I don't want to," I stuttered.
"Hum, that's to bad for you because now I don't think that I want to help you out," He pulled away and started walking away. I was almost certain that he was going to leave.
"Edward, please don't leave, you have a cute butt," I let out with desperation. I cursed myself for saying that again. It wasn't a lie, but I wished it was.
He was by my side and pulling me out of the cart. I sighed when I came out of the cart and was brought into his warm embrace. His arms wrapped around mine.
"Thank you Edward," I rested my head against his shoulder and I really felt good here in his arms. He lightly rubbed my back.
"Your welcome Bella. Come on let's go home, and I'm glad that your willing to admit that my butt is cute," I couldn't help but look up at him and smile. I was a little angry at myself for saying that, but yet I was enlightened to see that smile on his face when I looked up. I would never get tired of it. Edward kept both of his hands on the steering wheel as we drove back home. Something was tugging at my chest. I wanted to hold Edward's hand, for some odd reason the feeling of his hand in mine was comforting and told me that Edward wanted me and that he was no one else's and he was all mine. Though the thought of asking Edward if I could hold his hand was kind of embarrassing.
I sat tense in my seat as I looked through the windshield out onto the wet pavement.
"Something the matter Bella?" Edward asked right as I was thinking about holding his hand. I shook my head back and forth without responding. He continued to look over at me.
"Come on Bella, I can see how tense you are, now if you don't tell me what's wrong I'm going to have to stop this car and pull over and demand that you tell me what's wrong," I watched as his foot was nearing the brake.
"It's nothing Edward, just something stupid," I admitted not actually telling him what was on my mind. That wouldn't be enough for him.
"Why don't you tell me about it?" He asked in a softer tone. Keeping his eyes on me. I didn't know how he drove without looking at the road.
"I don't really want to," I fiddled with my hands on my lap. I didn't want to look at him because I knew I would be break down and share my feelings. That's exactly what I didn't want happening.
"Please?" He asked I felt his hand on my shoulder. I tensed once more. He was making contact and this was sending electricity through me. I took a quick breath to steady my nerves. I kind of laughed at myself.
"You'll think it's stupid, I mean I don't even know why I wanted to do something like this, I don't even know why I'm acting this way," I looked up and saw realization hit his face. I got tense again. I knew he couldn't read my mind but I was afraid that he figured out something.
"Isabella, If you would only tell me what your feeling," His hand slowly slid down my arm sending chills down my spine. "Then you wouldn't have to be so nervous and tense around me," His hand was resting on my leg a little ways away from my hands that felt sticky and sweaty. I was a nervous teenage girl madly in love again. The car seemed to get silent and I felt my breathing grow slightly labored. What was this vampire doing to me. I finally got the guts to look up at his face and see love, softness and care. My heart melted as I untangled one of my hands and slid it closer to his. Our pinkies were hardly touching, but I felt my hand move closer to his. I craved his touch and now that he wasn't touching me as much, each and everyone one that he did give me, it felt so much more powerful. He was driving and keeping his eyes on the road now, but I knew that his mind was on my hand that was inching closer and closer to his.
Edward was giving me time and space. He didn't want to force me into something that I wasn't ready for. I respected him for that. When my pinkie touched his I felt heat go throughout my body, an electric shock. I had no idea what was happening with us, but I kind of liked the feeling. His hand moved so that it was flipped over and his palm was up. This was his invitation. I placed my hand in his and my body filled with anxiety I wanted for him to close his hand around my small little one. He finally did it. His hand was warm in mine and I liked the feeling of it closed around mine. It gave me a sense of protection. I sighed and relaxed into the seat leaning my head back and closing my eyes, I couldn't wait until I got back to Edwards. I knew that I was going to dive right into another book. Edward brought me out of my thoughts about reading when I felt his thumb glide over the smoothness of the top of my hand. It was the sense of caring that Edward felt for me and that he was happy about holding my hand. I was engrossed in my own thoughts when I realized that we were parked in his driveway.
Edward's Point of View
I knew that Bella had something on her mind, that was why she was sitting in her seat rigid and not comfortable and relaxed. So I asked her.
"Something the matter Bella?" I asked her. She didn't seem to want to look up at me, so I didn't urge her to look at me. I tried to make her tell me by giving her a slight threat. Nothing to extreme.
"Bella if you don't tell me what's on your mind I'm going to stop this car and pull over and demand you to tell me," I felt my foot move towards the break. That was just a little extra push for her. I watched her twine her fingers together.
"It's nothing really, kind of stupid actually," She smiled at this thought. I stopped with the threatening remarks and went to a softer tone.
"Why don't you tell me about it?" I asked in the nicest tone that I had. She thought about it for a moment before answering me.
"I don't really want to," She kept that same cute smile on her face. She was so beautiful. I loved this woman sitting in the seat next to me. I wanted to pull her into my body and wrap my arms around her and hold onto her forever. Pull her lips to mine and kiss her all night long. Slide into her and make sweet love to her until she cried my name in the darkness. I got aroused just thinking about that and hopped that Bella didn't notice, that would be the end of me trying to get her to work me into her heart. She would just come to think that all I wanted was to get her into my pants. I didn't like thinking about it in that way. It sounded skanky and dirty. I more wanted to get her into the sheets with me. That sounded more romantic, and that's what I wanted with her. I wanted romance.
"Please?" I asked her. If I wasn't mistaken I could have sworn that I saw her shiver.
"You'll think it's stupid, I mean I don't even know why I wanted to do something like this, I don't even know why I'm acting this way," I felt myself start to smile. I knew that she was trying to hide her feelings, but it was me. My actions were making it hard for her to resist me. I would really have to thank Rosalie for the advice My next move was kind of risky, but I was willing to do it. I placed my hand up on her shoulder and I felt the electricity pass through my body into hers.
"Isabella if you just told me how you were feeling," I couldn't help but slide my hand slowly down her arm pushing my limits for her "Then you wouldn't have to be so tense around me," I whispered. She didn't pull back and she didn't say anything. I tried to keep my eyes on the road and on her at the same time. I was waiting for her to make her next move. As I was driving I noticed that her hand was inching closer to mine that was now resting on her leg. I knew how close I was to her wet center, but I tried to push that thought out of my mind. Keep things on the romance level for now. By the time that we got to my house. Our hands were clasped together and I knew how right this felt. My hand closed around hers holding it tight. This was my way of showing how much I cared for her and wanted her to be mine. We were silent and just sat here together.
Bella's Point of View
I didn't want to move from this position. I wanted to stay in the car holding his hand for the rest of the night, but his family would start to wonder.
"Do you want to come inside?" He asked finally breaking the silence. It wasn't an awkward silence, it was just a nice silence. It started to rain and that made this situation even more, nice. That was the best way to put it. I didn't answer him immediately. Something about sitting in this car together was very sensual. It turned my thoughts to sexual, hot things. I think it was the fact that the air around me with filled with Edward and also that I was attracted to him and I was a vampire made everything that much worse. What should I do? Should I start making out with him. I knew he would like that and I was curious to know if we would end up in the back seat together. I don't think I wanted that just yet, but my body was acting differently. I felt myself getting aroused when Edward turned his body so that he was facing me I looked at him and I could see that his eyes were closed and that he looked like he was in deep thought. Heat collied through my body when I heard him groan, oh how I wished I could read his mind right now to know what he was thinking. I felt my breathing start to pick up and my chest start to rise and fall before him. Our hands were still clasped together. Just as I was thinking that, he released my hand and his started it's journey back up my arm. He played with my hair. I could see the darkness in his eyes. He was aroused to. Yeah this was a perfect moment for making out and then making love. I had to think quickly before Edward forced himself upon me. I knew I wouldn't be able to stop and then all our progress that we have been making would be all for nothing.
" I guess I better get out," I said. I could see him moving his body foreword.
I unlocked the car door and stepped out into the rain and took off into the woods. I couldn't stand being around him. It was to difficult for me. I could tell that he was already running for me. The rain started collecting in my clothes and I wasn't even calming down at all. I was still rather turned on. I came upon a meadow and stopped looking around. I fell to the ground with a thud and found Edward above me pinning me down his eyes pitch black. He wanted me. I gulped and looked up at him as water droplets feel from his nose. His lips were parted as he breathed through them. My chest rose and fell with still being aroused. His palms were pressed to my wrists keeping me from moving.
Edward's Point of View
There was a strong need for this woman as we sat in the car together. I wanted her so badly. I never wanted another woman, there was no one like her. Something about being in the car together, it was causing my arousal to make it's self known again. From the smell of things, I knew that Bella was aroused to. This close proximity must have been affecting our scents and vampire senses. I wanted so badly to push her up against the door and attack her lips, forcing my tongue into her mouth and tasting every inch of that beautiful body. Touching her and making her moan with pleasure. I couldn't help but let out a groan as I thought of all these things I wanted to do to my Bella. I had made a mistake and caused Bella to speak and break the silence.
"I guess I should get out," Isabella moved quickly and exited my car and headed for the woods. She wasn't going to get away from me that easily. I dashed after her until she stopped, for what reason I didn't know. I launched myself at her, not enough to hurt her, but just enough to bring her to the ground. I pinned her to the cold wet grass. Her clothes clung to her body and she looked glorious panting bellow me, wet and aroused. I wanted her so bad. I didn't know if there was going to be anything that was going to stop me from my actions now.
"Isabella, I can't deny that I want to ravish your body right here, right now in this meadow," I observed her perfection. Her eyes were glazed over with lust. Maybe she did want me the same way that I wanted her. Should I take the chance or pull back now. I decided to act on instinct.
A/N: I know this was a cliffy and this chapter got a little heated, but I thought it was a good way to end! Do you think that I should make Bella give into kissing Edward and that be it. Or have nothing happen at all? Tell me what you think should happen to these too. More reviews will come with quicker updates!