Author's note: I mixed the two perspectives in this chapter, because I really wanted to show this chapter from Cassandra's perspective, but I didn't want to leave Jacob out either. Anyway, read and enjoy. Can I ask for one little tiny review? Yes, I can. Can I have one little tiny review? Please and thank you. And this chapter is for vampmom. Thanks for the review.
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Jacob
Sam let us go home. He thought that with Victoria gone there was pretty much no threat left. I was glad to hear it. I hadn't slept like a normal person since I turned into a wolf. We were all tired and I guess Sam was more tired than the rest of us because he offered to walk Leah home.
I wasn't the only one who noticed the way Leah flinched. She glared at us and declined. I watched her leave and knew what she was feeling. She went wolf and ran. Seth accepted Sam's apology and went after his sister.
And that was as much drama as I could take. I didn't want to think about how I had officially lost Bella. I didn't want to think about Cassandra. I didn't want to think that tomorrow I would have to get up early for school.
I changed to wolf and ran back into the forest. It wasn't because Leah worried me. It was just because I wanted to make sure that she wasn't killing poor Seth.
Leah?
What do you want Black? She snapped back.
I could feel her trying to hide her thoughts from me. I knew she was with Seth and I knew she didn't want me there.
She left. I felt her change back and then Seth was gone too.
I sighed.
Leah and I were very similar in many ways. She had Sam and I had Bella.
I walked around without really watching where I was going. The moon was still out. Our battle with the newborns hadn't taken as long as I thought it would.
I looked at the moon again. It was a full moon, exactly who I was. I was Bella's moon even though she called me her sun, because I came only when her world was at its darkest. But, she didn't really like the night even though I was in it. She preferred the day because her bloodsucker was in it.
I reminded her of all the bad things in her life. And I was fine with that, but not anymore. I stayed with her because she needed me, but I didn't want to be what she fell back on when things didn't work out.
Billy was right. Sam was right. The guys were right. I would find someone else. I didn't need to be with Bella. My world didn't have to revolve around her.
I looked away from the sky and saw that I was near the treaty border. I had seen Cassandra for the first time here. She was one of the Cullens. She was a bloodsucker. She was the enemy.
"Enemy? I suppose this counts as a violation of the treaty then?"
I didn't have to turn around to know who that voice belonged to.
Cassandra.
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Cassandra
We watched the wolf boys walk away. Emmett was the first one to suggest we clean up.
It didn't take long. We piled the bodies near the Alaskan border and Jasper and Alice stayed to keep watch. The rest of us went home. We sat around not wanting to do anything until Edward came back. He was going to check on us in the morning.
But, I was restless. I didn't want to stay in the house and not do anything. I needed the woods. I wanted to think. I excused myself, but I should have known that leaving would start and uproar.
Nobody said anything, but I heard it all in their thoughts.
"I'm not leaving. I just need to think."
They all apologized mentally and I went outside. Emmett wondered when they'd get rid of me.
"Jerk." I murmured.
They laughed. I smiled and walked away.
I don't know what made me do it. I was in the woods and then I thought of the wolf boys. I wanted to go see how they were doing.
I knew that going anywhere the treaty line was not a good idea, but they had the best view of the moon and I wanted to see the moon. I walked until I got to the very edge of the border.
I saw the russet colored wolf, the biggest one out of all of them. He was looking at the moon and he couldn't see me. I watched him. I saw the intelligence behind the dark brown eyes and I knew that he was like me.
He was lost sometimes too. I saw loneliness in his eyes and then I heard him think of me.
He was thinking that he had met me in this exact place and because I was a Cullen I was now his enemy. It made me want to laugh and I did something that I shouldn't have done.
"Enemy? I suppose this counts as a violation of the treaty then?" I said taking a step into his land.
He watched me and I heard him think my name even before he turned around. It startled me for a minute and I decided that his thoughts weren't the best place to be. The next conversation would be much more interesting if I didn't know what he was thinking.
I looked at him, but I didn't see anger in his eyes.
"You must be Jacob Black. I have seen you in Bella's thoughts and in Edwards, but only for short moments. My brother tries to keep you away from his thoughts and I have not been with Bella long enough to know how often she thinks of you."
I waited for him to turn back and it occurred to me that perhaps he didn't want to change into his human form. He didn't trust me and that was fair enough. I didn't exactly trust him either. I opened my mind again and caught the last of his thought.
I thought you could read my mind?
"Oh I can. I was just extending a courtesy I would like to have extended to me. I find it very unfair to have my thoughts put on display. Oh, did you know that Edward cannot hear Bella's thoughts? But I can. I can also control who's thoughts I hear."
How does your brother like it to have someone in his head all the time?
"I don't think he likes it very much, but it's an effective way of communicating if we don't want others to know what we're saying. I want to ask you something, but I don't know if I can."
Go ahead.
"Why do you think so much of Bella? I can hear her all over your thoughts."
He didn't answer and I didn't know if I had made a mistake.
She's Bella. I loved her. He said finally.
"I loved someone once too." I said watching him. "I used to love him with all my heart, but he didn't love me enough. I lost him. Well, I left him, because I didn't think I would be able to live with someone who didn't love me."
How did you get him out of your head?
I laughed. "I didn't. It took me three tries and over a hundred years to get him out of my head."
Great, so you're telling me that it's going to take me years to get Bella out of my head?
"I never said that. You were the one who said loved not love. I thought you were already over Bella. She's going to be a powerful shield once Edward turns her. I know, because when I touched her I took her power. I don't mean to be mean about telling you what Edward wants, but it's what she wants and the sooner you accept it, the less it will hurt. I know Edward. He isn't going to let her go and she's pretty attached to my brother."
He left her. Why does she want to stay with someone who didn't care enough to fight for her?
"Why do you love a person who you know will never love you the way you deserve?"
He looked at me. Ouch.
We didn't say anything for a while. I decided to break the silence.
"Can I talk to you Jacob Black?"
He looked at me and then ran into the woods. I waited for him and then I saw him come out.
He was exactly how I had pictured him and completely different all at once. His hair was short and he was tall, very tall. I loved his skin. It was a russet color, like his wolf. He was 17, but his body looked more like a 21 year olds. He was muscular and handsome, no not handsome. He was heartbreaking.
"You're beautiful." I said before I could help it.
I was surprised when he laughed.
"Bella once told me the same thing."
"But, I'm not Bella. I am Cassandra." I said.
"I know. You told me. What about this guy you loved?"
I said nothing and walked closer to him. I moved slowly so that he could see everything I did.
"So, is this where you kill me or are you going to forgive me for crossing the treaty line?"
"You don't look too dangerous. I can forgive you for now." He said.
I laughed and turned to him. "You make a mistake in thinking that I'm not dangerous. I am more dangerous than you know."
"So you are one of them?" He asked.
"If by one of them you mean a Cullen, then yes I am one of them. And if by one of them you mean a vampire then yes, I am one of them."
"Then I guess that means you're breaking the treaty and we have to start a war."
"I thought it meant I was your enemy." I said.
"Yeah, that too. So, what would you like to do before you die?" He asked, but I could already here the laughter in his voice.
I looked at him and he shrugged.
"I might consider forgiving you if you tell me your story. Where did you come from? And why aren't you like the rest of them?"
"I'll tell you my story, but I need a favor in return."
"And why would I do you a favor?"
"Because you don't hate me. I've never done anything to hurt you and I haven't killed you yet. And don't laugh Jacob Black. I am a lot more dangerous than the vampires you've met. If you're nice I might just show you how?" I said before I could stop myself.
"Alright then, what favor would you like me to do for you Cassandra?"
"Come take a walk with me."
"Why would you want to take a walk with me?" he asked.
"Because, you're like me."
"Like you? I fail to see how I am like a blood…like you."
I smiled. "You fail to see how you're a bloodsucker. That's a cute name by the way. We have one for you too."
"Oh yeah?"
"Yes. I would tell you, but its impolite. The nicer term is dog."
He laughed. "I might like you if you don't try to kill me that is."
"I wouldn't dream of it Jacob Black. You are far too entertaining."
"I'm not. I'm boring. All I can do is think about Bella and how much I hate your brother."
"That's why you're like me. We've both been heartbroken. Except that you still have hope. I lost mine when I lost Aro."
"Hope for what? I have no hope."
"But, you will. You will get tired of being second. You know you deserve to be first and once you accept that, Bella will be noting but a memory."
He said nothing. I started walking and I heard him follow. We walked in silence for a while before he spoke.
"And how do you know that's what will happen?"
I looked at the moon. It was a full moon.
"Because it happened to me."
And that's the end of that chapter. Opinions? Should I move faster?
