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Chapter Five
Bedtime
I gave up I would have to face Edward soon enough so I went up to my room. When I got to my door I counted to three and opened the door. I saw him standing over by the window so I walked in and sat on my bed.
"Your mad at me aren't you."
It was the first time that I met his eyes since Jake picked me up earlier that day.
"I'm not mad at you."
That's when I was confused. "then what is it?"
"Bella I know what he said to you earlier he was thinking about it before you went running to him."
I sighed I knew where this was going now.
"Bella he's right. I'm taking away your life away from you."
"Edward I don't care you're my life. It doesn't matter what he said" In my head I knew that wasn't true.
"Bella no, I'm not going to change you and damn you to a life like this like my family and I are."
"No Edward, I want that life. I want you forever."
"Bella look at Esme, Rose, even Alice, they all want kids none of them can have them. Sure Esme has all of us and she wouldn't say this but she thinks it a lot. She wishes she could actually have kids, her own kids."
I couldn't believe it he actually made me think about it. Right now I don't want kids but I would at some point. I would want my own not adopted. I started to cry I knew he was right.
He sighed and looked at me. "Bella please just think about it"
I pulled away when he tried to comfort me. "No Edward, I wont just think about it."
"Edward I want you. i cant just give you us we the tried that remember."
"No Bella I tried it. You were doing everything you could to keep me here. Motorcycles, that stupid cliff diving thing. I still don't get what you were thinking when you did that. Bella you wont admit it but I know you I know from what Jacob thinks about you that you were beginning to love him in the same way he loves you."
"Then why when Alice came back did I go running with her to save you."
"Bella… you weren't completely over me but you were close. This time it will be easier now that you know you can get over it."
I didn't understand what he was meaning. But I had an idea, he was going to leave me again wasn't he? I started crying all over again. "Edward no i… I cant."
"Bella you can and you will. I'm leaving Alice and the rest can stay if they choose but I'm leaving."
"No Edward don't leave please."
"Bella call Jacob. Goodbye" he was gone before I had a chance to say anything.
I laid down on my bed and cried myself to sleep only to wake up in the middle of the night to cry some more. I never did call Jake that night. I never did anything. Never changed never got up all I did was sleep and cry and cry and sleep
from here on the chapters should get longer. but i wont update as often since i have major tests in school for the next week but ill try to update as offten as possible. it may be this weekend or it may be next week but i know that by next weekend i will have updated at least once. thanks guys :)