So what if it hurts me
By:Askhimaboutme
Summery: Things are going down hill for Mitchie, when her
Mother commites Suicde and Her boyfirend leaves her for her bestfriend
all she wants is to be happy.
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Songs Used in this Chapter In order:
Happy-Leona Lewis
Because I'm Awesome~The Dollyrots
Who I am~ Nick Jonas:ATA
And of Course what Camp rock Story wouldn't be complete without:
This is Me~Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas
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Shane and I turned arouns and saw a girl who had brown cruly hair, and slightly glaring at me.
"Um Hello is anyone going to tell me who is this Person!."She snapped then a girl walked in, She looked like Shane but in a female verison She looked about 15, She had long black hair and a bang covering her right eye.
"Catilyn, how rude!." She hit Catilyn then gave me a sorry smile, "Sorry she didn't take her Respect pills."She gave catilyn a Glare.
"Mitchie this is my younger Sister, Amy."Shane gave Catiyln a warning look "and the rude girl is Catilyn." Catlyin rolled her eyes then sat on what appers to be her bed, and pushed her lab top over.
"Every fucking year someone new comes and takes up space." She mumbled, I made a face.
"I could go to another room, I don't mean to take up 'Your' Space." I snapped, She turned and looked at me.
"You think your so tough new girl."Catilyn Smirked and walked to me; She was a tad taller then me but I wasn't going to be bulled by a snobby Bitch.
"Look If you wanted your own room then you shouldn't have came to a CAMP, You should have stayed home and played with you little labtop."I smirked, I guessed I shocked her a bit.
"Stay out of my way." She stormed out of the cabin slaming the door behind her, I heard Shane try to contain his laughter.
"I think she likes you."Amy said smiling, I laughed a little.
"I doubt it why would she treat me like that then?"I said sitting on my bed.
"She treats everyone she meets like that, She want to test your toughness."Shane smriked "Just ignore her, It works better." Amy sat on I guess her bed and sighed happly.
"I can't wait !." She squilled to her self, Damn she's an happy person.
"Can't wait for what?"I asked.
"Tommorrow, When we go to singing class We get to have a pre Jam Sing off." Shane explaned "Are you singing?" I shook my head and blushed.
"Oh your a dancer." I shook my head again.
"No no Singer I just don't really want to sing." I looked down, Jeez i can't help but not be shy?
"But your at Camp Rock." Shane smiled "People would want to to sing, Your brother is singing." I looked up confused.
"Really?"I got off of my Bed. "I'll be right back," I walked out of the Cabin and saw Nate walking to mine.
"Hey Dracula." He greeted, I gave him a quick glare.
"Your singing tommorow?"I asked still obivously shocked about it, Nate never sings, well he mostly likes Paying the piano.
"Yeah, are you?" He asked.
"No..."I said. "I don't even have a song." Okay I was seriouly lying to myself, I had loads of songs.
"You have a bunch of songs, and a beautiful Voice."He said"Perfect conbantion." I rolled my eyes.
"I'll think about it."I mumbled as we went in to my cabin and talked to Shane and Amy.
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I walked to the mass Hall, and saw a piano there. I looked around and saw no one there and took a seat, I put my hands on the keys and began to play, I sung to the melody.
"So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah"
I felt a hand on my sholder and looked up and saw Nate.
"It's about Mom isn't it?"he asked, I looked down at the Piano and felt tears forming in my eyes. "Don't cry, Please." He begged me I took a deep breath in sucking it up.
"I'm going to try and sing okay?"I told him, I could tell he was smiling.
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Uh huh!
I got a new style, uh oh.
And I'm walkin' right down your street.
I'm on your speed dial, you know.
The one everyone wants to meet!I rolled my eyes at Catilyn, and Saw her hit a button then a boy's came up;
I always tell you how cool your dress
It's 'cause I'm fashionably socialized
You're smarter, better
No! The best!
Just look at me.
I'm a leader.
I'm a winner
And I'm cleaner
'Cause I'm awesome.
I don't need you
'Cause I'm neato
And I beat you
'Cause I'm awesome!
That's right!
They say I'm gifted, uh huh.
Well, I'm a certified prodigy
I'm gonna own you, uh huh
I'm gonna bring you to your knees.
I always tell you how smart you are.
It's 'cause my brain is really supersizedI looked at Shane again he just Smiled at me, I smiled back
You're an academic superstar.
Just look at me!
I'm a leader.
I'm a winner.
And I'm cleaner.
'Cause I'm awesome.
I don't need you
'Cause I'm neato.
And I beat you
'Cause I'm awesome!
That's right!
Got a career plan, uh huh.
Gonna make lots of money.
And bought a self tan, uh huh.
Don't I look healthy?
I always tell you how great you smell.
It's 'cause I'm naturally deodorized.
You're stronger, faster, and can spell.
Just look at me!
I don't need you
'Cause I'm awesome.
Uh huh!
Catilyn finshed the song and smiled at the class cheering, The closed her locker and walked back to her seat, which was Next to Amy who was next to me.
"Thank you Catilyn, Next up is Nate Torres." Everyone Clapped as Nate walked in front of the with an acoustic guitar and a cocky smirk, I rolled my eyes at my brother,
"I wrote this song a while back, And it's called who I am." He said, He started to play then he opened his Mouth.
"I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad
Im looking past all the madness
But thats all I have
But I want someone to love me
For who I am
Nothin makes sense nothin makes sense anymore
Nothin is right nothin is right when youre gone
Loosin my breath loosin my right to be wrong
Im frightend to death
Im frightend that I wont be strong
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad
Im looking past all the madness
But thats all I have
But I want someone to love me
For who I am
Im shakin it off Im shaking off all of the pain
Youre breakin my heart your breakin my heart once
again
I want someone to love me
For who I am
I want someone to need me
Is that so bad
Im looking past all the madness
But thats all I have
But I want someone to love me
For who I am"2x
Did That just come out of my Brothers mouth, Every one Cheered and clapped and went to congradulate him, I got up and hopefully with out Notice I left class, I can't sing infront of them, Not after that I'm not good enough.
I walked back to Mass Hall and Sat at the Piano again, I geuss this is going to be my hide out until Camp ends, I sighed and played with the keys alittle, Then I got serious and started to play.
"Do You Know What it's like
to feel so in the dark
to dream about the light
where your the shining star
Even though it seems like its to far away
I have to believe in myself; it's the only way
This is real
This is me
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me.."I stopped playing and pouted, Should have I stayed, I shurgged then got up and went to My Cabin.