So what if it hurts me

By:Askhimaboutme

Summery: Things are going down hill for Mitchie, when her

Mother commites Suicde and Her boyfirend leaves her for her bestfriend

all she wants is to be happy.

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"Let it Go Mitchie!" I cried as both of my arms was pulling my in the tub of blood,

"Mitchie?"I turned around and saw a five year old me with my Dad.

"Daddy! Help me!."I screamed he just stud there staring at me blankly, I looked at the blood and saw it had turned black, I screamed painfully as I was being pulled in it deeper.

"Hey Mitchie."I looked up and Saw Shane standing there in his Pj's.

"Shane Please help me."I begged.

"I can't help you Mitchie."He turned around and walked away, I Screamed as the forced pulled me in the tub of darkness.

"NOOOOOO!"

I snapped open my eyes and sighed, 'Nightmare number 26 at Camp' I thought I rolled over to my side and started to cry.

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"Hey Mitchie Got a song your singing for Final Jam."Shane smiled asking me durring breakfast.

"No, Not really."I mumbled picking at my food, I looked at Shane and he leaned over the table and kissed me.

"WHOA!."Everybody screamed, as he pulled away I blushed and had a little smile.

"What was that one for?"I asked looking up at him still with the small smile.

"You looked sad..and I wanted to."He answered winking at me with the same smile I had. "I really like you Mitchie."He told me I smiled bigger and blushed harder.

"Are we walking in on something?"We both saw Jason,Amy,Nate,and Catilyn standing there.

"Oh no."Shane said "Just talking nothing wired about that."I giggled the continued eating my food.

"We're going to talk later."Shane smiled at me, Nate gave both odd looks.

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I sat at the dock waiting for Shane to come, I liked him alot...I think it was obivious.

"Hey Mitchie."He walked over to me then frown "Your wearing make up?"He asked, I nodded.

"Yeah, I kind of can't help it."I told him he nodded.

"Your still beautiful with or with out it."I smiled at him, as he sat next to me. "okay, I like you...Alot."

"And I like you...Alot"He smiled at me then kissed me again. "that was for?"

"I couldn't help it."He smiled closing his eyes and kissing me again, I kissed him back, I felt these sparks in my stop everytime his lips touched mine I felt like I was on top of the world...then I felt guilty Should I be enjoying myself right now when I know my Mother can't enjoy anything anymore that she's 6 feet under and there's nothing I could do about it.

I stopped kissing Shane, He pulled away confused.

"What happened?"He asked I sighed. "is there another guy."He asked getting sad, I shook my head.

"No, it's just...Your going to think I'm nuts."I told him, He shook his head.

"You don't know unless you tell me."he said, I sighed.

"I feel guilty that my Mother Can't enjoy anything anymore and if I'm happy it's going to seem like I don't care for her." I felt tears in my eyes.

"Why would you feel Guilty about your Mother?" he asked me.

"She's dead...And I found her Dead in our bathtub."I started to cry, He pulled me in his arms cuddling me.

"Your mom killed herself?" He asked me, I nodded as the tears started to slow down causing my make up to ruin his shirt.

"Not living your life and enjoying yourself isn't going to bring her back."He said, I pulled away looking at him.

"What are you saying?"I questioned him,He sighed then said;

"I think She would want you to be happy."He said, I frowed

"Then why did she have to murder herself?"I questioned feeling a rush of tears in my eyes.

"What's going on!." We turned and saw Nate standing there mad because I was crying, I quickly wiped my face.

"Nothing.."I mumbled, Nate walked up to me then looked in my face.

"You Crying, Did you do something Shane?!"Nate growled.

"NO!."I yelled "He was helping me!" Nate looked stupid then sighed.

"I'm sorry I can't see you cry..Not since."I saw he eyes get glassy, "I gotta go."He walked away to his and Shane's cabin, I started to cry harder and Shane pulled me back in to the hold.

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The next morning I woke up in Shane's Arms laying on the end of the dock....I didn't have any nightmares that would wake me up in the middle of the night, I looked around and No one was out side, I looked down and Saw Shane sleeping, he looked so peacful sleeping.

"Shane."I shook him lightly, he groned and pouted, I giggled and bent down and gave him a kiss, I felt him kiss me back.

"Morning."he smiled at me opening his tired eyes "We slept out here?"He questioned, I nodded as he sat up, I kissed him again.

"All this Morning love?"He said shocked, I smiled and kissed him again "I like it." He smirked then I kissed him again, I couldn't help it He was so damn Kissable.

"Wait.."He pulled away. "Your kissing me, Means that we're..." I smiled.

"Boyfirend and Girlfriend?"I answered/asked. "If you want to." AGH why do I sound like one of those stupid teenaged girl movies when the guy askes out the girl.

"Of course I want to, Do you?"He asked, I answered his question by kissing him, He kissed back and wrapped his arms around my wasit and moved me to his lap while I was kissing him, I wrapped my legs around his middle.

"Excuse me."We both pulled away and saw Brown standing there with his arms crossed, Me and Shane gave each other scared looks.

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"Whould you guys like to explain to me, Why you two are in the same clothes from yesterday on the dock, Making out."Brown glared at us as we sat in his office, This was school all over again.

"I can explane!" Shane said scared. "Please don't tell Dad." he begged.

"Shane you and Mitchie have only one chance left or you will be removed from Camp for the remander of the summer." Brown warned "It's not cool to be the bad guy." He walked out, I sighed.

"I'm sorry, It's my fault." Shane sighed,

"No we both feel alsleep, It didn't help making out on the dock."He nodded as we walked out of Brown's office, We saw a bunch of kids Standing there Smirking at us.

"MITCHIE!"Catilyn and Amy Grabbed me pulling me away from Shane.

"Is it true?"Catilyn asked me, I gave her an confused look.

"Is what true." I asked, Then something in my Stomach told me it wasn't good.

"You slept with Shane last night?" What!....is she high?

"WHAT!, No we only known each other for a month."I told them, they looked at each other sorta not believing me. "You guys!" I rolled my eyes and went to my cabin, What the hell!