So what if it hurts me
By:Askhimaboutme
Summery: Things are going down hill for Mitchie, when her
Mother commites Suicde and Her boyfirend leaves her for her bestfriend
all she wants is to be happy.
Songs used:
Gotta find you~Joe Jonas
Keep it Real~Jonas Brothers (love this song!!)
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I walk to Mass hall, and everyone looks at me and watches me,I roll my eyes and walked back outside where I walked in to Nate.
"Tell me it's not true."He begged, I instantly got mad.
"Did you really believe that for one second!"I snapped walking pass him, I heard him fallow me.
"Mitch, Come on"He grabbed my arm and turned me around.
"No, you know I hate when people talk about me."I yelled, remembering from my freshmen year when Sierra took Kyle from me and started a rumor that I cut myself and tried to kill myself.
"I know Mitchie."he sighed as I felt my eyes water I looked down and started to cry "Come on" He hugged me and rubbed my back.
"My room mates don even believe me"I sniffed.
"You don't have to worry because You know the truth and I know the truth and Shane knows the truth."he told me, I looked at him as he wiped my eyes.
"Stop crying pretty girls don't cry."I looked over his shoulder and saw Shane standing there.
"Um, Mitchie Can I talk to you?"Nate let me go and nodded so I nodded and walked away with him.
"Look I swore I didn't start the rumor" I stopped him from talking.
"I know I was with you the whole Time, Some stupid kid who has nothing to do did."I looked up at him. "It doesn't change how I feel about you."He smiled at me.
"I hoped that."He kissed me on the lips for only a second which felt like hours (That's a good thing), I smiled at him "So your my girlfriend?" I nodded he smiled.
"So your my boyfriend?"I asked he smiled at me then nodded, We both laughed then shared a kiss.
"Let's get something to eat."I smiled as he grabbed my hand and we walked in to Mass Hall, Everyone once again looked at us, I rolled my eyes as me and Shane went to get our breakfast, After get got what we wanted we walked to an empty table and felt all eyes on us Shane obviously got annoyed;
"Can you people stop looking at us?"He glared at them, they looked away except one girl who had the balls to walk to our table.
"Is it true that you guys had sex a the dock."Shane looked at her as if she was retarded.
"Get the hell out of here!"She got up and left in a hurry, I rolled my eyes and looked at Shane.
"What song are you singing."I asked him about final Jam.
"We decided to become a band."He said....Who's we? I guess he noticed my face and smiled "Sorry, Jason, Your brother, and I" my eyes widen.
"Really?"He nodded "what are you guys going to call it."He shook his head.
"I wasn't suppose to tell you,"He smiled with guilt "I told you too much" I pouted.
"Please Shane."I poked my bottom lip out, He leaned over and peaked it, I ended up pouting more.
"Keep doing that your just going to look cuter."I ended up smiling at him "You still have to sing for me."I felt my eyes widen for a second.
"You have to sing for me first."I smirked at him, "Right now."I saw him smirk at me and got up and left for a second and come back with an acoustic guitar.
"I have no problem sing in front of people."I was bit caught off guard by this, she started to strum on the guitar then sing;
Every time I think I'm closer to the heart
Of what it means to know just who I am
I think I've finally found a better place to start
But no one ever seems to understand
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be, your not that far
You're the voice I hear inside my head,
the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need,
the song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Oh yeah
Yeah yeah
You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find
To fix the puzzle that I see inside
Painting all my dreams the color of your smile
When I find you I¨t will be alright
I need to try to get to where you are
Could it be, your not that far
You're the voice I hear inside my head,
the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need,
the song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Been feeling lost, can't find the words to say
Spending all my time, stuck in yesterday
Where you are is where I wanna be
Oh next to you... and you next to me
Oh I need to find you... yeah
You're the voice I hear inside my head,
the reason that I'm singing
I need to find you (I need to find you)
I gotta find you (yeah, yeah)
You're the missing piece I need,
the song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
Everyone cheered and clapped, Shane Smiled and sat back down looking at me,I was utterly shocked I never heard him sing the time I've been here.
"You sound...wow"He smiled at me.
"Thank you."He slightly blushed, "you going to sing to me."I got up taking the guitar.
"I don't think so."I ran out mass hall knowing he was right behind me chasing me.
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"Please Shane!."I let the tears fall in to the tub, "Help me" I saw Shane stand there.
"You have to do it one your own." He said.
"Do what!"I scream, I saw him gave me a confused look and saw five year old me again he grabbed my hand and walked away, I screamed
"Shane!!!!"
"Mitchie!"
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I wake up sweating and breathing hard, The nightmares are back again...Why not last night whats so different about today?.
I got out of bed and put my uggs on, I check and see If Amy is awake I already know Caitlyn is passed out, I walked out of the Cabin and walked passed the boy hearing then already up and arguing, I look in the open window and see Jason jumping on Shane's bed waking him up.
I giggled of how grumpy Shane is, Nate turned around and I ducked down and started to crawl down the porch.
"Excuse me Young lady." I turned around and saw the guys looking at me. "What do you think your doing?"
"Pff, I just dropped my contact.."Nate gave me the dad look.
"You don't have Contacts."I blinked.
"Your contacts"He rolled his eyes, The Three picked me up and ran to the end of the dock, I squirmed.
"You guys Stop!."I laughed as Shane tickled me making me move in there arms more.
"Alright I think she learned her lesson."They put me down and I turned to face them, suddenly I lost my balence and feel in to the lake, it would have been fine If I could swim...Which I can't do.
I kicked under water and felt my body stuggle and my head feel heavy, Then I felt arm wrap around me and pull me up to air, I gasped and still Kicked.
"Mitchie!."I heard Nate yell from a far, I still kicked and waved my arms.
"Mitchie, I have you." I heard Shane's calmed voice whisper in my ear, I stopped moving and Felt dry land under me, I crawled until I thought i was away from the water.
"Are you okay."Nate asked worried , He pushed the hair out of my face, I nodded and sighed as I was soaking wet, I looked at my clothes and saw my tank top was see threw and showing my bra and every part of my stomach, I crossed my arms over my chest attempting to cover my breast.
"Um maybe you should got change."I nodded and left quickly to my cabin to see Amy and Caitlyn wide awake looking at me confused.
"Took a bath with Shane?"I rolled my eyes at Caitlyn.
"No, I feel in to the lake after spying on the guys."I told Amy ignoring Caitlyn completely It was the jealousy talking, I opened my draw and got dry clothes and went straights to the bathroom and took a hot shower for a few minutes and got out.
I ended up having to walk out again to get my brush in my towal to see Shane sitting on my Bed, I coughed and saw him turned and look at me then turn his head.
"Oh sorry."He got up to leave.
"No I'm going back in could you just close the curtains?"I asked him, He went to my window and closed the curtin as I went back in to the bathroom, After I got dressed I reached for my eye liner to put it on but I felt to lazy to put it on now, I put my hair back in to a pony tail and walked out the bathroom and saw Shane standing there waiting for me.
"Hey."He smiled at me, I smiled back at him and got my flats since my uggs were wet and I couldn't find my other boot from the day before, After I got my shoes on I went over to him and kissed him, He grabbed my hand and we left my cabin and we walked to our dance class.
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I laughed as the Dance teacher yelled at Shane.
"Dude what is your problem."He asked the Teacher.
"My Problem is your freakishly tall!."Caitlyn and Amy burst in to laughter;
"I'm Freakishly tall your Freakishly short."Shane snapped at him,The teacher looked at all of us.
"All of you out!"Shane grabbed my hand and smirked at himself, we walked out the class and a random boy gave him an high five.
"Your so awesome."He walked away laughing,
"Nice going man."Nate smirked at Shane "Your funnier then you look." Shane gave him a wired look.
"Thanks I think?"Shane said, Nate laughed and walked away "I hope that's a good thing." he mumbled to him self I let a giggle out as we began walking to our singing class.
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"Okay class I need all the people who are in final jam over here in this side and the people who aren't this side."I walked over to the very small group of people who is participating in Final Jam it was about ten people plus myself.
"What a very small group of people here."Brown mumbled to himself loud enough for me to hear.
"Okay who is going to be in tonight's Beach Jam?"He questioned, Shane,Nate and Jason raised there hand in our group, about two people from the other group raised there hand, I looked at them, They got guts to preform.
During class we practiced our vocals and listen to Brown talk about how it's not about winning it was about doing what you love to do.
-- That night
I slipped on my purple baby doll shirt with my black shorts that was three inches from my knees, it had little rips in it around my thigh, for shoes I put my purple converse Nate got me for my birthday a few months back, I never could find something to go with them until now...must be my lucky day.
I let my bang out and pulled my hair in to a pony tail, I put on my sparkly black ear rings and put on a little black eye liner, I looked at myself in the mirror, !
I looked beautiful, and I really didn't even try to look like this, I smiled at myself then I walked to the beach, i saw Amy sitting at the front she excitedly waved me to come over I basically ran over to her and sat next to her, Catilyn walked over around ten minutes later.
"You look so hot Mitchie."Amy winked at me then pointed to Shane who was getting ready on stage with the guys, he looked breathless when he saw me I waved as Nate hit him to help him with something.
"What's up Camp Rock!."Shane yelled in to the mic, Everyone screamed it was like a concert in here, I laughed as Amy screamed loud;
"Oh My God Jason your so hot!."Jason winked at her, The guys began to play.
You dream of the day,
When the songs that you play,
Are blasting through the speakers in your car,
And it comes in a flash,
And you hear the crowd,
Screaming out your name for the encore
Living life,
Life in the fast line,
Not that bad,
No we cant complain,
Whose to say,
That we wont keep it real,
Hold on tight,
Don't you dare let go,
Now the time to let the whole world know,
You can shine bright but still keep it real
Who could know,
That you could be on the road,
Selling out the tickets to your show,
And when your home,
Your still the one,
Where you were before you left for tour
Living life,
Life in the fast line,
Not that bad,
No we cant complain,
Whose to say,
That we wont keep it real,
Yeah,
Hold on Tight,
Don't you dare let go,
Nows the time to let the whole world know,
You can shine bright but still keep it real
Did you ever think your dreams,
(Could become your reality, woah)
And all you did was just believe
Living life,
Life in the fast line,
Not that bad,
No we cant complain,
Whose to say,
That we wont keep it real,
Yeah
Living life,
Life in the fast line,
Not that bad,
No we cant complain,
Whose to say,
That we wont keep it real,
Hold on Tight,
Don't you dare let go,
Nows the time to let the whole world know,
You can shine bright but still keep it real
Everyone screamed, I was on of them, The guys Smiled at each other not a cocky smile a shocked smile at they even sound great together, Shane looked at me I smiled at him and continued screaming with Amy and Caitlyn.
When they got off of stage, We ran over to them;
"you guys were Amazingly awesome."Amy hugged Jason tightly.
"She's right you guys rocked.!"Caitlyn smiled at them, I hugged Nate then Shane then Jason.
"Anything to say Mitchie."I was speechless.
"What they they said times 10."I answered, Then Nate looked at my outfit.
"I see your dressing like you used to."He smiled at me, I looked at ,my outfit.
"I didn't really even notice."I saw Nate looked up with shock on his face, Before I could see what he's looking at a pair of big hand covered my eyes.
"Guess who."I gasped when I heard the voice.
"Dad?"
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The longest chapter I've ever wrote, Oh snap her father is there.