So what if it hurts me
By:Askhimaboutme
Summery: Things are going down hill for Mitchie, when her
Mother commites Suicde and Her boyfirend leaves her for her bestfriend
all she wants is to be happy.
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This Chapter in the end is sorta OMG no Shockers but Gosh Mitchie control yourself lolz
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"Dad?"I asked, I moved his hands and looked at him. "What are you doing here?"I smiled up at him, he hugged me then Nate.
"I just came to visit you guys since I have to pick you up in abour two weeks I had nothing to do."I gave him a look and knew he missed us, I turned to Nate and he nodded.
"Who's your friends?"He looked at me and Nate.
"Oh, This is Jason, Shane, Caitlyn,and Amy."Nate introduced knowing I would blab about Shane and I, He nodded and smiled at them.
"Nice to meet you guys."He said, They all smiled akwaradly. "I'll be going to the hotle guys it's getting late."He spoke, I hugged him.
"Bye Daddy."I let go of him then he looked at my outfit and smiled at me.
"Put some longer shorts on,I think Shane's going to have a heart attack."He winked at Shane then walked away, At least he knows and isn't freaking out.
"Holy crap."Shane let out a breath and looked down. "I thought he was going to stragle me."We laughed at Shane as he looked around just in case my Dad was around.
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"No more hiding who I wanna be, this is me."I frowned and turned to the next page of my music book and started to play the next song.
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I can't stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah
I gave my self a small smile and wrote the new words in the book that came to mind, When I was done I started playing the song I was orginally singing.
Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way
This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Then before I could get to the next Verse Shane sat next to me and began to sing;
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
I smiled and started to sing to him;
This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm suppose to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me.
I looked in his eyes and he leaned in and kissed me, I ran my hand threw his hair and deepened the kiss, He parted his mouth as my toung fought with his toung, I felt Shanes Hand pull my wasit closer to his lap and kiss me with more force, I felt him pull my hair back making me pull away from him and attacked my neck with his mouth giving me love bites, I moaned a little and pulled him back to my mouth and invaited his mouth with my toung again.
"Um, are we interupting something." me and Shane pulled away and turned our head and saw the kids who were waiting for there class to start was giving us a wired look.
"Uh..We should go."I got up and pulled Shane out of the class room, I was blushing non stop, I've never kissed someone like that before, I looked over at Shane who was breathless.
"Wow no girl ever done that to me before."He smiled to himself, I smirked a bit at him.
"Am I a good singer?"I asked him, He looked over at me.
"Mitchie you have a Beautiful voice, and a strong toung."I blushed and covered my mouth.
"I've never done that before."I said truthfully.
"Could have fooled me."He smiled giving a kiss...a normal kiss then he hoped.
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The next day I got dressed with Amy and Caitlyn as the guys planed to take us to the lake, Thats when Amy ponited out.
"Shane gave you love bites?" I looked in a mirror and saw about ten bruses from my neck to my shoulder blade, I rolled my eyes and put my shirt over my Bathing suite and shorts on and went over to the boy's cabin, Jason answered the door and screamed.
"Somebody beat up Mitchie!" He ponited at Shane's bites on my neck, Nate and Shane rushed to the door and glared at Jason.
"Jason, Those are hickeys."Nate rolled his eyes then got mad. "Why does my little sister has a Hickey!"He glared at Shane.
"More like ten,"I pulled the coller on my shirt and showed them, Shane blushed.
"But Mitchie, It was your fault Your toung brought this on you."I blushed as Nate looked at me shocked.
"Frenching!"He yelled "You were Frenching, I never even frenched kissed someone."
"Oh you gotta try it, it's awesome."Shane smiled, Nate gave him a looked that wiped his smile off his face "Wrong moment?"
"Well I can't do anything about it now."I shurgged "lake?"
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I clinched on to Shane and hugged him tightly as we floted in the water, I was so scared that he would drop me and warpped my legs around his wasit and my arms so tight around his neck I thought I was choking him.
"Don't let me go."I cried, I heard Nate laugh, I shot him a glare the baried my face in to Shane's neck, I could tell he was smiling.
"I won't I like it this way."I felt his hands slip to my lower back,I felt movement from him below I pulled away and looked at him.
"I don't think the water is helping you Shane."He blushed slightly.
"Maybe you should go back on land."I shook my head.
"No, I like being with you in the water."I smiled at him and kissed him,I started to slightly wiggle my lower haft and felt him moan in my mouth, I smiled and bit his ear and tugged it between my teeth, He started to rub my back as I moved a bit more.
"Mitchie."He groned as I looked him. "Please I'm about a second away from doing things to you." I smirked and whispered in his ear.
"What kind of things?"I moved my hips faster against him, I felt his hands try and stop me but he was getting over 'pleasered' so he ended up moving my hip with me.
"You know what I'm talking-"I started to grind on him, He cursed under his breath and closed his eyes.
"Uh?"He moaned in my neck pulling me agasint him so he could feel me more, I started to feel it to and went faster, The feeling was tingling and it felt so good, I moaned in his ear I knew that made him crazy.
"Shane."I whispered in his ear, He moaned I kissed his neck, I continued for a few more minutes until I saw Shane make a weird face and felt preasser from his shorts, He quickly pulled up to land.
"I'll be back."He Ran to his Cabin holding his trunks up, I was on the ground breath less, Did I just dry hump Shane?
" I know what you guys were doing." I heard Caitlyn say behind me, I turned my head.
"What?"I questioned
"You and Shane was dry humping each other." I blushed as she smirked at me. "I should tell Nate he would love this."My eyes widen as she ran over to my brother, It's offical I hate her again.