Finally, a chapter that is short! 7 pages! LOL okay I'm a tad a bit weird I'll admit. Embrace your individuality and the whole world will adore you for it :) Okay so basically this entire chapter circles around Tanya and Edward. I'm guessing alot of people might skip this chapter since there is not Bella x Edward stuff in here. Maybe a little here and there. It's a filler chapter remember :) It essential I assure you!

I noticed my previous chapters, or more like ALL my chapters have become messy. The words at the top have somewhat jumbled together. I'll have to fix that soon because it's driving me insane.

Disclaimer - I do not own Twilight. However, I do own a copy of the book :)

Playlist - Teardrops on My Guitar by Taylor Swift

Originally, I chose 'You Don't See Me' by Josie and The Pussycats because the lyrics suited Tanya but ofcourse my more up to date friends chose for me this song instead. I think it's brilliant! Just change the 'Drew' in the song lyrics to er - 'Edward' LOL! I'm so weird...seriously (laughs)

PS - Thank you Kylie for this song! I owe you Starbucks now!

He's Got Enough of Me to Break My Heart

Tanya's POV

"Kate, stop hogging the whole back seat!"

"No, you stop it! I've got practically next to nothing!"

"Eddie! I'm smaller than Kate right?"

"No! He's on my side!"

"Gosh, at least we're finally here…" I heard Edward sigh softly as he turned into the lane where the drop-offs were.

The minute he stopped the car, Kate and Irina got out, slamming the door. I could still hear them arguing fiercely about their weight issues and then somehow it changed to who was going to be taking the window seat.

"It's a miracle that they are actually teenagers already," Edward joked, shaking his head.

When he realized I wasn't moving, he turned to look at me. "You okay? You need some hand with removing the bags from the back? The porter should be here soon."

I couldn't hold the doubt any longer. "Aren't you coming in with us?"

I saw his eyes look down uncertainly before looking back up. "Tanya..."

"You're already here. What difference would it make if you just parked the car and just waited with us a little longer before we went off?"

He exhaled with his forehead beginning to crease.

I took a deep breath. "Our flight is leaving an hour. Just stay with me till I finish checking in. We would be going through the gates where you can't follow anymore…"

He closed his eyes as I felt my heart thumping painfully. Would he say no?

When he opened them again, the dull green had changed to a warm liquid. "Alright. I'll go with you."

He inhaled deeply. "Just let me help you guys get your stuff out from the back and I'll go park the car while you go in with them first. The check-in line might be pretty long."

He unbuckled his seatbelt and was out the door within seconds to help Irina and Kate remove the bags. I leaned back on my seat and placed my hand over my chest trying to calm myself down. Why was I being so worried about his reactions to whatever I do lately?

But it was no denial that it all started when she came into the campus. I even remember the first time I became wary of her when I heard Lauren Mallory talking about Edward sending Bella home in Calculus class. It took a lot of Rosalie's glares at Lauren to make me stay put in my seat and not turn the whole scene into an ugly interrogation.

I even still remember the first time he ever talked about her. It was crazy, especially when I noticed the way he was talking about her. But how could he still like her even after what she did by getting that Jacob Black to clamp his car up? What did she have that was so worth it?

It was sill clear in my mind the first time I ever confronted him about her. It was on Thursday when he had invited her to sit with us in the cafeteria. I suppose not only did that give me a shock; it woke me up to think that I was already losing him. I was losing a battle against a girl who I didn't even know anything about. I had asked him my pondering question when I asked him to follow me away from the table.

"Why is she getting invited too our movie nights?"

"I don't see why I can't invite her, Tanya."

He wasn't even ashamed or afraid to look me in the eye when he said that. Those eyes were hard and cold, it didn't seem to want to give me a chance to redeem myself. Maybe I was too hurt to try and ask anything further after that. The way he looked at her while she was sitting there at our table was making my eyes sting and my insides burn.

It wasn't fair. He was looking at her the way I wanted him to look at me.

It was fated. That same weekend when she was spending her time with him, I was away from him, discovering that I was going to be separated from my friends – my family. And of course, the real deal was that she was actually the girl that he was betrothed to. I had no chance.

But it wasn't hard to hope. Hope isn't something that would always save you. It was something that could kill the very core of your self. But he is my friend, so I had to be supportive of him. I couldn't be selfish and I wasn't. I tried to ignore and push out everything that I could hear about them being together. And she didn't even want to accept him immediately when she found out.

What the hell is wrong with her? She doesn't deserve him. She would be better off with that Jacob Black.

But when Jasper told me at the party that Edward would only sing if it was a song that he could dedicate to her, it nearly wrenched my heart out. And she would be the one stomping all over it. I wasn't selfish – but when it came to the point where I finally had to leave, I couldn't help myself but want him all for myself. Even if it was only going to be for a final good bye.

Was that so bad?

He is my friend and if I would support him about her, he would do the same for me too, right? No – what am I saying? He's not my friend. He's my only love. The only one I ever wanted but never wanted me the same way. But why? What was it about me that wasn't up to his standard?

I could even still remember the first time I ever laid eyes on him.

"Tanya?" Edward's voice interrupted my thoughts.

He was leaning in from my passenger door and looking at me, puzzled. "Coming?"

Flashback

"Rose! That's not funny!"

Rosalie laughed, snickering at the beautiful paint splat she did at my apron.

"You're lucky I was wearing an apron. If I wasn't, you'd wish you hadn't done that…"

She grinned. "Nice try. You know you won't. You love me too much."

I rolled my eyes. "Only because you have a big, protective boyfriend like Emmett to cover over you. Besides that, you are useless. Just wait until I get my own boyfriend. He's going to be smarter and so much hotter than your Emmett."

Rosalie's eyes suddenly lit up. "I know just the guy for you."

I shook my head. "I don't date any of the losers in our school, Rose. You and Alice have taken up the two best looking ones."

"No seriously, I know a guy who fits those criteria."

"What criteria? A loser?"

"No! A guy that is so much hotter and smarter than my Emmett. In our school too!"

"Don't play games with me, Rose. If you mean Mike Newton, I'm going to rip that pretty -"

"Edward Masen!"

"Ed-who?"

"Edward Masen. He's a really nice guy. He sits with us, you know? He's Emmett and Jasper's best friend. Alice treats him like a brother too."

"Really? If he's so good looking, how come I haven't heard of him before?"

"Because you are always in your own little world. Besides, you've only just arrived here this year so you probably haven't heard much about him yet."

"Then why isn't he dating you? You are technically the bomb of our school."

Rosalie pursed her lips. "Apparently he's pretty choosy about who he wants to date," and she quickly added, "And besides, I have Emmett."

I stifled laughter before asking, "He sits with you? I don't remember seeing a guy who looks better than Jasper or Emmett with you guys before. Even when I wasn't sitting with you guys yet."

"He's been away for awhile. He's got some family problems lately."

"Ah, okay. So is he here today?"

Rosalie nodded enthusiastically. "Yup, yup. He'll be sitting with us today."

When the bell rang, Rosalie was in a hurry to get to the cafeteria as she scurried around cleaning up the paints and brushes. She was really crazy about Emmett since they got together in the sixth grade. I couldn't understand how two such beautiful people could have in one relationship. How could all that beauty and ego be played up all at once?

As we were walking down the staircase, I muttered, "I hate it when people stare. You make me feel so ugly at times, Rose."

"You realize a lot of people are staring at you too. You're pretty hot too, okay?" Rosalie laughed.

I shook my head. "That's got to be the biggest fib I've ever heard."

When we entered the cafeteria, we immediately made our way to the table. I sat next to Rosalie as usual when she sat between me and Emmett. Jasper and Alice always sat opposite us. It was today I began to notice there was actually an extra chair opposite me.

"Extra company?" I asked Alice.

She nodded. "Yeah. Edward's back! You haven't met him yet though."

Emmett snorted. "Nothing special about him. So don't feel intimidated by his stares. He's a weird kid."

"Shut up. He's my bro, man," Jasper snapped.

"Hey, he's mine too!" Emmett insisted.

Alice winked at me. "They are just jealous because Edward is someone they can never be."

I shrugged and began to take out my purse to get something to eat. I suddenly saw someone come around the corner of the cafeteria swiftly and propped down on the chair opposite me.

The most amazing voice floated into my ear. "Mrs. Colby is killing me. She's making me do errands for her everyday now. I'm going to work myself to death!"

I looked up to stare into the most mesmerizing pair of eyes I ever laid mine on. That boy with auburn hair and long slender hands that were placed neatly on the table looked at me with an interest that was a first.

He smiled at me. "Hello. I don't recall seeing you before."

I began to wonder if my mouth was hanging open so wide till a fly could go buzzing in and I wouldn't even notice. His eyes were twinkling in amusement as he saw my flabbergasted expression on my face.

"Wow…"I found myself muttering.

He leaned forward. "Its okay, I feel the same way about you too."

It was then, everyone on the table started laughing and Edward grinned at me sheepishly. I didn't care about the teases I got later. I had never seen anything so beautiful in my entire life. From the moment I heard that voice, it mesmerized the living day lights out of me. I was hooked. There was definitely no turning back now, not that I was intending to anyway.

So the pursue of Edward Masen began.

It wasn't easy – and I even began to change the way I look for him. Time passed quickly during those years of my life and somehow I became as popular and confident as the rest did, partly because of the strong influence Rosalie had on me and everyone else. But ultimately, I came to realize that I am someone that Edward wasn't interested in.

But it didn't stop me. Not once.

I slipped the boarding passes out of our passports and left the check-in counter. I began to shuffle them neatly as I walked over to where Edward, Kate and Irina were. I looked up and I couldn't help smiling when I saw Kate and Irina shooting glares at each other while Edward was sitting in between them with a clear amusement plastered over that perfect face of his.

Suddenly, he took out his phone to answer it as evidently it was ringing. I could make out the words like "Yes, Alice…" and "I'm coming as soon as possible…"

If I was the old me, I wouldn't be able to tell what was crumbling inside me. My dignity or my heart but every part of my body was telling me it was the first guess. But you'd begin to learn that no matter how long you try to constantly tell yourself everything will turn out fine, sometimes it doesn't.

Edward shut the phone and when he was placing it back into his pocket, he suddenly saw me and stood up to walk over.

"Hey, everything fine? Settled?"

I nodded. "Yeah, we'll be heading to through the gates now. Both of them would probably want to go through the shops they have on the other side."

Edward laughed slightly. "So, do you want me to wait for you still? Your flight isn't till about half an hour more. But you know the security checks and all – maybe it's good to leave early too."

I looked at him for a moment before shaking my head. "Go."

He blinked. "Huh?"

"Go, Edward. Just go now. They're waiting for you…"

"Ah. Nah, its fine. I still got a little time left, I suppose. Don't worry about them."

My throat was on fire. "No, it's not that…I think you really should go now. I've been a little too selfish lately. I don't want to be a sore thumb in between you and…her."

I couldn't bring myself to say her name.

Before Edward could say anything, I pressed my lips together and shook my head again. My eyes were about to give away my emotions but I was fighting in my own mind to prevent it from doing what it wanted to do. Not now, not in front of him, was all I could tell myself.

"I don't have a problem with her at all, Edward. It's just that, I've always been here and you've never given me that second look….not once."

His unfathomable eyes gazed at me. It was like he was trying to understand what my motives were but the truth was, I had none. You know what they say – if you love him, set him free. If you are meant to be, he'll come back. Although it probably doesn't apply considering he's already engaged to be married to her…

His voice was so smooth that it was almost like it was unintentionally caressing me. "You are a very dear friend to me, Tanya. You have always been one and I don't want to ruin that. We have something that is different in our own way."

I looked down towards our feel for a brief second. "Can I have a last request though?"

Edward's eyes twinkled cheekily. "Depends. You know it always depends on how realistic they are."

I giggled. "It won't be anything worse than asking you to drive down to San Francisco to get me a birthday present like last year."

When his eyes were trying to hypnotize the answers out from mine, I said it, barely a whisper, "Could you give me a hug…?"

I prayed that he wouldn't ask me to repeat my request. I think even a stuck-up girl who is so full of herself, if I do say so myself, would feel dejected at the very thought of this. Everyone falls in love. It just depends on how you react towards it.

He looked at me sideways and his eyes turned to a warm green liquid again as he sighed softly. He pursed his lips before slowly moving forward. My body relaxed from the tight, rigid position I was in before to a looser pose as he encircled his arms around me on my back. All my attempts to tell myself that he was technically a married man turned to dust when he allowed me to rest my head against his chest and wrap my arms around him as well.

I couldn't hold it any longer. "I love you, Edward…"

I felt him exhaling gently. "Take care of yourself."

Edward's POV

"Dude!" Emmett boomed when he saw me getting out of the car in the car park.

He came running over. "You're so damn late!"

I locked up the car and turn to face him. "How late?"

"Very. Now, we don't go by the front. We'll go by the back door so we can go directly behind the stage. Jasper doesn't want anyone to see you until the performance starts."

"Right. Because Jasper happens to have planned everything out," I shook my head as I followed Emmett around the building.

There was a door behind where normally the janitor only uses but Emmett and Jasper were crafty enough to take care of those arrangements since we were in the fifth grade together. Alice was waiting on the other side and her face lit up when she saw me.

But it changed to a frown soon enough. "You're not exactly early."

I could only shake my head.

"Did something happen?" Alice asked, much softer now.

Emmett called, "I'll go and let Jasper know that you're here!"

I made sure Emmett wasn't eavesdropping before explaining, "She wanted me to wait with her till she finished the check-in. Then, she wanted a hug…so – yeah, it's not that bad…"

Alice looked like she wanted to say something nasty before she just muttered under her breath, which probably wasn't for my ears to hear. "You nearly lost Bella tonight you idiot..."

We were walking up the dark staircase that moment leading to the back of the hall where the stage was situated. When Alice said those words, I stopped abruptly and looked at her.

"What?"

Alice hadn't stop walking. "Come on, I don't want the entire thing to be delayed. I scheduled it perfectly."

"Alice!"

She sighed and turned around impatiently. "What?"

"Have I…? Is she – ?"

"No, she's not. Whatever you're thinking of, she's not. She's still here but her faith in you probably just went down the cliff. I've never seen her looked so broken up over anything before. Not that I can recall…" and Alice gestured for me to follow her quickly.

When I caught up with her, I decided it was better to let it all out than to keep it inside of me. Besides, it was hard to keep secrets from Alice since we first met. It would be easier to tell Bella later. I didn't want this to be kept from her either.

"She did mention that she was in love with me…"

Alice didn't even blink. "Ah, I see. Well, she's finally told it to your face then instead of implying it to everyone else."

I gritted my teeth. "It's not as simple as it seems. Just because you're not the one saying those words doesn't mean it's not hard to take it in as well. Especially, when you don't love them back the same way!"

Alice laughed. "You take things too personally, Edward. She'll get over it and live. You, on the other hand are about to let the person you love, that you feel that way."

She winked at me. "Imagine this as your last chance. You could lose her if you don't let her know now."

Suddenly, Jasper appeared and quickly said, "We can't find Bella. I think she's in the toilet."

Alice groaned. "I'll get Angela to go and fetch her," and she turned to look at me before walking off, "You, stay here. Jasper will let you know when you can come out."

Jasper raised an eyebrow at me. "Okay, I won't ask but, just wondering, did you cheat on Bella? I mean it's fine if you did, I won't tell her or anything. You can trust me."

I glared at Jasper. "Don't give me a reason to make you go face first to the floor, Jazz."

Jasper chuckled. "Well, did you? I wouldn't hate you if you did, but that'd make you a creep, bro."

"Nothing happened!" I roared.

The noise on the other side of the stage was getting louder. I suppose Emmett had gone out and started rounding the crowd around back into the hall with Rosalie.

Jasper was trying so hard not to laugh again. "Okay, okay. I believe you."

When I continued to glower at Jasper, he quickly wiped the smile of his face and asked, "So, figured out what song you want to perform yet?"

"Yeah, let's do the song that we practiced a couple of times before a few months ago. The one that Emmett said was emotional. I thought about it on the way back from the airport."

"Wow, what gave you the inspiration?" Jasper grinned.

Before I could say anything, Emmett yelled from the other side for Jasper to come out to host.

But when I thought of Jasper's question, I began to wonder why too. I roughly thought of Tanya's words. She had only told me that because she was finally leaving. She knew she wasn't going to be seeing me everyday from then on. It shows that you should never take anything for granted and by the time you are about to see it slip away, it's too late.

Which made me realize – what if this was probably the only chance I could tell Bella? Life was so unpredictable, who knew whether I would get this chance tomorrow? Or after that? It was now or never. Even if she didn't feel the same way, it was okay. I would have the rest of my life with her to show her that everything I say to her was true.

"The girl of the hour! Our very own Bella Swan!" I heard Jasper announced loudly.

I shook my head fondly when I heard Jasper continue. "The birthday boy wishes to dedicate a song to her and here he is!"

I took a deep breath before walking out into the roars of the crowd. I couldn't see where Bella was as there were so many camera flashes and the noise was over whelming. Wherever she was, I hoped she would see how sincere I was doing this.

I really hoped she knew it.

Although I am a hardcore BxE fan, I beleive my soft spot for Tanya has arrived in this chapter. I felt really sad as I listened to the playlist song I wroteTanya's POV.I could picture Bella in this situation instead. I can sympathize with her situation considering there is alot of unrequited love out there. We experience it everyday! No:) Atleast, Tanya turns out to do the right thing after all in her own way.

Now don't we all want Edward as our best-guy-friend:)

I know many of you might not review this chapter but please do. The more reviews I get the faster I'll type and next chapter would be pretty fun for me considering it continues where the previous chapter left off. Ooh - now what can Edward be up to? Don't let your minds run away though! XD heehee

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