ARTHOR'S NOTE any and all talking from Anne Purves Duchêne is all fiction as in Kate Duchêne's mother never met Constance hardbroom ever in her lifetime nor even when Constance's letters to Anne are all not REAL AT ALL.
1977 - 1982
January 9th 1977
Severus birthday today, he's 18 can't even believe it. I got him a potions book from knockturn ally. He loves it so much & it's one he doesn't have. Which is really rare for me that am. He's very busy at a death eaters meeting on his birthday it is not right. I feel sick still dam flu.
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March 17th 1977
I am with child. We can have lots of babies. Told Severus earlier tonight. He seems very happy at the news. 2 months along. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
April 2nd 1977
Got a check up on the baby & baby is fine for a 3 months in belly. Severus still can't believe that I am with child neither can I. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________________
May 23rd 1977
Severus got me a set of Victorian books and I love them. I must get a French book so I can read violet le- duc, little part in the book. Haven't used French in a few years so I can't even remeber it at all.
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June 6th 1977
Baby started to kick. Woke me up at 4:00 am. Bladder hurts baby loves to kick that. My little one is a fighter. Hoping a girl. As long it's healthy I will be happy. Wanted to go to college cant do that now. I'm 17 years old now
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June 17th 1977
Nothing much today. Baby stared to kick yet again on bladder and my ribs.
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July 4th / 16th 1977
I have heard about an actress named Kate Duchêne from my dear sister ande and she saw Kate on the stage at Sussex University a few days ago and told me to go for her since Dora was not letting her go at all. I went all the way to the theater
Met her parents earlier tonight well Actually Anne & I bumped into each other. When I was looking for my father I could not even find him and well I really did bump in to Anne when I turned around & Said apologies for bumping into her and Anne said "Katie Shouldn't you be at the backstage go?"
To me & my response is "madam I'm not your child"
"Oh I'm so sorry you look like my daughter Catherine, She's in the play tonight. What's your name dear?" Mrs. Duchene said to me. "Aleksandra Viktoria Wolf & my father should be here soon if he knows where were seated for the play which I don't think he knows where are seats are at all."
"Well my dear you can set with me and my husband he should be here somewhere, he's always finding students of his from the college. My gosh it's going to start soon. Come Aleksandra." Well Anne took my arm and well kind of tugged me thought the heavy crowed made it thought the sea of people felt like minutes. Anne really kept bumping into mr Duchêne's other colleague from the college that know Anne and are happy Kate's first play is about to start.
That night the play was great & I saw Kate or as Anne would say "Katie girl". Well now I know why she thought I was Katie, we look so much alike it's scary. My father had a still photo of me & showed it to the usher and he thought that was Catherine & "no my daughter Aleksandra Victoria is here to see this girl we have heard from my eldest daughter who saw her at the Sussex college that the professor Louis Duchêne is here to night with his wife Anne. I was told to go to the backstage that girl looks like my daughter so much."
And the stupid usher finally got my papa back to me. It was before the play started
"Papa Oh thank heavens" oh so sorry where are my manners papa (pointing to Anne and then Louis) "papa this is Anne Duchêne and her husband Louis Duchêne. Did I say that right?"
"Yes I think you did young one." Anne said
The night was great at all angles. Anne has given me her addresses and phone number to ring at any time. slipped into my pocket.
Kate just stared at me and then said "So how old are you?" I said "17 why" my father really wanted to get home at that moment. Could not finish my talk with Katie girl, I am still laughing at her nickname.
"Alicky we need to go the carriage is here "my father said
"Okay papa"
Well see you later?" Anne said
"I really don't know ma'am?" I said
"Well deary hope you show up soon? Call me Anne, you Alicky are far to Formal at such a young age."
Anne bent down to my level and wisped in my right ear. I grabbed my little note and put it right into her coat pocket. Told Severus and Eileen everything that happened tonight. They seemed both puzzled at a Muggle liking me at such a short amount of time.
August 12th 1977
Lost so much time, these days. Gota go Bella's back and mad as hell. Ande married a mud blood that was 4 years ago. Why the hell Bella wants to bring that up in this house. Got letter from Anne Duchêne.
I was leaving the sitting room I felt like the baby wanted out. It was a horrible feeling. Alexei's birthday today 1904
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August 30th 1977
Stated on baby's rooms. They are from Aleksandra's children's rooms 1894 – 1917.
All their rooms 8. Sev saw the rooms tonight. He loves them. It's done in yellows, pinks, grays, blues, and greens. My child is very happy, still in belly an odd child I have.
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September 20th 1977
Our rooms are ready for our little girl.
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September 30th 1977
Write with a weak hand. It's 9 Am.6 hrs. Ago I gave birth to a girl. Didn't stop crying for a long time. It feels like someone ripped her out of me. They call it a stillborn my girly was dead before even coming out of my womb. Still numb. Haven't left bed yet, have to stay in bed so I don't bleed to death. Sev should just let me die. She was 3lbs. 18 oz. Named her Marie "may" snape. Why me what have I done to lose her.
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November 4th 1977
The ball was very lively at least, good friends and family. Severus & I came home at 1 am.
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December 24th 1977
Severus is trying to cheer me up. But it's not working.
People think alix Romanov had no more kids, but she did. 3 more only 2 survived to adulthood.
Alix divorced Nicky after the fake death. That's how Severus's great grand father on mothers side. He was a wizard and changed his name from Romanov to prince.
My Great grand mother alix Romanov changed her name from Romanov to black. So she could never be found,
Left the Muggle world and went into our world. She has never told any of us children how she lived after that.
We are NOT ALOWED to ask about that part of her life From February 1917 to December 1918.
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April 20th 1978 Prince Manor
Woke up again on the couch. Sev was watching me sleep. I watch Rus sleep to. It does not bother me at all. Ma & Dad are up dating the house, well it over 200 years old.
I asked them to leave the children's rooms alone for me to go thought them alone.
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August 15th 1978
Sev got the potions degree to the highest standard I am so proud of him. The youngest in history. Went flying on the broom me in front side saddle. Sev was in back holding me. Sev thinks its Victoriana. I just looked at him & started to laugh at him. So he started to laugh too. I think it's funny don't you?
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October 7th 1978
Do you know what I just found out? After some reading about how to kill an unborn baby without the mother knowing at all. My older sisters killed little may.
Today I almost killed them both. But Lucius walked in & threw me at a wall so hard my right ankle twisted. Couldn't get up shattered left leg in 2 different places. Could not feel right ankle. Bella had a look of worried over her face. That sacred me, I scooted away from her. Bella had to calm me down abit. Cissa tacked Lucius hard to the floor & stared to yell at him "you hurt one black you hurt all of us got it". Man she got off him, mad as hell. Cissa came over & got me up. Bella & Cissa got the floo powder, and called sev. He saw me land on the floor hard. Hrs. later Asleep But I took some dreamless sleep potion Strong version. Sev was sitting in a chair by the bed. Reading some thing looked up at me; I saw what he's looking at my God dam medical records. He seems worried about me, but then broke into a grin. The same grin when
I found out about may oh lord no. "We have another child Connie" I just sat there shocked. Poppy came in to do a scan if any thing needs to be fixed.
Poppy just had to ask this "so Constance how are you feeling"
Here's my response "like shit why oh & is my left leg shattered"
Poppy said "That leg of yours was fine"
"Shit Bella fixed it again" in shock
Sev said "What the hell happened at malfoy manor?"
I said "The usual why?"
Sev said "God dam it Constance, can't you keep those damable sisters of yours on a leash."
My response "That's there husbands deal now"
Poppy said "Severus told you right"
I said "Yeah he did and then broke in to a stupid grin"
Severus "Stop that Connie"
"Don't you dare, I don't want the child sev, don't want another may."
I started to Sob/cry.
Poppy left sev followed her out don't know what they talked about & really I don't give a dam. Severus looked grim. He sat down by me and kissed my forehead. Something is wrong.
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November 15th 1978
Auntie Olga is 84 years old today.
Nothing else happened, Family got together for a ball & party.
It was fun and party was done at 3 AM.
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December 27th 1978
Can't stop thinking and so many do's & don'ts for this child in me.
It feels like a boy. The baby has powers showing up though mine. Nicely 4 months along
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May 6th 1979
Given birth to healthy baby 6 lbs. 15 oz. I have named him Nicolas Alexandrovich snape. Sev is so happy, screamed so loud once. It's been about 6½ hours, since birth.
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May 9th 1979
Family is still happy about Nicolas Alexandrovich. Had his baptism at black manor .with all the family amama had a great old time with baby? Eileen is a really proud grandmother. Nicely is very quite in Eileen's arms looks at her very seriously. Or maybe studying her. Hell I did the same thing at my baptism. Amama grabbed the camera and took a photo of me right by Eileen; I look like I'm hovering over baby.
Very cute pic thought.
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We are so busy the whole family is coming over and I mean everybody that's over 100 people.
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September 1 1979
Lucius just came over to show baby in cissa's belly. I'll be the child is very big.
Nicky laughs and pulls Lucius hair. Only at 5 months old. Lucius should get his hair cut.
Severus has shoulder length hair. My little niece is coming over today. She is coming to Hogwarts in 1986. Ande should have named her Dora or at least a good name for her. The child hates her name so much. So we call her tonks I think that's absurd. Ande is pissed off at Bella and luc. Don't know what they did. Problem turned ande's husband into the dark lord for fun. That will make me pleased not by much. Severus has a broken rib & ankle. Bella fixed it the bested she could at the moment. Bella works against the dark lord so does sev, Lucius, narcissia & I. Are parents doing know of this betrayal. If any of us tell they will kill all of us. And we all have or are having kids right now.
September 7th 1979
Rus has a broken rib. Fixing him up. Are parents doing know of the betrayal that me & Cissa have done to the family. If they ever find out. Were so dead. Sev got hurt again my god this can't continue anymore. I've had it I'm thought with this shit. Nicky with his grandmother Eileen while I tend to sev's injuries again. Albus needs another spy. Gota go now later.
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September 10th 1979
Not much happing right now. Nicky is down for a nap. And I'm writing into you. Cissa said "we need prince manor again" because of tom riddle, I said yes as long it was okay with sev. Not much happing as of now. Nicky is taking a nap. Nicky said his first word poshins 'potions'. I'm very proud of my little boy. Severus came late again. The manor was updated the wards with Cissa and sev with me as the center person. Hurt like hell.
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November 15th 1979
Cissa is getting bigger with a glowing which is good. Severus is getting ready for the ball that the lestrages are giving in honor of grand duchess Olga nicholvena Romanova.
December 20th 1979
happing to re read the other entries. Lady's dressing room 1893. Severus just got me a rod Stewart album. It's called "Every picture tells a story" 1971. Slept on the couch again. Rus locked our bedroom door. So I woke him up by blasting track 4 by rod Stewart. Ha that got him up quickly. I'm still laughing my ass off. "Tomorrow is a long time" that's the track that got sev up.
December 30th 1979
Bella is here, Eileen is ill with flu. Elle is on the settee, with Nicky on her lap.
Bella and Cissa are weary of the babies that are still in the belly. Poor them NOT.
December 31st 1979
End of a decade, one hell of a ride.
Last day for 1970's. Oh thank god.
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January 5th 1980
March 30th 1980
Watching a film called the Charge of the light Brigade 1968, but set in 1854. I miss alix so much right now. Nicky began trying to walk and is falling. I put lots of pillows down so nicky lands on them it works. He's laughing, smiling like his dad. Severus came into watch Nicky & or came to talk to Eileen & me. He looks like hell right now. He's been using the pepper up again. Dam him I can't stand seeing Rus look dead on his feet. I need to start helping him.
April 14th 1980
Been helping poppy with all the potions, for the hospital wing.
Sev said that for me to help him was nice. Stared on the wolfs bane. Severus is sleeping its 10:00pm. Stared on the correcting on the classes homework 1st thought 7th year done by 3 am. Went to bed at 4: 30 Am. Rus is still asleep, I haven't slept very well lately.
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May 6th 1980
Nicky turned 1 today. Elle is still with us. Thank god well for now.
Nicky's walking now very happy about that. So tired these days.
My Rus is sick. I can't stand Rus doing this for Albus anymore.
Bellatrix is really tired of the ministry trying to pin stuff on her.
Aren't we all, every body is asleep right now? I need more sleep.
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June 6th 1980
Another b- day turned 20. Sev, Elle, Nicky, Cissa & bellatrix are here for the party. Severus is sick with flu after party.
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June 15th 1980
Nasta's birthday today, she's 79. Years old. Close family here at black manor.
Bella had the baby & it's a girl.
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July 12th 1980
Quite busy today lots of books to organize them before the new school year. Potions to brew also to update the wolfs bane. Nicky's getting into things. Sev is up & about. Nicky loves his dear papa. Sev always puts Nicky on his hip quite cute. Sev is looking a hole lot better then at my birthday party. Poppy came by to do the routine check up on Nicky 30 minutes. Severus wants to travel. I want to go to Russia to the Sea or at least the Alexander palace.
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August 30th 1980
Getting ready for Hogwarts again.
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December 31st 1980
Were with Eileen, Cissa & Lucy showed up with a happy dragon (Draco).
Bella & rody are here with Mirabella. Draco loves to be with me and sev.
Were having photo's done. The adults first then the children.
With the sisters and son in laws and the mix and match ones too.
The children are having fun. Cissa and I made faces at them, Lucy & sev did too
When sev & I did the pulling our faces, Cissa said "I haven't seen you do that in years Connie" Well I haven't had the reason too until now. Nicky did a face mimicking his uncle Lucius. Anyway all of us girly dears were laughing so hard. Eileen chuckled; she seems to have had a good time with us.
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March 20th 1981
Sev joined the order of the phoenix
I've all ready joined over 2 years ago. Saw lily for the first time in 12 years.
I detested Riddle and all that he stood for and would willingly see him roasted over a slow fire and ripped to shreds by harpies. Plus it wound be great to see that in my time.
My Child is with me actually well children.
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April 10th 1981
Were still at Hogwarts. Severus is in his last classes, Nicky is with him.
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May 6th 1981
Nicky turned 2. Eileen came over, need to get the gift in the vault.
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June 7th 1981
Given birth to a baby boy we have named Aleksander "Alex" Viktor snape 1 lbs. 18 oz.
Still born this moning Oh lord help me.
Nicky's happy about little brother. Had to tell nicky alex has died nicky cryed with me and severus.
September 1st 1981
Another year at Hogwarts. Severus is working on a new class plan & homework. I say about dam time to change that old plan it's from Severus's mothers time we showed her the plans a couple of days ago. But there really out of date like 1940. That's really old.
November 1st 1981
Very uneventful year. Lily & James were killed by tom riddle. Harry potter is my godson. Draco is Severus's godson. We can't have Harry because we are not blood relatives. God dam you Albus Dumbledore. I'm fighting that at the ministry & against Albus. As his god mother I have every right to have him in my custody.
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November 9 1981
Can't have Harry at all. Sev is a suspect at that dam Ministry. Bigots the lot of them.
Albus is a lying S.O.B. Why us, Nicky is crying again gota go.
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May 1982
Nicky is 3 years old.
Severus is getting sicker then normal. I'm getting them to. I can't stand getting sick with the flu and other colds.
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June 6th 1982
Have finely a baby girl & in prayer we have named her alix snape.
Severus seems pleased.
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June 25th 1982
Sev is busy trying to entertain Nicky and Alicky.
Well I think he needs to learn how to deal with both of the children
Diapers included, the fun part is the spit up, Alicky can really do that well.
Albus is really mad at me. I don't want to be at Hogwarts all year round.
Would you? I didn't think so. Later
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July 6th 1982
Nicky is running around the house. I have alix in my arms at the moment.
Sending Nicky to cissa's house for a few days. So we can bond with our new daughter.
Got him packed and ready to go. 1 month old alix
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July 23rd 1982
Sev took us back to prince manor. Just to check up on Eileen, seeing if she killed Tobias yet. I'm hoping she does. Dammed she hasn't yet. Toby is in the snape house in spinners end. That is a really good thing.
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August 30th 1982
Were packing up Stella palace and selling it. Too much stuff here. Going to sell and actions this shit off. But having to worry about the house all year and only here for a month at a time. The children are in bed. I am lying on the couch in the lilac sitting room. Must thank amama for the copy room spell. Her mauve room was so it back in 1896, now the room is kind of coming back in style.
June 7th 1982
Aleksander would be 1 today. Yesterday on my birthday I have just given birth to a girl. Very happy and tired, quick birth the last 40 minutes were hard.
October 31st 1982
Draco & Nicky are dressed as death and Merlin. There very cute.
Got photo's of the boys. Alicky has a baby princess costume.