KFG24: Goddamnit... My original idea for my RinXSaiXLen entry had been totally different, but I couldn't do it right... So here it is, an extremely short RinXSaiXLen drabble from Sai's POV. *sighs* Yeah, it's crap. But damnit I was determinedto have an RSL entry in this 'contest'! So here it is, my second entry.
"Poor Sai!" Everyone says. "The poor girl," they think, "does she know that he's using her?"
I know. I know Len only agreed to go out with me because he wants to rid himself of the strange feelings he doesn't understand. I know that his passion for me is just a bad imitation of what he feels for his sister.
"Poor Sai!" They say, and yet still they wish that they could be in my position. "Rin is so mean!"
I know. I've noticed that Rin will only hold my hand after Len has. Only kisses me, only hugs me, only makes love to me - after Len has. Every time I think about it I just laugh and wonders if Rin's really okay with indirect kisses and sex.
Len is extremely intelligent, he knows what I do with Rin behind his back. But while he got the brains, his twin got the guts. So he won't say anything. And Rin's not intuitive enough to realize that Len not only mirrors her looks, but her feelings as well. She thinks that there's nothing to say.
I hope that they keep their silence forever.
I know it's cruel to keep them apart, but I also know that if the twins were to ever confess their love for each other, they'd live happily ever after.
Together.
Without me.
And while I love them both and want them to be happy - I refuse to be tossed to the side like that.
And that's why every time Rin asks if it's alright for a person to love her brother in a more than sisterly way, I pretend to be horrified and ask her if she's kidding. And when Len gasps her name during a passionate moment, I remind him that my name is Sai.
Because while I don't mind being shared by them, I have never been fond of sharing what belongs to me.