Sonny giggled and put her plate down to the table. She looked around her. All her friends had smiles on their faces. Sonny smiled weakly and looked around Nico's back yard. They had spent lots of nights here. It was the place the cast came to hang out after the Condor's studios was shut down. Due to the war.. Sonny shook the thought of war back and focused on the good times. The good times she has already had and the good times what are yet to come. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she was sure that everything was going to be alright. In that moment, laughing along with her friends, everything felt so right. Like nothing was wrong.

It didn't feel like world war 3. It didn't feel like 2 of her best friends were joining her other best friend in war. It didn't matter that they were only 18 years old. It didn't matter that this night was the last night together before a long time. It was all blocked out of their thoughts.

'' Sonny? '' Grady said and raised an eyebrow at Sonny, smirking a little. Sonny smiled at her friend. The one everyone called 'dumb' or 'idiot'. The truth was.. Grady was actually quite smart. But he chose to live in his own little world. Of simplicity. His world was kind of like a child's world.

No problems, at least he blocked them out. Everything was interesting, there was only black or white. Sometimes Sonny loved grady for that. He made her feel like it was all so simple.

But then.. at times, she wanted to shake him and yell at him to snap out of it.

'' yeah? '' Sonny smiled at Grady. Grady grinned big and made puppy dog eyes at her '' you know.. I would really miss your awesome pancakes.. ''

Nico jumped up and ran next to Sonny, trying to do puppy dog eyes as well '' please? ''

Sonny couldn't help but laugh at the boys faces and looked at Tawni and Zora, who nodded at her. '' Okay.. '' she shrugged '' but only if everyone helps! '' she grinned big.

Grady and Nico grinned big and started pulling Sonny out of her chair. Sonny laughed as she felt herself getting pushed towards the kitchen. Suddenly Tawni appeared in front of her and smirked big. Sonny looked at her confused. Tawni motioned towards the pool, just a few feet away from Sonny and the guys. Sonny grinned big and nodded lightly. She also caught Zora's eye and gave her a signal. The signal they always used to push the guys into the pool. It was an usual thing when they were hanging out.

With in seconds, Sonny made a quick turn and pushed Grady into Nico's side, making them stumble towards the pool. At that time, Tawni and Zora were already ready and gave the guys the final push that caused them to fall into the pool. But the boys knew that it was coming. So they managed to pull Tawni and Zora into the pool with them. Sonny could hear Tawni's shrieks, and the others laughing and started cracking up as all her cast mates resurfaced one by one. They all looked at Sonny, still dry and on land, and gave each other a look. Sonny's eyes widened as she knew what was about to happen. She tried to run off, but it wasn't a big yard and there wasn't anywhere to run to.

With in seconds she felt herself being pushed off the ground and she found herself in the pool, with her friends.

After they all had dried up they finally managed to get to the kitchen. They started making the pancakes and chatted about stuff like unicorns and rainbows. Well not really. Just stuff actually..

neither of them daring to say what they all were thinking. There were no smiles on their faces anymore. The thought of the guys going into war had sunk in. As Sonny flipped another pancake she couldn't take the chit chat anymore. '' Nico, Grady.. promise you'll be safe? '' she shrugged and looked at the guys. The guys fidgeted a little but nodded and gave the girls weak smiles '' no need to worry about us. We've got each other's backs '' Nico smiled and patted Grady's back. '' yeah, that's what i'm worried about. '' Zora muttered and smirked. Sonny gave her a playful glare and turned her eyes back to the pancakes. Tawni started talking the same moment '' you guys. I miss you already .. '' she stated and everyone could hear the tears in her voice. Sonny turned around just in time to see Nico, Grady and Tawni hugging. she gave Zora a nod and they joined the hug. they stayed like that for a long time, all of them whispering goodbyes and comforting words. When they all pulled back, the whole group had tears in their eyes.

Sonny weakly smiled and turned back to the pancake, that had burned black already '' Nico, you like crispy don't you? '' she smirked and showed him the pancake.

He chuckled and shook his head '' no. but i'll eat if you want me to.. ''

Sonny smiled at him and felt a tear roll down her cheek.

They stayed like that for the whole night. All crying and laughing at the same time. In the morning they all went to the airport to send the guys off.

When Sonny got home from the airport, she looked around the empty apartment and shrugged. The loneliness was getting to her. Normally, her mum would be here with her, but her mum had gone to Wisconsin to help her relatives. Sonny had chose to stay because she had hope for So Random. She also couldn't leave her friends.

As she thought about her friends, she couldn't help but feel depressed. She felt like everyone was starting to leave her. First Chad, now Nico and Grady. Everyone was leaving. Soon, Zora would go too. Her parents were taking her back home. Zora was from Texas and her parents wanted her to see the place she was born in. Sonny was also pretty sure, that Tawni wasn't going to stay for long too.

Tawni had once told her about her summer house in Canada. It wasn't not that long ago actually.

She had told Sonny that about 4 days ago, when they were discussing if they were going to stay in LA. Sonny wanted to stay in LA. So bad..

she wanted to be here when the troops came home. When Chad came home.

She wanted to see him as soon as possible. But every day it was becoming more clear that they weren't coming home anytime soon. So Sonny was starting to think about going to Wisconsin more and more. She would be with her family there.

So there Sonny sat, a huge blanket wrapped around her body and her eyes focused on the computer screen, waiting for Chad to come online. She didn't know what the time was where ever Chad was, but she knew that Chad would come online even if it was 4 am there. He had promised her..

before he left..

Chad looked down and smiled weakly '' I'm doing something not egoistic for a change. ''

Sonny smiled weakly at him and grabbed his hand '' just promise me. ''

Chad chuckled sadly and rubbed his thumb over Sonny's hand '' anything for you. ''

Sonny bit her lip '' keep in touch. Everyday.. ? ''

Chad smiled and pulled Sonny into a hug '' of course. You have skype right? ''

Sonny felt Chad kiss her hair and wrapped her arms around his waist. She nodded weakly as she felt tears starting to well in her eyes again. Ever since she had found out that Chad was going to war, she had cried a lot. She didn't understand why. They were frenemies.

They had their fine, good battles everyday. She was trying to tell herself that she was going to miss their fights.

That was only the half truth, she knew it well. The truth is, Sonny had feelings for Chad. She didn't understand them. All she knew, she didn't want nothing to happen to Chad. And she didn't want to not talk to Chad. She also didn't want chad risk his life. Everyday.

Nobody knew what was going to happen.

Chad finally pulled back from the hug and kissed Sonny's cheek '' I've gotta go.. i'll come back alive. '' he smirked. Sonny smiled sadly at him and looked at his eyes '' you better be alive when you come back.. '' she muttered and looked at Chad as he slowly started making his way to the car, waiting for him. Sonny gulped down her tears and waved at Chad as he drove past her. Sonny felt her tears roll down her cheeks as she felt a hand on her shoulder. She turned her head and came face to face with Chad's parents. They smiled sadly at her and Sonny smiled weakly at them. They didn't know each other well, but well enough. Chad's father motioned towards his car, offering Sonny a ride home. Sonny nodded and just started making her way to the car. They were all too upset to talk.

Sonny jolted up and looked around. She had fallen asleep at the table. She quickly ran a hand through her hair and yawned big. Her eyes focused on the screen again as she noticed a window, that wasn't there the night before. She quickly scanned through the words, sent to her.

'' Sonny. I'm sorry I can't talk much. It's pretty hectic here. I'm fine though. Don't worry.

I won't be able to talk to you.. I don't know when I will again. Just don't worry okay?

I'll contact you if I finally can. Say hi to my parents for me, would you?

oh. and just in case.. all the fighting was my way of letting you know.

I really really like you Sonshine.. more than a friend. And I know that it's a lame way to say this but - '' Sonny read a loud the letter written on her computer and frowned as the message stopped midsentence. She tried to find any clues of what had happened but couldn't. She just kept staring at the letter, as thought were flying through her head. What did he mean by hectic? Will he be okay? why didn't he finish the letter?

And he liked her? '' Chad. I like you too. I want to say it too.. Where are you? '' she whispered.

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