Freddie's POV
I stared blankly at the front of the room as Mrs. Briggs gave us a lecture about why she hates bright colors. Doesn't she know we could care less? I turn my head to the right to stare down the time and it seems the more I stare the slower the time goes by. Glancing around the room, I smile as I see Carly quickly jotting down notes as if each word Mrs. Briggs said was extremely important. Continuing to look around, my eyes fall upon Sam. She had a smirk on her face and she was doodling something into a journal. I start feeling my eyes locked on her beautiful gold curls and I can't look away. A little voice starts speaking up in my mind.
Freddie ask her out to the dance
No, why would I do that?!
Because you love her
What, I do not!
Do to
No
Don't lie to me I know you do!
Ok I don't even know why I am fighting with you! Uh me. I don't know why I am fighting with myself just leave me alone!
No, why do you deny your love!
Because she'll never love me back
YES SHE WILL, ASK HER OUT!
"FINE I WILL ASK HER OUT!! JUST QUIT SCREAMING AT ME!!!!" I screamed.
Everyone in the classroom was staring at me, even Sam had stopped doodling and was now holding back a laugh.
"Hey dorkwad you realize you just screamed that out loud." Sam said still chocking back the laugh.
"Damn it!" I yelled and then realized I had just sworn In the middle of class.
I hang out with Sam to much and this is what I get for it. Mrs. Briggs glared at me.
"Freddie to the priciples office!"
"What!"
"You heard me! NOW!" I hung my head and slowly walked towards the door. Carly shot me a pityful look and I gave her a brief smile. As I passed Sam's desk she smirked.
"Hey Freddirty mouth Benson, I guess your mom will have to wash your mouth out with soap"
"Haha really funny" I said sarcasticly. I was about to countinue to the door when I noticed Sam's journal open on the desk with the doodle in it.
"Oh I think you should see this"
"See what?! I told you to go to….." trailed off when she saw the drawing. It was a drawing of the classroom and was at the front of the class bending over after she had dropped her pencil. Sam is in the class and she is pointing at with a speech bubble over her head that said 'hey class look at Briggs' fat ass!'
"SAM PRINCIPLE'S OFFICE NOW!!!!" Mrs. Briggs screamed.
"yeah, yeah I now"
"But first hand me that journal" Sam looked at her journal then back at .
"but-"
"HAND IT TO ME!!!"
Sam sighed and handed it to her. I grabbed Sam's arm and dragged her with me to the principles office.
"Freddie I need that diary!" Sam fought back my arm.
"That was a diary?" I asked surprised.
"Yeah I write in it all the time and it has my deepest secrets in it. You don't want to know what would happen if read them. She could distroy my entire life." Sam said in a serious tone. I couldn't imagine Sam with a diary, it wasn't like her.
"Don't worry we'll get it back "
"If you do find it you better not read it!"
"I won't Sam, I promise" we smiled at each until we got called into the office by
Mr. Franklin's assistant. Sam had a look of nervousness as we walked in and took a seat in front of 's desk even though this type of thing happens everyday for her.
"Detention." said Ted.
"WHAT!" we yelled together.
"Just don't do it again" ted said
Sam and I walked to Carly's after we served a seemingly long detention. I had time to think in that two hours and decided to ask Sam to the dance to avoid another incounter in the middle of class with that voice in my head. I think I'm going crazy. I took my phone out of my pocket and began texting Carly.
Freddie: hey
Carly: hey how wuz detention
Freddie: suckish
Carly: so I hear
Freddie: I know this sounds insane but I think I'm going to ask Sam to the dance when get there.
Carly: OMG seriously!
Freddie: yeah don't make me change my mind
Carly: Sorry I'm just glad you gave up on me
Freddie: Yeah anyway when I get there leave the room and go upstaires so we can be alone
Carly: gottcha
Sam's POV
"Um Carly don't you have something to do upstairs?" Freddie asked
"No I don't have anything to do" Carly replied confused. Freddie nodded to the stairs And after a while Carly caught on.
"Oh yeah that thing I have to do upstairs" Carly got up from between Freddie and I and walked upstaires leaving us alone on the couch.
"So…." Freddie says
"So…"
"You know I was wondering if you…" Freddie started but trailed off.
"I asked carly and she said no"
"No actually I wanted to see if you…"
"If I'd what? Ask another girl out for you?"
"No I actually I was wondering if maybe you'd…you know"
"I don't know Freddie so maybe if there's something you want to say you should go out and say it." I said trying to get him to spit out whatever he wanted to say.
"Well I wondered if you…" Freddie trailed off again.
"Oh for godsake Freddie, Just ask her out already!" Carly yelled from upstaires. I tried not to laugh and Freddie blushed.
"Yeah thanks a lot Carls" Freddie said sarcasticly.
"Your welcome Freddo" She yelled out.
I didn't know what to say. Why is he asking me out? Suddenly it hits me. He is asking me out because no other girl will say yes. Is that the only reason he is asking me out? Just because he wants someone to love him and he doesn't care who gives it to him.
"No" I say.
"Why not?"
"Because I would never date a dork like you." I said but didn't mean it. I couldn't help being mean to him. He broke my heart and that changed me.
Freddie's POV
LATER THAT NIGHT
I thought about what she had said earlier and realized it was the Sam side of her. I love her but I only love Samantha side of her not the Sam side. Samantha was goofy, fun, cool, outgoing, amazing, and had a heart unlike Sam. They were the same girl and yet they were a completely different girl. I hoped that one day the Samantha side may shine through. But even when it did it was only for a brief moment and then the Sam side would take over and cause hurt. I hated how Sam would treat me and would usually hurt her back. She brought out my bad side.
I'm not scared of you now
Or so i say
There's no reason to run
Although i may
I'm not as sure as i seem
This much i know
What does it mean you leave and i follow
I could try to forget what you do when i let you get
Through to me but then you do it over again
I could rage like a fire and you'd bring rain i desire
Til you get to me on my morningside
Keep my distance i tried
No use
But no matter the miles
I'm back to you
I could try to forget what you do when i let you get
Through to me but then you do it over again
I could rage like a fire and you'd bring rain i desire
Til you get to me on my morningside
Let me down you say never baby blues don't you ever
I'm used to being one with the misfortune to find
Afternoons run for cover and full moons just wonder
What it looks like here on my morningside
Look back don't you dare let me start to do that
I don't care if the things that i have
Only make me afraid to lose i
Need to let go
Need to want to keep letting you know
That we both have a reason to follow
Long as we let this lead i'm barely breathing
I try to forget what you do to me but then you do it over again
I could rage like a fire and you'd bring rain
Til you get to me on my morningside
Let me down you say never baby blues don't you ever
I'm used to being one with the misfortune to find
Afternoons run for cover and full moons just wonder
What it looks like here on my morningside
I was listening to the radio and thinking about Sam just before bed and Suddenly got an idea about how to get the Samantha side out of Sam.