Dear Daniel,
If there's one great difficulty I have come to face in life, it's letting go. I'm the type of girl who can take things for granted. Only to find that one day, I open my eyes and realize that they're gone. Knowing that you're leaving in the next couple of days, I feel the need to write everything down. As there is no chance I'll be able to sum it all up in a matter of minutes.
Claire gave me a heads up as to why you've changed paths so quickly, and how you need Betty in your life. Daniel, admitting that you need her is not making you a weaker person. She's an amazing woman, who's grown up so much in the last four years. Whenever I've been in my most vulnerable of moments, Betty's been the shining light at the end of the tunnel. But most of all, I've seen her change you. She's impacted on so many of our lives. Now I'm not sure whether it's just dependency you find in her, or something more. Just go for it Daniel. You've found someone you can relate to, much deeper than anyone else. And don't be mad at your mother for telling me. She's a wonderful person too, and you're very lucky to have her in your life.
With you leaving to travel four thousand miles away from home, there's somethings that can't be left unsaid. It obvious that we have a lot of history between us, one that is both messy and complicated. Needless to say you've changed my life. Mode has been a huge stepping stone for me, without it, I honestly wouldn't know where I'd be. Looking back on our relationship, I don't want you to apologize anymore than you have. We both made mistakes in the past, which we've come to learn from. The last couple of months have been the happiest I've had in a long time. You've showed me hope towards love and that I'm capable of doing much more than answering phones and looking pretty. I can't thank-you enough for that.
Daniel, you've been one of the people that leaves a smile on my face. A person that can make me laugh and forget about everything else. The times we spent together are going to be memories that will never become absent from my mind. As much as I wished you would stay here and live with me in New York, I need to let you go. You have so much left of your life to live, partying and whatever else. Give Betty and you a chance, who knows, I might be coming to an engagement sometime soon.
Who knows what the future holds. For me, I'm hoping to find my inner stylist. Being Fey Sommers' daughter, the genes must kick in somewhere. However even if five or ten years from now I'm sitting in an apartment, married with kids, I'm sure to look back on the photos I have of the magazine. When I drink a glass of champagne, I'll think of those drunken parties we went to together, and the times we had.
By the time you get this letter you'll probably be one the plane, halfway to London.
All the best for the future and remember I will always love you Daniel Meade.
Take care,
Amanda xo