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2/3/15 – Saturday- bored- nothing to do-

I'm going for a walk. I think I might put up another 'free cats' sign. They are really getting out of control, im just waiting for Tammy's kitties to show there furry faces.

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3:34

Great. Just dandy. Now Kiba comes into this, I walked to the park, and I found him looking around in the corner behind the toilets (know for its dero population, yes, there is a while community living behind the toilets.) he gave some money to two strangers and left with a bundle. Oh, very secretive. Drugs, duh.

I'm tired. Really, I am. Otherwise I'd be spaz. I didn't get any sleep last night, Gaara is angry at me and I have now 3 and ½ (the ½ being Shikamaru, coz he's so thin and he hasn't exactly come to me.) people begging for answers from me, and I have no clue. Im tired.

Diary's are for feelings. And I'm getting sad myself. I don't know who to go too, and seeing Kiba made me realize it, I need to tell Iruka I can't Debate, it'll be one step too far. I can't do it. Let alone go as Sasuke's girlfriend. I'm not used to this lifestyle. I'm tired.

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3:37

I'm not getting into it. That's that. Kiba's drugs are his business. Infact, I should most likely get out of everybody's business altogether. We are hurt by our bonds. Sasuke once said that. Maybe it's better if they remain severed.

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Sunday 4/3/15 –no work today, took it off, I decided I am 'sick.' There is no way im getting out of bed.

Plan to stay in bed. Never getting out.

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7:57

I jinxed myself. Again. I got out of bed. Temari was there, and she was smiling brightly. I gave her a half-hearted smile back, im still tired and confused.

"Will you come to lunch?" She asked. Smiling again.

"Um- I really- I gotta- um." I start to stutter, feeling pressure plague at me, I hear a sigh and Temari steps aside, Gaara is there, rubbing his temples.

"Once she starts to stutter she won't stop. I told you there was no use."

"As if! Come on Sora!" she said again, and dragged me out the door and down the road.

"I- really! I can't- I-I-um.."

"Oh! What about your parents- im beginning to think they don't exist!" she joked, I felt my gut twist in a strange way, I waited for Gaara to change the subject. He didn't.

"Um- er, they do! They-Um, just, Went… away!" I stutter, she lets go of my wrist as I walk, I'm not sure if they saw or heard it, but I bowed my head and swallowed. "Away…" I said quietly.

"When will they be back?" she asks. "I really want to meet them!"

"Um- sh- THEY! Said- um, er, that- um…"

Gaara had tired of letting me suffer. "What are we having for lunch?" he asked.

"Oh, im still thinking about it." She says lightly. "But anyway- about your parents…"

I managed to get through another excruciating fifteen minutes before she changed the subject to something else. Gaara seems to have forgiven me for going spaz the other day, it's a good thing.

In the end we were in the kitchen, we had sandwiches and in the end it wasn't very exiting. I don't like Kankuro. I don't know why, but I don't, their family is weird… It seems they all hate each other but try to pull it off that they love one-another, even to themselves. Temari has this sadness that bothers me, she has talent and is intelligent, she could be out of here and at college next year, but what about Gaara and Kankuro? I think she is worried.

I'm not getting in this one, same with Kiba.

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8:00

P.s. I am going to do debating because I have the feeling Iruka will call my 'parents'. I found an old document she had signed, if I use tracing paper I should manage to get permission.

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Monday 3/3/15 – Well, we're back to this. I'm sitting in English, and I should be reading, but im not. (ohhh… rebel!)

Iruka talked to us. Shikamaru and Sakura are in it (debating) too. Iruka says the preliminary round is with some other classes, then with another school, and then with another country, and such and such until we conquer the world.

Really bored. I forgot my book, Gaara didn't, and he is reading fine. I think I may bother him for a spare book while Iruka isn't looking….

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3:57

First debate next Monday. We have a practice on thursday, Iruka told us at end of class. Need to go to work, and remember: DO GEOGGERS H/W!!!!

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11:48

Sakura cried again. I'm in too far. Oh god. I really shouldn't of had said anything at all should've I? I don't know. She said her Mum is going away for the weekend and she's afraid. I didn't know what to do. So you know what I did? In a crazy surge of sympathy and determination I told her she could stay at my place.

Ok, great, which also means my parents, will be mysteriously 'away'. I don't really mind sakura, but it's too much strain. I don't know what to do. I'm not as 'AAHHHH!!!' anymore mainly because I'm confused. These people I have seen since I was in kindergarten- peers I have literally spent my life with, it turns out have more problems then they let off.

Me and Sasuke worked on our Geoggers h/w together, we agued over an answer for a while before putting different ones down in a huff. We also talked about debating.

"Shikamaru should go first, then sakura then you. That's what I reckon." I ponder, still scribbling down his answers as he copied mine for Geoggers.

"And you'd be fourth?"

I nod, and then realize he can't see me so I say "Yeah, defiantly, there is no way I'm speaking."

It's weird him and Naruto have become actual friends, they've sorta dropped the whole girl-friends thing, but im just waiting for something to happen… it's the calm before the storm, I know they won't give up.

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Wednesday 4/3/15 – sport was HORRIBLE!! I hate tennis!!!

I beat lee. It was horrible. And he went crazy and was like 'YOU HAVE LEARNT WELL MY CHILD!!! And it was SCARY!!!! But I BEAT LEE!!! I NEVER beat LEE!!! He is awesome at all things physical!!! (ew, ew, ew, ew!!!).

Anyway, besides that, it's all A-ok. Not really. Shikamaru is still thin. At the end of the day I saw him dump his lunch in the bin. Nobody else saw, or those who did didn't care.

Ino was teasing Sakura today, I felt a knot in my stomach for the girl, but she was as bitchy as usual and just stuck her nose in the air, made a good comeback and called her hussy's away. Well, at lease she knows how to act. It'd make my job a whole lot harder if she couldn't disguise the fact she is hurting.

I know for sure now Sasuke and Naruto are planning something. Naruto went to ask me if I'd come, and Sasuke hit him in the shoulder.

I'm scared…

Really I am, I think Sasuke has murdered various people. He seems like the kind of quiet maniac that would suffocate people with their bed sheets.

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Thursday 5/3/15

OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD!!! We had our practise debate, and WE ACTUALLY KICKED ASS!!!!

Sasuke went Third, and sakura went Middle and Shika went First, the same arrangement we had organised, and WE ROCKED!!!!

WE BEAT THEM SO BAD!!!! The adjudicator came over and told us he had no complaints and went over to complain about the other team to them.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!

Our topic was 'does sport bring us together' and we were on the negative side and we talked about alcohol and evil things. I was fourth, I wrote so much rebuttal my hand hurt.

But past my elation over KICKING ASS!!! We got the first four periods off, the debate only took one, and we got one for prep, and we spent the last two just talking madly (well, sakura did anyway, not me) about how cool it was.

We got free lunch. Shikamaru didn't touch his. Sasuke noticed this time. He said "Are you going to eat?"

"No, I'm not hungry." Shikamaru replied. I looked at Sasuke as if to say 'drop it'.

He got the look, and just left it at that, but was curious as he asked me after what it was about, I told him I didn't know what he was on about, he said 'fine, keep your secrets.'

Secrets. Gawd. That word makes me shiver now. It's horrible.

HEELLOO!!! I have come to the end of my pre-written story stuff, so chappies will take a touch longer, so in return I have uploaded a story called 'FireFly' and the summery is below if you would care to walk this way… opp! Watch the step…

Blurb: FireFly is the first part of four, and is going to show the story of Akane and Seiko, the mind-talking twins, who had just started training as ninja's with Team 7.

This story will continue on to tell their times in the team, and will actually turn into quiet a dramatic story towards end of the first part, it will show a more family-based side of things, and how no matter where they go Team 7 will always be together.

In time is Sasuke X OC, but it wont show till a while into le story.

Summery:

"Come on Seiko!!! I'll race you there!"

"Sasuke! Hurry up or Naruto'll beat you!"

"I'm coming, I'm coming!"

"Kay you cheated! You got a head-start!"

Tell me a story, where we all change…

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Where we used to be is a long way from where we are now. Isn't it Sei?

'Yes, I know so. We had it all. Opportunities, Love, Family. Then we agreed to go in the Chunin Exams. And I Changed.'

And then I followed.

'And then I found myself washed away, worn to a small piece of nothing by forces of nothing I know off.'

And then he left…

'And then we left…'

And now we're here. In different places and same mind.

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I don't want to hate but it's all you've left me with. A bitter after-taste and a fantasy of how we could have lived…

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Xo, hope you like it! I shall be a-writing as fast as I can to update this story too!!!

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