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Bill's POV

I stand on my front porch, looking toward her house, I have done this every night since I completed my punishment. I cannot go to her, try to talk to her, make her understand that this is his doing, his fault, not mine. The conniving bastard has Thalia guarding her, I could've gotten past Bubba, but not Thalia.

I hate him! The Sheriff of Area 5, Eric Northman. I have known Eric for better than eighty years, this is not the first time that he has taken a woman from me.

I was living in Seattle with my maker, Lorena. Lorena met Pam when she was out hunting and invited her to stay the night. I was so very jealous, that night she made me watch while she and Pam pleasured each other, refusing me any type of release. I had to watch as they licked and sucked each other's breasts, I could smell their arousal. I watched as their fingers plunged in and out of those hard, tight, cold cores. I watched as they lapped each other's juices. I was not even allowed to touch myself.

Pam thought this was great fun, at least at first. She would taunt me, rubbing her small, perfect breasts across my lips, knowing that I was not allowed to touch her. This was not the first time I had to go through this ordeal, this type of sex was one of Lorena's favorites.

Lorena was not like other makers. Most makers believe that they should keep their child with them for the first thirty to fifty years of their undead life. The old ones believed that children should stay with their makers for a minimum of one hundred years and that for at least the first fifty years or so they should not have contact with any other vampires. This period was used for training in survival skills, weapons training and the like. Lorena did not keep me with her to train me she kept me as a play thing. She would tell me often how she had killed her first two children when she became tired of them. The only contact that I had with other vampires was to watch Lorena fuck them, in one way or another.

Pam was with us for a few months, before she tired of torturing me and took pity on me. She would wait for Lorena to leave to hunt and she would come to my day chamber where I was chained. Pam would never unchain me, but she would do things to me, that Lorena never did. Pam seemed to get off on watching me cum, and she was very good at it. My God that woman knows how to use her mouth! I thought about Pam every waking moment of every night.

I am sure Lorena knew what we were doing while she was out, but she did not seem to care. I became comfortable and almost happy with the pattern of my days. I would awaken, Pam would come to me, and we would pleasure each other. Then she would bring me my meal. I was not allowed to hunt and did not know how to use my glamour.

Pam was the one who taught me the pleasure a vampire feels when feeding and fucking at the same time. I was never allowed to touch my meals, and I had never seen Lorena have sex with a human.

I remember the pleasure I felt that night, my cock buried deep inside Pam, while she rode me hard and fast. The meal that she brought home the night before was lying across my chest her neck positioned perfectly at my mouth. I can still remember how Pam's beautiful blond hair looked in the candle light as she massaged my meal's breasts while slamming her tinny perfect hips down on my cock harder and faster with each stroke.

I remember being so close to the edge of my release when she said "Bite her Bill, bite her now." The second the warm blood began to flow down my throat I released deep inside of Pam, roaring and growling, for the first time since I had become vampire I was satisfied. I remember her screaming as she rode out the waves of her own release "Oh God Bill! YES!! YES!! God you feel so good, I love it when you cum inside of me!" I fell in love with Pam that night.

Each night when we were done pleasuring each other we would clean up and wait for Lorena. When the bitch would arrive she would toy with me for awhile and then fuck my Pam right in front of me. I would go into down time and remember my time alone with her. How she smelled, how her skin was so white and perfect, hair the color of corn silk, eyes as blue as the gulf. I loved Pam so much. I would do anything if she would just stay.

Then he showed up. Pam told me that everything would be okay. She told me that she had called to him and that he was here to help break Lorena's hold over me. I trusted both of them I wanted to be free of Lorena as much, if not more, than I wanted to be with Pam.

The first few nights Eric was with us nothing changed, other than being forced to watch Eric fuck Lorena and Pam. Then it was as if everything I had hoped and dreamed of happened, Lorena released me. She came to my day chamber, unchained me, and said "Leave". nothing more. She gave me a change of clothes and fifty dollars, I was on my own. She did not explain and I did not ask. Pam left with me that very night. He stayed, which was just fine with me. I never liked his cocky attitude, Eric was always so sure of himself.

I asked Pam why he was helping me, her answer was that Eric did not believe in degrading another vampire unless punishment was due. Pam told me that Eric was extremely upset that Lorena had done nothing to train me.

"Bill what would happen if you escaped from her? You don't know how to hunt, how to glamour, how to hide, but you do know that you have to feed to live. I will tell you what would happen, you would have killed too many humans and you would draw attention to us. We cannot risk exposure, another vampire would have killed you to end the problem." She is right, I have not moved amongst humans since I was turned over fifty years ago.

"Bill, I will teach you all of the things Lorena didn't but in exchange you have to agree to accept me and listen to me as you would your maker. My word is law and is not to be questioned do you understand and agree?"

Of course I agreed. Even if I did not want to agree, even if the offer had been made by him I would have agreed, it was this or be alone. I really hate being alone, I always have. I never saw the kick coming, but suddenly I am lying flat on my back at her feet.

"Never agree to anything with another vampire before you understand what you will have to do in return!" This was my first lesson. "Eric agreed to stay with Lorena, as her slave, for a period of time in exchange for your freedom. This means that you now owe Eric a favor, when he calls on you in the future you will have to pay your debt."

I had become beholding to Eric without even knowing or understanding what had really happened, but at the time I did not care. I was free and I was with Pam. "What will I owe you for the training?"

"A favor, Bill. Eric and I are not doing you favors by not demanding payment now, do not misunderstand. Vampires hate owing each other future favors. This means that Eric and I can make you do anything we want in repayment to us for the favor that we are doing for you. We vampires are not kind creatures we do not do favors without repayment or reward. In your case you don't really have any other choice." I did not listen.

The next year and half was one of the happiest times of my life. Pam and I spent every waking moment together, she taught me how to survive and hunt. She taught me how to use my glamour. She trained me to track. She showed me how to make death look like an accident. She trained me to control the bloodlust. She trained me to use different types of swords. She made love to me every night.

I was content. I loved her so much. I thought that I had finally been rewarded for the loss of my human wife and children. Rewarded for enduring the pain and torment that Lorena had put me through. Little did I know the pain and torment had just begun. I know now that all good things must come to an end.

One cold, rainy night he just showed up at our home. He walked in like he owned the place, vampires only need permission to enter the home of a human or were. I saw the way Pam brightened and sparkled in his preference, how she immediately rose and knelt before him. I saw how he reached out and stroked her check, taking her hand and bringing her to her her feet. I saw how they looked into each other's eyes and I hated him from that second forward.

"Bill, I don't see how you managed not to stake yourself. I would have met the sun at dawn if I had to spend another moment with your bitch of a maker. I have met some really crazy, sick women over the years but I tell you Lorena is in a league of her own." The cocky bastard has no idea what that woman can do to a man, but I still loved her in a twisted way and it pained me to hear him speak disparagingly of her.

"Lorena can be difficult, but I cannot speak against my maker." I replied, my voice was unemotional and cold, just like Pam had taught me.

He laughed! The bastard laughed at me. Eric has the most arrogant, belittling, sarcastic laugh I have ever heard. God I hate it when he laughs.

"Bill, you are so lucky Pam took pity on you. That crazy bitch would have staked you if we had not helped you. You will show a little gratitude and humility. " He looks away, I have been dismissed.

Fuck him! I should show him gratitude and humility, how the fuck had he really helped me? All he did was fuck Lorena, which I am sure he enjoyed. Pam had taught me things. Pam had shown me things. Pam made me feel things that I thought had died long ago.

"Child, I am going to Louisiana, Queen Sophie Anne has asked me to take a Sheriff's position. You are welcome to join me or go your own way, your choice, as always." I was ecstatic he had given her a choice! I just knew that she would choose to stay with me, she loved me. I was never more wrong.

"Master, will you stay for a few days while I consider?" Consider? Consider? What was there to consider, we were in love!

She came to me later that night and made love to me for the last time. I could feel that she had made the choice to go. I could feel her saying goodbye in every gentle touch, in every passionate kiss. "Bill, I have enjoyed our time together. I think I have successfully taught you all of the skills your maker should have long ago. Now it is time for you to go out on your own."

Go out on my own, why???? I knew why "Pam, I want to stay with you, I love you. Please do not make me go."

She hit me in the face. "Never beg! Only humans beg."

I look at my feet, I can't bring myself to look into her eyes as she continues "Bill vampires rarely, if ever, fall in love with each other. It is not our way. The closest thing to love most vampires will ever be capable of feeling is the bond they have with their maker. You are still thinking like a human, what we had was nice, but it was not love. You are a young vampire, you need to go out among our kind and make your own way. I told you when we started this I would be acting as your maker, and children leave their makers. Just like human children leave their parents. It is time."

"You have not left your maker, you are leaving me for him."

"No, Bill, I am not going with Eric. I'm going to Minnesota, I was living in a nest there before my nest mate, Indiria, and I came to Seattle as a favor for our Sheriff. I will be returning to my nest and my nest mates. I told you I prefer female companionship."

"But you told him that you would need time to consider."

"Bill, I needed time to consider if I was going with Eric or if I was going home to Minnesota. I had already decided that it was time for you to be on your own. Please let's not fight. It is time for us to be apart and that is my decision."

I knew she was lying to me. She may go to her nest in Minnesota, for a while, but in the end she will go to him. I keep my thoughts to myself, I will never beg her to stay again. I will find Lorena, maybe she will take me back. I have hated Lorena and missed her since the day she released me. If it had not been for Pam I would have returned to her long ago.

It took me weeks to track Lorena down and when I finally found her, she refused me. "You should be careful what you wish for, Bill, you just might get it. You wanted to be free and now you are. Leave now before I change my mind and end your undead life."

"Please, Lorena, let me stay! Punish me! But don't send me away."

She hits me "Didn't Pam teach you not to beg? I am punishing you, Bill. I know you, I know that your biggest fear is to be alone. I knew this when you were sleeping around on your human wife. I knew this when you through your lot in with Eric and Pam. I must say that was a stupid move, you think I am sadistic? Eric The Norse Man wrote the book on torture and now you owe him and his child a favor? You are the stupidest child I ever made." She laughs, the sound chills me to my bones. "Alone Bill, that is your punishment, but before I go there is one thing I want to know. Were you really so stupid to believe that Pam would choose you over the Viking? Eric is ten times the man you are, in so many ways."

I never responded to Lorena's questioning taunt, I just left. I was alone. No Pam. No Lorena. He had caused this! If he had never came I would still be with Pam and Lorena. If Pam had left at least I would have still had Lorena. If he had just left well enough alone.

I wandered around for a few years, avoiding others of my kind, I was not fit company. Eventually, I met Diane, she was from Africa and she was just plain mean. Something I enjoyed at that time in my life. I joined her nest and became another woman's play thing, but when she tried to give me to Malcolm I drew the line. Diane was not my maker, she had no claim to me. Liam joined us a decade later. I was content, not happy, but content. But all good things must come to an end. I felt him calling, it was time for me to repay the favor I owed him.

I left my nest and traveled to Shreveport, Louisiana, too close to my human home for my taste. The Great Revelation was coming and Queen Sophie Anne needed someone to advise her on the customs and traditions of the local human populace. What the fuck did I know? I had not been human in well over a hundred years, but I was the youngest vampire, from Louisiana that could be summoned. I would have to do.

I was content living and serving in the Royal household, more content that I had been in my former nest. The vampires serving there were required to be gentile and proper. The Queen was playing plantation owner at the time, it was comfortable to me. But as I said before, all good things must come to an end. I had completed my service, Eric's debt to the Queen was repaid. I was discharged from service and given a letter of recommendation, just in case I wanted to work for another monarch. Put out on the street was more like it, thrust into a world I no longer knew. The Great Revelation had taken place and my world had been turned on its ear yet again.

Diane, Malcolm, and Liam had moved to New Orleans so I rejoined their nest. I no longer felt like I belonged, they were crude to say the least. I missed being in the Queen's service. Then by chance the Queen became infatuated with a human, it was the first human to interest her in several hundred years, Hadley Stackhouse. I never understood what the Queen saw in Hadley, she was nothing but poor white trash through and through.

It turned out that Hadley had a cousin, who could hear the thoughts of other humans. Hadley called it "Sookie's disability". The Queen was ecstatic, ecstatic enough to turn Hadley as a reward for the information. Queen Sophie Anne had not made a child in over five hundred years. I had come to like Hadley, she loved Sophie Anne, a love that was not returned in the same manner. How I understood loving someone that does not return your feelings.

I was summoned, the Queen wanted the human and wanted her badly. I was questioned about my human life, which I do not like to speak of. The Queen had decided to send a vampire to young Miss Stackhouse. The vampire was to gain the young woman's trust and eventually bring her to the Queen. Hadley had been turned a few years before so there was no way that she could be sent to her cousin. Sending Hadley would be too much, too soon, the human was likely to bolt.

The Queen was overjoyed when she discovered that when I was human I lived in the same town as the Stackhouses, Bon Temps. In fact, their home was across the cemetery from my own, or what had been my home when I was human. It was not long before my last living descendant, Jesse Compton, by my son Thomas Charles, died childless. I still wonder to this day if Jesse's death was natural or if the Queen had a hand in his demise.

Needless to say I was dispatched by the Queen to befriend the human, Sookie Stackhouse. I was mortified, I had wished to reenter the Queen's service, not be forced into a relationship with a human, let alone a human living in his area, Area 5. I had no choice, I went back home to Bon Temps, Louisiana. I made claim to my ancestral family home, was granted title and moved in. Then the nightmares began.

I walk through the house I lived in from my birth to my death as a human. I remember my mother and father, my brothers and my sisters. I could hear the sound of their voices. I remember hiding under the stairs from father when we disobeyed, this was where I put my daytime resting place. I remember my wife, Caroline, I loved her more than life its self. I had not been faithful to her physically, but I was more than faithful to her in my heart. I remember my children Sarah and Tom. I remember every moment, every feeling, every sound, every smell. I had never been more alone in my entire existence.

I stayed hidden in my house playing with my toys. I recently discovered computers and the internet, it was like a window opened. I no longer had to be Bill the vampire, I could be who ever I wanted. I loved to chat, I loved to download, I learned to love to hack. I did not seek out the human Stackhouse. I hoped that the Queen would forget, but it was not long before Andre came to visit me and I knew that I had dallied long enough, I had to go to her.

I had learned that she worked as a barmaid at the shifter's place, Merlotte's. White trash must run in the family. I went there for a drink one night believing that I would be able to observe her, unnoticed. I had greatly underestimated this Stackhouse, she recognised me for what I was at first sight. She was different, I could tell from the moment I saw her, she even smelled different than other humans, sweater somehow.

I left the club with a pair of drainers. I had planned to lure them away from the bar and drain each of them in turn. Draining vampires and causing them to meet the sun in order to make a monetary profit is disgusting. Unfortunately the drainers got the jump on me. I lied on the ground thinking that at least they got to me before I had to befriend the human, when a chain wrapped around the neck of the man, she had come to save me! That crazy little human took on two other humans and saved my undead life. I was confused by her actions, but understood why the Queen would have found her interesting, she is unique.

I waited several nights and returned to Merlotte's. It was easy to talk her into meeting me after she got off work, stupid human. When I got there I found the drainers beating her to death. She would not have lived if I had not given her my blood. This was a gift I did not want to give, but I had no choice, the Queen would have killed me if this human died and I knew.

I had gotten lucky, and I knew that I could not count on my luck holding out. I would not be able to make any other mistakes. I befriended her and became her "boyfriend" and I hated every minute of it. I was supposed to be mainstreaming, but I couldn't hack, so I started visiting other woman. They would take care of my need to feed and my need to fuck, which is the only thing human woman are good for. I dealt with her desire to find the murderer. I believed that I was in control, until the night she asked me to take her to Fangstasia.

I knew it was a bad idea, I knew that he would be there. But what choice did I have? If I did not accompany her she would just go without me. I was failing, the Queen would not be pleased. She had told me, in no uncertain terms, that I was to keep Sookie Stackhouse away from Sheriff Eric Northman. The Queen did not want to pay Eric for stealing an asset from his area. Sookie had to come to the Queen of her own free will.

I drove to her house to pick her up and she was dressed in a white dress with red flowers, which was entirely inappropriate for a vampire bar. The crazy woman had a matching red straw purse. What self respecting woman still carries a straw purse or wears red plastic jewelry. White trash born and bread.

Pam is at the door and asks to see her driver's licenses giving the lame excuse that she can no longer tell human ages. What a load of shit! Pam has aways been very perceptive, even more perceptive than Eric. She knows that there is something different about Sookie and now she has her name and address. I am quite sure she has already let him know that I have brought a very interesting friend.

The night wasn't too bad at first, I suggested to Sookie that she use her mind to "listen" to the humans to try to gain information about the murderers or the dead fangbangers. That is not my true motivation, Sophie Anne had instructed me to treat her "disability" as a "gift". I was also to get her to use it as much as possible. The Queen believed that the more Sookie used her ability the stronger the ability would become. I have to say she made me laugh when she told me that all that anyone was thinking about was "sex, sex, sex".

Eric summoned us, I knew that he would. He was obnoxious and arrogant as usually and instantly enthralled with Sookie. He could sense her otherness, he could smell her sweetness, her purity. He had been trying to glamour her since he first noticed her, I am quite sure her resistance to a vampire's glamour only intrigued him more. I fucking hate him, what I wouldn't do to drive a stake through his dead heart.

I watched Sookie carefully, if she chose to go to him there would be nothing that I could do and the bastard knows it. It was odd, for a split second I was sure that she was reading his mind, she just froze when she got that look on her face she gets when she hears a particularly nasty thought from a human. Then it was gone and she was approaching him. She should have been terrified, but she wasn't, she even smarts off to Pam. The best part of the evening was when I told him that she was mine and she backed me up. Good, he will have to keep his distance now or I will have grounds for a formal complaint.

The night could not have been better. I had something that Eric wanted this time that he could not have. Then Sookie informs Eric, Pam, and I that we need to leave because the club is going to be raided by the police. Why couldn't she just keep her mouth shut? Now he knows what she is, he can claim the use of her ability. Fuck! I am going to have to increase my hold of her now, I cannot let her go to him. I must make her love me, then I will be able to convince her to move to New Orleans with me, where I can introduce her to the Queen.

Eric did not wait long to test Sookie's ability, we were summoned to Fantashia. I had a little surprise for him, I had stolen her purity. He will know it, he will be able to smell it, he knows how sweet virgin blood is, especially that first time it is flavored by sex. I was so sure that this was going to be a great night, I was going to be able to rub his nose in my conquest then the bastard had to go and show me up again.

He got Sookie to agree to work for him when ever he called in exchange for not harming humans she exposes. Then when she discovers that the thief she was brought to Fangtasia to find is a vampire I think that all my problems with Sookie Sackhouse are solved, Long Shadow is going to kill her, but oh no. Eric stakes a vampire to save a human! Granted she is a very valuable human, but human nonetheless. In the process he makes me look like a coward.

His interference does not end that night. He is there at every turn to undermine the feelings I am trying to develop in Sookie. When she is attacked by the crazy human that hated fangbangers he sends her flowers. When she is attacked and poisoned by the maenad, it was Eric that comforted her with his eloquent apology. Then, when she passes out he disregards everything and takes a large quantity of her poisoned blood. When he could take no more he forced Pam, Chow, and I to ingest her poisoned blood. The whole time muttering in that stupid language that I do not understand "

Eir, Hlín och Sjöfn Jag ber dig skydda denna människa." He is probably saying how stupid I am for allowing her to be attacked. He is the stupid one, the maenad's poison can cause a vampire to go in to a crazed bloodlust, we could have been driven crazy, but he does not care.

I need money and I convince the Queen to hire her out to Sheriff Stan Davis of Texas, then he shows up and takes a bullet for her. The bastard even tricked her into sucking it out of his shoulder, getting his blood into her. Sookie can be so stupid and naive sometimes.

Finally, I began to get comfortable in my relationship with her. Sookie has southern pride and loyalty, she will not cheat on me or leave me. I know this, I was married to a human that was like her in many ways. I begin to work on the vampire data base that I have envisioned since I discovered the internet. It is the data base that helped to mitigate my punishment for allowing him to discover Sookie. I love working on the data base, it is intriguing, it fills my time. I am bored with Sookie, it helps me to escape from her, even when she is at my house.

Then what I had waited for happened. She called me, Lorena wanted me! I left immediately, lying to Sookie and telling her that I was going to Seattle, for work on the data base. I was ecstatic! Lorena was strong enough to protect me from the Queen, I would take my data base to her and with it we would become rich and powerful. I was wary though, you could never really tell what Lorena was up to, so I hid my computer at Sookie's in the bolt hole I had built there.

The first few nights I was with Lorena we were happy, we fucked from dusk until dawn, we talked, it was perfect. I told her that I would need to go home to collect a few possessions and that I would return. I told her that I would have to make arrangements with Eric. I stepped out and informed him that I would be back the next night to make arrangements for Sookie's financial well being, it was the least that I could do. I asked Eric to protect her from the Queen and told him why I had come back to Bon Temps. Not an enjoyable phone call to say the least.

I remember him telling me not to trust Lorena "Bill, something is not right. I haven't lived over a thousand years without being able to smell a rat and I am telling you that I smell a rat. Watch your back." I remember thinking that the bastard had a lot of nerve threatening me when I had just given him a gift.

The moment I stepped back in the room and shut the sliding glass door three vampires came through the door to the hallway, two others came through the window, and Lorena stood in front of the doors I had just came through, there was no escape. I was thrown to the floor to the sound of Lorena's laughter, "Oh Bill, my stupid naive little child. Did you really think that I called you because I missed you? You have something I want. I know you are working on a special project for the Queen, I know it involves computers and I know that Sophie Anne believes it will make her a lot of money. You know I hate Sophie Anne and always have. I am quite sure that is why you have chosen to reside in her state. Oh, I almost forgot your precious Pam and your savior Eric are there too, are they not?"

I should have know this was a trap, just like I should have never gone with her when I was human. I have never understood why I am drawn to Lorena, the more she kicks me the more I want her. Eric will love this, especially since he warned me that something was wrong, the bastard probably set me up.

"I was trying to tell you that I have to return home to retrieve it. I had planned to offer it you."

"Tell me where it is Bill and I will send one of Russell's boy toys to get it."

"What is to become of me?"

"You? What is to become of you? I plan to allow you to live, you will have to continue to work on your program. It will be just like old times, you will be chained to the wall and used as I see fit. Bill you dishonored me with a human, you must be punished. "

I shut down at that point. I will not tell her that the program is at Sookie's house, I will not mention her name. That is when my feelings for her began to change. I sat there locked inside my own mind, oblivious to the pain that Lorena and her new friends were inflicting upon my body. I remembered the color of her hair, the smell of her skin, the taste of her blood, the feel of her body underneath mine, the sound of her laughter, the way that she loves me. I promise myself that if I get out of this I will return to her and I will lover her with my full heart. I will give her what I have been unable to give any woman before her, not even my human wife, I will give Sookie Stackhouse my whole heart.

Time passes very slowly. I am burned with silver, starved, bitten by weres, cut, forced to stay awake during the day, dragged into the sunlight, and so much more. I do not break, I will not tell them where to find my beloved. I pray ever minute of every night and every day for death and then she is there. I am sure I must have died and gone to heaven.

It is right before dawn, I am very drowsy, but I force myself to stay awake. Sookie has released one of my restraints when Lorena comes to say good morning before retiring, the weres will keep me up most of the day. I know that I am going to have to watch Lorena kill my beloved, but there is a God and Sookie manages to stake her. My maker has meet her final death and it could not have happened to a more deserving vampire, except maybe Eric. Sookie disposes of Lorena's body and comes back for me. She manages to get me in to the trunk of a car and I sleep.

When I awaken she is there with me. I am so hungry! I can smell the True Blood, vile, digesting stuff really, and I can smell her. I reach for the True Blood, I will drink it first before I drink from her, I must be careful with her, now that I know I love her. Then it hits me like a ton of bricks, I can smell him! I grab her, and sink my fangs into the pulsing vein in her neck and begin to drink. I drink and I drink deeply, I feel the warmth of her blood spreading through my body.

My cock hardens, I will have her, he has had her, fucking whore. I rip her clothes from her body and I slam my cock in to her warm core as hard as I can without breaking bones. I don't want her to pass out, I want her to feel every minute of this. I slam in and out hard and fast, her body begins to get wet in nothing more than a physical reaction, a protection if you will to the friction my cock was creating inside of her. The scent of her arousal hits my nose and I realize my horrible mistake, her special scent has not changed, she has lain with another. She only took his blood, she must have been injured. My hands roam over her body and I find a wound on her side that could have killed her, it is very fresh, maybe a few days old at most.

I pretend to come to, I pretend that I do not know where we are. I tell her how sorry I am for what I have done and I mean it. I love her and cannot wait to get her home. I will give her my blood, I will erase his scent from her. She is mine, she has said it. I was stupid, I never saw what I had, even though it, ...she was staring me right in the face, but I know now. I will protect her and love her for the rest of her beautiful, mortal life. I will watch her grow old, I will never allow her to be turned and forced in to the terrible existence that Lorena forced upon me. Then I will meet the sun.

Then he was there ripping open the trunk and carrying her into Alcide's apartment, behaving as if she was his. I brought the True Blood in from the car and when I tried to drink one, the fuck tried to kill me "You have almost drained her och Gud vet vad mer"! She needs the blood more then you do. Compton, du bör be till din En Gud, därför att om hon dör kommer du att dö mest plågsam död tänkbara!" I have no fucking clue what he is saying, she is mine and he should mind his own business.

When she finally comes to she tells us about Bubba and just as soon as that situation is resolved we have to hide in the apartment next door. Alcide's ex-girlfriend is coming up and she cannot see us. I hear the dirty were tell his bitch that he has been sleeping with my Sookie, I am enraged, I give her a piercing look.

"I never did!" She says in a fierce whisper "But even if I had it would serve you right, you betraying son of a bitch."

I tell her that she is right, I let her hit me. I learn that she was staked by a FOTS idiot. But most importantly I learn that it was Eric and Pam that told her that I had left her for Lorena. I wonder if they told her that night I called or if they waited. I fucking hate them! It doesn't matter, Sookie still loves me, she came for me, she saved me.

I tell her that I was already paid back for my madness when I left her for Lorena. She tells me "You might have been paid back enough to suit you, but I don't know that you have been paid back enough to suit me." Then she tells Eric that she wants to go home and then they leave. I don't follow, I know that I will fight against it but I also know that it is pointless, Sookie is his now. He has done it again and taken another woman from me.

I know Sookie still loves me so I place myself in positions to regain her trust. When that doesn't work I use another woman to try to make her jealous. Nothing works, she is friendly, but nothing more. I console myself with the fact that she is not with him either. She has chosen the weretiger, Quinn, over him and it drives him crazy. I enjoy his pain.

Then in Rhodes Sookie proved to me that she is his, whether she has admitted it to herself or not. The moment she figures out that the FOTS is bombing the building she goes to him. Not her boyfriend, Quinn, not to me, not to the Queen, as she should have, she goes to him. It is only a matter of time now, before she gives herself to him completely.

I try to live with his betrayal, but I cannot. I know that he does not really love her. I know that he will tire of her and caste her to the side. I will be patient, I will wait, she will be mine again. The night of the takeover he sends me to her and then comes himself. The selfish bastard should have stayed as far away from her as possible, he might as well have painted a giant target on the side of her house. When they come for him I resign myself, I will fight and die by his side, not for him, but for her.

I tell him in my coldest voice "Not the company I 'd have chosen, but we'll make a good showing. I do regret the woman." I could really care less about the weretiger's whore sister or the witch, I regret that she is in danger. I regret that she will never know the extent of my love for her.

Eric's response is just as cold as mine "We are not in our graves yet." Before the evening is done I have to watch him kiss her and stare in to her eyes. I hear him try to console himself as he tells her "He'll spare you, you're too unique to waste." I wish that I could tell him that we would not have to worry about Victor sparing her if he had not came to her house. This is his fault! I keep my thoughts to myself, I do not want to cause her any more stress, besides the witch has already made sure that he knows that this is all his fault.

Sookie is losing it, she grabs the phone, who is she going to call the police? I can just hear her saying "Detective Bellefleur, this is Sookie Stackhouse and I need you to come out right away there is a hostile vampire takeover happenin' at my house." She is losing it. Victor belittles her, but something in Eric's manner unsettles him. I have no idea what just passed between he and Sookie, but it was important and I missed it!

I tell Victor that I will die for her. I put Eric on the spot and ask him if he would do the same. The arrogant bastard doesn't answer me he just cryptically responds "More pertinently, if anything happens to her, forces you cannot imagine will be set into motion." What the fuck is that supposed to mean?"

I am relieved when it is over, but my relief is only short lived. It was a short time later that I came upon her in the cemetery between our houses sitting at the grave of her grandmother. She is crying and sobbing begging the dead for advice "Gran what should I do? I love him but to go to him means that I will have to give up my life here. I just don't know what to do. I am sure that he does not want me, I am sure that he is seeing someone else. Gran, it hurts so bad. I miss you so much, I really need you right now." She is crying for him, it was then that I decided to meet the sun, there is nothing left to live for.

I know if Eric kills me she will hate him. I formulate a plan, then that stupid bitch, Thalia, has to get involved and ruin the whole thing. I am not to be killed, oh no Eric could never just put me out of my misery, he wants to torture and humiliate me. The bastard lets the pack master whip me, in front of every vampire and were in the place. Then, as if that was not enough, he locks me in a coffin and starves me for six weeks.

It doesn't matter, I tell myself over an over and over again. It keeps me sane as I lay in the coffin day after day, week after week.

I have made new connections. You see I am not the only one who hates the Sheriff of Area 5. Pam was right I needed to get out and mingle with my own kind and that is just what I did the night of the takeover. Poor little Pam, what she doesn't know is that her advice may have cost her, her life. I have new allies and I have made a deal. I remembered lesson one, know what you are going to get for a service. I help Victor and when the King and Eric are dead I get Pam and Sookie.

Pam will be chained to a wall, in the same manner that Lorena chained me. She will be punished for leaving me for him and when I am done with her punishment I will send her to her maker. She always preferred him anyway.

Sookie will be made to understand that it is me or Victor. Not really a choice at all since Victor will be the one killing Eric Northman. She will never go to him, I will be the lesser of two evils, the only one she can choose. The second lesson I learned from Pam, putting someone in a position where they believe that they have a choice, when there is really no choice at all, is the quickest way to accomplish a goal. It keeps the person compliant.

I watch Sookie leave, dressed to the nines. I know she is going to him and it hurts me. It doesn't matter, I tell myself. I an patient, I can wait. It will only make my revenge that much sweater. I will see Eric Northman dead, gone, and forgotten.

"Eir, Hlín och Sjöfn Jag ber dig skydda denna människa" = "Eir, Hlín, and Sjöfn I implore you, please protect this human"

"och gud vet vad mer" = "and god only knows what else"

"Du bör be till din En Gud, därför att om hon dör kommer du att dö mest plågsam död tänkbara!" = "You should pray to your One God, because if she dies you will die the most painful death imaginable!"