Morning finally came for Azrael and Sweeney and it honestly couldn't have came any faster. Azrael gently woke up and felt two strong arms wrapped around her waist, Azrael knew those arms belonged to Sweeney and then gently turned around to face him but tried to be as gentle as she could not to wake him.
As Azrael stared at the slumbering man before her she couldn't help but wonder what it was that they had, sure she knew that she was falling for him and nothing could stop the feelings she was starting to develop but what made her wonder is if he felt the same for her. She knew that Sweeney was still madly in love with Lucy since she was all he ever talked about to her but in reality Azrael really didn't mind. She enjoyed hearing about his previous life and loved learning about what sort of man he was in the past, it sort of made her see him as more human instead of the demon barber of fleet street. Azrael then gently placed her hand on Sweeney's cheek as she stared at him; she laid there thinking about all the things that had happened the past previous days. She thought about all the things the governor did to her or forced her to do, and as she continued to ponder on those memories, it suddenly made her shudder in fear.
However, the one thing that kept her from completely dying inside was the fact that he was officially gone now and he will no longer ever terrorize her life ever again. Even though it didn't mean that she didn't feel dirty or worthless no… she did feel that way, and the more and more she continued to remember the things the Governor forced her to do, made her heart shatter even more… Maybe this is all she was worth for she pondered. Maybe the reason why she has this man in bed with her right now is that he feels the same way, that she was nothing but a play thing.
Sure, Sweeney had practically flat out told Azrael that he wasn't using her but apart of her still couldn't help but feel that he was. After all Sweeney did just find out that he lost his wife and maybe he was just rebounding and figured that since she just recently lost her husband that she would be yearning for companionship as well. Azrael sighed as she gently played with Sweeney's hair and couldn't help but wonder how that shock of white in his hair only appeared there, she knew that he was a very intimidating man and she knew that if she ever made a wrong move on him he'd have no problem threatening her, her life. Even though in some ways the man was a monster he also had a heart, she just figured that maybe he was lost just like she… maybe he just needed someone to care for him and be there for him when he needed someone the most, but then Azrael wondered why he wanted her so badly and not Mrs. Lovett. Surely, Mrs. Lovett would be able to do more for him and yet he wanted her more… Azrael was completely confused why he was determined to keep her, why did he yearn for her… it just made no sense.
Just then, she heard Sweeney groan and knew that he was now awake; Azrael then looked into his eyes and saw them flutteringly open as he tightened his hold on her. "Mmmhmm… Good Morning…" he said groggily since he was now just waking up.
Azrael couldn't help but smile and continue to play with his hair "Morning…" she whispered. "Did you sleep well?" she asked.
Sweeney sighed and slowly nodded. "Yes but in all honesty I should be asking you that question." He said as he looked into her eyes trying to find any wrongs in them, Azrael gave Sweeney a sad smile as she moved her head to look away from him. "I slept well enough… well… as well as someone can who just acted upon murder…" she said softly still not believing what she did. Sweeney frowned and gently forced her to look back up at him and looked deeply into her eyes. "You did what you had to do… you know that he would've came after you if you allowed him to live."
Azrael nodded still having a sad look on her face. "I know, but it still doesn't make me feel better knowing that a man is dead because of me… sure he deserved every bit of it but part of me is screaming at me telling me that I allowed my rage and anger to take over me… and I'll be honest Sweeney I'm scared…" Sweeney softly smiled and then placed a kiss on her forehead. "Luv there is no reason to have fear anymore… he is gone and no longer among us… and now all we have to do is get rid of the Beadle and the Judge and get my Joanna back and our revenge will be complete."
Azrael nodded and then frowned as she wondered if Judge Turpin did the same thing to Lucy as the Governor did to her. Azrael then shuddered from the memories and quickly hid her face into his chest; Sweeney frowned noticing the fear that was reeking through this woman and couldn't help but wonder what had happened to her while he and Mrs. Lovett were locked in that cell, and that is when he decided to ask. "Azzie… may I ask you a question?" he asked as gently as he could.
Azrael looked up at Sweeney and noticed the concerned look on his face. "Of course, go right ahead."
Sweeney sighed trying to have the words come out as gently as he could. "When me and Mrs. Lovett were down in the cell did the Governor… um… did he…" he was then cut off by Azrael. "Force himself on me?"
Sweeney sighed and slowly nodded. "Azzie I'm sorry I know I shouldn't ask but…"
Azrael then suddenly had a very distant look on her face. "No don't worry about it. And no… he didn't rape me, just made me do other things to him to give him pleasure. He wanted to wait to have you and Mrs. Lovett there to watch him rape me. He said that he wanted the thrill of hearing me scream and to make you two suffer by having to watch me." she said softly with tears in her eyes not noticing the menacing look smothering Sweeney's face as he held her tighter against him. "The man is lucky that you killed him because I swear if I got my hands on him I'd do more than slitting his throat." He said in a rather grim tone, Azrael sighed and allowed her tears roll down her cheeks. "He made me feel like I was nothing but a whore, a no good for nothing whore. Sweeney he's taken everything away from me and even though he's dead he's still in my head, whispering to me, taunting me, telling me horrid and retched things. And I can't get rid of him… he wont bloody leave and I feel like my skin is covered with bugs because every time I think about what happened my skin crawls." She then starts to sob into his shirt. "Sweeney I've never felt so dirty and alone in my life…" she cried. "I just want my family back! I want Gerry and Shannon here, I want everything to go back to normal! I miss them so much…" she sobbed as she clung onto him not noticing the hurt expression that has formed on Sweeney's face.
Sweeney softly shushed her and he gently rubbed her back as Azrael continued to cry into his chest. "Shhhh Azzie don't cry. I know your heart is breaking but don't worry things will turn out well I promise you that. No one will ever harm you again…" he then gently kissed her hair. "No one will ever touch again Azzie… I promise." He whispered as he softly smoothed her hair.
Azrael finally was able to calm down and then looked up at Sweeney with tears rolling down her cheeks. "Make love to me…," she whispered.
Sweeney's eyes then widened figuring that Azrael was delirious and softly shook his head. "Azrael… yer delirious." Azrael then shook her head giving him a pleading look. "No… I'm not, Sweeney please make me feel whole again, please make this feeling go away, I need this I need to know what it feels like to have someone care for me. To show me that I'm not alone…" she begged. Sweeney sighed, slowly shook his head, then rose up from the bed, and stared out the window. "Azrael you just had a very traumatic experience happen you, and are not thinking clearly." Azrael sighed and rose up from the bed and walked up next him still wearing the torn dress she was wearing last night "I'm thinking clearly Sweeney, I just… I need this…" she whispered.
Sweeney sighed and then looked over at her and saw the torn look on her face and couldn't help but place his hand on her cheek and softly caressed her skin. "Azzie you're not alone."
Azrael's tears then started to roll down her cheeks once again. "Yes I am! You have no idea how this feels! You don't know what it felt like to think that no one will ever come and save you, to be terrified that this will be the day… I've been beaten Sweeney, I've had to do things that I should be doing with my husband or at least someone I care for! I've never felt so empty and shattered in my life…" she then looked over at the glistening blades, walked up to them, and placed her hands on the cool silver. "Maybe… I should be with Gerry, maybe that's were I really belong." She whispered becoming more hypnotized with the glistening blades until she felt someone forcefully yank her way from them and slammed her against the wall.
Azrael looked up to see Sweeney sneering at her "you are NOT going to end your life do you understand!" he shouted.
Azrael glared at Sweeney and shoved him off her. "WHAT DOES IT MATTER! I'M NOT WORTH ANYTHING, ALL I AM IS A GOOD SCREW! YOU HAVE TO EVEN ADMIT MR. TODD; YOU DON'T SLEEP WITH ME BECAUSE YOU CARE FOR ME! YOU WANT THAT NUMBING FEELING TO BE GONE SO YOU FIGURED I'LL BE THE IDEAL CHOICE. YOU PROBABLY FIGURED OH SHE LOST HER HUSBAND AND CHILD, SHE'S VERY VULNERABLE, I'LL JUST CONVINCE HER THAT I CARE FOR HER AND HAVE HER SLEEP WITH ME TO SEAL THE DEAL BUT ONCE I'M FINISHED WITH MY REVENGE I'LL SEND HER PACKING!" she shouted.
Sweeney gritted his teeth furious with her accusations and then ripped out one of his blades and placed it against her neck. Azrael gasped from the coldness of the blade and his body tightly against hers noticing the menacing look on his face "Is this what you want Azrael? Do you want to so badly end your life because if you do Azrael just tell me and I'll do it! I can't handle seeing you like this! I don't want you to bloody go but if it's what you really want I'll do it…" Azrael had tears in her eyes as she looked up into his dark penetrating ones. "Why does it matter to you if I live or die? Sweeney you can't possibly care for me…" Sweeney frowned. "Why can I not? It does matter to me whether you live or die Azrael…" he then moved the blade away from her neck and placed it in his holster and then placed one hand in her hair while the other was on her cheek. "When you were taken I was terrified on what he was going to do to you, I wanted to rip those bars away from the hinges just to get to you. And when I saw him trying to rape you in front of us my heart stopped… Azzie just seeing the look on your face when he was doing those things to you made me want to do so much more than just kill him." He then rested his forehead against hers. "I care for you luv, and your right I shouldn't but I do… your more than a whore Azzie you're more than a good screw and I never looked at you as a way to ease this numbing feeling inside of me. it's just… the more I think about Lucy the more I wondered was that if I was actually around when she was raped would she still have killed herself. Would she have still wanted to be with me? And when I see you wanting to go down the same path as hers, I'll be honest luv it kills me. I already lost one woman I really care for Azzie please don't be the second."
Azrael then started to cry even harder and then wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face into his chest. "Sweeney" she whispered as she continued to cry into his chest, realizing how much all this talk about her killing herself could be really hurting him. Sweeney held her tightly against him and then gently picked her up bridal style and carried her back to his bed; he then gently laid Azrael down and then climbed on top of her giving her a serious look. "Azzie, please stay…" he whispered almost pleadingly.
Azrael stared up into Sweeney's eyes and then placed her hands on his face "I'll never leave you." she whispered.
Sweeney was elated from her answer and then leaned down and gave her a searing and passionate kiss. As the two continued to fight dominance with their tongues, Sweeney gently started to pull off Azrael's dress and garments never breaking the intensifying kiss they are both sharing.
Once he officially had all of Azrael's clothing off he then quickly pulled off his vest and shirt and threw them across the room having them land right on top of the pool of clothing that was laying on the floor. He then placed his hands on Azrael's sides while he was now between her legs, Azrael then glided her fingertips against his chest feeling every inch of muscle that bore within him. Sweeney shivered from her light touches and couldn't help but lean back down to give her a sweet gentle kiss, Sweeney wanted to take this nice and slow and worship her like she properly deserved. He wanted to show her that she is so much more than a good screw, and that she deserved so much more than what the governor had done to her; he wanted to show her how much he needed her.
As the kiss grew more passionate, Sweeney then started to place fiery kisses from her jaw line down to her neck now starting to nip and suck on the her delicate flesh. Azrael gasped as she clung onto Sweeney feeling him grind his hips against hers, Sweeney then gently moved away from Azrael's neck and softly kissed down to Azrael's breasts. Sweeney gently placed his lips on her tip and licked and sucked on her breast while he had his hand on the other massaging and kneading it. Azrael started to moan from the sinfully sweet sensations that were rushing through her body; Sweeney then moved away from her breasts and started to kiss down to her stomach. He glided his fingertips against her sides as he continued to kiss her flat stomach loving the fact of hearing her let out those delicious moans of hers.
Sweeney then moved further down until he was just below her belly button now gliding his fingertips against her thighs, Azrael gasped as she felt Sweeney now placing fiery hot kisses down her thighs and could help but arch her hips from the wonderful sensations he was giving her. Azrael moaned and quickly pulled Sweeney back up to her and started to unbuckle and unzip his pants noticing that he had a very grim smirk on his face. "In a hurry luv?" Azrael sighed and looked up at him pleadingly "I can't wait much longer…" Sweeney's smirk then grew even bigger and then pulled off his pants and positioned himself between her legs and had her wrap her legs around his waist. He then leaned down, gave Azrael a passionate kiss, and then gently broke it looking at her with desire-filled eyes. "Then I shall not have my lady waiting then." He said seductively against her lips and then crashed his lips against hers while he thrusted himself inside her causing them both to moan against each other's lips. Sweeney started to rhythmically rock his hips against hers never breaking the kiss they both shared, it amazed Sweeney how much this woman can affect him and as he continued to thrust inside her, he not could help but become completely and utterly infatuated with her. Azrael as well felt the same way the more and more she connected with this man the more she would fall for him harder and faster. Azrael never thought in a million years she'd feel like this since Gerry died but here she was making love to another man who completely understood her heartache and actually knew what it was like to feel alone.
Sweeney continued to thrust harder and deeper into Azrael moaning her name over and over again. "Azzie… oh bloody hell… Azzie…" he whispered against her lips as he continued to thrust even deeper inside of her burying himself completely into her.
Sweeney knew that Azrael was coming close because her moans were starting to become louder, "Sweeney…" she gasped as she arched her back. "Oh Sweeney…" she whispered feeling a warm sensation forming in her stomach. Sweeney smirked at her knowing that he was coming close as well and started to thrust even harder into her. "Tell Me…" he growled into her ear and then moaned, Azrael gasped as she wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him closer to her. "What luv?" she asked breathlessly. Sweeney grunted and slammed into her once again "that you're mine…" he said gritting his teeth. Azrael looked up to him and smiled "I'm yours…" she whispered. Sweeney smirked at this and with one final thrust, they both came together moaning each other's name over and over again riding out the climax that both of them were experiencing.
Once they both were finished with their climaxes, Sweeney then collapsed onto Azrael clinging her body tightly against his, placing soft kisses all over her face until he gave her a very dominant and passionate kiss. Once Sweeney broke the kiss he then rested his forehead against hers. "Mine…" he said possessively as he pulled her tighter against him. Azrael smiled and gently nodded her head. "Yours…" she whispered, Sweeney smirked at this and gently moved onto his side and then pulled her against him and softly whispered in her hair. "Tá tú go h-álainn (Gaelic: Your Beautiful.)"
Azrael quickly rose up her head and gave him a confused look. "Sweeney?" she asked noticing that he had a smirk on his face and then placed a soft kiss on her lips. "I've been learning… when I went to town the other day I bought a book to teach me your language so I know whether your insulting me or actually putting a curse on me… I figured that at least if you do spout off and I do end up growing a tail then I'll know what you really said to me…" Azrael rolled her eyes at him and playfully shoved him. "Git." She muttered agitatedly. "What else have you learned so far?" she asked amazed that he wanted to learn Gaelic for her. Sweeney shrugged and started to think of what else he had learned so far. "tú mo aingeal (Gaelic: you're my angel)" Azrael grinned at him and softly whispered. "tá mo dorcha rúibín gaiscíoch cé troid mo tromluí imithe (Gaelic: You are my dark ruby warrior who fights my nightmares away.) Sweeney arched his brow at her not getting that far in the book but figured whatever she said must've been a compliment since she was smiling at him, Azrael giggled at the look he was giving her and then softly kissed him and whispered the words to him in English. Sweeney grinned at this and pulled her tightly against him. "I think I'm going to start liking this language."
Azrael sighed and slowly shook her head. "Bugger now I have to learn a new one now so I can do my curses on you when I'm angry." Sweeney then chuckled. "Or we can just make up like we have been lately. I know I thoroughly enjoy it." Azrael scoffed at him and shoved him. "Git!" Sweeney then chuckled and pulled her back to him. "Wench… now let's get some sleep alright?" Azrael nodded and nuzzled her face against his chest finally falling asleep just enjoying being near each other.
