To Be or Not To Be
Author: GrimmjowIchigoforever
Pairing: Grimmjow/Ichigo (seme/uke)
Rating: M (Mature Content)
Warning: Contains Male/Male sexual relationship, don't like don't read don't flame
Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach, Kubo Tite is the owner
Chapter Four
An Unplanned Trip
Ichigo was woken up in the middle of the night. He felt pain in all places and extremely exhausted. He did not open his eyes and just lay on his bed.
And then he remembered. He felt movements beside him and sat up abruptly.
The immense pain at his back made him let out a pained hiss before he fell on the bed again, eyes closed.
"Get. Out. Now" His voice barely a whisper, but it contained all the anger and humiliation he felt.
"No…" was all Ichigo heard before he drifted out of consciousness once more.
--
Ichigo was awake once more. However he didn't dare to open his eyes.
He lay still, trying to feel Grimmjow's reiatsu. As he felt none, he opened his eyes, and stared directly into clear teal eyes.
The shinigami groaned and closed his eyes.
"Go away…"
"No."
Ichigo sighed deeply.
"Shit what do you want? You took my virginity; you ripped me out of my dignity. What more could you take from me; my life?"
He shuddered as he said it, but he felt so helpless he couldn't help it.
He hated the feeling, hated himself for what happened. But most of it he despised how he could find pleasure behind the painful night.
"Your first time eh, no wonder it was tight as hell, heheh."
"Shut up bastard."
"I want to fuck you when I'm back."
Chocolate eyes met teal eyes, uncertainty was held in between.
"What?"
"You heard me damn it, see ya, my little bitch."
The Arrancar grinned widely before he flew out of the window, leaving a confused, irritated and flushed Ichigo.
"What the hell?"
Ichigo let out a frustrated growl as he struggled to stand up, wincing in pain all the way.
As he stood up and got out of the cover and looked down. He made a sound of disbelief.
Grimmjow had clean his body and even put his boxers on.
'You gotta be kidding me.'
Ichigo shook his head as he headed to the bathroom, trying hard to walk normally.
He, however, let out another frustrated growl as he looked at himself in the mirror.
The poor shinigami was covered with blue-black marks all over his body.
Ichigo groaned and cursed all the way through his shower. He slipped quickly towards his room and picked a black long sleeved shirt and long brown pants.
He just had to explain to his family later why he would wear such clothes in the summer, just great.
End Flashback
Ichigo sneered as he remembered his first sex. It was rough, it was painful and he was unwilling.
But the pleasure might have blinded him, because when Grimmjow came back a week after the rape incident, the Arrancar did not have to use as much force as he did before to get the shinigami to bed.
And so Grimmjow came every week. As it got easier to get Ichigo to bed, the Arrancar also became gentler in handling Ichigo.
There are times even, when the teal-haired came to challenge Ichigo for a fight or just came to tease his favourite shinigami.
And Ichigo couldn't deny that he grew more and more attached to the Arrancar.
Sometimes he would lie in bed long after Grimmjow was already snoozing beside him.
He would think about how wrong it is, and that they would get caught sometimes. At the same time he also thought that he would not have it any other way.
As his mind was filled with messed up thoughts, Ichigo drifted to sleep once more.
--
When Ichigo was once more awakened from his slumber, Grimmjow was gone.
"Ichigo!!!!" Isshin kicked his son's bedroom door and ran to give Ichigo a hug. Ichigo kicked him in the face, sending his idiotic father to a nearby wall.
"Ichigo my son, wouldn't you accept your father's love? What would your mother say about this? Masaki…!!!"
Isshin ran down the stairs, obviously to his deceased wife's portrait. Ichigo groaned and went down for his Sunday breakfast.
His family was all seated on the table, eating breakfast. As Ichigo seated himself, Isshin opened his mouth.
"Ichigo my son, how do you feel if we take a trip to Tokyo for a week?"
Ichigo lifted his eyebrow. "Are you crazy baka? I have school to attend if you needed reminding."
"Well, I called your school, as well as Karin's and Yuzu's school, so let's pack your stuff and off we go!"
Ichigo stared at him in disbelief, before turning his gaze to his sisters.
Karing rolled her eyes, while Yuzu smiled uncertainly.
"Eh, it is true oniisan, we will go to Tokyo for sightseeing, and then to the onsen. We will be back on Saturday night. Father told us yesterday when you already went to your room. You said you were doing homework and didn't want to be disturbed so…" Yuzu said timidly.
"That's true my son! So go pack your stuff, we're off at eleven okay?"
And before the redhead knew it he was out on his trip to Tokyo.
--
Ichigo stared into spaces; he was on his way back to Karakura town. He would admit that the trip was fun; he doesn't usually spend time much with his family, being a shinigami and all.
He couldn't help thinking about Grimmjow, however, the Arrancar was on his mind all the time and he couldn't shake it off.
'Grimmjow would be in my room by now' he thought as he saw the sunset spreading its colour, the colour of his hair.
Ichigo let out a small chuckle; he remembered Grimmjow mentioned this before.
They were in the middle of their making out session. Grimmjow was thrusting in and out of Ichigo, driving the teen mad as he hit on his prostate on and on.
"Hey Ichi, the sun outside reminds me of your hair ya know."
Ichigo was in the middle of moaning and panting as he blushed uncomfortably.
"I am j-just about to c-come and you- nggghhh -have- ahhh- time to s-say that?"
Grimmjow chuckled sarcastically, "Well, blame the sun will ya."
He grinned attractively, the kind of perverted grin that sent Ichigo over the edge. He twinged slightly as he came, screaming out his lover's name.
Ichigo smiled remembering the incident. 'That idiot.' He thought to himself, wanting nothing more than being fucked by that certain idiot right now.
--
Meanwhile…
Grimmjow opened a gargantuan on the street and leapt out to Ichigo's window.
He frowned as he realised that the window was locked.
'What the hell?'
Grimmjow sighed. This has happened before. Last time Ichigo was out late with his friends and forgot to tell him, so he waited like and idiot until midnight, and when his berry got back he was so furious it was almost the best sex they ever have, aside from their first night together.
Grimmjow decided not to waste his time waiting. He flew away to explore the city, too busy with thoughts of Ichigo and forgetting to mask his reiatsu like he always did when he visited the town.
He used to flare it around carelessly, but since his 'relationship' with Ichigo somewhat changed, he carefully masked his reiatsu ever since.
He realised that it was his biggest mistake ever made as he felt waves of reiatsus flared and nearing him. He tried to mask his reiatsu once more, but it was too late.
"Well well well, look what we've got here." Ikkaku's voice was mocking but tensed at the same time.
And Grimmjow was staring into nine cursed person as his body set into offensive mode.
"Ch, cowards. You want to attack me all at once, go ahead, I'll take out you bastards anytime." He spat arrogantly.
"Teme…" Renji made a move as to attack him, but Hitsugaya stopped him abruptly.
"Taicho-"
"One question, Sexta Espada, what have you been doing with Kurosaki Ichigo?"
"What?"
"What?"
"What?"
Renji, Ikkaku and Yumichika shouted at the same time. Rangiku just gave a knowing look, while the others gave weird faces all over.
Grimmjow just stared in horror, his stance faltered for a while.
"What the fuck are you shitting here little brat?" he returned his masked confidence as he glared defiantly.
Hitsugaya glared at being called 'little brat', but continued nonetheless.
"Three months ago, my fukutaichou and I passed by Ichigo's house and we saw you coming into his bedroom."
"So we stayed and watched just in case Ichigo was in trouble you know, but it was oddly quiet, so I forced Hitsugaya here to leave and to check him in the morning." Rangiku cut in, grinning from ear to ear.
"We visited him the next morning and there was Ichi, same as always, if you ask me he looked more cheerful than usual, I'd say."
"Rangiku." Hitsugaya cast a stern glance at his fukutaichou.
"Ah, sorry taichou, it's just that, well, I can't help but wonder what happened in there. Oh and a month after that I saw you again by the way, and I told my captain right here, so we went to Ichi's again and guess what? He acted like a schoolgirl who just went back from a date!"
Rangiku giggled as she observed Grimmjow's expression.
The Espada still glared at them, but she could detect discomfort, annoyance, and if Rangiku's not mistaken, he looked slightly embarrassed.
Grimmjow seemed to notice Rangiku's scrutiny, besides the others glares of disbelief.
He suddenly felt very, very angry. He charged at Rangiku, the fukutaichou stood there, shocked.
'CLANK!' the sound of Renji's Zabimaru and Grimmjow's Pantera resounded loudly in the air.
"Don't you dare teme!"
Renji began attacking Grimmjow, the sound of their swords clashing loudly as the evening began to get darker.
Naturally Grimmjow was winning, but Ikkaku chose the moment to help Renji. Soon, the rest of them joined, and they cornered the strong Espada eventually.
Grimmjow was pinned on the ground on his stomach; Hitsugaya froze his legs and arms.
Nobody was seriously injured; Grimmjow was already exhausted as he was hit from the back and got frozen immediately.
"Cowards." He spat furiously as he struggled through his binding endlessly.
"No use doing that, hollow, now tell us one good reason why we should let you live."
Renji sneered at Grimmjow, glad that the cocky bastard was totally at their mercy.
"Fuck, go to hell!"
Renji frowned.
"Now now, I'm sure you don't want to end your life so fast ne, Espada?" Rangiku chattered knowingly.
'Fuck.' Grimmjow thought; his mind was suddenly filled with a certain redhead.
'That bastard.'
Grimmjow sighed; knowing what will happen if he found him dead. The will surely blamed himself, and Grimmjow couldn't help but grimaced at that thought.
Then he noticed that everybody must have seen his changed expression, so he glared over them with full vengeance.
"What do you want, bitch?"
"How do you feel towards Ichigo?" everyone started staring at Rangiku as if she were mad.
Rangiku giggled and sniggered at him; she looked as if she just won a jackpot.
Grimmjow's eyes widened slightly, before he recovered and stared mockingly.
"What makes you think I'm gonna answer that stupid question anyway."
"Because if you don't I'm gonna kill you, moron, Renji readied his sword, prepared to swing it anytime he wanted to.
'Shit.' That guilt again, would this stupid sexy uke get out of his head now? Grimmjow frowned so hard before he retorted.
"The hell you would hear anything from me, monkey face."
Renji went redder than his hair as some of his teammate suppressed their giggles and snorts together with fake coughs and throat clearing (Hitsugaya). Rangiku was on the ground, laughing her ass off.
"You-" Renji swung his sword at Grimmjow. Everyone fell quiet as the sword was aimed at Grimmjow's chest, and right before it slashed the Arrancar Grimmjow said the words that might make Renji regret his action.
"I love him."
*CRASH*
--
Ichigo ran up to his room and opened his window; he called the Espada softly, thinking that his lover might be somewhere outside, waiting like he did before.
When Grimmjow didn't answer Ichigo frowned. 'Is he not coming?' he thought. Grimmjow would always come no matter hard at was whether he was held by Aizen or held by Tosen or Ulquiorra (AN: and no he didn't sleep with any of them he only slept with Ichigo).
Ichigo decided to look for him then, he got out of his body and flew around.
After half-an-hour or searching the shinigami felt some reiatsus nearby. He maneuvered to the direction to a clearing of what seemed to be a vast empty football field.
As he got closer he saw his friends in the middle of the field and…his eyes widened immediately as he saw a body lying on the ground, red liquid everywhere on the immobile corpse.
'No, no, NO!!!'
"Grimmjow!"
Ichigo darted straight away to kneel beside his dying lover, uncaring about the stares directed on him.
"Grimm, wake up, Grimm…" He cupped Grimmjow's cheek to give him a kiss. It was cold.
He let out a surprised gasp, and then looked around in panic. The faces staring at him were confused, worried, some even looked disgusted.
"Are you out of your mind Ichigo? He's almost dead you know, the hell with you kissing an enemy? Let's go." Renji glared at Ichigo as if he was out of his mind, clearly disgusted.
Ichigo stared in horror, his gaze lowered to Renji's sword, which were covered with blood.
'Grimmjow's blood, Grimmjow…'
Ichigo stood up, his mind wheezing. He made a move towards Renji, face contorting with pain, sadness, anger and other mixtures of emotions. His vision was suddenly blurred as he swayed and fell on his face towards the ground, the darkness engulfing him.
AN: Uh, in case you were wondering. The nine people are of course Renji, Ikkaku, Yumichika, Hitsugaya, Rukia, Orihime, Rangiku, Ishida and Chad. Umm did the story make sense? My longest chapter, dun dun dun dun... Oh btw do people still like GrimmIchi?
And I couldn't get into detail of the battle; it's too hard, until next time, comment and review ok?
QUESTION: Do you want Grimmy to die? (*sob sob* I don't wanna! But I'll leave it up to you... The FIRST TWENTY reviewer... till next time...)