Chapter 3

-Not Everything Is Bigger In Texas-

It was the same dream. It was the same dream I'd been having since Charlies funeral.

It always started the same, Charlie and I are walking home after we went to see the baseball game at the local park. Riverfront park, I'll never forget that name. We were walking back home, and Charlie saw a woman across the street trying to pick up a big bag of dirt. She was old, and Charlie was old-fashioned, so he went to help her. He was crossing the street and he didn't see the car coming. I tried to yell for him but he didn't hear me.

He was dead by the time the ambulance got there. The old lady didn't even know why he was crossing the street.

I hated sleep, and I hated dreaming. Every night I relived Charlies death.

I didn't talk for a week after he died. I locked myself in my room. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep. Everyone said it was me grieving, but no. No one understood that I saw his death, and that really fucked me up. I had no idea how to deal with that shit. Every single time I blinked I saw Charlie in a puddle of blood in the middle of the road.

I came out for the funeral. I still didn't talk. I tried to eat, but it always came back up once I thought of Charlie. I tried to not think about it. Renee tried to distract me, it never worked.

I guess in some ways I still haven't dealt with Charlies death. I can't watch baseball games without crying, and I can't drive without having panic attacks.

I pulled myself out of Jasper's embrace around four. He looked absolutely gorgeous, so peaceful. I grabbed his shirt and snuck back into my room. I pulled on some pants and stealthily went outside to the dock.

I found myself on the second story, laying on the hammock. The sound of the water was so peaceful. I lit a cigarette and thought about what I'd done last night. I felt like I'd ruined everything I could have had with Jasper. He was sweet and smart and I doubt he'd want to be with me now that he knew I was nothing special.

I laid there and thought for a while. I heard footsteps coming up the stairs of the dock so I sat up. It was Alice, looking sad. Alice never looked sad. "Bella we need to talk."

"Okay. Sit down." I scooted over on the hammock so that she could sit down.

"Did you and Jasper sleep together last night?" Do I lie? No. Not to Alice.

"Yeah." She sighed.

"Bella, just listen to me. Jasper is a great guy and the last thing I want is to see him hurt. He's had some not-so-good girlfriends and I want him to find a nice girl. I'm not saying you aren't a nice girl, but you've been through stuff that changes a person."

What was I going to say to that? She was exactly right. I wasn't even sure if I could love anymore, Even if I could I'm not sure if it would be enough for him and that's not fair. Even If she was right, It still hurt that she was more worried about Jasper than about me.

"I understand. I don't think he'd want to be with me anymore anyways."

"Maybe you should talk to him."

"And tell him what? I watched my dad die and that fucked me up so much, I can't love anyone? I'm sure I can find a better way to get the point across." She rolled her eyes.

"It was just a suggestion Bella. I'm leaving for The Bella Pixie around eight, will you be ready?"

I didn't say anything, I just watched her leave.

I finally picked myself up and went inside around six.

JPOV

Last night was amazing, and I had the scratches to prove it.

I was supremely disappointed to find Bella gone when I woke up. I was hoping things wouldn't be awkward after what we did last night. She was amazing and I would love to see where we could go from here.

I pulled myself out of bed and took a shower, It would have been quick, but I started thinking about Bella and had to handle my business. I threw on a shirt with some liquor name on it and some jeans.

I was walking downstairs when I heard Alice and Edward whispering in the kitchen.

"I don't like it Eddie. She'll just hurt him."

"You don't know that Alice. If they want to start something, let them be adults and do it. You can't tell them what to do."

She let out a groan. "But.." Edward cut her off. "No buts. You've got a doctors appointment at one. I'll meet you there, but I've gotta go now baby."

We're they talking about Bella and I? Why would she hurt me? I didn't know much about her, but she seemed like a sweet girl last night.

Once I'd contained my thoughts, I finished climbing down the stairs and went into the kitchen. Alice was drinking tea and flipping through one of her stupid fashion magazines.

"Morning Jasper. How'd you sleep?" I shrugged. I was about to ask her about what she'd said, but I was interrupted by the slamming of a door.

Bella walked into the kitchen wearing my shirt from last night and a pair of ridiculously short shorts. I instantly thought of all the positions I could fuck her in inside of the kitchen. She yawned and stretched causing the shirt to ride up and give me a beautiful view of her stomach.

"Good morning Bella. How'd you sleep?" Yes, I was teasing her, but she just looked like she was in pain. She didn't even answer me, she just walked out of the kitchen leaving me alone with Alice.

I looked to her for answers but she had a hard look on her face.

"I'd stay away from her Jasper. Nothing good will come out of it if you don't."

I was going to object but Alice left as well.

My mouth was hanging open. What the fuck just happened? Was I that horrible in bed?

I sure as hell was going to find out. I stormed up to her room and flew inside.

Lucky me, she was naked. Everything I was going to say flew out of my mind.

She stared at me like I was stupid. "What do you want?"

I debated what I should do. She was standing naked just a few feet away from me, but I had important shit to say.

"We need to talk."

She rolled her eyes and sat down on the bed. Naked.

"About what? You didn't care about talking last night." Shit.

"What happened to you? Last night you were this sweet, perfect girl. Now, you're acting like I fucking ran over your dog."

She cringed and closed her eyes. "Jasper get the fuck out now." She pointed to the door, but she sounded like she was on the verge of crying so there was no way I was going to leave.

"Bella, what did I do?"

"You didn't do anything. I just need you to leave me alone." She was lying and she wasn't very good at hiding it.

"I'll leave you alone now, but only if you promise to let me take you out on a date."

"Jasper, just leave."

"Promise me." I was being extremely stubborn and was hoping she wouldn't hurt me.

"Being with me is not a smart thing to do."

"Well, I'm very stupid, so everything works out fine. Please promise me Bella." She closed her eyes and shook her head in thought.

"When?"

"Tonight."

She was silent, but I was sure I had her. "Fine." I grabbed her off the bed and gave her a big hug. Big mistake, she was still naked.

"Damn it, Jazz. Are you always hard?" She was laughing, that was a good sign.

"Only when I'm around you darlin'." I let my hands roam over her body until they finally landed on her perfect ass.

"Jasper" was all she could whisper. I wanted her so bad I couldn't help myself. I laid her down on the bed and was about to take her, when there was a knock on the door.

"You've got ten minutes before I'm leaving Bells."

She sighed and I was cursing the little pixie out in my head.

"Alright Ali, I'll be there." She looked me in the eyes.

"Sorry Jasper." Her voice was stone cold. I pulled myself off of her.

"It's okay, there's always tonight." I wiggled my eyebrows to show her I was joking.

She shook her head with a grimace. "Uh, I've got to get dressed, could you leave or something?"

"I'd rather stay and watch the show." She rolled her eyes and went into her closet. She pulled out a pair of jeans and a gold shirt, not to mention some super high heels.

She walked back into the room and pulled on the jeans. I had to stop her.

"Wait a minute, No underwear?" She had a blank face as she shook her head. Damn. I had to get out there before I jumped her.

"I've gotta go Bella. I'll see you tonight. What are you doing today?"

"I'm going to the Bella Pixie with Alice."

"Right. I'll pick you up from there around six, okay?"

She nodded and finished pulling on her clothes.

"Bye beautiful." She was silent.

I left her to finished getting ready and went back to my room to handle my business, again. Damn Bella.

After I'd finished, I thought of what we'd do tonight. I didn't want to do boring shit like a movie, and she was too young to legally drink.

I knew my friends band was playing at a tavern downtown. I could take her out to dinner and then go see them. Perfect.

All that planning made me extremely tired, so I laid down to take a nap. I didn't have to be up for another couple of hours.

BPOV

As soon as we got to The Bella Pixie we were swamped. The store was huge. There were so many clothes and shit everywhere it was kind of scary.

I was finally getting the hang of everything when Alice had to go to her doctors appointment.

"Are you sure you can handle everything Bells?"

"Yep. I have to leave at 6 though. Is that okay?"

She looked at me suspiciously. "Why exactly do you need to leave early?"

"I have a date."

"Bellaaaa. I told you to stay away from him."

"Well Alice, he doesn't want to stay away from me and I'm perfectly fine with that. I kind of like him." I said in a very acidic tone.

She stared at me with a 'you're ridiculous' look on her face. "When are you going to listen to me?" was all she said and walked out of the store, leaving me with the store manager, Lily.

"Bella, the shipping company is on the phone, he said there are some delays he need to tell you about."

I sighed and got to work

Four hours later I'd:

Cursed out the guy from the shipping company

Tripped countless times

And had a customer spill coffee on me

I was tired as shit when Lily came to tell me I had another phone call."Tell them I'm in a meeting." She rolled her eyes and laughed. "Actually, he just want's to know if you're still on for your date tonight."

Jasper. I sighed. "Tell him yes. What time is it now?"

"About five thirty." Shit I had 30 minutes to get ready and I needed some new clothes.

"Great. I'm going to get changed. Can you handle everything?"

"Of course Bella. Did you have a nice first day?"

"I've had worse."

She laughed and went back to the front desk. I walked through the store to try and find something I could wear.

I settled with a dress. There were turquoise ruffles at the top, a belted waist, with soft black fabric after the belt. After I'd changed I walked back outside to find Jasper talking to Lily.

His eyes lit up when he saw me.

"Bella! You look great."

I blushed involuntarily.

"Thanks."

He flashed me his perfect smile and pulled me into a hug. He felt so nice pressed against me.

"Let's go. I hope you like Italian."

I nodded and let him pull me towards his mustang.

Once we were in the car, the CD he was listening to came on and I burst out laughing.

He just sat there with this pathetic look on his face. "What?"

"I'm sorry, you just don't seem like the time to be listening to gangster rap. I find it hilarious."

He grunted but I eventually saw a little smile.

"You obviously don't know that Tupac relays life lessons through the skillful art of spoken word."

"Oh really? Please, do explain."

"Well Tupac tried to change the lives of his people by sending positive messages to his demographics while keeping up his street cred. Take such titles as Keep Ya Head Up, and Life Goes On for instance, he tried to make a positive change in his community before he was shot. The guy was a fucking genius and if I had a forty ounce right now, I'd pour some out for my fallen homie."

I shook my head while laughing. "You sound like Emmett."

"Well he has rubbed off on me a bit." He looked over to me and grinned.

We pulled into a cute little restaurant and he opened the car door for me.

Everything was perfect. We sat down and ordered.

I remembered him telling me his parents got him that Mustang."What are your parents like?"

He had a peaceful smile on his face as he told me. "Crazy. They're hilarious and always are telling jokes and having fun. It's really hard to describe, you just have to be around them. And they love each other so fucking much."

I nodded like I knew what he meant. I could barely remember the fun times Charlie and Renee used to have.

"What about your parents?" I debated whether I should tell him. I finally decided he should know.

"My father, Charlie, was killed a couple of years ago. He was walking across the street and someone ran into him. They kept going and we never found out who it was. My mom, well she's the whole reason I'm here. Charlies death really screwed her up. I had to get away from her."

"I'm sorry Bells." Of course he was sorry. Anyone who knew was sorry.

"It's over with now. Let's just move on."

He didn't bring it up again.

"Where are you from?"

"Texas darling." Oh my god, that accent is so sexy. Stay AWAY Bella!

"Awesome. You know what they say..."

His licked his lips "Every thing's bigger in Texas." Goddamn him.

"No, The only things that leave Texas are steers and queers... Darlin."

He was getting too cocky, so I had to take him down a few notches. His mouth was hanging open.

"That's not what you were saying last night."

"Well last night was a big mistake." I watched as his face crumpled.

"Listen Bella, I'm sorry that you think last night was a big mistake but it was one of the most amazing nights of my life. I can't begin to understand what you've been through but I'm not going to give this shit up until you give us a chance. I will woo the shit out of you."

"You sure about that?"

He shrugged "It won't be too hard."

I bit back the That's what she said' joke I had and just gave him a cruel smile. I would not choose between Jasper and Alice, because I apparently couldn't have both.

The dinner was nice and the show he took me to after it was cool. The music was pretty good and Jasper and I even danced, but now we were back home and I really didn't want our date to end, I knew this was the last time I would be on a date with him for a while by my choice.

"I know you want me to try and give us a chance, but I need time and there are things I need to work through. Not to mention Alice." I grimaced, which will become a permanent facial expression if I don' t quit it. " I'm sorry Jazz."

"You know, if anyone else called me Jazz, I'd probably punch them."

"Why don't you punch me?"

"I kind of like it when you call me Jazz." I shook my head and blushed.

We finally got out of the car and walked into the house. Rose and Emmett were in the kitchen, making some complicated drink.

"There you are Jasper! Make us something to drink. I completely screwed this shit up."

He took off his jacket and threw it over a chair.

"Bella, would you like anything?"

"Sure. No vodka please."

He pulled out a bunch of shit and started making drinks that I couldn't make if I took a fucking class.

When he was done Alice and Edward finally showed up.

"We're starting a movie upstairs. You guys in?"

Everyone was. Jasper handed me my drink. It was fruity, but still strong. I liked it.

"Thanks." Everyone started upstairs, but Jasper held me back.

I was about to ask why, but he stopped me. With his lips.

The kiss was really intense. I fucking loved it.

Whenever he touched me it was like my brain stopped working and I couldn't even make complete sentences.

"I needed to do that since I won't be able to for a while."

I couldn't find my voice. "I'm sorry." My voice was barely a whisper.

Before I knew it, he had me on top of the counter.

I had my arms wrapped around his neck and my hands in his hair. We weren't even breathing because of the kissing we were doing.

That is until Emmett had to interrupt.

"Shit, all I wanted was some popcorn, but you guys are in here making fucking porn."

I picked up the bag of popcorn and hopped down off the counter.

Emmett and I climbed the stairs. I felt bad for leaving Jasper in the kitchen but I couldn't have him kissing me like that and be able to think.

I sat down on the loveseat and tried to concentrate on the movie. I failed miserably. I couldn't understand why the fuck I couldn't be with Jasper just because Alice said so. I know she is just trying to protect me but fucking hell, it's hurting me more to be so cold towards Jasper. He's so sweet and absolutely sexy. I felt a dip in the loveseat and looked over at Edward. "Hey, can I talk to you in your room for a minute?" I nodded and we both moved towards my room.

When we entered I closed the door. Edward sat on my bed. "Listen Bella, Alice has told be a lot about you. And I know you've had a tough past and to be quite honest-"

I cut him off. "Listen Edward, I don't need someone else telling me I shouldn't be with Jasper because it's fucking hard enough already. I can't think straight and my inner monologue makes me feel insane."

"You should let people finish" He said with a smile. "As I was saying, to be quite honest I don't understand where Alice has any place in your love life. It's obvious you like Jasper and he likes you. I feel like Alice's hormones are putting you guys though high school drama and it's bullshit."

I actually smiled at Edward. "But it's not just Alice. My dad died. In front of me. I'm not ready."

"Are you saying that because Alice has drilled it into your head or because you actually feel that way?"

Tough one. "Both?"

"Well then maybe Alice is right. Take some time and think about what you want with your life. You're young, enjoy it for a while before getting into something serious. But for baby jesus' sake, don't take Alice so seriously that you're willing to jeopardize your happiness just so you don't upset the pregnant lady."

"Thank you Edward. I mean it. By the way, how exactly did Alice get pregnant?"

Edwards face darkened. "That doesn't matter. Just know that it was the best mistake of my life."

We soon left the room and tried to finish off the movie with the others. I sat back on the loveseat and actually watched the movie this time.

A/N: So, I'm revising the story, hope you guys don't mind. I feel as if it was extremely unrealistic which is sad because these characters are made up and I still felt like everything was too unreal. So, here it is. Tell me if you like the new stuff. I personally think it's much better.