A/N- Dang, I didn't notice how crappy my writing was... This was last year? I think... I wanna rewrite all of this but that would take WAAAY to long...

OK REAL POINT of an author note in this chapter is to say (and this is for the entire story) I don't mean to offend anyone of there favorite singers... I'm just writing it down in my own personal opinion of the artists' because Kelley doesn't give a straight description of the kind of music Chloe would listen to. Just remember that the bite from the werewolf REALLY changed her personality...

Disclaimer: (counts for entire story) I do NOT own Darkest Powers in anyway... All rights go to Kelley Armstrong

Chapter 5

CPOV

Okay so now it has been a week and a day since Derek left. I count every day, I wasn't kidding.

This morning I decided to actually get out of my room and go downstairs. Vh1 was on the T.V in the living room the song Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson was just ending. I would not think to deep in to that song... hopefully.

I went into the kitchen to see if anyone else was in there. Tori was in the living room, Simon was in the kitchen working on his comic, he said hey and went back to drawing, I had set up a pretty good line for him to start drawing on, and was ahead of him. I grabbed a piece of bred and stuck into the toaster, than went over to the fridge and got the butter and strawberry jelly. As soon as the toast was done I took care of that than went to sit by Simon now in the living room, Vh1 was still on, but now it was Rihanna's new song Russian Roulette. Weird music video, but I like the actual song,

Simon glanced up at me, than at the T.V since my gaze was so stuck to it, I was mouthing the words to the song.

"You like this song?" He asked like I was crazy.

"I don't like the music video, but I love the actual song, it has good lyrics, and I like the music." I responded not looking at him and taking a bite out of my toast.

"Hmm, I guess." He said quietly looking back at his comic book.

I laughed, he looked back up at me.

"What's so funny?" He asked staring at me.

"You, you just go straight back to you're comic like that's all you know how to do." I said. Shakria was now playing on a commercial, promoting her new CD

He just stared at me, than smiled and shook his head.

"You're in a good mood today." He said.

"Yeah, well good." I responded, taking another bite out of the toast. Than I sat the plate still half a piece of toast on it, and ran up stars to grab my i-Pod, that song by Shakira had me want to listen to her songs.

I came down and Creed, Rain, was playing.

"It has been raining for days dude, get used to it." I said to the TV

Simon laughed, "Yeah, I don't get it, when will it stop raining!"

I laughed too, than put my ear buds in and turned on She Wolf.

Simon smiled over at me, obviously happy I was talking again.

I heard the song, but it wasn't in my ears, "Oops', I said, than plugged my ear buds into the i-Pod.

Simon laughed harder; I couldn't tell if it was because I was acting so weird to the song now playing in my ears.

Lady Gaga's new song came on, I paused Shakira to listen to the other perv's song. I pointed at the TV and said "How's that for weird!"

Simon turned and his eyes widened. I laughed even Tori- who had just walked into the room- chirped in.

"WOW!" She yelled, "MESSED UP! LIKE USSUAL FOR LADY GAGA."

We all laughed

"I actually kind of like this song!" I yelled surprised that I did.

"ADICTING!" Both Tori and Simon yelled, which started more laughing.

"Well sounds like the moods a little lighter than normal in here." Andrew said, holding a coffee mug and a newspaper he looked so much like one of those dads in a movie, especially with his dark red robe and brown pajamas underneath.

"Well, I guess I'll tell you guys what I have planned for today later."

Fifteen by Taylor Swift was playing now, and I actually got up and sang along to it.

Simon looked at me. Than mouthed wow.

"What?" I said, a little angry, my singing wasn't that bad was it?

"You're good." He said.

"Ummm, thanks." I said back smiling.

He nodded than turned to Andrew.

"No, you can tell us now, than we can get it over with, so I can play call of duty." Simon said, smiling when he said call of duty.

Ugh that's all has been playing lately, my soundtrack for the last couple of weeks has just been the sound of guns shooting and things exploding.

Andrew laughed, "okay, Simon, but this isn't going to be done by today most likely, although I wish it would." He said, than sighed. A second later the door bell rang, "Ah that would be Elena, and Clay now."

Elena and Clay? Who were they?

Andrew walked over to the front door and opened it up, outside stood a tall long-blonde-haired women, with blue eyes that almost glowed, and a blonde-haired man that looked like he spent all day in the gym pumping the heaviest possible. But he wasn't totally filled out, it was just his arms were HUGE.

"Tori, Simon, Chloe, this is Elena," he gestured to the women, "and Clay", he waved toward the strong looking man, "They're from the pack, and are here to help find... Derek." He said, whispering Derek's name, I knew it was for me, but of course I heard it.

I touched my necklace, checking to make sure the little paw print talisman hadn't fallen off of it. It was there. I didn't want these two to know I was a werewolf, I'm sure Andrew told them I was a necromancer, if not; I was going to have too, with all the others.

"Hi," Elena said, she smiled warmly, she seemed nice at least.

"Hey," Clay mumbled, like had rather be anywhere but here at the moment.

Elena looked at him; she whispered something to him that not even I could hear.

"Sorry, Clays' had some bad experiences with new people, but after a while he should be okay." Elena said, giving us an apologizing look. We all nodded.

"Okay so, Elena, Clay, feel free to make yourselves at home, I am sure that the kids will introduce themselves and help you find what you need. I will hold a meeting soon." Andrew said, looking over at us, than walked out.

I gulped, this couple looked pretty nice, but this Clay guy was kind of starting to creep me out. Simon was the first to go up and introduce himself.

"Hello. I'm Simon, I'm a sorcerer, and it's very nice to meet you two."

Elena smiled at him and shook his open hand, "like wise." She said, than she elbowed Clay, and he shook Simon's hand two.

"This is Chloe, she's a necromancer," he said, gesturing to me, I waved. "And this is Tori, she's a witch." He said pointing to Tori, she waved too.

"Nice to meet you all, we're going to go unpack, than we can get to know each other a little better." Elena said, than she grabbed Clay's hand and pulled him upstairs.

"Did they say unpack?" Tori asked, "so are they like, going to stop hanging out with the pack or something?"

"Tori! Stop it, you know what they meant." I said, giving her a dirty look.

"Hey, I never know with werewolves." She said, raising her hands defensively.

"You, seem to know with me." I mumbled under my breath, than walked out.

I walked into the kitchen and grabbed the Doritos and the cheese dip.

"Hey, Chloe, over here." I heard someone whisper.

I span around hoping to see the glowing green eyes. but it was Will, why did I still hope that Derek was in the house, I knew he wasn't.

"What?" I asked him, walking over.

"Come down here." He said beckoning down to the basement.

"K" I said, than sat down the food, "No bring those." Will said.

I gave a confused look to the back of his head. But followed him down stairs.

What was down there surprised me. The entire Library was decorated with streamers, and balloons were taped all over the place, there was a HUGE cake that could feed, like, 50 people sitting on a table in the middle of the room, and Liz was bouncing up and down to her favorite song on Will's i-Pod. (If you haven't picked up what her favorite song is yet... WOW, its fireflies by owl city.)

Will turned around and smiled, "It's Liz's birthday today" he said.

I looked over at Liz, almost like she was reading my mind; she said "17" and smiled.

"Wow, you're the oldest now!" I said, smiling.

She laughed and said 'yup'.

"Why don't you go get everyone, and we can have a little party?" Will said.

"Yeah, sure." I ran upstairs and got Simon to spread the news to the adults, well I go got Tori from her room.

Tori's room was way at the top of the safe house, basically she lived in the attic, and it was crazy just to get up there. You had to go up three sets of staircases, and try to find her door. I just followed her trail up there; having a higher sense of smell was pretty useful. Her door was the last one on the left... Isn't that a horror movie? Last house on the left. ha.

I knocked on her door, once, twice, three times. Where was she, I know I heard her in here.

"Tori!" I yelled.

"What do you want!" She yelled, but her voice sounded strained.

I tried to open the door, but it was locked.

"Tori, can you let me in?" I said, loud.

"No." I heard her whisper from inside, but to whom?

"TORI! Is some one in there?" I asked

"No, it's just me... I think." She whispered again.

"You think, what do you mean?"

"I don't know, but I can't get up." She yelled...

"Why did you lock the door?" I said, a little irked by her dumbness.

"I DIDN'T!" She yelled, a pinch of hysteria creeping in to her voice.

"Well it is now! Just hang on I think I can open it." I said.

"You cant, there's a chain lock on the top, and it's locked, I didn't lock that either, CHLOE WHATS GOING ON!" She screamed.

"HANG ON!" I yelled.

I grasped the door knob and threw myself at the door, it busted open immediately. Week door.

"Chloe! HELP, I can't... Get... Up!" Her voice was getting quiet almost like it was fading.

I scanned the room, but I couldn't find anything...

"Chloe, I don't know where I am." She said her voice was faint.

"What do you see?" I asked.

... No response...

"Tori, keep talking!" I said.

"It's totally black where I am." She whispered.

"Don't stop talking, even just hum or something. But do it loudly." I said.

She took the humming.

I followed the sound to the corner of the room; there was a hole in the floorboards big enough for a person to get through. It was completely dark down there, but another good thing of being a werewolf was, I could see perfectly fine in the dark, I could see Tori, curled up in a tight ball on a blanket down there.

I looked around for something I could use to give her light. There was a flashlight in the other corner of her room, I ran over and got it. I tried the batteries, they worked. I ran back over and shone the light in the hole.

"Tori open your eyes." I said.

She did and looked up her hand over her eyes to see.

"Chloe, thank god, you're a fast finder!"

I reached down for her, holding out my hand.

She stood up and grabbed it, than looked around. I yanked her up in one tug. She yelped.

"DANG! You're stronger than I thought!" She said.

"Yeah, and your heavier than I thought." I said, rubbing my forearm.

She laughed.

"Come on were throwing a party for Liz, she's 17 today." I said.

"Wow, 17!" She said, eyes winding.

"Yeah, I know!"

I stood up and took her downstairs to the library.

Everyone else was already downstairs talking and fooling around. Both Tori and I joined in.

The party went on for so long; I think the first person to leave was at 12:00p.m. I was surprised that I had just let go of the fact that Tori hadn't locked herself into the room and I'm pretty sure the room hadn't had that hole in the floor before.

DPOV

CRAP, why didn't I think about this!

Pain was racking my every limb... I don't think I can do this without Chloe. I moaned this was so horrible; I was alone, completely alone. I knew I had to get used to changing alone, but I at least wanted Chloe to be there for the first full change. I knew this was it.

I gagged, but nothing could be throw-up, I hadn't been eating much, I couldn't with barely any money. So of course it felt like everything inside me was going to come up with the saliva dripping from my mouth/snout. Everything this time was a thousand times worse than normal, I had done this 3 times and it was never this bad, I didn't know if it was just because it was a full change, or if it was because my mate wasn't with me.

My arms and legs had collapsed out from underneath me a while ago, and I could taste the dirt in my mouth. My body was shaking. head throbbing, my hands were practically paws now; my fur was long and thick. But the worst of this all was the loneliness; I knew I would have to do everything in my life by myself; the last couple of changes had been nothing compared to this. Except the fact that Chloe was actually there helping me those times. I didn't even know what was on the other side of this.

The feeling was familiar, the wolf trying to take control of my body; he was going to shove me into that cage I kept him in, in the back of my mind.

I could see the muzzle in front of my face, it looked so foreign, everything was so wrong, and no one was here to tell me I wasn't a monster, to reassure me that everything would be okay, even though I knew it wouldn't. I convulsed body curling on the ground; everything was so painful I swore I was going to die instead of change into a wolf. Than, as impossible as I thought it was, the pain got worse.

It was absolutely agonizing like I had been hit by a train, a car, a jet, and a friggin spaceship all at the same time, this time it felt like I'd rather be dying, not that that would be a bad thing, I was such a jerk to everyone, that no one but Simon and Kit would miss me, in fact, everyone else would probably throw a 'Thank-god Derek's dead party' or a 'the monsters dead' party. I squeezed my eyes shut, hoping that it would all just disappear, everything would disappear, I would disappear, the pain, the lust, the heart-brake, and everyone would be better off... Soon... one thing did... The pain at least was gone, but everything else was still there, magnified.

I opened my eyes after falling asleep for at least an hour before I remembered that, that should have been the last change, I pushed up from the ground on unfamiliar legs, and I knew I had changed. Not long after the shock had died away, the worry made it self known, what if I couldn't change back? I guess that would be better, maybe not for me, I'd still have the same pain of loss, but everyone else would be happy... Right? Probably.

I looked around, the colors were even different, colors that I couldn't figure out what they were, they weren't even a mix of too or even 5 colors, they were they're own. The trees where so much bigger than normal.

I shut my eyes, trying to hide from the difference, I felt like a little kid, doing something he never did before, like the first time I had been out of the Edison group's hospital like place. But that time someone was with me, Simon and Kit. This time no one was, and this was bigger than that... I was different, I was in a different form, I was the monster, the same kind of monster that attacked Chloe every night in my dream, and it hurt. It hurt so badly. I haven't even thought about what it would be like after the change, how scary it would be for me. I wanted Chloe to be here, I needed Chloe to be here for me, like I tried to be for her. Like she always was. She was always there in my worst times. My most vulnerable time. This time she wasn't.

I dropped my head and whined to myself, all of this felt so wrong... I didn't want to be this monster. But I couldn't help it, you couldn't change who you were.

I have never wanted home more than this.

A/N- Elena & Clay are owned by Kelley Armstrong also... They are from the Woman of the Otherworld series...

GOD I HATE MY WRITING ON THIS STORY!

I'm fixing a few mistakes I can find but still I just HATE how this is put together...