Chapter 8

-One Thing-

I woke up next to Jasper and immediately knew that he must be uncomfortable. There was a reason I normally slept in his bed. Mine was made for fucking midgets. His feet hung over and his head was squished against the headboard. I felt sorry for him but he looked so damn cute.

I gently shook him until he was awake. "What?"

"Don't what me Mister. It's time to get up."

"No. I don't want to." He sounded like a toddler.

"Jasper, get your slow ass out of my bed. I have to tell you something."

He sat up at the mention of news. He was watching me carefully. I gave him that same look right back.

"Is it good or bad?"

I leaned against the wall and let my head rest on the doorway of my closet. How do I explain this? Very carefully.

"It all depends on how you take it."

"Okay. Throw it at me." Here goes everything.

I ran my fingers through my very messy hair.

"We're expanding The Bella Pixie."

"That's great!"

I nodded slowly.

"We are going to open a new store in New York."

"Sweet. You guys will get a lot of business is perfect Bella, why wouldn't I love this news."

"I'm in charge of it."

I think he started to catch my drift.

"And being in charge of it means...?"

I looked away from him. I stared out the window and into the backyard where the water was churning in the lake. Maybe it could tell what was about to happen.

"I have to move there and oversee everything."

"Wait, you're fucking moving to New York?"

I nodded again.

"You can come with me Jazzy. I want you to come with me, I don't want to leave you."

"Bella, why are you doing this! I have a job that I love and friends and I can't just pick up and move. "

"Jasper, I love you. I don't want to do this but I have to, and I want you to be there with me."

He was shaking his head and I was on the verge of crying.

"You love me, but you're just going to leave everything we have behind to take your skinny ass to New York? No, baby, it doesn't work that way."

"I'm telling you to come with me."

"And I said before, I have friends. I have a job that I love and wouldn't give up for anything."

"You love your job more than you love me?"

"Don't even twist my words Bella."

"Well that's obviously what you meant. You value that stupid fucking job more than you value me. I love you Jasper, I fucking love you and you're going to sit here and tell me that working at a fucking bar means more to you?"

"Do you know how hard it was for me to actually pull down the fucking walls I'd built up? And when I finally do it, you go and say some shit like this?"

I couldn't think of anything else to say and he wasn't saying anything, just sitting there with that pissed look on his face. "Goodbye Jasper."

I was shaking my head and walking out of my bedroom. I thought that what we had was actually something special. I guess I was wrong. Maybe love is just stuff that's made up and even if it wasn't I obviously couldn't keep it for very long.

I slammed my door behind me as I was walking out. I still had on my outfit from yesterday and the heels were getting on my fucking nerves. Why in the world didn't I take this off as SOON as I got home. I definitely wasn't going back into my bedroom to change. Jasper was probably still in there. I found myself at Alice and Edward's door. I knocked and a few seconds later a very well dressed Edward answered.

"Bella! Nice to see you. Alice is in bed, I'm going to work."

I just grunted in response. Squeezing past Edward, I pulled the bedspread off of the bed. "What the fudge Bells?"

"Let's go. We're going someplace. Anyplace. I don't care, let's go."

"Jesus Bella what happened?"

"I'll tell you in the fucking car, just get me out of here!"

She got dressed in record time. I was a huge jumble of emotions.

I felt pissed for one, abandoned by Jasper. I felt cold. It was like every piece of my icy heart that Jazz had started to defrost was put in a freezer and chilled to absolute zero.

Alice could barely keep up with me as we hopped into her Porsche.

"Where are we going Bells?"

I rubbed the back of my neck and fought back the tears.

"Let's go to Rose's." She nodded and I knew she was fighting back the questions of what happened.

I pulled my knees into my chest and stared out of the window until we finally reached Rose's apartment building.

I followed the pixie up to the third floor and stood behind her as she knocked on the door.

I could hear yelling inside, but it wasn't fight yelling, it was happy yelling.

Something slammed against the door and all of a sudden Emmett barreled out of the door. "I'm gonna be a dad! I'm gonna be a dad!"

Rose followed him out of the apartment and blushed as one of her neighbors looked at Emmett as if he should be in a mental hospital.

"Let's take this party back inside Em." He didn't listen to her, he just picked her up and yelled at the top of his lungs "I love this fucking woman!"

She slapped the back of his head "Put me down you idiot. Hey Bells, Alice, what are you guys doing here?"

Alice shrugged and looked to me for an answer. I finally burst out into tears.

"I think me and Jasper broke up." Emmett's happy mood turned deadly pretty fast.

"I'm going to fucking kill him. I warned him not to do some stupid shit."

Rose grabbed my arm and pulled me into the apartment and sat me down on a nice couch.

"What happened sweetie?"

They all surrounded me. Even Emmett seemed deeply interested in what I had to say.

"I told him that I had to go to New York to start the new store and asked him to come with me. He said no. He choose his job over me." I was sobbing by then. Rose was holding me in her arms and Alice was rubbing my back.

"I love him" was all I could get out between sobs. How had everything gone from going so well to horribly shitty?

"Aw Bella baby, I know. You can stay here while you guys sort this out."

"No, I don't want to even see him. If he wants me tell him to go fuck his job."

Rose led me into a bedroom but I could hear Emmett and Alice mumbling.

"How's the baby?"

"Great. I just told Emmett actually."

"I'm sorry for ruining it Rose."

"Hush up Bells, I'll be pregnant for a while, so no worries. I'm going to chat with those two kids, will you be okay in here?"

"Yeah. Thanks Rose." She just smiled and left. She was going to be an awesome mom.

I listened to them talk for almost an hour. From what I could gather, Emmett wanted to hang him, Alice wanted to get his peep in a vice grip. Rose hadn't voiced her thoughts on what happened though.

I was broken from my reverie by my phone vibrating. I flipped it opened and answered before I could think.

"Hello?"

"Bella!"

Renee. Renee was calling me on what was already one of the shittiest days I'd ever had. I shuddered from the mere thought of Renee coming back into my life.

"What do you want?" It came out cold and harsh, exactly how I wanted it to.

"Baby I've been trying to get in touch for so long! How are you? Where are you?"

"When I walked out of that house, I walked out of your life. Leave me the fuck alone."

"Bella don't be like that. I quit drinking!"

"You've done your damage already."

"What would Charlie think Bella!" Has she not learned her lesson about slinging Charlie into the conversation?

"Listen, I'm far away from you and your bullshit. Please, I'm begging, leave me alone. I'm finally doing things with my life." They aren't making me very happy but they are still 'things.'

"Bella, please just.."

I hung up before she could finish and I turned off the phone so I wouldn't even know if she called again.

I felt like I was in a pit and everything that went wrong pushed me down another foot. I was being buried and I couldn't even help it.

Jasper was gone. Renee was trying to come back into my life. I fell asleep crying.

JPOV

I was being shaken. I opened my eyes to see Bella. "What?" I definitely wasn't a morning person.

"Don't what me Mister. It's time to get up."

"No. I don't want to." I must have sounded like a little kid, but I REALLY wasn't a morning person.

"Jasper, get your slow ass out of my bed. I have to tell you something."

I pulled myself up and watched her.

"Is it good or bad?"

She looked uncomfortable leaning against the doorway.

"It all depends on how you take it." Well, I'm pretty good at taking bad news. Sometimes.

"Okay. Throw it at me."

She ran her fingers through her hair. She was so damn cute.

"We're expanding The Bella Pixie." Good news!

"That's great!" That wasn't it.

"We are going to open a new store in New York." That still wasn't it.

"Sweet. You guys will get a lot of business there."

"I'm in charge of it." In charge of it. New York. Her in New York?

"And being in charge of it means?"

She looked out of the window and started rubbing her arms.

"I have to move there and oversee everything." She's moving. Why would she move? I love her and want to be with her for... the rest of my life?

"So you're fucking moving to New York?"

She nodded. What the fuck?

"You can come with me Jazzy."

"Bella, why are you doing this! I have a job that I love and friends here and I can't just pick up and move. "

"Jasper, I love you. I don't want to do this but I have to, and I want you to be there with me."

I shook my head violently. She looked like she was about to breakdown, but I couldn't stop myself.

"You love me, but you're just going to leave everything we have behind to take your skinny ass to New York? No, it doesn't work that way."

"I'm telling you to come with me."

"And I said before, I have friends. I have a job that I love and wouldn't give up for anything."

"You love your job more than you love me?" Now that was just wrong, she knew I didn't mean it that way.

"Don't even twist my words Bella."

"Well that's obviously what you meant. You value that stupid fucking job more than you value me. I love you Jasper, I fucking love you and you're going to sit here and tell me that working at a fucking bar means more to you?"

"Do you know how hard it was for me to actually pull down the fucking walls I'd built up? And when I finally do it, you go and say some shit like this. Goodbye Jasper."

She was shaking her head all the way to the door, which she slammed on the way out.

What the fuck just happened?

She wanted me to come with her and I said no.

I mean, of course I said no. I had a life here. I had a job that I loved. I had friends. I had Bella.

But Bella would be in New York.

I ran my fingers through my hair and stared at the ceiling.

She was crazy. But that's why I love her.

She expected me to move to New York with her. I would expect the same thing from her if I was in this position.

I was in a battle with myself over what to do.

All I had to do was answer one question and I'd know what to do.

Was she worth it?

Of course she was worth it. I'd never loved someone so much. Every little thing about her made me smile. When she talked in her sleep, when she ruffled her hair in frustration, her happy sigh when I held her.

Everything about her was perfect and she fell in love with me. I knew how hard it was for her. She lost her father and pretty much lost her mother too. And now she thought she'd lost me.

I'm a straight out dumb ass. The dumbest ass there ever was. She thinks she's lost me, and if I let her keep thinking that I'm going to lose her.

I really haven't expressed how much I truly love Bella. I need to tell her that she's the only one for me. How much I want to spend the rest of my life with her. I guess it took this fight for me to realize how much I need her. I want to show her every possible way, I'm going to love her out loud. There's corny Jasper sneaking up on me again.

I'm not giving up that easy. I'm going to hold on to loving her even if it kills me.

Now I just have to figure out how to tell her that, and I don't think it's going to be very easy.