A/N: Hey guys! I wasn't expecting to write this chapter, but after the responses I got last time, I couldn't resist. To Darkening Whispers, ForeignBaconLover, IronishRose, and thefbm: I couldn't thank you guys enough for the positive feedback! To P. Fishies and The Color Is Blinding: I've heard of reviewers being inspirational to writers; that's EXACTLY what occured here. I'm pretty touched to know you guys out in the real world appreciate the little drabbles i've come up with.
-On with the pre-story remarks. Well, I didn't like this chapter too much, and the ending didn't sit too well. It's not as long as the other two, but I needed it to be on here or else it just wouldn't be iCarly without having all of the trio be involved. Please don't be too harsh, although i'm already trying to brace myself.
I t ' s Un(a)voidable.
I'm not an oblivious person.
There have been lapses of judgment, sure;
Just like the time I found out about Freddie and Sam kissing
(But I've kept my eyes w i d e open ever since.)
Maybe it was the under-the-table texts they kept sending to each other,
The little jokes they kept secluded between the two of them,
The days I'd be busy, yet they'd be out with together, enjoying each other's company.
After Freddie s a v e d my life, I figured it out.
I didn't want him kissing SAM.
I wanted him kissing ME.
It wasn't fair that he would be telling me he loved me loved me loved me then goes and kisses my best friend.
(We said no more secrets between us.)
Then there's the idea of my friendboy to become my boyfriend.
Somewhere in time, Freddie got taller, his voice got deeper, he was stronger, more normal than his old tech-geek self.
(And he wasn't so attached to me either. It should have been a warning sign.)
Dancing with him, kissing him, I knew what I wanted.
He would be the everlasting, ever faithful approved boyfriend for me.
But what's going through his mind?
(I'm not seeing the same s p a r k l e that he gets in eyes when him and Sam argue)
The first year we were together, we set some boundaries.
We got to be in the public eye.
It was announced on iCarly of us being in a relationship, something the viewers commented upon for a long while.
(Why did it feel like he was only showing me off to Sam?)
I told Freddie I loved him about four months into the relationship.
His mouth dropped, he jumped up and down, laughed, kissed me, and then immediately pulled his phone out…
To text Sam.
(I can handle that. We said no more secrets.)
Well. In all fairness, I guess maybe possibly you could say slightly that it might have bugged me.
Sam's always been my best friend.
She and Freddie weren't supposed to be close;
I'm her friend who's a girl, the one who deserves to tell the latest information.
That night, I told her to come over. She said she couldn't, and I didn't want to think into it much more.
Things c h a n g e d.
iCarly began going downhill. Viewers started to drop and I was continually having issues with Sam and her lack of emotions,
Which then resulted in less sleepovers,
Which then resulted in a lack of friendship.
(Clearly, I had a justified reason to be upset with Freddie and Sam hanging out, right?)
Spencer had a lot of questions concerning everything going on, he noticed over abundance of ham we had in our fridge and a lack of bruises on Freddie.
I told him I wasn't getting along with Sam that much anymore. His response?
"You and Sam don't get along one second and are over it in the next. Is this because of Freddie?"
My eyebrows raise, (what does he know?) but I tell him no, we're just growing apart.
One night in the second year of the relationship, I became bitter and frustrated.
"Freddie," I asked, "Can you please do me a favor?"
He smiles at me, says sure, anything for you babe.
"Quit texting Sam. I'm your girlfriend. Not her."
(But does it seem like it? No.)
His entire face dropped.
"Carly. You know I love you." As much as you love Sam? "Sam's my friend. She needs me sometimes."
My eyes turn to slits. "No," I growl, "She doesn't need you. I need you Freddie. And you're mine, so quit it, or else I won't be able to handle this."
Freddie looked like I dropped his pearpod off the fire escape. Upset, with hints of anger he wouldn't show willingly to me.
Yet, he obliged and quit texting Sam. Around me, anyways.
I had inkling one day to look through his texts, and even though it ticked me off that he was talking to her in the time we weren't spending together, I settled for feigning ignorance.
This year, iCarly ended. We all knew it was going too, yet we were all steering clear of finishing it until Freddie brought it up; viewers needed final understandings. It made me upset; this was the only time that Freddie Sam and I spent together now. We told our viewers it's because we're gearing up for college, and we stated our plans in the last show.
Sam's going to Seattle Pacific University. I was slightly shocked she wasn't going to community college with her record, but apparently daddy's money can get you far.
I'm going to Washington State University, and Freddie reveals to me that he's planning on accepting too.
I get an odd feeling in my stomach; is he doing this for me?
What happened to that big scholarship, the hard earned acceptance to The University of Washington?
Then I caught it.
The University of Washington would be here; a commuter school.
Closer to Sam.
He's avoiding her.
All of the sudden the feelings that I've been avoiding rush in.
He doesn't love me. He loves her; he's using me to evade these feelings.
(Maybe I don't really love him? Do I?)
Have the past three years been a lie?
(I don't want to take them back.)
Maybe I'll just play oblivious. It's worked so far.
But only until Freddie completes his college acceptances.
Then we can confront the unavoidable.
Well. Was that too cheesy at the end? Want to rip me up one side and the next? I know I kind of made Carly seem a little bit heartless, but she finally realizes at the end what she's done, and will eventually collaborate with a plan to fix it all. I know this chapter wasn't the absolute best, but... I'll let you guys decide. Click the review button and critique away!
Thank you ALL for the dedication in reading these three chapters, and for taking your time out to give this story a chance.
- iHearYou