Knock, knock, knock.

"Come in." I said hesitantly as I sat up on my bed.

"We need to talk." It was Alice. Her face anger and expectant.

"About?" I asked with no true confusion.

"Emmett." She sighed as she walked over and sat on my bed. "He's really pissed. And apparently you are the one to blame." She pointed one small finger at me sharply. "I love you to death, Rose, but you have gone way too far. It's one thing to blow us all off I with your secret but your stupid secret has made Emmett very upset. I mean seriously, Rose? You pulled away from his kiss? Why would you hurt him like that?"

I sighed. This wasn't easy at all. "You know that I love him, Alice." I told her fiercely.

"Really? You sure have a funny way of showing it. You know the thing that I don't get? You have always paid all your attention to Emmett, nothing you did ever didn't involve Emmett somehow. You cared about him so much, until now. But why now? What could possibly have happened to make you stop caring about him?"

"if I told you then you would never forgive me." I told her with a pained voice. And that was the truth, that was why we were in this mess to begin with.

"You are blowing this way out of proportion! Haven't you had enough with lying to us all? Because we sure as hell have. None of us understand why this is happening. You won't let Edward in your head and I don't see anything out of the ordinary in your future."

"You don't think I want to tell you? I do!" I said impatiently.

"Then by all means do!" Alice told me.

"I can't!" I screamed at her with fury.

"I don't know who you are anymore, Rosalie. If this is how you are going to be forever, then you might as well just leave!" even though Alice had never been so vile, but I could tell from the angered look on her face that she meant what she said with absolution.

"Wait, Alice." I pleaded as she got up to leave. I closed my eyes. I was probably just shooting myself in the foot for what I was about to do, but if it meant that I got to keep my family, then I would tell as much of the truth as I could in my desperate attempt to keep my loved ones with me. "I will tell you what you want to know."

Alice stopped dead at my door, she turned around and danced back over to where I was sitting. "I'm waiting." She told me icily.

I flinched away from her hostility. "What if I told you that I had a secret? Something that I was keeping from you guys because I knew that it would destroy our family. The very foundation of our lives. What would you say?" I looked at her. Her angered expression was replaced by confusion.

"I would tell you to spit it the hell out of course." She told me, looking away from my pleading eyes.

"Please, Alice. Whatever you do, don't judge me, ok?"

She nodded once. "Fine, I promise not to judge you. Now what is this secret that you just can't bear to tell anyone?" she pressed impatiently.

I sighed. "Alice? I realized a couple days ago that someone other than Emmett loves me beyond words." I could tell by the look on her face that she was completely lost.

"Who?" she asked me, dumbfounded.

"That's the catch. That's one of the whole reasons why I'm not telling you guys any of this. This 'who' is the big problem. I can't tell you who it is." I gave her a look of burning desire, desire to tell her. She understood that look. She knew that my heart was really in the right place. "It's because of this person that things are different with Emmett and me. I can't get the other person off my mind."

"You know this would destroy Emmett if he ever found out?" She told me once she recovered.

"Now you finally see my dilemma! The whole reason why I haven't told anyone! I am trying to spare Emmett's heart!" I sobbed.

Alice grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. She held me as I let out my tearless sobs. I had only just begun to tell her the truth, and this is what it did to me. I flinched as I tried to picture what would happen to me when I told the whole truth.