I was lying in my bed with Emmett. He was holding me firmly in his arms, if I could, I would have been sobbing on the spot. This had been going on all night. I was trying unsuccessfully to keep my mind off of the very thing that I knew I had to do today. Talk to Embry. That was the one thing that I knew would ruin my day today, and possibly the rest of my life. I could feel Emmett's soft stare on my face, yet it was just as piercing as it was soft. The minutes ticked by and I finally got tired of the awkward silence.
"Say something!" I blurted out a little too loudly.
"What do you want me to say?" Emmett asked me, he sound a bit impatient.
"Anything. Tell me what an idiot I am! Tell me that I am making the biggest mistake of my life by not choosing you by now, tell me that I don't deserve to be happy!" I pleaded.
"I can't do that." Emmett replied a little softer, he started to stroke my arm with his thumb. "You know that all I want is your happiness."
I sat up, ignoring his arms attempting to restrain me. I turned my body to face him, my face was so pitiful. "This isn't how you should be treating me. I should be kicked out of the house for my behavior."
"But you didn't choose him." Emmett objected.
"That's my whole point, I didn't choose anyone! That's the problem. That shows you that I don't know who I love more, or at least it should." I buried my face in my hands and slumped over in defeat. Emmett attempted to comfort me by embracing me, but I pushed him away, feeling too ashamed to have Emmett hold me.
Suddenly, I stood up. Emmett frowned at me. "Where are you going?" He asked, getting himself up from the bed. I pushed him back down.
"I need to go somewhere." I said. I held up my hand because Emmett showed every sign of objecting. "Alone." I said firmly. I grabbed my black leather jacket from inside my closet and raced out the door without so much as another glance in Emmett's direction.
I needed to get away. That was the whole reason for what I was doing. I was driving my BMW M3, I was pushing 108 miles per hour. Speed was my way of getting away from everything that was happening. What the hell am I going to do? The annoying voice rang inside my head. This is the most difficult decision of my entire life. And no one is going to help me. I honestly didn't know where I was going or what I was going to do when I got there, all I knew was that I had to be somewhere else. Anywhere else.
What had seemed like days, had only been about an hour of pointless driving. When all of a sudden, my cell phone rang. My first impulse was to just ignore it. It's probably Emmett. I thought to myself. But out of curiosity, I decided to look at my caller ID. To my surprise, it was Alice.
"Hello?" I answered the phone at once.
"Rose?" Alice voice was strained.
"Yes, it's me, what's going on?" I asked her voice was worrying me slightly.
"I think you need to come back… and visit Embry." Her voice was clearly hesitant, but I detected some of emotion that I couldn't quite pinpoint.
"Why?" I asked her suspiciously, though she wanted everyone to be happy, I knew that she wasn't fond of Embry, given the sticky situation.
"I don't have a lot of time to explain, but it would be of your best interest if you visited him. Right now." Her voice was nervous. I hesitated, but I figured Alice knew best. I cleared my throat.
"Ok, I'll be there in about 15 minutes." I said, calculating to distance in my head.
"15 minutes?!" Alice screeched. "Honey, where the hell are you? It never takes that long to get to La Push. Step on it!" Without another word, she hung up.
I had absolutely no idea why Alice would call me. What was even more worrying was the way she talked, her voice sounded as though something bad was happening.
Or something bad was going to happen.
Comprehension lit my face and suddenly I accelerated to 20 miles per hour within a heart beat. I had no idea what was going to happen, but Alice did. Something was going to be wrong, and it had something to do with Embry. My foot pushed the pedal harder until I was going almost 130 miles per hour.
I could tell that I was getting close, the familiar land of La Push was suddenly in view. I knew from memory where Embry lived, and I knew I was getting close. Then I remembered that Emmett was probably very worried about me, so I picked up my cell phone and scrolled through my contacts until I found the one that I was looking for and I pressed the call button. I listened with growing impatience as the phone continued to ring. Then it went to his answering machine.
I hung up with annoyance. He always answers his phone. Something has to be really wrong, especially if I'm calling him, for him not to pick up.
I was pulling up into Embry's drive way and I stopped the car and jumped out quickly. I didn't waste any time knocking, I just walked right in.
"Hello?" I called to anyone who could hear me.
I continued to walk through the house, searching for some sign of anyone's presence. I wasn't having much luck.
I was about to give up and o complain to Alice for sending me on a wild goose chase when I suddenly heard someone yelling. It sounded as though it had come from outside, I rushed over to the front door and flew outside. I followed the yelling, I found myself walking toward Embry's back yard. Is this what Alice was talking about? I wondered as I still searched for the source of the noise.
And then I saw it.