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Speaking of this chapter, it was beta'd by the awsume Katraa, so hopefully, my writing won't embarrass me to death.

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(btw, for those who don't want smut in the next five seconds, please skip the italics)

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sunshine in a bag

CHAPTER 12 : i want you to be mine

Roxas panted heavily, head tilted back as Axel's tongue slid hotly up his throat. Axel's coat was on the ground along with their shirts. Their jeans were hastily unbuttoned, hips rocking together. Roxas shuddered as Axel pushed harder against him and tried to pull the redhead closer, desperate for more friction.

"Nnh.. Ax, please," Roxas moaned, arching up and fisting his hands into the sheets below. Axel grinned against the boy's neck, his hands sliding up Roxas's chest. The kid was so responsive and it was so damn cute

"Please what?"

"A-axel.. just.. mmnh.." Roxas shivered, trailing off. Axel lapped at Roxas's neck again, sucking on a sensitive spot right below his ear. His hands trailed down Roxas's chest, stomach, one massaging his waist and the other sliding beneath his boxers. Roxas gasped suddenly hips bucking sharply into Axel's hand. He was starting to feel sweat sliding down his skin.

"Just what..?" Axel breathed huskily into Roxas's ear and stroked his length slowly, making the blonde's head spin.

"F-fu.. nngh.. Axeeeeel..!" Roxas moaned, squirming away and looking up at said redhead with large pleading eyes.

Axel chuckled softly and leaned down, pressing his lips against Roxas's. His tongue darted into the other's mouth, sliding against Roxas's while his free hand began insistently tugging at the boy's jeans. Roxas groaned and reached down, pulling at Axel's belt.

Once the last bits of clothing were flung to the floor, Axel reached down under the bed and produced a small bottle of lube.

Roxas gave Axel a strained smile as the older finally pushed inside of him. The fingers had been one thing but this was entirely different... Axel smiled in return, stroking the boy's hair. About a moment later Roxas let out a shaky breath and reached up, tracing a violet diamond tattoo with his thumb.

"I'm.. okay.." Roxas breathed, swallowing thickly. His heart was pounding a mile a minute in his chest and he was nervous as all hell.

Axel took Roxas's hand and gripped it tightly. "Relax a bit, okay?"

"I-I know, stupid.. it's.. not.. my first time.."

"Oh really?" Axel purred, smirking. He rolled his hips forward, happy with the way Roxas gasped, arching his back.

"Ohmygod, Axel, movemovemovemove, please..!"

Roxas's begging managed to turn Axel on even more if possible. His. Roxas was going to be his.

Axel slid his arms around Roxas's shoulders, pulling him close and slowly started to move inside him. God, he wanted this for so long, to take Roxas, make him his, love him. And Roxas was letting him. With each moan and tug in his hair, Axel's passion increased.

"Roxas.. I love you.."

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"Cause our lips can touch.. and our cheeks can brush.. our lips can touch.. here..
Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me, whispers 'hello, I missed
you quite terribly.' I fell in love, in love with you so suddenly... now there's
no place I could be but here in your arms..."

-Hellogoodbye 'Here In Your Arms'

.x.Axel.x.

I had woken up early that morning, much earlier than I had expected. I stared at the ceiling for a few minutes, still in a slight daze, wondering if everything that happened lasting night was a dream. Almost doubting the warm weight on my chest, I allowed myself to glance down...

...And there was Roxas. Sound asleep on top of me.

I nearly breathed out a sigh of relief as I smiled and stroked his hair. It was slightly damp and I could feel the chain that I had given him for Christmas resting at the base of his neck.

So everything that happened last night wasn't a dream, huh? Goddamn, it better have not been, or when I die of heartbreak, someone's going to pay up there. Down there. Whatever.

I stayed like that for close to an hour before Roxas began to stir. I looked down at him with a grin, ruffling his hair lightly.

"Hey, kid, you sleep well?"

There was a pause and I almost freaked out, thinking that Roxas must've.. realized what had happened or something. "...My ass hurts," he mumbled finally, turning his head the other way and closing his eyes.

I chuckled and smoothed my hands down his back. My own back was covered in bruises and scratches and marks, courtesy of Roxas.

"...But it was worth it," he finished, and I felt my grin grow even more. I slid my arms around him, pulling him even closer. It was like some weight had lifted off my shoulders. Some sort of doubt. When I called him sunshine, I wasn't joking. The name just.. stuck. But he is. He's my sun. I can honestly say I'm happier then I have been in a while. All because of him. He's really sweet deep down.

"...Hey, Rox?"

"What?"

"I'm.. not trying to catch you on the rebound, just know that, first of all. And second of all, will you be my boyfriend?"

Roxas lifted his head to meet my eyes and I cocked an eyebrow at him, smirking slightly. He looked like he was thinking it over. And after a moment, he nodded slowly and answered with a quiet 'yes.'

I practically laughed in relief, tightening my grip around him and rocking him side to side. Roxas chuckled also, burying his face into the crook of my shoulder.

"Heh, hey Axel? Remember yesterday.. how you told me you loved me?"

"..Yeah..?"

"Was it true?"

I blinked down at Roxas's spikes in confusion, arching an eyebrow. "Of course it was. It still is." I sighed softly and kissed the top of his head before continuing, in case he needed more proof. "I love you, Roxas, I really do. You make me happy, y'know? I mean.. I was happy before.. but it's a different sort of thing. Like.. all I need to make it through anything is you. So yeah. It's true. Got it memorized?"

After a moment of silence, I reached up and place a hand on his cheek. It was warm.

"Are you speechless, Rox?"

"..."

"...Roxas?"

"Axel?"

"Um... Yeah?"

Roxas shifted in my arms, lifting himself up until his face was level with mine. His cheeks were flushed a soft pink, and his eyes were shining.. those blueblueblue eyes.. I could tell that I was staring at him with adoration.

"I can feel it, Ax," he muttered softly, placing a hand against his own chest. "I know it... I love you, too. I think I... have for a while."

He gave me a crooked, sheepish smile and I laughed in return, pulling him back down against me. "Someone up there must hate us or something for it to take so long, y'know?"

"Heh. Maybe not too much though."

"Of course not. If they did, would you be in my arms right now?"

"Heh.. I guess not."

"That's what I thought, love," I purred, leaning down and pressing a welcomed kiss to Roxas's lips.

But, y'know, I still wondered why. Why Naminé would give up someone like Roxas... I mean, who in their right mind would, y'know what I mean? And I had a sudden urge to find out. It was like a nagging in my brain.

"Hey, Roxy?" I mumbled pulling away from him a little bit. He did this adorable little thing where he tried to lean back into another kiss but fell short. I laughed and ruffled his hair. "Listen, Foxy-Roxy. I gotta go to a friend's for a bit. Just a couple hours, okay?"

"What for?"

"Don't be nosey."

Roxas huffed in annoyance and blew his bangs away from his face. "Alright then. And I take it that I can't come? ..Right. I'll go to Kairi's then."

"Come? I can make you come, baby," I purred teasingly, sliding my hand down his stomach.

In the span of the next three minutes, my face had befriended Roxas's pillow.

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"Rox! I'm going now!" I shouted, knocking on the bathroom door. I heard the sound of the water stopping and the curtain being pulled back. I sighed and stepped back crossing my arms. Roxas stepped out a few minutes later, clutching a large towel around himself. It was now that I was strangely reminded of the first time I saw Roxas come out of the shower. Only this time he was tame, and sweet and lovable.. and not about to throw me against the nearest wall and strangle the life out of me.

"What, Ax?" he asked, pushing his wet hair away from his eyes. "You going now?"

"I.. yeah."

"..What're you staring for?"

I quirked a small smirk, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him close. I could smell the scent vanilla wafting from his hair from this close.

"You've changed a lot, Roxy."

"I guess I have.. huh.." he mumbled, burying his face into my chest. I nearly melted.

"..Roxas, remember the first time I kissed you? And you ran off to Kairi's?"

"...Yeah...? What about it?"

"Well.. next day I ran into Sora at the mall. He asked me if I did anything to upset you..." I trailed off and sighed, smoothing my hands along his back. "He told me that you had trouble warming up to people after some sort of.. incident? I've always been meaning to ask."

I felt Roxas stiffen a tiny bit in my arms. "You want to know now?"

"Well.. unless you don't wanna tell me..."

I glanced down at him, seeing his fingers curl into my shirt. "No. I'll tell you."

I kissed his forehead and pulled him towards the couch, tugging him into my lap. It took a moment of silence and a little bit of poking for him to finally get on with it.

"...Okay.. so.. before I moved into here I used to live with my other boyfriend. His... His name was Marluxia. Were going out for two months then. When we first started dating, he was so nice to me, just like you are. But.. but then he started getting a little.. abusive. And I don't take bullshit like that from people so I fought back. We were fighting a lot before the end of our relationship. That's when I moved away from him and with my brother. So then Sora tried to hook me up with some of his other friends but I was still hurt and angry so I moved away from him too."

"To here?"

"To here. I'm sorry I was such a bitch to you at first, Axel, I just..."

I placed a finger against his lips, silencing him. "It's okay, Roxas. I get it. I know. And just so you know, I will never become like that. I would never be able to forgive myself for hurting you."

Roxas looked up at me slowly, blue eyes wide and swimming with emotion. "Promise?"

"Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye."

Roxas laughed brightly and kissed me.

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"A-axel? What're you doing here?" Naminé asked me after opening the door.

"Visiting. You don't mind do you?" I said, casually flicking what was left of my cigarette into the snow (Shh, don't tell Roxas. I've been craving a smoke).

"Uh, no, no, of course not." Naminé stepped back, allowing me to come in. I remember the last time I was in here it was crowded to hell and back. Now it was just.. empty. And white. Really white. "Are you hungry, Axel? I was making brownies..."

I smiled at her and shook my head, and she seemed to relax a little bit.

"Roxas told you what happened, huh? That's why you're here."

I nodded and brushed past her into the spotless living room, dropping myself down on the couch. Naminé seemed to hesitate before following me and sitting down beside me.

"I was just.. wondering why you did it. Why you gave him up like that."

Naminé blinked in surprise and then giggled. "Well, it's obvious, isn't it? He liked me, but he would never love me. Not the way he loves you, Axel."

I chuckled and leaned back, draping my arms over the back of the couch. "You're funny, Nam. Most girls wouldn't give up a guy like that. Not without a fight at least."

"I'd be fighting for a lost cause."

"...Touché."

Naminé smiled and then cast her eyes to the hem of her dress. "This.. this whole going out thing with Roxas.. It was actually my plan to help you get together."

I'm pretty sure that the look I gave Naminé was a very good impression of deer-in-headlights. Run that by me one more time?

"...What?"

"Well, see, I know a lot about Roxas from Kairi.. since they're best friends and everything. And after I met him, she started calling me and telling me that she had a feeling that he liked you. And to be honest, he was taking.. a damn long time fighting with himself. And it was becoming painfully obvious how much he liked you and everything. So I figured that if he started going out with someone, he'd realize how much he misses you, or you'll be pushed to tell him your feelings. Which is exactly what happened. You see how it works?"

I sat there for a moment in shocked silence, barely able to breathe. "Wait.." I finally muttered, leaning forward. "So.. this entire thing was your idea? To help us?"

Naminé smiled sweetly and nodded. "Otherwise it might've taken forever for Roxas to finally get over himself. No offense to him."

I stared at Naminé for a moment more, mouth agape, before practically launching myself at her and gathering her into a hug. Naminé only laughed and patted my back.

"You're welcome."

I pulled away, grinning from ear to ear. "You're an angel, I swear to god."

"Not really," Naminé said with a smile. I scoffed and rolled my eyes.

"Well, now that you I have this whole thing straightened out, y'wanna go to Kairi's?"

"Kairi's? Why?"

"...Roxas went there."

"Should've guessed."

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.x.Roxas.x.

"See, I knew you slept with him. You can't keep anything from your best friend!"

I groaned and sunk down as far as the couch would take me, embarrassed beyond belief. Kairi grinned triumphantly from beside me while Riku and Sora snickered to themselves.

"Thanks, Kairi. I think I'm gonna go live under a rock now," I deadpanned, starting to get up.

"Awww, c'mon!" Kairi whined, grabbing my arm and jerking me back down. "We all knew it was gonna happen at some point or another."

I blinked widely and sat up a bit. "You did?"

"Rox, even we knew it, and we barely see you on a daily basis," Sora spoke up, nodding to Riku.

"So.. like.. you guys aren't pissed at me or anything for having sex with Axel after Naminé broke up with me?"

"Like I said, Rox, we knew it was going to happen. And it's about time too."

I blushed even harder and grabbed the nearest cushion, pressing it to my face. I heard Kairi laugh beside me and felt her ruffle my hair.

"Besides," she said, her voice near my ear. I blinked and lifted my head the slightest bit. "Even a blind person could tell how much you two love each other from a mile away."

"About time you stopped beating around the bush." ...From the few times I'd heard Riku speak to me, I would have to agree with him. I guess I've just been stupid this whole time. Axel was in front of me all along. Honestly. Why does my brain insist on being so goddamn stu--

...And there goes the doorbell, interrupting me again.

"I'll get it!" My brother jumped up from his place on the loveseat and bounded out the hallway. I glanced at Kairi and she smiled at me, so I smiled back.

"Oh wow. Are you having a party, Kai?"

I whipped my head up quickly, clutching the cushion close to my chest.

..Axel..

"Sorry, Ax, you just missed it. Hey, Naminé."

As Kairi, Riku and Sora went to greet Naminé, Axel quietly crept away and sat down next to me, wrapping his arm around my shoulders.

"Hey, Foxy-Roxy. You missed me?"

I chuckled and nodded. "I suppose so."

"You suppose? Gee, thanks."

I couldn't help but smile when Axel leaned down to kiss me. A second later I froze and pulled away, realizing that everyone else was watching us. I blushed in surprise and embarrassment, ducking my head against Axel's chest, whom only laughed and ran his fingers through my hair.

Naminé. She was watching us too, with a smile on her face. I stared back for a moment before slowly mouthing out the words "thank you." She came over to us, with that sweet smile and leaned down, kissing my cheek.

"You're welcome, Roxas. You're welcome.

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