Chapter 7

Don't Want to do this Anymore

Dean's Point of View

"Where the hell did they go Cas?" I asked.

"Bella took Sam to detox; she probably knew what we were feeling about him and wanted to get him away from us." Cas replied.

"That was scary shit." Jo said. This was the first time Jo had seen Sammy like this.

"When will they be back?" I asked.

"Whenever Sam is ready." Cas replied.

"Take me to them." I demanded.

"I can't sense where she is." Cas said.

"Than how have you stayed in contact with her?" I yelled.

"She summons me Dean; just be patient." Cas said and the next we knew we were back at Bella's house.

I stormed off to the back porch.

It had been three days since we had seen Bella or Sam and I did what I did every morning; I went out to stand on the back porch and soon I felt someone behind me. I turned to see Edward, "You know I'm getting sick of her just running off like that." I said.

"She does have a knack for it though. Jasper said you were feeling disgust and anger towards Sam; Why?" Edward asked.

"Sam was hooked on demon blood a while back and when he was on it that's when Lucifer was released. We haven't been the same since; I can't trust him. I'm more worried about Jo; she's never seen him like that." I said.

"Yes it was scary to say the least." Edward said quietly.

"Edward what made you back off of Bella?" I asked.

"Bella made me realize I was still in love with sweet innocent Bella I met in Forks, not the demon ass-kicking, in your face, not so fragile Bella. I still love her, but not like I did." Edward said. Then he turned to me, "What happened to no chick flick moments."

I laughed, "It's the end the world, can't really outlaw them now. I mean isn't that what an apocalypse does; make really good chick flick moments."

"Dean you know we aren't going to let her leave; we will back you in any way." he told me.

"I appreciate it and I'm pretty sure I am going to need it." I said.

Cas came outside, "Dean you had better come in and deal with Anna."

"Shit." was all I said and went inside.

Bella's Point of View

Sam was struggling the entire time I transported him to my private island that God created just for me, "Sam quit it." I said.

He was seriously out of control, "Let me go Bella. You have no right to keep me here." he said and threw me against a tree.

I shook my head and saw him heading for the ocean; I got up and levitated him. "Sam you may be strong, but I'm stronger." I said and forced him into the house. I put him down and let him try and get out, but the moment he hit the door it threw him against the wall.

"WHAT THE HELL!" Sam yelled at me.

"It's blocked; you have demon blood in your system and until it's out you can't leave without my permission." I said simply. "Now sit down; we need to talk."

Sam didn't do as I said and kept trying the door. I sighed and went to sit down on the couch.

About an hour later came to stand in front of me, "This is bullshit Bella; let me out or I will destroy everything. I already destroyed the wall by hitting it so many times." Sam said.

"No I'm not letting you out and are you sure you destroyed the wall." I said grinning.

He walked over to where he had hit the wall and saw that the damage that was there a second ago was gone now, "How?" he asked.

I laughed, "Sam you're a smart boy think about it;"

"You did this." he said.

"YEP." I said popping the 'p', "I knew you were going to be difficult and this is my own private place so I wanted to make sure you didn't destroy it."

Sam got angry and started breaking everything in sight, but the moment it broke it just reassembled itself. That is how it was for two days until finally he the blood started to leave his system. It was a slow process; slow as molasses in winter time, but Sam had started to get back to his old self.

"Bella I'm sorry about throwing you into the tree." Sam said over breakfast the third day we were there.

"No problem Sammy boy." I said smiling.

"Man I forgot how good of a cook you were." Sam said stuffing a pancake in his mouth. Then he got serious, "How do you think Jo is going to be when I get back?" he asked in barely a whisper.

I sighed, "Sam I can't answer you that question for you."

"I thought you knew everything." he said dryly.

"It doesn't work like that; I only know what I need to know." I said. I went over to sit by him and put my hand on his, "But I do know Jo and she isn't going to hold this against you. Sam she's seen you possessed before…"

He interrupted me, "But that was a demon; this time it was me." he said close to tears.

"Sam you had demon blood in your system so technically you sort of were possessed. I'm not saying it will be easy, but you have to let Jo know everything. She may not accept it first, but don't just automatically shut her out. We all have our baggage; this is just yours." I said trying to reassure him.

"What about you and Dean?" he asked.

"We aren't discussing that." I said.

"So it's ok to talk about my relationship, but not yours." he said.

"No you asked what do I think would happen and I answered; besides I have no relationship with Dean." I said trying to sound indifferent.

"That's bullshit and you know it Bella." Sam said getting up from the table and walking over to me. "You are in a relationship whether you want to admit it or not."

"Sam we are not having this discussion." I said turning to glare at him.

"Yes we are; Bella you and Dean are meant to be together. Why can't you see that?" he asked.

"Because it can never happen; you know why. I can't allow anything to happen to you guys." I said walking out of the kitchen.

Sam followed, "Oh but we can allow you to just walk out of our lives. Bella you are my sister; every time I have ever needed you, you have been there. Look at where we are now; I freaked out went on a demon blood drinking binge and you are here with no judgments. You are trying to protect me from myself, so why can't you let us help you?"

"This isn't dangerous; what happens after we put Lucifer back in his cage is." I said simply. "I'm going for a walk; if you want here is my cell phone. Call Jo and talk." I said and started to walk out the door.

"I'll take your advice if you take mine!" Sam yelled.

Damn jerk.

Dean's Point of View

"Anna what are you doing here?" I asked.

"I'm here to make sure that abomination didn't hurt you." Anna said to me.

"Bella is not an abomination Anna." Cas said.

"Yes she is; she should have been destroyed the moment we found out about her." Anna snapped.

"Leave Bella alone." I said glaring at Anna.

"See she has poisoned you against Heaven." Anna said trying to grab my hand.

Before she could touch it Rosalie stepped in and grabbed her hand, "Bella isn't here Anna so I will act in her place."

"Where is she?" Anna asked yanking her hand from Rosalie's.

"She is with Sam helping him." Cas said.

"Another abomination." Anna said quietly, but we all heard it.

"YOU DID NOT JUST CALL MY BROTHER AN ABOMINATION!" I yelled.

"The only good thing he will do is when he says yes to Lucifer and you say yes to Michael. Then all this can be taken care of including them." she said pointing to the Cullen's and the pack.

"Are you threatening my family?" Carlisle asked.

"You are all an abomination. God should have never given you the power to morph or let you live." she said pointing to them. "In fact I will fix that mistake myself." she said and started towards them.

"Don't even think about it Anna." Cas said stepping between Anna and the others.

"Move Castiel." Anna said pulling out her sword. "On second thought you can join them."

Before we knew what happened I saw Anna being turned around, her sword taken from her and it going into her abdomen.

I looked and saw Bella, "I warned you Anna, but you didn't listen. One thing you said to me there are always consequences for our actions; even you have consequences and this is it." Bella said never taking her eyes off Anna.

I watched as Anna's body shook and I could see her eyes started to shine a bright light and then she fell dead. Bella removed the sword from Anna and handed it to Cas.

He took the sword shakily and asked her, "I thought you couldn't kill us; only another angel can kill an angel. How?"

"That's not important; if anyone asks you killed her not me." Bella said simply.

"But…" Cas started.

"No Cas; the last thing I need is angels knowing I can kill them. It will put them in more danger." Bella said waving her hand towards us. She looked at Jo, "You are coming with me."

Jo walked over to Bella and they disappeared.

"Damn it why does she keep doing that?" I asked furiously.

"I'm right there with you; I'm tired of my little sister popping in and out whenever she wants." Emmett said placing a hand on my shoulder.

"I'm going upstairs." I said and went to my room.

Bella's Point of View

"Bella where are we?" Jo asked me a little dazed.

I laughed "We are on my island."

"You have an island? Sign me up for your job." she said looking around amazed.

"Believe me there was a catch with this job." I said winking at her and we both laughed.

"Is Sam here?" she asked.

"Yes. I brought you here to talk to him." I said.

"I don't know what to say or think." she said quietly.

"Jo it's not my place to tell you how Sam got this way, but you two need to talk. He doesn't know what to say to you either; he is completely ashamed you saw him like that." I said putting a hand on her shoulder. "Just ask him what you want to know." I said and pointed to the house.

"Thanks; B why don't you take some of your own advice. Go and talk to Dean." she said and started walking up the walk way.

"Hey Jo," I said and she turned to me, "If you need me just yell my name. He still has some demon blood in him and might still be a little you know off, but don't worry. If you start to get scared go to my room; he can't enter it. Also he can't leave the house just yet." When I finished she nodded and walked into the house.

I sighed; I can't keep doing this to myself. Maybe Sam, Jo, and everyone else was right; I shouldn't close myself off because I'm afraid of them getting hurt. Chuck said not everything is set in stone and I don't want to stay away or deny Dean anymore.

I focused on Dean and closed my eyes; when I opened them I was in his room and he was standing looking out the window with his arm resting on the wall propping him up. I smiled because this was the Dean I loved; the side of him he never showed except to me. Yes Dean was fun and made jokes during really deathly situations, but this side of him was the thoughtful, serious side.

"Dean?" I said.

"Bella what are you doing here? Where's Jo?" he asked looking confused.

"Jo is talking with Sam." I said.

"How is he?" Dean asked looking back out the window.

"He's as good as he can be. He is upset you guys saw him so weak; especially you and Jo. He knows he let you down and that you can't trust him." I said.

"Yea well he wasn't the only one who was brought in by Famine." Dean said indifferently.

I walked over to him and took his free hand in mine, "Dean this is me; don't act like you don't care and it's not a big deal. I know you better than that." I said and started stroking his cheek with my other hand.

He pulled away, "Why do you care Bella; I mean you are going to leave after all this is over with." I could feel the anger and pain dropping from every word he said. "Why are you even here with me now?"

"Because I care about you; why do you think I stayed away? Dean I knew if I stayed in your life you were going to die." I said.

"That's not your decision to make." I said rubbing my eyes and turning my back to her.

She sighed and then spoke, "You're right."

Dean's Point of View

What? I thought to myself; I mean there is no way in hell she said that.

"What?" I asked her.

"I said you're right it's not my decision to make." she said.

"Don't bullshit me Bella." I said looking at her suspiciously.

She laughed, "I'm not bullshitting you Dean. Before I admit it I wanted to do this my way. I wanted to keep you out of it, but you kept pressing me and pushing me. You wouldn't let me go and as much as I tried to keep my distance even when you came here I couldn't. Dean I love you and I don't want to run from you or what we have anymore because I'm too afraid to lose you. That's no way for either of us to live. What I did to you was unfair and you should hate me and tell me you never want to see me again because I toyed with you." she said and I saw swell in her eyes. She walked right up to me, "Dean I can't say I'm sorry enough and I understand if you don't want me, but when I saw your brother be so distraught over what Jo saw him do I thought about what I had done to you. All this time I have let my fear rule everything. I don't want to let it do that anymore." She finished and looked away from me.

I put my hand under her chin, "Bella look at me." I said and she did, "What do you want?" I asked quietly looking into her eye; no into her soul.

"You." she said and with that one little word everything changed.

I smiled and she put her arms around my neck and pulled me to her lips. I can't explain my elation at the fact that she had let down all her walls and opened up to me. She wasn't afraid to tell me what she wanted and she didn't hold back anything.

I broke the kiss, "You can have me only if I get you." I said.

She smiled and that playful look in her eyes came out, "Well Dean I can't guarantee that; I mean I am in high demand…" she said teasingly.

I whipped her around and forced her onto the bed, "Cute Bella, but I want a serious answer."

"Dean you've always had me." she said.

"And you've always had me." I replied.

I leaned down to kiss her, but never got the chance.

My door swung open to reveal Cas, "We have a huge problem.

A/N: I know cliffy, but thankful my writer's block is wrong and I now know what is going to happen. Now remember I have my poll up on my author's page so please go and vote since this story and my other one is almost done. Pretty please review. Songs for this chapter:

Avril Lavigne- Losing Grip

Nickleback- Saving Me

Natasha Bedingfield- Pocketful of Sunshine

Goo Goo Dolls- Iris