AN- I'm soooooo sorry for the long delay, and I already wrote the next two so it won't be that long again. Me and my English major had some technical issues. Anyways I want to thank all of you who reviewed, alerted and add it as favorite. That means the world to me. And as always thanks to my English major. So here is chapter 4 I hope you like it.
Chapter 4
Veronica was finally able to calm herself down enough to go to sleep after three hours of not being able to decide whether to cry or to punch something. She finally woke up at eleven, in no mood to deal with teachers, friends, or jackasses. She locked herself in her room looking granting herself a pig out day. Around three she received a text from Mac asking if she was ok and still coming to the party.
'What better way to forget about being abandoned, then to drink yourself unconscious.'
Veronica told Mac that she would still come, and that she would meet over her house at seven to get ready.
Walking into her closet Veronica pulls the dress that she bought right before moving. She looks at herself in the mirror, as she holds the dress up to her.
"Might as well make a splash." She says to herself as she packs the dress, her make-up, and shoes into an overnight bag.
Veronica heads down to the kitchen to check in with her aunt before she heads out.
"Hey, Auntie, how was work?" She asks when she reaches the kitchen.
"Good sweetie. How about you? Eli told me they didn't call, how are you holding up?" Aunt Rosa asks with a concerned look on her face.
"Well it really sucked last night. And now it…well it still sucks but it sucks less. I don't know if it would have been anyone else it wouldn't have been a problem. But these are my parents, the two people in the world that are always suppose to care, and it's like they don't anymore. I feel like it's out of sight out of mind for them." Veronica finishes as she starts to break down.
"No baby. You know that your parents will always love you. And even if they don't you have me, Eli, Noelia, Chris, and even Felix." Rose tells her pulling her into a much needed hug.
"Thanks. I guess I just needed to rant a little, I feel better now."
"Good. So what are your plans for tonight?" Rose asks trying to move to a less painful subject. "Eli tells me you were invited to a party?"
"Yeah, some of my friends are having one tonight. And after everything that has happened lately I want, no I need,to have some fun." Veronica says going to pick up her bag. "Don't worry I'll be fine." She tells her aunt when she sees the worried look on her face, "And I'm going to sleep over at my friend Mac's house tonight, so don't wait up." She says making her way out to her new car.
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Veronica, Lilly, Meg, and Mac spent two very girly hours getting ready. Veronica had gone into Mac's bathroom to change into her outfit. Once she had it on and looked into the mirror all her confidence disappeared. All she could she is her mom's face when she first tried it on in the store. And when she thought of her mom she felt worthless; she still hadn't heard anything from either of her parents.
"Veronica, are you almost ready?" Lilly's voice pulled Veronica out of her wallowing. "You have been in there for like ever." She says banging on the door.
"Yeah I'm coming out." Veronica replies adjusting her dress one last time.
"Wow, V you look hot." Lilly tells her once she walks out of the bathroom. "You do know that every guy is going to try and nail you tonight, right?"
"Lilly please just be quite. But you do look great Veronica." Mac says to Veronica coming out her closet.
"Thanks guys."
"You know, I always thought little Miss Veronica Mars here was a strapless red satin girl." Lilly says finishing her make-up and smiles. "Ok all done. Time to go and make the boys drool."
"Let me at 'em" Meg says coming back in the room in the black dress she changed into.
"Why Miss Manning, who would of thought you had it in you to be bad?" Lilly says praising the girl front of her.
"Lils you have no idea how bad I can be," Meg replies winking before going down the stairs, leaving the other girls shocked in her wake.
"Ok. Meg is officially my new hero." Mac says to the others as they make their way down the stairs. "I mean it's not anybody that can make the famous Lilly Kane speechless."
"Not speechless my dear, I don't know the meaning of the word, just thoroughly impressed." Lilly tells her as they all burst into laughter.
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Veronica had been at the party for all of two seconds before making a beeline for the drink table. Now going on three hours later she was beyond trashed, having downed about two bottles of vodka by herself. She had gotten herself another drink before heading down a deserted hallway, trying to get away from all the noise and people.
'Well Veronica you have had enough to drink to insure that you have a wicked hangover tomorrow, but the pain is still there. So I guess that whole numb it out plan not going to work.' Veronica says to herself as she makes her way into what appears to be a library/office.
"Well, well, well what do we have here? Veronica, what are you doing? Shouldn't you be out there swapping witty remarks with your new friends?" Logan asks as he walks past the doorway.
"What you want Logan? I'm not in the mood for our usual delightful banter, so if you don't mind could you just go screw whatever little bimbo you brought and leave me alone?" Veronica says not taking her eyes off her drink, and even she can hear the defeated tone in her voice.
"What's the matter? You look like mommy and daddy forget their little princess's birthday or something." He asks smirking.
"Ding ding ding, we have a winner. Great now you can take your price and leave." Veronica says taking another huge sip of her drink. Looking up she sees that Logan is still standing in the corner, looking down at his hands so she keeps going, "Go ahead, tell me how I'm so unimportant that my own parents can't take two seconds out of their lives to call me and wish me a happy birthday. You know you want to. I mean this little piece of information is just what you're looking for, right? A way to beat me or have control over me, or whatever it is you do." She tells him in a dejected tone but not wanting to show so much emotion in front of Logan.
"Veronica…I'm sor-"
"DON'T you dare feel sorry for me. I don't want or need you pity. So save it for someone who cares." Veronica yells getting up and making her way for the door. As she passes Logan he reaches and grabs her arm, stopping her escape.
"Veronica I don't pity you. I wasn't going to apologize for that. All I was going to say is that I'm sorry for what I said. That and for being an ass." Logan tells her as he drops her arm from his grasp.
"Why are you apologizing? Why do you even care?" She asks harsher than she meant.
"Look I know that parents are assholes, trust me you aren't the first person that has been forgotten by their parents, and I'm pretty sure you won't be the last." He says as he goes and sits on the couch further in the room.
"Yeah right. Like you have any idea about my life or what I've been through." Veronica says with a glare.
"Ok I get it you had a crappy birthday, but don't you dare act like your life is this horrible or awful thing. Because trust me you won't win with me." Logan says with as icy tone.
"Oh really. Well let's see. First I have to leave everything I've ever known because my parents felt that it was more important to add to their bank account than to be with me. Then once I got here I have you attacking one of the only people that has ever really given a damn about me. So excuse me if I'm a little down in the mouth."
"Yeah I get it moving it sucks. I've had to do it at least a dozen times, and you know the one thing that's good about moving that often, you never have to worry about saying good bye because you aren't there long enough to make friends." Logan says with an edge in his voice.
"What, am I suppose to be all 'Poor Logan, moving all the time'? Am I supposed to care? At least you moved with your parents." Veronica spat at him and dropped the empty plastic cup, which luckily was empty. She didn't realize she had finished the rest of it.
"Just because I have some type of 'parent' doesn't mean they're any good. You want to know about me, well here you go. I had to miss my own birthday party when I was nine because my dad gave me his present early. You want to guess what it was? A broken arm; I spilled water in his new Bentley and he saw fit to send me to the hospital. So don't act like you have any idea about me or my life either. The only bad thing that's happened to you is, what? You moved across the country, yeah poor you." Logan says getting up and heading for the door.
"Yeah poor me. You want to know what one of my friend's parting gift to me was, to drug me and rape me, so yeah I have nopain to live with. No, I just have to deal with the fact that I don't remember anything about that night." Veronica starts to feel the tears that have been threatening all day finally fall down her face. Feeling too defeated to do anything else she simple breaks down. "And you know what the icing on the cake is; I never got the chance to find out who it was or to make him pay. So yeah, I might not have physical pain but don't you think for a second that I don't feel pain every single day of my life." Veronica gets up to leave but her legs give out and she stumbles forward. Right before she hits the ground Logan captures her in his arms.
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Veronica woke up the next morning in a daze. As she sat up in the bed she was in she looked around, not recognizing her surrounds. Suddenly she froze, remembering the last time that this happened. 'No No No. Please not again.' Veronica began to look around franticly trying to find something that might jog her memory of what had led her to wake up in a stranger's bed. She began to stand up, but was unable to do so without getting a head rush. Veronica started to look around the room trying to remember how she got here. The last thing she remembered was talking to Logan about everything, yelling at him about moving, him being an ass, and…oh god…'I told him everything.'
"Hey, you're up." A voice pulled Veronica out of her haze. "How are you feeling?"
Veronica looks over towards the voice, and sees Logan sitting, uncomfortably in a chair near the window. "Um, what happened last night? How did I get here?" She asks pointing to the bed she is sitting on as she started to freak out.
"Don't worry, nothing happened. After you said…after we talked,I brought you up here. I didn't think you would want people to see you like that. People in this town have a way of using your emotions against you any chance they get." He tells her with bitterness in his voice.
"Thanks." Veronica says barely above a whisper. "Thanks for getting me out of there."
"Veronica do you remember anything from last night?" Logan asks, hoping she does and at the same time praying that she doesn't.
"Yeah I do. But could…could you just not. I don't want to talk about it, and I don't want to think about."
"Veronica you need to do something." He states firmly.
"No. I-I…I can't tell anyone. And you can't either. I don't want anyone to know, you are the only one I've told." Veronica replies looking down at her hands. "Please Logan just drop it, ok?" she looks up at him with pleading eyes.
He simply nods his understanding. "So I guess you need a ride back to Mac's. I texted her letting them know you're ok." Logan says breaking the silence that had grown between them. "Come on, my car's out front."
Without a word Veronica gets up and heads out the door with Logan.
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Veronica and Logan had been the car together for almost fifth teen minutes, and neither has breathed a word. Finally unable to take the silence anymore, Veronica reaches and turns on the radio. As it comes to life Veronica recognizes the station, it's one of her parents'. Automatically she turns the dial and she finds an oldies station.
Dear Prudence, open up your eyes
Dear Prudence, see the sunny skies
The wind is low, the birds will sing
That you are part of everything
"Dear Prudence," Logan says with a smile looking down at the dashboard.
"Wait you know this song?" Veronica asks skeptically, looking over at him questioningly.
"Yeah." He says confused. "What? Why are you looking at me like I just grew a second head or something?"
"No-nothing. It's just that most people don't know this song."
"Yeah I know. When I tell people this is my favorite Beatles song they look at me like you just did, because they don't know what the hell I'm talking about." Logan says with a laugh. "What about you? You seem to know it." He says pointing to the radio.
"It's my mom's favorite song. She played it all the time when she was pregnant with me; she even named me after it, my middle name is Prudence. When I was little she would play it when I was sick or got hurt." Veronica tells him with a small, sad smile, thinking about her mom.
They fell silent after that, neither sure of what to make of the friendly exchange. But unlike before this silence wasn't awkward or uncomfortable, it was easy and soothing; it just felt right.
After a few more moments of peace Veronica turned to Logan and asked, "So Andie, huh?"
"What?" He spared her a confused glance before turning back to the road.
"The other night you called me Andie. Not that I don't love Pretty In Pink and everything, but why?"
"Oh, that. Nothing really, it was just the whole I don't want you to take me home thing it reminded me of it." Logan says with a smile.
"Huh, I wouldn't have begged you for an 80's teen comedy kinda guy," She says looking at him puzzled.
"Um, I think this is roughly quoting you- you have no idea what kinda guy I am." He tells her smirking. "Besides I don't make a point of it to go around advertising the fact that I like 80's chick flicks."
"What? Afraid of ruining your jackass image?" Veronica asks a little bitterly.
An uneasy silence took over the car, as they both chose to leave the conversation where it was.
"Huh, I guess daddy Kane let Lilly take out his new little toy." Logan states looking over at the new red Lexus that was occupying Mac's driveway.
Veronica fallowed his line of sight and saw what he was talking about. "Um, yeah I guess." She says laughing as she grabs her stuff and steps out of the SUV. "Thanks… for the ride." She says turning around facing Logan, "And thanks for last night, and for listening. Thanks for letting it go… Just thanks." And with that she ran up to the house.
'Guess this means it's time for a second chance Veronica.'
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AN2- Oh and The Beatles songs is for my English major.