Second Chances Chapter 12: Songs of the Heart, a veronica mars fanfic

AN-I want to start off by saying I'm so sorry that it has taking me so long to update. If you haven't seen the AN I posted on one of my other stories I'll just say that it's been a really bad year for me, my family, and my friends. Anyways I also just wanted to say that this story will be finished it is just going to take some time, so please just stick with me. Also I'm going to try to start updating every two weeks or so but it might not be that consistent at first. And hopefully in the future I will be able to do maybe one or two updates a week. Another thing if any of you read my other story It's something like LoVe would you be willing to be either a ghost writer for awhile or a coauthor just send me a pm, and if any of you are interested in being my beta my other one can't anymore just send me a message. Ok I think that's it so now for the long awaited chapter 11…Enjoy

Your hair is beautiful
Oh, tonight
Atomic
Oh Atomic
Oh

Oh Atomic
Oh Atomic
Oh

As Mac's voice rings out as she finishes the song the only noise you can hear are the cheers from the crowd. Taking a bow she makes her way over to her friend's table where they are waiting cheering for their blue haired friend.

"That was great Mac." Meg says as she blushes from all the attention.

"Yes I must say that was a very nice choice Mackenzie, very blonde of you." Logan says with a smirk.

"Why thank you Echolls."

"Wait dude what are you talking about? Mac's hair is brown not blonde." Dick replies looking at his friend like he grew another head.

"You know you're luck you're hot right?" Mac asks her boyfriend.

"Dick man what did we talk about, think before you speak." Casey tells his confused friend shaking his head.

"But I did, I don't understand-"

"Dick its ok just leave it alone." Logan says rolling his eyes.

"Anyways who's up next?" Lilly asks while she, Meg, Mac, and Betty all throw pointed look at Veronica who has her lowered studying her hands.

Since the group had arrived almost two hours ago everyone had taken a turn at the microphone except Veronica, Logan, and Duncan, who was sulking on the far end of the table. Veronica had barely spoken two words since the girls sat down at the table. Now that she realized her feeling for Logan she didn't know how to ac t or what to say to him. He knew all her dirty little secrets and so the fear of rejection was ten times worse than anything she had ever felt. She doesn't know how to tell him without putting herself out there for more heartache.

Logan was having just as much fear over rejection but for a different reason. He had never felt this way about any girl he had been with; with the others it was always about filling a need. All Logan would have to do is flaunt his family's name, status, and money and the girls would fall down at his feet. But that's why Veronica was throwing him, he never had to try because it was never his heart he dealt with it was always something more south of the anatomy.

Veronica chances a look up and turns toward Logan's direction what she was met with she's not expecting. Logan is looking at with a calculate look, not sure what to do Veronica wordlessly gets up and makes her way over to the guy on the stage in charge. Logan watches her walk away not sure what to do. As he comes back to the reality he hears his friends all whispering to each other, but as he turns to face them again they all stop talking and look anywhere but him.

"You guys know that you're totally not subtle right?" He asks laughing at his friends.

"We have no idea what you're talking Logan." Mac tells him with an innocent expression," And you know we are totally sleuth and shut up and listen. You never know when a song can be educational."

Giving her a confused look Logan turns towards the stage just as Veronica takes the microphone.

"Um, I just wanted to say that this song is for someone hopefully very special to me. Just remember we all come with baggage and I have more than your average girl." Turning she gives the d.j. the ok.

Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do?
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do
And there's nothing I can do

Feels like I'm drowning
I'm screaming for air
(Screaming for air)
Louder I'm crying
And you don't even care

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
(What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken [x3]

Veronica's voice rang out over the dead silence of the audience. No one in the crowd knew which to do, cry or clap for the girl's song. Shyly Veronica made her way back to her table where she was met with an uneasy silence.

"Wow girl that was…wow." Wallace says in awe.

"Um thanks." She replies taking a seat. Nervously she turns towards Logan who is just staring over at her in complete wonder. Without a word he stands and walks swiftly over to the DJ. Veronica just stares at his retreating form and slumps back in her chair dejected.

"Veronica I'm sure it's going to work out. Trust us." Meg tells her friend soothingly.

"I don't know you guys. I mean he just walked away without sa-." Veronica starts but is cut off by a voice ringing out over the speakers.

"Um so yeah, I just wanted to say that this song is for someone special, you know who you are and hopefully after this you will know what you mean to me." Logan says while looking straight into Veronica's eyes. Then music started.

Look outside
It's already light and the stars ran away with the night
Things we're said, words that we'll try forget,
it's so hard to admit I know we've made mistakes
I see through all the tears but that's what got us here

If love is an ocean wide
We'll swim in the tears we cry
They'll see us through to the other side
We're gonna make it
When love is a raging sea
You can hold on to me
We'll find a way tonight
Love is an ocean wide

I'll stay right here
It's where I'll always belong
Tied with your arms
Days like this, I wish the sun wouldn't set
I don't want to forget
What made us feel this way
You see through all my fears
And that's what got us here

Love is an ocean wide enough to forget
Even when we think we can't

Logan stared at Veronica through the whole song trying to show her that no matter what she or he had done or been through that it didn't matter all that matter was giving themselves a chance to be happy. With the final note Logan raises his eyebrows at in a silent question. To try or not to try that is the question?

Veronica breaks eye contact with Logan intense stare and looks around her table of friends. All of whom are staring at her waiting to see what she will do. Looking once again towards Logan she realizes that she finally has the chance to be happy with someone who wants her for who she is not what she could be or what she haves. She has what she has always wanted and what does she do with it, she runs. She runs away from her table with all her friends screaming at her, runs from Java the Hut, but most importantly she runs from a heartbroken Logan.

'Well Veronica you finally got what you wanted. Then you run from it, great just great.'

So what did you think…ok so if you didn't know the songs are Heavily Broken by the Veronicas…haha I know the irony…and Ocean Wide by the Afters….Please let me know what you thought.