JPOV
Sam left right after the meeting to start up on patrolling with Embry; he gave Paul a death glare before phasing and running off in to the woods. Jared ran off saying he had promised he would pick up Kim from school and that left me alone with Paul.
Something was telling me Paul was bad news right now, maybe it was how Sam was treating him, but it was a little bit of just gut feeling too.
He smirked when Jared left then sauntered over to me. The way he kept staring was disturbing; it was so unlike Sam's stares which were soft and full of love. If anything I would say Paul's stare was the opposite hard and impossibly lustful. I tried my best to cross my arms and look tough and menacing, but Paul was a couple inches shorter then Sam, which meant he was still at good ten inches taller then me.
"Hey, Jake I've been meaning to get you alone but Sam seems to always be hanging around you." He wrapped an arm around my shoulders but I shrugged it off and started walking towards the direction I assumed my house was in.
"Yea, that's because he's my dominant." I grumbled walking passed him.
There was a moment's pause before he started up again. "I see that, it seems like he's repressing you a bit. You know I wouldn't do that to you right Jake?"
I growled under my breath, who did this guy think he was I had and imprint, why would he hit on me.
"Sam's just overprotective; I don't mind that much actually." I increased my pace, and so did Paul, and in a few minutes he was walking in tandem with me. I could smell the reservation just a half a mile ahead or so, but I really just wanted to bolt for it, Paul was making me real uncomfortable. But I felt like prey and I knew if I ran Paul would chase me, and I didn't think I could outrun him.
It was then that I found myself pressed between a tree and Paul, the rough bark was scraping my back, but that was nothing compared to the panic I could feel rising up in myself when I felt Paul pressed flush against me. He placed an arm on either side of my head trapping me in, and I let out a whimper of fear.
"Paul, what are yo-"
"Jake, listen to me" he growled his face inches from mine "I've wanted you for a long time, and unlike Sam I did that without an imprint on you. Do you think Sam would care about you so much if you weren't his imprint?"
I hadn't thought of it like that. When you think about it Sam was forced to love me, and I him, without that he probably wouldn't even notice me. I felt a horrible pain in my chest of the thought of Sam not loving me, it was like someone stabbed me, and then lit my wound of fire. I frowned, struggling with what to think about this, and Paul smiled at me. He began leaning closer to me and the panic road up in me with full force; I didn't want him to touch me, only Sam could touch me.
I pushed with all my force against Paul's chest but he didn't even flinch. "Let me go Paul!" I growled, desperately looking for a way out. I wanted Sam, I needed Sam. I had to see him and ask him if he really did love me, because what Paul had said seemed to make way to much sense right now.
"Just think about it Jacob. I really love you, he just has to." He gave me one last longing glance before walking back off from the way we came.
I stood there for a minute, panting in air that I had not noticed I had been neglecting. I tried to listen for the reservation again but all I could hear was the blood roaring in my ears, I couldn't smell anything besides the scent of my own fear.
My limbs were shaking, and I knew I was going to phase soon, I didn't feel even like I had an ounce of control this time.
What Paul had said hurt, it hurt the thought that Sam might not really love me; it hurt like the time my mom died. The same day my dad got put in a wheelchair, it was just eight years ago but I only had flashes from that night.
We were in my dad's old beat up truck, me, mom, dad, Rachel, and Rebecca. My mom and dad were singing along to some old song on the radio, while my sisters talked animatedly about one celebrity or another…
There was a crash and I was slammed around in my seatbelt as the truck rolled, then everything went black…
I woke up and I was in my mom's arms. She was so cold. We were far from the road and all I could see around us was grass. I looked around inside the car, where my seat used to be there looked to be like part of a guard rail sticking through. Between it and me was my mom….
I tried to wake her up but she wouldn't move….
I was suddenly back in the present as my body rearranged in to wolf form. I couldn't think straight, all I felt was pain, panic, fear, and sorrow, and the need to find my mate.
I whined looking around not recognizing my surroundings any longer, I saw trees, and dirt, and other foliage, but none of it seemed familiar.
Sam! I screamed in my head. Sam! That's all I could get out, as I shrunk low to the ground covering my eyes with my paws as I shook.
Sam doesn't love me, mom died for me, Rach and Becca left me, they'll all leave me because I can't care enough to keep them with me.
Jacob, I'm coming Jacob everything is going to be okay. Sam's deep voice penetrated my thoughts, it was like a life line and I held on to tightly.
He was right Sam, he was right! You don't love me, you only imprinted on me! You wouldn't care about me any other way.
I could hear Sam's thoughts as he came looking for me, pain because I thought he didn't love me, self loathing for not showing his love for me enough, and anger for who had done this too me.
Jake who told you this? He was finally able to ask. I could hear him now the soft thud of his paws hitting the dirt of the forest floor as he came to me.
Paul, he said you didn't really love me and he was right, without your wolf I wouldn't matter to you! And there he was in front of me again for what felt like the millionth time that day. He looked so magnificent even in wolf form, strong and tough, able to take care of me, but did he really want to was this all some responsibility for him.
He was growling at my thoughts, of Paul pressing me up against the tree, at what Paul said.
Jake, there are no what ifs here. I'm me and the wolf is part of me, and I love you, so don't think of the possibilities of what could be think of us now and what we could be. Paul's an asshole who just wants your body, he doesn't really care about you.
You think that but is it really true, do you really love me or is your wolf forcing you. I'm probably ruining your life. I whined pitifully making Sam step up closer to me.
Another growl filled the air. Don't ever say that Jake. I've been waiting for you all my life, you couldn't ruin it, everything about you is important to me. Jake I love everything about you, from you smile, to how you're a stubborn ass, I love everything wolf or no wolf.
I looked up in to Sam's soft brown eyes, and I felt the love radiating from then, and I knew what he said was the truth Sam couldn't lie about what he thought about me.
I slowly phased back and I found myself sitting in a heap on the forest floor. Sam was quickly back to human form to, he held out his cut off shorts to me, and while trying not to look at him I pulled them on. I felt like a five year old because the pants hung off my hips and the legs cut off around mid claves, plus the fact that I had to hold them up with my hands.
I glanced back at Sam, it was only supposed to be for a moment but my gaze became riveted on him. While I was checking him out I noticed certain things about him, and let's just put it this way everything about Sam is large.
He grinned when he noticed me staring and I felt my cheeks turn red, damn blush, I had been worst then Bella these past few days.
Sam stepped up to me pressing is body against mine, as he gently grasped my chin to pull my face up to look at him. Ever so slowly he leaned down towards me, and before I knew what I was doing I quickly closed the gap between us and my eyes fluttered shut.
You know how they say when a kiss is amazing there are sparks, well this was better, way better like suns instead of sparks better, it felt like my whole life had been building up to that moment. His lips were soft and warm against mine, but they were so possessive and dominant too. He guided the kiss, and when he brushed his tongue against my lower lip I immediately allowed him entrance. I wrapped my hands around his neck as the kiss deepened and my legs were so weak by this point I knew that all that was holding me up was Sam's tight grip around my waist.
We finally broke apart for air after several minutes, and Sam leaned down to rest his forehead against mine. And as I looked in to Sam's face I knew he was right, I did love him, and he loved me. Really the wolves were apart of us, Sam did imprint, but it was because that we were meant to be together, this just sped it up a bit.
But there was still a small nagging doubt there and I hated Paul for that. For making me doubt my imprint for Sam for even a moment, well for making me doubt Sam at all.
I brushed my fingers along my lips, I could still imagine the feel of Sam's lips moving against mine, it ad just felt so…so right.
Ok I was sounding cheesy again, I don't if it's the submissive thing or just me but I'm turning in to a girl.
Sam chuckled at my reaction and I blushed again and stared down at my feet. "Your so beautiful," he whispered pressing his lips to mine again momentarily "and all mine."
My wolf seemed to be pleased with this comment, and I found my self nuzzling his neck in some form of agreement. "All yours." I whispered back.
***
Sam reluctantly drove me back to school at lunch; he seemed very persuadable when I gave him my cute little pout. I'll remember that in the future, Billy became immune to it when I turned thirteen, and now I finally had someone to use it on again.
After very strict directives to stay away from the Cullens, he gave me a chaste kiss before letting me get out of the car. I dashed up to Embry who had also returned and with that we both wandered back in to the school.
The halls were empty at the moment because every one was in the cafeteria, except of course one of the few people I had to avoid, life was just ironic like that.
"Jake, hey man why the hell are you ignoring me?" Quil called trying to catch up with us. I wanted to turn around and tell him everything but I felt Embry's hand on my shoulder pushing me along. He gave me a pained look, and I knew it hurt him to ignore Quil too.
Quil dashed in front of us and I had to stop. "Jake, we promised nothing could make us join Uley's gang and you're his freaking bitch now! What the hell happened? Did they give you drugs or something? I'm going to talk to Billy about his he should know what you're doing."
I resisted the urge to yell at him for insulting my imprint, but I stopped myself because I knew he didn't know anything about it.
"I'm sorry." I whispered before brushing past him.
When we rounded the corner I turned on Embry. "Is that it, am I supposed to ignore one of my best friends for the rest of my life." I whispered looking back to make sure Quil hadn't followed us.
"Probably not for long actually, Sam said Quil was going to phase probably around the same time as you did. But it was mostly in passing, all he could talk about for weeks was how you were finally going to phase soon. It's all he thought about, it was getting on our nerves actually."
"Really?" I felt myself blush again with the thought that Sam had been thinking about me.
"Yes, but please don't go talking on and on about your imprint Sam and Jared already never shut up I don't need it from you too." He groaned as we grabbed our stuff and headed towards history which we had together.
"I can't help it, my dominant's an alpha, sweet, handsome, protective, possessive, my wolf just can't name all the amazing things about him!" Embry gave me an annoyed look.
"Sorry!" I smiled apologetically and began doodling in the margins of my notebook.
It was then that the rest of the class started walking in, and with them came Lauren Mallory. I had never really liked her because sometimes she would tag along with Mike, Eric and Tyler to mock me, but most of the times she ignored my because as a sophomore I was beneath her.
I guess she got held back because she was in our history class, though I had never bothered to ask her about it. Go figure.
She sneered at the sight of me. "What the hell are you doing with a guy like that?" She gestured wildly.
I looked over at Embry for an explanation he just looked as confused as me. "Do you mean Embry?"
"No that guy outside!"
"What guy?"
"The guy who dropped you off at lunch! The guy I saw you lip locking with before you left the car. Yea I saw all of it, and I was just wondering why a hot guy like that is doing with a little loser like you." She made a disgusted face, and I tried to brush off her hurtful remarks. She was a slut anyways she probably tried to have sex with anything that walked on two legs, I shouldn't take it personally.
"He's my im….boyfriend." I replied trying to brush her off.
"Are you black mailing him or something? There is no way-"
"Ms. Mallory would you please take your seat, maybe if you listened to class instead of gossiping you wouldn't still be here."
Mrs. Simms called. Lauren blushed as the rest of the class chuckled; she quickly took her seat, before giving me one final glare.
It was just one thing after another today wasn't it?
Mrs. Simms threw me a sympathetic smile before starting today's class. I tried to pay attention really I did, but I had too much on my mind, the pack, Sam, the Cullens, Sam, Paul the creeper asshole, Sam. Ok maybe not a lot but they were stressful topics.
I just couldn't get thoughts about the kiss out of my brain. Damn, I wish Sam was here because I just wanted to kiss him again, and again, and maybe a bit more then that.
And oddly enough I didn't even mind being the submissive in the relationship, it was kind of nice actually, having someone dote on me, take control, I didn't really have to worry about to much.
The bell rung not a long time later and I raced out of class trying to avoid Lauren, but got caught by Bella, and her leech in the hallway.
"Hey Jake." She called waving enthusiastically.
I tried to avoid her by ignoring her and trying to get to my next class, but she raced up and grabbed my arm. I winced and didn't acknowledge her hoping she would let go, and leave, I really didn't want to be an asshole and tell her off, she would blame herself; Bella was too nice like that.
"Jake, what's wrong? Why aren't you talking to me? Is it Mike again because we can deal with him remember what we talked about?" I sighed knowing now that I would have to hurt her feelings.
I had momentarily forgotten about the leech but when he spoke I know I tensed up, probably looking like a cartoon because I was as stiff as a board. "You ok Jacob?" he asked. I fought the urge to growl, and I had to screw up my nose because of his smell, why couldn't they have just let me walk away.
I yanked my arm from Bella's grasp. "Go away." Is all I could spit out before walking quickly down the hall. I didn't want to see Bella's face when I said it.
I felt a cold hand wrap around my arm. "Jacob, why are you doing this?" Why did he ask that, it's like he could read my mind or something. I looked down at my arm which he was still grasping, as Bella stared worriedly over his arm at me.
My wolf was both panicking and fighting back the instinct to kill Edward on the spot. "Let go." I growled trying to pull my arm away. It just hurt, and I knew it would leave a bruise.
"You smell like one of them….but no you're to short …and too weak." Edward thought his thoughts out loud and I knew that he knew about us.
I growled again, and began trying to pull his hand off. "Let go of me! Let go! I'm not weak you're just a freak so fuck off." People were starting to stare at us as I struggled to get away from him.
"Edward what are you doing, let him go!" Bella screamed but he just seemed to ignore her, I was contemplating phasing when a large hand came down on Edward's shoulder.
"I'd suggest Cullen that you would let him go." Jared growled appearing next to Edward seemingly out of nowhere.
"I was just going to." The leech replied calmly before releasing my arm where there was a dark purple hand shaped bruise.
"Edward what the hell did you do to him?" Bella screeched looking at the bruise in horror. She gave me an apologetic look before glaring at Edward and dragging him down the hall. All the way he just stared at me, looking like he was trying to put a puzzle together.
Jared growled quietly and I knew only I and Edward could here, before directing me back to the exit, he pulled out his phone and handed it to me.
"I did what Sam said, but if he talks to me he's going to blame me for it happening in the first place so, you can talk to him." He mumbled.
I just nodded and quickly shifted through the numbers on his phone and pressed call for Sam's. The phone rang two times before Sam picked it up.
"What is it Jared?" He asked talking in his taking care of business alpha mode.
"It's me Sam, I had a problem with one of the leeches, but Jared chased him off, so I'm ok and you don't need to panic or anything and I'm going to head right back to the reservation and everything." I was speaking so fast that the words jumbled together.
"Ok, I'll meet you at your house. I love you." I could hear in his voice that he was trying to remain calm for my sake.
"I love you to." I replied before snapping the phone shut and handing it to Jared and blushed at his knowing smirk. I was so tired and I just wanted to curl up and go to sleep, and maybe then I would stop blushing so god damn much!
"Hey, Jared I'm going to phase so could you take my bag I can't really carry it or anything. I really wish I could stop ripping up my clothes when I phased…" I stared dejectedly at my favorite jeans that I had chosen to wear today.
"You mean Sam hasn't shown you this, well here" he handed me a long piece of string "strip and just tie your clothes to your leg and when you phase back just throw them back on."
"Thanks, see you tomorrow I guess."
"Yeah sure, bye." He gave me a brief smile before sauntering back in to the school as the bell rang.
I walked off in to the woods and pulled off my clothes, I tied them loosely around my leg before phasing and making my way back to the reservation. When I got home I saw Sam standing nervously on my back yard balcony, he raced up to me when I came in to his line of sight.
I phased and pulled my pants back on, and then Sam yanked me in to his arms. Our lips met for an instant before he was looking me over, assessing the damage. When he caught sight of the bruise I had never seen Sam so angry, he was shaking, and by the looks of it he was going to phase soon. I was trying to reach out to grab his hand before he pushed me back. I was sent flying and landed hard against the side of the house, my head snapped back and connected with the siding and all I heard was a whine that came from somewhere nearby, and then everything went black.
A/N: Wow longest chapter yet, almost a thousand words more then I usually write! I think I went a bit overboard in this chapter so I'm going to try and make things a bit more light in the next chapter. I'm sorry about this but sometimes when I write these things seem to take a mind of their own! To much drama here but whatever…
And I'm probably going to raise the rating of this story up to M so I can add some lemons XD please tell me if you would rather leave it as a T rating or not!!! And don't worry Edward isn't going to be a jerk in this story, I can't tell you yet but you'll see what happens. And I'm sorry to say I'm not going to be able to update this often all the time I'll aim for once a week but sometimes schools a bitch here so we'll see how it goes.
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