Please note that I don't own Criss Angel!!! Or anything. I just own my thoughts!!! XD

P.S:: I HAVE RETURNED!!!!

Vittoria POV

It felt like a life time that our lips were moving against each other. I honestly couldn't not let him go….

But I knew I had to.

And so, with great effort I pulled away from him and stood there, totally lost and he looked the same, his eyes wide and deer like.

"Vittoria……", he whispered

I knew, in that instant, that this was not going to work. Whatever it was that I was feeling wasn't right….

And I was afraid of it because I'd never truly experienced it before. I took a few steps back when he stepped forward. My heart was thundering around in my ears and my mind tried to straighten out what happened.

I kissed him.

Results?

I don't know, and I was too afraid to find out. There was no telling what the dreams were about and here I was kissing him? How terrible could I be? That's only adding on to the pain. The stress.

"Vittoria….look at me…", he commanded.

I didn't. I couldn't look at him. Instead, I tore from the room and outside collapsing on the grass and sucking in great gulps of air to slow down my heart.

And then I began to cry.

Criss's POV

I have never been so hurt in my life.

Here I'd thought I'd found something…and it runs away from me….like I'm a horrible person.

In through your nose, out through your mouth. Breathe. Calm. Tranquility.

Yet no matter how calming my thoughts were, it did nothing to stop the ache in my heart.

"Criss?"

My head snapped up and I half expect Vittoria to be there, but instead it was Ali, and she was looking concerned. I sighed.

"Yes? No. I'm not ok…"

I could practically hear her confusion but I didn't know how to explain but yet, Ali was her best friend right? Shouldn't she know how to confront Vittoria.

"Ali!", I called, seeing as she had started to leave. She poked her head back into the room.

"Yes Criss?"

I sat heavily on the bed and asked her to join me and for that hour I was taught of a world were love was never found and how the mind of Vittoria actually worked.

ALI'S POV

At first I was confident Vittoria was going to get what she wanted. However I wasn't so confident when she flew from the tour bus in a hurry nor was I very happy when I could hear her sobs. JD sighed and looked at Costa and then they both looked at me. I shrugged but I pulled my feet off the chair I was propped up on.

"I guess I'll go talk to her…"

"Wait!", JD said.

"Why don't you go talk to Criss? We'll go talk to Ali.", he said.

I contemplated this and nodded. Either way, I was bound to figure out what was going on.

And in my determination I was landed in a room with Criss explaining just who Vittoria was.

"Ah……" was Criss's response.

I nodded and we sat in silence for a while. My mind was reeling by now.

I need to know what happened!!!!

"I kissed her…"

That knocked me for a loop. It was so straight forward and blunt that I just stared at him stupidly. He looked down at me with a frown.

"I'm sorry Ali…..", he whispered and he fidgeted quietly.

"Criss…..there's nothing to be sorry about." I said, laying a hand on his shoulder.

"You think there is but there isn't. You've done nothing wrong at all. This is a game of trust between you and her, and I'm not in it. I think its time you confess your dreams…", at this his eyes widened, "and let her know. She cares for you Criss. But she won't go with it….she knows you're stressed that its too much."

"But I--"

I cut him off. "No buts. But her true fear Criss…is trusting herself with anyone. Think about that. Let her fight all she want but don't ever let her go. And trust me, she will fight…."

I watched as he mulled over the thoughts and knew that I'd done my part and that I was useless now. And for some odd reason, as I left his room, the word "useless" echoed in my mind more than necessary.

Vittoria's POV

"And you see Vittoria, that's why he acts the way he does.", JD said to me. Costa had come to rub my back and to stop my tears to which was pretty fairly quickly.

My head churned and processed the new information.

"But I kissed him JD", I whispered, "I kissed knowing full and well something bad would happen. He's been having these nightmares that been stressing him out. To add onto that he has a career he has to juggle and this tour? What good would I be doing dragging him into a relationship that I knew would hurt him?"

There was a sigh and I looked up.

"Maybe," Costa said, "That love is all he needs"

Love.

"Love?", I whispered to myself.

Is that really what I felt for him? Love. Or like? Or just a helplessness? What was it that I wanted from him!?

"Are you ok now?" JD asked. I nodded in response and struggled up into a standing position.

"I'm going to have to face him now, right?", I said. The thought of facing Criss now, after I kissed him was almost unbearable.

"Yes but you know what I think," Costa said, "Is that its not him you're afraid of….its trusting yourself that you're afraid of…."

And they left me alone to think, which wasn't a good thing at all. I leaned against the van trying to work up the non-existent courage to face him when I saw a flash of light out of the corner of my eye.

"Hey…"

I turned my head and Criss had descended the steps of the bus. My heart stopped cold and fear washed over me from head to toe. I don't know what possessed me to do it but before I knew it, I was running. Running past the bus out along the road and he was following me. I continued to run and I knew he was catching up with me but I couldn't just let that happen. I had to keep running. Keep going. Never stop.

I'm going to run! Run away from here and this fear! I will not st----

I felt his hand wrap around my wrist and twirl me to him.

"Vittoria stop"

I jerked like a wild animal, no longer caring that I might look like a four year old having a temper tantrum.

"Criss let go!"

He held firm and I screamed out loud praying that one of the cars going down the road would actually stop and help me.

"Vittoria…", his voice was low now and for some odd reason panic spread through me like wild fire and I couldn't help the whine that escaped me.

"Please no..Please no."

"Listen to me", he urged.

"No!", by now the tears began to flow hotly and I was becoming weak.

"Vittoria…..please….", he whispered and my body collapsed. He wrapped me in his arms and held me, despite my pathetic attempts to hit him. My chest heaved as I gulped for air and I cried. Cried until I couldn't cry anymore. I just stood there, my body shaking.

"Lets go back to the van."

I didn't comply. My body was numb and I felt him sweep me into his arms and begin to carry me back. I didn't care. I would deal with it later. But for now, I was tired and I needed sleep.

Sleep that I realized was not going to come peacefully.

Yeah i know its been like 400 years since I last been here but when school catches up to you, it knocks you for a loop...or four. XD

And so now I'm back. I know this was short but I just really wanted to put something up for this chapter. It kinda seems wierd to me but I have to get back into actually writing this again. :) Yes this is going to transtion into something interesting.

Just WHAT are Criss's dreams about?

Will Vittoria accept Criss, or her self for that matter?

And is Ali harboring a few hard feelings??

p.s I also need another plot twister. This is getting old. Its time for him to start doing a few stunts. I need some controversy? any ideas?? XDDD

You know who it is!

Sincerely,

Sarabi-chan