AN: so this chapter won't be as long as my others. It's taking too much out of me to write. I need inspiration and without GG on or anything new DS I'm stuck. I'll try to update everything soon so I don't leave you guys hanging. As for those two girls who leave really long reviews that you all think you shouldn't review cause they won't mean much, those two girls are my friends and they write them long to out do each other. Please review though, it does help. Thanks =)

Serena changed her outfit about four times within the hour. This was the first time she would be seeing Dan since he and Tiffany broke it off. She was hesitant at first, she didn't want to seem so willing to jump back into things and seem like a whore. He did say they would take things slow and that killed her even more. Every time she saw him she just wanted to jump on him and take him on the table or against a wall. She had so much built up tension she felt she would explode. He asked her over to read over what he wrote. Guess since he lost Tiffany as his girlfriend he also lost her as his editor. She began to read into things way too much and it ate her up. She didn't even remember going to the elevator and getting into a cab, but now she was at the loft door and pretty since he would her the sound of her breathing increasing. Time to just wake up from the in between, she though as she knocked lightly on the door.

"Hey! You're early." Dan said as he put a button down shirt on.

"Am I? You said 1:30 and it's 1:45." Serena gulped.

"Yea, but I figured you were always late for our dates before why be early now." Dan laughed. "But it's cool."

A date? Serena heart literally leaped out of her chest. She felt as if he could see the smile that was plastered on her face. She tried to hide it but her face was glowing and it was so hard to not look at Dan. She place her coat on the chair and sat on the edge away from him.

"So, I was having real bad writer's block for the past few weeks. I mean in high school and college it seemed so easy, but then you get in the real world and you just think, no one wants to read this crap."

"It's not crap."

"Not everything is about high school goals and college finds, it's about either love, scandal, or murder. I have never witness murder so I shot that idea down."

"You've have many scandals, write that."

"Yeah, but it just was too hard not to make the villian, kinda liked."

"Seriously?"

"Mhmm. I mean they all have their reason for what they did, and while we don't see it at the start but it's there."

"I don't see it that way."

"How come?"

"You mean every chance a person gets to hurt another person, now I'm talking in any form, it's because they have some good reason? That they didn't do it just to give the other person shit or hell?"

"You're confusing scandal and revenge."

"You know, I was kinda scared to come here today."

"Why?"

"Because of you. I know that you and Tiffany are done but part of you still wanted her. Yet, you cheated are her, with me."

Dan paused and looked down. He knew exactly what it meant, but it kinda hurt to say it, kinda hurt to feel it. It hurt to tell her that another girl meant something to him, that he let another girl in when he promised he wouldn't.

"Part of me would of held out for her, if she hadn't come over and broke it off for good."

"Wow." Serena replied. She wasn't ready to hear that.

"I know it's not something you want to hear, but we should try the honesty thing. Honestly, I did love her and wanted to be with her. I had lost myself a long time ago, I was crushed when you broke things off. She helped me through things and I helped her back. But I did not love her nearly as much as I love you. It's not possible."

"I'm really sorry for what I did. I thought it was for the best." Serena choked her words.

"Can I show you what I written while I was away at college? It's just paragraphs that were jumbled, but after last night I deleted everything and started over." Dan handed her his laptop and she scrolled down to a spaced paragraph.

The girl who knew exactly what I was thinking before I uttered a word. The girl who would love me even when I had nothing or tried to push her away. This girl believed in a forever, she believe that love knew no bounds, and that someday everything would be better. Her smile would brighten even the darkest of days, and her determination made everyone believe again. She was there for anyone who needed her and protected everyone she loved. That girl, well she is my soulmate.

Serena began to cry. She felt her tears hit the keyboard and she pushed the laptop away.

"You're story is about me? You publishing it?"

"No, no one else gets to see this but you and me. I don't want the whole world falling in love with you, that's a right only for me. This story is about us, and it's not finished, it never was."