AN: HEY GUYS I'M FINALLY BACK, I KNOW I PROMISED CH
AN: HERE IS CHAPTER TWO, I AM WRITING THREE AS WE SPEAK SO EXPECT IT SOON. PLEASE REVIEW!
LEARNING TO BREATHE (CH.2 – Can't Handle Anymore Heartache )
"Kaitlin are you awake?" The voice shouted into the door causing the younger girl to cringe in the fact that she was about to have to deal with one of Marissa's friends. As the door creaked open Kaitlin turned to it and watched as the redhead walked in with a weak smile.
"What do you want Lindsay?" Kaitlin asked with annoyance
"I just wanted to see if you needed a ride to Spencer's" She responded quietly without looking at the younger girl, though it was never spoken, it hurt Lindsay to look at Kaitlin and see a younger version of the girl she grew to love, the girl who had been taken from her, from all of them;
"Not in the mood today." Kaitlin said without even blinking, Lindsay looked back at her and sighed before walking up and sitting down by her.
"Kaitlin I know all this hurts, bad and I know a lesson of tennis won't even come close to healing your heart but your not alone, I want you to know that, we all loved Marissa, we all lost her, and we're all falling apart."
Lindsay chocked out and Kaitlin stared at her in shock, sure Lindsay and Marissa had become very close but Kaitlin was positive that Spencer had almost completely healed the fiery red head, looking at her now she realized how wrong she had been. Reaching over for her the two came together in a fierce hug, neither willing to let the other go afraid if they did then they too would disappear. The embrace was surprisingly comforting for Kaitlin and for the first time since Marissa's death she actually smiled before pulling away and heading for the door, when she realized Lindsay wasn't following she turned and looked at the girl who stared at her in amazement.
"What? You said Spencer had something to teach me, so let's go watch him teach!" Kaitlin announced with a surprising amount of excitement, however within seconds Lindsay had gone from shock to a mixture of relief and happiness.
"Your just like her, one minute your in the depths of despair, the next you're the pick me up people need after suffering from a terrible day." Lindsay said with a huge grin as she linked arms with the older girl and walked out as they made their way past the kitchen they caught eyes with Taylor and Summer who were talking energetically amongst themselves.
"Hey look whose up!" Taylor shouted excitedly before running up and embracing the smaller Cooper girl.
"Wow your hyper today, or is this normal behavior for you?" Kaitlin questioned with a smile that Taylor, Summer, and Lindsay all returned. After Taylor had pulled away Kaitlin turned to Summer and without hesitation walked over and embraced the other girl before she had time to question whether she should or not. After she pulled away she walked back over to Lindsay and linked arms with the red head pulling her out the door leaving the other two girls with a shocked but happy feeling that things were finally starting to fall back in place.
As they drove to the tennis courts Lindsay turned to Kaitlin and gave her another smile which she returned. Ten minutes later they finally pulled up to Spencer's car with him leaning against it with a wide grin across his face.
"Hey smiles you ready to get your butt kicked?" Kaitlin said as she stepped out of the car and walked up to Spencer.
"Well someone is in a better mood than usual." He responded as they began their match. Several hours passed and after leaving Lindsay and Spencer to hang out Kaitlin walked along the pier wondering if she was really ready to heal, was she really to let go of Marissa.
Minutes passed as she stood looking out at the ocean wishing more than anything that life without Marissa, really wasn't an option. As she began to think back on the last few years she had spent away from her sister, she realized on all she had truly missed and this caused nothing but pain.
"Hey." The voice caused her to jump but once realizing it belonged to one she thought she loved she grew impatient and she really didn't know why. How come she could make an effort to reconnect with everyone else but when it came to him she just shut down? The answer was simple, he had hurt her. Anger rose from within her and she quickly turned and walked away only to be pulled back by him and made to make eye contact.
"What's wrong?" His question was genuine she could tell, but this only made her angrier
"How come your always around?" Her question came out harsh and angry causing him to flinch a little, realizing she wasn't going to give him an answer to his question.
"I'm not always around Kaitlin, I was just passing by when I saw you."
"And you couldn't just leave me alone?" She snapped
"No I couldn't actually, is this how it's going to be from now on?" He asked trying to smooth the situation out as best he could.
"Look Johnny I get that your friends with everyone, they all like you and your going to be around but as far as we are concerned there is nothing there." She said trying to hold back the sobs, as she looked at him she saw the hurt she had hoped to place and watched as he shook his head.
"Why won't you let me in?"
"It's simple Harper, I simply can't handle anymore heartache." She said before turning and running as fast and far as she could, hoping to leave him behind forever.
AN: END OF CH.2 – REVIEW! CH.3 WILL BE UP LATER THIS WEEK!