Emma rested in her hospital bed, hardly noticing as the nurse came in to check her vitals and offer her some pain medication. She had barely been hurt during the car accident but they had insisted she rested for the day, stayed so they could ensure she wasn't going to have any further effects from her minor injuries. All she wanted to do was go home, to go hide in her apartment and to forget all that had happened, or not happened as it would have appeared. Closing her eyes, she drifted in and out of sleep, each time dreaming about the same thing, the same person and the different ways she had been hoping he would tell her he loved her. Yet, as she woke up, eyes still closed, it became more and more apparent that it was all ridiculous. It would never happen between them and she needed to get those thoughts out of her mind…..once and for all.
The time was unknown to Emma as she opened her eyes, feeling a hand gently brushing her hair back. A soft voice saying her name, whispering it as she focused her eyes to see that it was Will. He had come to see her, he did care. She smiled weakly but soon allowed it to disappear, reminding herself of everything she had been thinking. Once and for all, stop chasing after silly dreams.
"How are you feeling, Em?" Will offered a concerned look as he sat beside her, holding her hand in one and still brushing her hair back with the other "I am fine, it was nothing". She answered with very little care in her voice "I am sorry it took me so long to get here, Carl left me the voice mail but I was out arranging things". Emma nodded towards him but didn't speak, she couldn't fall for this all over again "Emma…..I can't go to New York, not without you" he blurted out and bit his lip, staring directly into her eyes. "Don't do this to me, not now!" she slightly snapped at him, pulling her hand back "I don't want to hear about this, I'm guessing you want me to go with you, that you love me and need to be with me!" Emma glanced to him with a serious expression, without any love or compassion "I…..well yes" he muttered, his eyes were glazed over as he witnessed the bitterness coming from her "Well that's too bad for you, I am not going anywhere. I belong here with Carl!" She wouldn't do this; she wouldn't allow her mind to play these evil tricks on her, to build her hopes up to shatter them. "Emma, I do love you. Please, can't we just …" "No William, I don't love you; I will never love you so please stop doing this to me!" This wasn't like her; she loved him and wanted him but would not fall for it. "Emma….please" tears emerged from his eyes as he shook his head "you don't mean that…please" "Just leave" Emma turned with her back to him "just go".
Will tried to make her turn back, tried to talk but Emma would not give into her dreams. She remained facing away from him, no tears or emotion showing until he finally ran out. Watching him leave, Emma closed her eyes, she had done well….she had finally triumphed over her silly day dreams and could finally move forward.
"Emma, sweetheart are you okay?" she had closed her eyes for a moment when Carl walked in, rushing to her side once he noticed the tears running down her cheek. Emma had been unaware she was crying, unaware of the tears until Carl brushed his thumb over her cheek and kissed her. "I was having a sad dream" she sighed, glancing up to him "what was it about, love?" he took a seat beside her and brushed her hair back on her face, bringing a sense of déjà vu to Emma. "It was nothing really, just a silly dream about falling out of lo…..falling out with Will, he is a good friend" She couldn't tell him that she had been ending her love for Will, telling Carl this, would have hurt him. Carl nodded slightly, glancing to the door for a moment before he turned back to Emma "I am sure things are fine between you….uhm" he kissed her head "what do you mean? Have you seen him?" Emma felt her heart begin to race, had he been there? Had she really gone through that?
"Well? Have you seen him?" Emma spoke again, asking her dentist boyfriend if the man she loved had just been there, just spoken to her and just had his heart broken by her. "No, I left a message for him but he hasn't been here yet" he smiled sweetly towards her, glancing to the door now and again "oh….okay then" Emma relaxed, it had been a dream, she was okay. "Just excuse me for a moment" Carl stood up, kissing her head once more before he turned to leave. Leaving Emma to drift back into a light sleep, she was exhausted after her own day dream.
Finally some peace…
Her eyes had closed almost instantly, not even watching Carl leave, not witnessing as he stepped out to a tearful Will in the corridor….not seeing as Carl informed Will that Emma never wanted to see him again…..she slept through it all, peacefully unaware.