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I would like to explain something about the triplets. They are half vampires but they are a bit different than Stephenie Meyer's ones since their physical growth is similar to humans, though mentally (psychologically, whatever) in ome situations they are more advanced and mature. It's a bit difficult to explain like this but in the next chapters you'll understand better. I decided that it would be like this because it would fit better the plot.

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns everything except Luke and the triplets.

Chapter 4

Bella's POV

I still couldn't believe I had found Alice and Jasper in the Supermarket. Right now we were on our way home. Luke was already waiting for us; he had promised the kids he would play with them after we got back, while I stored our purchases.

"Mommy will we still have time to play with Uncle Luke?" Lizzie asked.

"Yes, you will honey." I answered.

"Mommy?"

"Yes Lily?"

"Who were those vampires at the supermarket?" I couldn't lie to them, besides I was never good at it, but I didn't know what I was going to do so I decided that I wouldn't tell them everything right now.

"They were just some old friends of mine." I kept it simple.

"Oh! Okay." I knew she wasn't satisfied but I knew she wasn't going to push it.

The rest of the ride was quiet. They were still tired from the trip and all the excitement in the supermarket wore them off.

When we got home Luke was waiting at the door. Our home here was slightly smaller than the one where we lived during the rest of the year but it was more than enough for me. Luke was the one who liked big houses.

"So… how was the trip to the supermarket?" Luke asked while picking Lizzie up.

"It was good; mommy let us go get our yogurts alone." She answered excited. I already knew that all their tiredness would fade when they got home.

"We found two vampires too. They were strange. They just stood there looking at us. They were old friends of mommy." Lily commented casually, to her this wasn't important, she didn't know, but for Luke was enough for him to send me a worried look.

"Later" I whispered too low for the kids to listen. He just nodded but I noticed his eyes still held a concerned look.

He sent the kids inside and helped me unload the trunk of my black Passat CC. He tried to talk to me about what happened in the supermarket but I preferred to wait until later, when the kids were asleep. We put everything in the kitchen's counter and went to the room where the kids were watching TV.

"Can we play now, Uncle Luke?" Luke asked excited. Sometimes it was confusing having two Lukes living in the same house but after all Luke had done for me during my pregnancy and what I knew he would still do, I realized that I had to honor him in some way. What would be better than name one of my babies after him?

"Sure kido. What do you want to do?" He asked the three of them.

"You can play while I store everything we bought and until I start to make dinner, then you have to have shower. Okay?" I tried to negotiate. It was difficult to get them to have shower, at least until they were in the bath tube, then it was water all over the place. It was really tiring to bath them… and messy. Luke usually spends almost half an hour cleaning the bathroom. The hardest was to choose who went first, especially when they were watching a program they liked, on TV. Luke and I may be vampires but taking care of three four-years-olds was exhausting. There was always something to do or to clean up. I don't mind, I love them, there was nothing I wouldn't do for them, but I must admit, sometimes a pair of extra hands would come in handy.

"Okay." They reluctantly agreed. I left to the kitchen leaving them drawing with Luke.

Now that I was alone in the kitchen I couldn't stop my mind from wandering about what had happened this afternoon at the supermarket.

Seeing Alice and Jasper again was amazing. The truth was that I missed the Cullens like crazy. Even after what they did to me, I still loved them. I still felt them as my family. They still had a place in my heart. A place that had been empty until the triplets were born, they didn't close that hole, they didn't fill the space. They simply made the pain more bearable. Most of the time my thoughts were filled with the triplets, but sometimes, when they went to sleep, for example, my mind always wandered to how things could have been if Edward hadn't stopped loving me, if he hadn't left.

Would I be happier? Would I have my family complete? I don't know. What if Edward had placed my safety above everything else and hadn't let me continue with my pregnancy? After all, Luke had always commented about how dangerous my pregnancy was, and Edward had always been over-protective.

What if Edward had never left and had let me had the triplets? Right now we would probably be a happy family. My kids would have a father, someone to call daddy. But I wouldn't have met Luke. Why was everything so difficult?

I should have been stronger. I should have looked for the Cullens. For… Edward. It hurts just to think of his name. I shouldn't have deprived my kids from their father company, the Cullen's company. How could I have done this to my angels?

Most people would tell me that this was the time to make this right. That I shouldn't waste this chance to introduce my kids to their father's family, to their family but what stopped me when they were born was going to stop me again. What if Edward decided to stay with me just to be near his kids? I wouldn't be able to deny him anything and I would be stopping him from being happy with his true love, from seeking his true love. There was a time I thought I was his true love, I think he thought too. What if he met them and then left as he did with me? Could I risk my kid's happiness like that?

What if he got mad I didn't tell him sooner and took them away from me? I wouldn't survive. My kids were the only reasons I had to live. If Edward took them away from me… I don't know what would happen...

What was I thinking? The Cullens weren't bad, they may have made me suffer but I knew they were good people. They would never do these things to me or to my children. I just couldn't be sure. Not anymore. Edward had promised to stay with me for as long as I wanted him and he broke his promise. As much as I want I can't bring myself to trust him.

I looked at the kitchen clock and found I had to start making dinner and bath the kids. With all the thoughts that had been passing through my mind I had lost track of time.

"Okay… who's going to be the first to have shower?" I asked entering the living room.

"Luke"

"Lizzie"

"Lilly"

Here we go again. It had become some sort of ritual over the last years. They would start to run around the house and the first one I got would be the first to be bathed. It wasn't that they didn't like to have bath; it had more to do with the fact that they had to stop what they were doing.

"You're first" I said grabbing Lizzie while she giggled in my arms.

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The kids were all bathed and were helping Luke set the table while I made dinner for them. It had been a bit difficult to get used to cook without being able to taste the food but I had learned to rely on smell and the practice I had from when I was human.

"Dinner will be ready in five minutes." I informed them.

"Go wash your hands." I heard Luke say in the living room. While they went to the bathroom he entered the kitchen.

"When they go to bed, we'll talk." His voice filled with seriousness. "Don't think you can escape it!" He smiled.

"I won't. Dinner's ready." The triplets sat at the table and started eating and talking about the show they were watching on TV.

I loved to see them like that: calm, just talking to each other. In these moments I realize how close they are to each other and to me. Their relationship between each other was intense because they can communicate through their minds. Like if their minds were connected though they could choose when to open their minds to each other. Because of this ability they often share their dreams since while they are unconscious they cannot control it.

They should have a chance to meet their father, to share with him the same bound they share with me. To know him as well as they know me, to meet the rest of their family, but if something went wrong and they got hurt I would never forgive myself. Why did things have to be so complicated?

"Mommy we're done" They said snapping me off of my thoughts.

"Lets put you in bed then, it was a very long day. Go brush your teeth." I said

"Can't we watch TV just for a little longer?" Lilly asked, or should I say begged.

"Honey you're too tired." I tried to reason with her

"No we're not. We're not even sleepy!" Lizzie said yawning. I had to make an effort not to laugh.

"Okay but just until I finish doing the dishes and you have to brush your teeth first. Are we clear?" I knew they wouldn't last that long. They were exhausted. They would fall asleep as soon as they hit the couch. I left to the kitchen while they went to brush their teeth and sit on the sofa.

I quickly finished doing the dishes and cleaning up the kitchen. When I got to the Living room I saw exactly what I had expected. On the couch were my three angels deep asleep.

"Luke." I whispered. I knew he could listen.

"I'm here." He said entering the room and absorbing the scene before him. "It looks like three angels have fallen from heaven and landed in our couch."

"Yeah" I agreed. "Help me get them in their rooms." I picked Lizzie up while he did the same with Luke. They were already wearing their pajamas so the only thing we had to do was put them in bed and tuck them in. I did it for Lizzie and then went to get Lilly and did the same. I kissed them goodnight and went to Luke's bathroom to do the same. The girls slept in one bedroom and Luke in another one. There were three more rooms in the house: one for me, another for Luke (Sr) and the last one was for one of the girls when they decided that each one wanted their own bedroom.

I left Luke's room and went to the living room where Luke (Sr) was already waiting for me. He had already kissed the girls goodnight and was sitting in the couch. I sat next to him.

"Are you going to tell me what happened, in the supermarket, now?" He asked

"I guess…" I had to do it. I needed help to sort things out and make the right decision. I need his advice. He's the only one I trust besides my kids.

"So… who did you found?"

"Alice and Jasper Cullen." I whispered.

"What? What were they doing in the supermarket?" He almost yelled.

"Ssshh. The kids are asleep. They were most likely buying things to refill their pantry. You know for the appearances." I explained.

"Oh. So what happened?" He asked curious.

"Alice hugged me twice and they asked questions after they saw Luke. I think Alice put it together. I think she knows Edward is their father or at least she's almost certain. She knows the kids' age, that I had them while I was human, she saw them… She knows. And I don't know what to do." I rested my head in his shoulder and started sobbing. I was so confused and scared.

"It's okay Bells. Everything is going to be fine." He said stroking my hair. He was in brother mode.

"I'm so confused. I don't know what to do. I mean, I knew this time would come. That I would meet them again, they would have to meet the kids but I never thought it would be so soon. I'm not ready yet. I'm not healed yet. I don't know if I can face them."

"Will you ever heal?"

"I don't think so. The triplets made the pain bearable but the hole it's still there. It still hurts. I don't want to make the wrong decision. I don't want them to be deprived of meeting their family, their father, just because of me but I'm afraid they end up getting hurt. What if the Cullens meet them and decide to leave again, like they did with me?"

"I understand that you're scared but I don't know what to say. Maybe we should just leave and get back to our lives. That way we are sure they won't get hurt. I'm sure you won't get hurt"

"But they should have the chance to meet their father. Besides, by now, Alice has already told to the entire family. What if they come after us? What if they try to take them away from me? When Edward left he didn't know I was pregnant. Not even I knew. What I'm trying to say is that he left me. He doesn't love me anymore but that doesn't mean he wouldn't love his kids. They could try to take them from me! I wouldn't survive. They are my angels, my light, and my life."

"It will be fine Bella. You'll find a solution. But the fact that Edward didn't know you were pregnant doesn't dismiss the fact that he left you. He was never there neither for you nor for your kids."

"Why does everything have to be so hard?"

"I don't know Bells, but we'll go through it together. I'll support your decision independently of what you choose. No matter what happens you'll always have the love of those angels who are asleep and you'll always be my little sister." He was so good to me; he was the brother I never had. Not even if I lived forever I'd be able to thank him enough for that he has done for me and for my kids.

We were watching some show on TV when we heard screams and cries. I ran to the girl's room and he went to check on Luke.

"What happened?" I asked when I got into the room and saw them sat in her beds crying. My first thought was that someone had tried to enter through the window. I quickly glanced at it but everything was normal.

I picked Lilly up from her bed and sat in Lizzie's hugging them both. Soon Luke brought my boy too.

"Ssshh. Everything is fine. Mommy is here." I was starting to panic. What had happened? They didn't stop crying and were holding onto me like if their lives depended on it. "Tell mommy what happened." I asked when they were calming down.

"We had a nightmare." Lilly sobbed.

"What was it about?" Luke (Sr) asked. His voice was calm though I knew he was as worried as I was.

"It was a man. He came here and took us away from mommy, and we tried to get away from him but he was too strong and he had hurt you and mommy…" Luke said still crying.

"I don't want to be away from you mommy. I don't want the bad man to take us." Lizzie cried.

"It's okay babies. Look at mommy." I asked. Their eyes were still watered and tears were still rolling down their perfect little faces. "I will never let anyone take you away from me okay?" This seemed to soothe them but I knew they wouldn't be able to sleep anymore. The nightmare was still too present on their memories.

I was worried. This had been the first time they had ever dreamt about this. Was it possible that this mess was already affecting them?

We spent the night in my bed, but as I had thought they didn't sleep more, they just snuggled against me while I whispered soothing words.

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