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Chapter 5

Edward's POV

This was crazy! I had come back from hunting and was ready to go to my room when I heard Carlisle call. Everyone was in the living room so I assumed we were just going to move again though that was a bit strange since we had just arrived.

I don't care anymore. I wasn't in the mood to discuss travelling arrangements and honestly I don't care where we go. I don't plan to do anything else besides stay in my bedroom.

For the past five years I haven't done anything. I can't stand it. Everything I do reminds me of Bella and the horrid lie I told her. How could I break my angel's heart? How could I leave her like that? I only did what I thought was best for her. Staying with her and allowing her to be near my family would only hurt her and someday I might not be able to save her. Now she could marry, have kids, grow old... She was free to live a happy normal human life. Or so I thought.

I told Carlisle I didn't care about anything but then Alice said it was about Bella. That stopped me. How could they know things about Bella? I told Alice not to look to her future.

When they told me they had found her in the supermarket the fist thing I thought about was that we had to leave. If I saw her once more I wouldn't be able to leave again. I loved her too much to leave again.

Apparently that wasn't everything they had to say. Bella was a VAMPIRE! My angel was a vampire! How could this have happened? I had spent the last five years suffering with every second I spent away from her and it had all been in vain.

Though they still had more to say. I could see by Alice's face and mood. She was way too happy. At the time I didn't know what to expect but I would have never imagined. Bella had kids. I was confused but Carlisle explained she had them while she was human. I couldn't believe. How much had her life changed since I left her?

It was hard to believe in all the information they had just dropped on me. But the hardest was when Alice said they were my kids. She said I was Bella's kids' father! Was she insane? I am a vampire I can't father children. As much as I wished to be able to give Bella kids I couldn't.

I have been sitting in my room since they told me all this. I am trying to process, to understand all this. There is no way I can be Bella's kids' father. Everything they said pointed to me; Carlisle thought that maybe it could happen… I don't know. What if it is possible? What if I am the kids' father? How much did I lose? How much did Bella need me? It couldn't be true! It's not possible! I'm so confused. Everything is a mess!

What happened in these past five years? Why was Bella changed? Where? Who did this to her? How could she be near her kids? I just want to know what happened. I'm freaking out. I don't know what to do, what to think.

All I want is Bella but I pushed her away. Hell! I told her to move on and be happy with somebody else! I had an angel and I left. If those kids are really mine, my mistake was much bigger than I imagined. I couldn't deal with that. Bella will never forgive me. I don't know how much longer I can live without her.

What have I done? What have I put my angel through?

"Edward? Edward are you okay?" I heard Alice ask from the other side of the door.

"No, I'm not. Leave me alone." I cried. I was a monster. I don't deserve other people to care about me.

"Edward, if you don't open this damn door right now I'll throw it down! I'm serious Edward!" She was pissed. She was serious. She was worried but I didn't care. I'm not worthy of her concern and I don't want her pity.

"Leave me alone Alice." I pleaded again. Why couldn't they leave me alone?

"Enough!" She yelled bursting through my door. "I'm sick and tired of this. Is this all you can do? Lock yourself in your room moping about the mistakes you did? Do something to fix them."

"What can I do Alice? I can't go back in time and change things and if Bella's kids are mine too than the mistake I made was much bigger than I ever imagined. Bella will never forgive me." I said exasperated.

"You still don't believe it, do you? And you're right! Bella will never forgive you if you insist on locking yourself in here instead of trying to do something to mend your mistakes. You're giving up Edward! I never thought you'd give up on Bella." Couldn't she understand?

"I don't want to give up. I don't know what to do to gain her forgiveness. I will never give up on Bella but she will never forgive me for what I put her through. I am a monster Alice how could I leave her alone like that?" I was panicking. I didn't know what to think, what to do. Bella is everything I ever wanted."Even if those kids aren't mine I'll love them as if they were. If I could only have Bella back. I'd do everything to bring her back."

"You're still in denial? I told you already they're yours. You say you don't know what to do… You can start by joining the rest of us downstairs around three o'clock pm. We have to decide what we are going to do. I want to go find Bella but Carlisle thinks it's better if we wait, to give her space and time to think. I'm sure this must be really hard for her too." She informed me.

"Okay." I whispered.

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Bella's POV

The kids didn't sleep anymore after the nightmare. Just like I though it would happen. They were still too scared. Nothing like this had ever happened before. Of course they had had nightmares before. They usually shared their dreams and nightmares due to their minds connection but it had never been so strong. They had never had such nightmare. They had probably noticed how worried I had been. Maybe they had heard me talk to Luke.

In the morning they were quieter. I made them breakfast and they ate silently. I helped them get dressed and we spent the rest of the morning watching TV. Normally I wouldn't approve that they watched so many TV but I would make an exception today. Luke had gone to the hospital early in the morning and would only come back by lunch time.

It is strange. I'm not used to see my kids so quiet. I should talk to them again.

"Kids, look at me." I asked turning the TV off. They turned to me. Luke was sitting at my right, Lizzie at my left and Lilly was in the ground with her head resting against my legs. "I know you are scared because of your nightmare but that's just what it was, a nightmare. It's not going to happen. No one will take you away from me. I won't let. Okay? There's no need to be afraid. No one will take you from me."

"Okay mommy." They answered. They seemed happier.

"What if you helped me to prepare lunch?"

"Yay." They screamed excitedly in unison.

Lunch was almost ready when Luke arrived half an hour later. He helped the triplets set the table and then sent them to wash their hands.

"They look better." He sounded relived.

"I talked to them again. They are exhausted though. They'll have to take a nap after lunch."

"Yes, they will." He agreed. The fact that my kids were better made me fell better too. I had been so worried.

They ate lunch quietly; they were too tired.

"Now you'll have to go sleep a bit. You are too tired. Let's go." I said taking them to their rooms. I didn't even bother to tell them to put their pajamas on. They were worn out. Lilly and Luke fell asleep immediately but Lizzie couldn't drop out so I put a blanket around her, picked her up and took her to the car. Riding it always made her fall asleep. Luke (Sr) would stay with Lilly and Luke.

I started driving not caring where I was going. After ten minutes I noticed Lizzie was already asleep but I kept driving.

When the car came to a stop I became aware of my surroundings. I had stopped in front of a huge white house. The scent was unmistakable. I was at the Cullens' house. Now I only had to decide whether I dare to get out of the car and knock at the door or turn around and go back home.

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Alice's POV

It was around three o'clock in the afternoon when I heard Edward coming downstairs. Everybody was already sitting in the living room; he was the only one missing. He had decided to fight for his family. For our family.

He sat next to me. He looked miserable. Worst than a few hours later when I went to talk to him. He was driving Jasper crazy.

Carlisle was getting ready to start speaking when we heard a faint knock at the door, at least I did. It took me less than a second to get up and head to the door. I had hope it was Bella, I couldn't 'see' anything which probably meant it was her. I was so excited. I quickly opened the door almost pulling it from the hinges. In front of me was Bella holding a little girl bundled in a light pink blanket.

"Bella!" I squealed.

"Ssshh!" she hissed. "She's asleep Alice. Do not talk so loud." She whispered

"Ops! Come in! I'm so happy you came." I was so excited I had to make an extra effort to keep my voice low. "Where are the others?" I asked as we reached the living room.

"They're at home with Luke, sleeping. Lizzie couldn't fall asleep so I decided to ride the car a bit. That always made her fall asleep." She clarified.

We entered the living room and everybody was staring, excitement filled their eyes.

"Hi!" Bella faintly whispered.

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