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Chapter 14

Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end. Unknown author

Bella's POV

"There is no 'us', Edward. It ended five years ago." I whispered remembering that dreadful day.

"Yes there is Bella. There will always be 'us'. As long as I love you there will always be us. I may not know the future but I know I'll never stop loving you." Why was he doing this to me? Didn't he understand that all this was hurting me? I don't want to hurt anymore.

"Please stop Edward! Don't do this to me. I can't handle it. I've already promised you I would do my best to keep you in our kids' life. Please don't do this to me." I begged seating in the couch with my head in my hands. It hurt. It hurt too much. His voice, his eyes, his face… It hurt to hear him say he loved me knowing it wasn't true.

"Look at me Bella." He was in front of me kneeling on the ground. His hands gently grabbed my wrists moving my hands away from my face. "Please believe me! I'm telling the truth. I do love you. More than anything." I turned my face away from his. I couldn't bear to look at him, afraid of what I would see in his eyes. He released one of my wrists, using his now free hand to lift my chin forcing me to look in his eyes. "I love you Bella. Why is it so hard for you to believe?"

"Because it's not possible! First you loved me then you didn't and you left and now you find out we have kids and you love me again? It's not possible. I don't want you to stay with me just because you think it's your responsibility. That was one of the reasons why I didn't look for you. You can't love me! It's impossible!" I cried in despair.

"I know it may look like that but… it's not. I never stopped loving you! You are my life Bella. I can't live without you." He tried in vain to convince me.

"I don't believe you. I can't believe you." I tried to turn my face away from his but he didn't let me. "I can't understand!"

"I lied Bella. That day in the forest… I lied." He lied? What is he talking about? Why doesn't he just leave?

"You lied?" I asked disbelievingly.

"I did and I regret it more than anything. I started regretting it in the moment that I left you alone."

"Why? Why would you lie?"

"I wanted you to be safe. I didn't deserve you; I was keeping you from living a normal, human life. Every second I spent with you made me love you even more and increased the danger my world represented to you. If I didn't say what I said you wouldn't have let me go. I lied to protect you Bella. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to you because of me, because of what I am. But I didn't hope you believed me so fast. It hurt that even after I tell you countless times that I loved you, you believed so rapidly when I said I didn't. One time was enough to convince you. Why?"

"You seemed pretty sincere. And I always knew I wasn't enough for you. I was just boring and plain. There are a lot of better girls for you out there than me. I always knew that someday you would realize your mistake and leave me."

"I'm a good liar Bella. I had to be. You had to believe me but I never stopped loving you. Not for one second. And I don't care if there are better girls for me out there because I don't want any of them. I want you. I love you. You are more than enough for me. You were never boring and plain. You were always gorgeous and lively. You brought me back to life. I love you and I've missed you like crazy."

"Are you telling me that for five years my kids have lived without a father because you decided that it would be safer to me if you left? Are you telling me that for five years I've been miserable, thinking you didn't loved me, because you lied?" I spat at him. How could he do this to me? I was so angry…

"Please Bella, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. If I knew you were pregnant I would have never left because my reasons to stay would be much stronger then my reasons to leave. I love you, I do! Please believe me. I can't live without you!"

"How do I now that you're not lying now? How can I say what's true and what's not? How can I believe you Edward?"

"You have to trust me Bella! You have to believe me!" He sobbed desperate, placing his head on my knees. "Since I left you everything is always the same. It's just loneliness and pain. It doesn't matter how many people are with me, I always feel alone. I miss you. I miss everything about you. I miss your laugh, your voice, your hair, your touch, your kisses… I miss to be able to hold you in my arms, to sing to you, to be with you… I need you Bella! I can't live without you! Since I left you I've only existed, like an empty shell. I need you like a bird needs his wings because without them he can't fly; like a fish needs the water because without it he'll die. I feel lost without you. There's this pain in my heart that won't go away, no matter what I do. It doesn't matter where I look at, I can only see your face, your smile. There's nothing I wouldn't do to go back in time and undo my mistake, but I can't. Please Bella you have to forgive me! You have to believe me! I need you to love me!" I didn't know what to think. I didn't know what to believe in.

"Edward… I…" I could barely speak.

"Please Bella come back to me. You're the best part of me, without you I'm just a monster. I need you so much." He looked at me begging. "I can't loose you again. I can't let you go again. I love you. I never stopped and I never will. You're the most important thing in my life. Please believe me."

"I don't know Edward… I…"

"Please Bella. I lied to protect you. I lied and it didn't work. I'm sorry but I need you Bella. I need you to be with me. I know I don't deserve you but I can't take this anymore. It hurts so much, to see you and not be able to touch you, to talk to you and not be able to say that I love you. I know I haven't been here for you and for our kids but I want to make up to you. Please don't leave me. Please take me back!" He kept sobbing and I couldn't ignore his sincerity anymore. I grabbed his arms and pull him up while I got up from the couch. I looked in his eyes and we stay we like that for a few seconds. His face was inhumanly beautiful but it was filled with sadness, pain and despair.

"I want to believe you Edward. I really want. God knows there's nothing I want the most, but how can I be sure that you're not going to leave me and the kids again? I don't want to suffer more." I said voicing my worries.

"I wouldn't have the strength to leave you again. I'm too selfish. Now that I know how much it hurts to be away from you I know that I'll never be able to do it again. You're the most important thing for me Bella. Leaving you is not an option anymore. Even if it is the best for you, I'll never be able to do it. Nothing will keep me away from you again Bella." Was it possible that this desert of pain and suffering that I've been crossing is coming to an end?

"How can I be sure that you love me as much as you claim?" I asked. I had to be sure.

He said nothing; he just looked me deep in the eyes. I could see he was being sincere. His beautiful eyes showed me that. There was nothing in his eyes besides love and adoration. He placed his hands on my back and pulled me closer. His eyes never left mine and for a moment he just stared at me, then he slightly brushed his soft lips against mine, when I didn't pushed him away he tilted his head and deepened the kiss. I could feel all his love in that simple and soft kiss. This was all I had been waiting for five years and I had never thought it would actually come true. Now I just wished it would never end.

"I love you so much Bella." He said when we parted, opening his eyes. They were filled with happiness and love.

"I love you too but…"

"Please believe me Bella. I know I can't erase the things that I've done to you but I do love you and I want to make it up to you."

"I believe you Edward." Relief washed over his face. "'But it's not just me anymore. There's the kids now…"

"I want them too. I want to be their father. I know that I failed them and you but I'm here now and I want us to be a family."

"I know Edward and I'm sure you'll be a great father but I don't want them to fell pressured to accept you and your family just because we're together again. I would never do anything that would cause them pain. If they didn't like you I would never go back to you. I love you, I do, but I could never do anything that hurt them. I…"

"It's okay Bella. I understand but where does that leave us? I promise we'll find a solution but please take me back. I miss you." He was worried. What was I going to do? I didn't want to loose Edward again. I wanted to be with him so much, but I couldn't hurt my kids or force them into something they were not ready for.

"I know that soon they'll forgive you and accept you, but I don't think it's fair to ask you to wait…"

"I would wait for as long as it was necessary but I don't know if I'll be able to be away from you. I just got you back." He said burying his face in the crook of my neck and pulling me closer. It felt so good to have his body close to mine again. I didn't want to part and I don't think I would be able to be away from him, now that I know he loves me.

"Let's not tell them then. Let's keep this from them. I don't like the idea but I don't want to be without you anymore. I missed you so much!" I cried hugging him tighter.

"I missed you too Bella. My Bella. You don't know how difficult it has been for me these last days. I just wanted to kiss you and tell you how much I loved you."

"We have to be careful around the kids." I warned.

"Don't worry love. So how long do we have until they wake?" I laughed. I felt so carefree, so happy. I hadn't feel like this in so long.

"They'll wake up around five am. Luke should be here around five too."

"Should we tell him and our family about this?" He asked emphasizing the word our.

"If they can keep it from the kids…" He kissed me once more. We settled in the couch, Edward was holding me in his arms. I was so happy I thought I would burst. "Will you tell me now why you were so upset this evening?" I asked curiously.

"Because of you." I look at him confused. "I was upset because you were considering going out with that David guy. I was jealous." He admitted. I guess it made sense now. "The only thing I could think about was how I was losing you. I knew that every day that passed I lost a little more of you to someone else. I don't want to loose you Bella. I can't imagine you in someone else's arms. I want you to be with me. You belong with me. You said you'd go out with him and then you started talking with your brother about it and you were worried about what that David would think about you because you didn't recognized him on the phone. I couldn't take it anymore."

"Even if I went out with him, I doubt we'd be more than friends. You're the only one I'll ever love Edward and no matter what happens, that will never change."

Edward's POV

A hundred hearts would be too few
To carry all my love for you.
Author Unknown

I was so happy I had got Bella back. There are not words to describe how I'm felling right now. I could have sworn I had died and gone to heaven. Now I only had to win my kids trust. I couldn't wait to be a father to them.

I didn't get tired of kissing Bella and tell her how much I love her. She's everything to me. I don't know how I would have survived if she hadn't taken me back. We were laying on the couch, she was on top of me and I had my arms around her waist. We were enjoying the hours we had before the kids wake up.

"You're so beautiful Bella." I commented looking at her. "You look like an angel. You're my angel. Tell me about the kids. I want to know everything about them. I want to know what I missed." I pleaded. She tried to get up but I stopped her.

"Please let me go Edward. I'm just going to grab a few scrapbooks that I keep here. I'll be right back." She said laughing silently. Reluctantly I let go of her. She came back a few seconds later holding three scrapbooks. She sat next to me and opened the first one.

"This one has a few pictures of me when I was pregnant and of the triplets first year." She informed me. I looked at the first picture, she was smiling but it didn't reach her eyes and she was too thin. She was beautiful though. An intense feeling of guilt and sadness washed over me. There were only a few pictures of Bella pregnant and comparing the first and the last ones you could see how the pregnancy had affected her health.

"It's not your fault Edward." Bella said noticing my face. She understood me so well.

"It is. This was rough for you. Luke told us. You could have died and I wasn't even there, helping you and giving you strength to pull through. I should have been there."

"Please Edward don't blame yourself. I survived and you're here now. That's what matters. Let's leave the past in the past and live the present." She pleaded.

"Okay. " I agreed. She quickly kissed me. I watched the three scrapbooks and Bella told me what led to each picture. I was sad I hadn't been able to watch everything through my own eyes but Bella was right. There was nothing I could do about it, now. So I just have to enjoy the present. I'll be here from now on, that's all that matters.

We cuddled in the couch kissing and saying how much we loved each other. I would never get tired of hearing her saying it. Then, too soon, it was time for me to leave; the kids would be waking up shortly.

"Come on Edward! You have to go." She said leading me to the door.

"I'll miss you so much Bella." I whispered pulling her close to me, trying to delay my departure for as much as I could. I had missed the way her body fitted mine.

"I'll miss you too. I promise I'll take the kids right after lunch." She said. I couldn't wait, maybe if the kids went to play outside I would have some time with her.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you too." I kissed her and if she hadn't broke the kiss I'm sure we would continue forever. "But you have to go now. " She gave me one last kiss and I left.

I got inside of my car and drove home as fast as I could. When I got home, I went to the living room and sat on the couch. I closed my eyes and played in my head the last hours at Bella's place. I still couldn't believe she had forgiven me and we were together again. It was pure bliss. I was so abstracted I didn't hear the entire family entering the living room.

"So how did it go?" Alice squealed. Only then I became aware of my family's presence.

"Can't you tell by his face? He's whipped." Emmet teased. Rosalie smacked him. "Why did you do that Rose?"

"It must have gone really well." Jasper said.

"Come on Edward, tell us!" Alice begged. "Or do you prefer I torture Bella until she tells me everything?" She threatened.

"NO!" Bella would hate that.

"Then are you going to tell us?" She asked impatiently.

"We are together again but we are keeping it from the kids so please don't bring it up in front of them." I asked. They all nodded.

"Why can't they know?" Emmett asked.

"Because Bella doesn't want them to accept me just because we are together. She doesn't want to force it on them. And I agree."

"Right now I'm sure you'd agree to everything she said son." Carlisle said laughing.

"I'm so happy for you Edward. It's good to have you back. It's been a long time since I saw you like this." Esme said hugging me.

"I'm happy too mom. It's been a long time since I felt like this. It's good to be back." Now I just had to wait about… ten hours to see Bella again. So long… I can't wait to have her in my arms again, to taste her sweet lips, to hear her say she loves me again…

At least now Bella is mine again. She is my Bella. That sounds just right.

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. Kay Knudsen

Bella's POV

Edward had just left. I can't believe this is happening. Edward loves me. It feels so good to be with him again. I have missed him so much.

"What happened to you Bella?" How couldn't I have noticed Luke had arrived?

"What do you mean?"

"You have that silly smile on your face and you didn't even noticed when I came in. What happened?"

"Edward was here."

"What?" He screeched.

"Ssshhh the kids are asleep. Edward was here, we talked and…" I trailed off.

"You're together again." He concluded. I just nodded.

"I'm so happy Luke. I never thought I would feel like this again." Then I noticed his face. "Aren't you happy for me?" I asked.

"I just don't want you to be hurt again. I would be lying if I say that I like this but if he makes you happy… All I want is for you to be happy. If you love him and he loves you… But I'll be watching, if he hurts you, this time he'll have to deal with me."

"Thank you for supporting me. I know that Edward loves me and he won't leave me again. He just wanted to protect me." I defended.

"What if he decides to protect you again?"

"He won't. I know he won't leave me again."

"If you're sure. I trust you Bella and I'll try to trust him too."

"Thanks. By the way we are going to keep this from the kids. I don't want them to feel forced to accept Edward because you're together."

"Okay Bells. You did well. They must be almost waking up right?"

"Yes. I wanted you to know that. You'll always be my family. The fact that I'm with Edward again doesn't change anything. Besides the Cullens like you. I bet you and Carlisle will be great friends."

"I think so too. It's good to see you happy Bella. Maybe you should recompose yourself if you don't want the kids to find out. Try not to smile so much." He taunted.

"Very funny."

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Edward's POV

Finally! Bella was parking the car outside. I couldn't wait to see her again. I had to focus. The kids couldn't know so I had to control myself and act coolly. I knew that soon we would be a family again.

Alice went to open the door and soon Bella and the kids were in the living room. She was gorgeous, as always. She was wearing a turquoise and paisley silk dress. It looked great on her. Everything would look great on her.

"Hello!" She said. How I had missed her voice!

"Hello Bella. How are you?" Esme asked hugging her.

"Fine, thank you." She answered, watching delighted as our kids hugged and kissed Esme. Lizzie was the one who was more at ease. After greeting Esme she ran to Emmet who lifted her up, being careful not to hurt her. Then she settled on Rosalie's lap, playing with her hair. Bella watched her with extreme happiness.

Bella's cell phone rang. She quickly picked it up from her little purse and answered happily after checking the ID.

"Hello. How are you?" She answered. As the person from the other side talked all the happiness vanished from Bella's face, being replaced by a look of horror and disbelief.

"What?" She squeaked terrified.

"No. No." Suddenly she dropped the phone and fell on the floor sobbing. What had happened? I quickly made my way over her.

"Esme, Rosalie take the kids. Alice pick the phone, see who's talking." I said. Esme and Rosalie hurriedly took the kids to the dinning room, though they were screaming for Bella. I knew they were worried but they shouldn't see Bells like this. Alice picked the phone.

"This is Alice Cullen, I'm a friend of Bella, may I know who's speaking?" She politely addressed to person on the other side of the line. I embraced Bella and tried to comfort her. It hurt so much to see her like this. What could have happened for her to be like this?

"The… kids…" She managed to say between sobs.

"Don't worry love; they're with Esme and Rosalie. What happened Bella? Please tell me." I begged. I would do anything to stop her pain.

"No! Not her… not her too…" Bella sobbed. Who was she talking about?

"It's going to be okay. It doesn't matter what happened I know everything is going to be fine love. Please calm down." I rocked her back and forth but she wouldn't stop sobbing. She just kept crying tearlessly as I tried to calm her whispering soothing words and kissing her hair. What had happened to my angel?

First, don't kill me because then I wouldn't be able to write and you wouldn't know what happens next. I hope you had liked the chapter. It's the biggest I've published so far. I put a lot of effort into it because I know many of you have been anxiously waiting for it. I hope I didn't disappoint anyone. If I did, I'm sorry. The link for Bella's dress will be on my profile. Check it out and tell me what you think. Please review. Let me know what you think. If you have a guess about who's on the phone tell me, I'd like a lot to hear it. Thanks for reading and reviewing my story. Any questions, you already know just ask. I hope you recognize my effort and give a lot of reviews to read and reply to tomorrow (actually it's just a few hours, since it's 5am here). Don't forget to review. Hugs