You are going to kill me when I say this…I was working on Chapter 4 all along and breaking my head thinking…SHIT I HAVEN'T UPLOADED THIS STORY YET…and I had writers block….so today I started re reading my reviews and noticed I only had reviews on two of the chapters when I had clearly written three…so I totally check and noticed I HADN'T UPLOADED CHAPTER 3 AND I WAS WORRYING ABOUT NOT HAVING UPLOADED CHAP 4!!! Yes call me clueless…but those are the effects of over work and stress…I seriously can't apologize enough so please enjoy it and tell me what you think in the end. And chapter 4 might take long since it's only one page long still!! I can't believe myself and I wish someone would just slap me in the face for being an idiot!

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Chapter 3: Confessions

Getting Axel down the stairs was a real chore and I new that getting him to his room would be another. Sure the hall ways were empty, but still, if anyone heard Axel laughing, we would get in trouble.

"Axel, please hush" I said as he laughed.

He hadn't stopped laughing since we had gotten down from the North Sky Tower and I was starting to get worried that anyone might hear us.

"Ease down…I'm the prince…they can't do anything to me" he said as he laughed.

Yeah, they couldn't; except take your inheritance, dethrone you, leave you in the streets and forget about you…that was nothing to worry about, absolutely nothing at all.

"Please Prince Axel, we must get you back to your bed chamber, at least there they wont suspect of what we've been up to" I insisted, pulling him with me.

"Calm down" he said as he wrapped his arms around me and I felt all the blood rush to my face. "I'll go if you stay with me"

"Um, Prince, please let go of me" I said as I tried to squirm out of his hold, my face red with embarrassment.

I got terrible when I was with him alone in a room or even with him and now those feelings were getting stronger now that I was in his arms and I felt my body get hot when I felt his breath in my ear.

"Axel!" someone called and I quickly ripped myself out of Axel's arms as I heard the voice call and I did that just in time, King Ansem was rushing towards us, his face red in rage. "What are you doing all the way here? Are you trying to make a fool out of me?"

"Sorry sir, but he's a bit out" I said, "I was helping him to his room"

"Well, I won't have him dilly-dallying around here, while the princess is waiting for him" King Ansem said grabbing Axel from me and pulling him.

"King Ansem please; I don't think he's in conditions to be in there at the moment" I said. "Please, is best he goes and sleep-off his inebriated state"

King Ansem ignored me and I huffed. I knew King Ansem was a kind king, but he wasn't exactly kind with everyone, he treated his son like dirt, I knew more than anyone. But oddly enough he treated me like if I was his son and that was an odd thing from someone from the monarchy. He always bought me clothe, gave me gifts that I never even dreamed off, the last was a birthday party I had nearly had a heart attack over after I saw all the stuff that had been there. But none of the servants got the same treatment as me.

I knew that he didn't love his son, but taking him to a party filled with foreigners in his current state was something I would never do, for not only would Axel make a fool out of himself, but he would also put his family's good name in danger and his too. I rushed after them and followed them into the party, though I knew that servants were not allowed into the Ball Room when people were in it and I could get in serious trouble if I was seen in it.

I could see that Axel was being dragged further into the ball room and I could feel the stares of everyone on me as I hurried after them as fast as I could.

"King Ansem" I called catching up to them. "Please sir, let Axel rest" I begged. "He's drunk; he'll only cause trouble like he is now"

"Roxas, you know you shouldn't be here" the King said with a glare and I stopped. "Take your leave before you get in trouble"

I watched him leave as he pushed Axel though the crowd and I huffed, pushing my bangs back as I though of what to do. However, I hadn't expected a pair of hands to get a hold of me by my shoulders and drag me off. My heart raised as I was dragged out of the Ball Room and pushed against a wall.

"Roxas what the hell is wrong with you going in there?" Princess Kairi said annoyed. "You know it's forbidden for you to be there"

"Sorry, but I just have to get Axel out of there" I said apologetically.

"You're lucky I dragged you out before mom saw you, she would have bit you if she saw you" Princess Kairi said. "Anyways….what's wrong with my brother?"

"He got himself drunk" I said.

"What? Roxas I told you to keep the bottle away from him, I knew he would do that in the current pressure he's in…he'll do something stupid if we can't take him out" Kairi said.

"Duh, that's what I'm trying to do, but no offence, you're father is a stubborn as a mule" I rolled my eyes.

"No offence taken, I know he's like that" Kairi said. "But what can we do to get Axel out of there now? If he's drunk he does crazy and weird stuff and I seriously don't want dad kicking him out or doing something stupid that will put us to shame"

"Well, we wont do nothing out here" I said with a sigh as I looked at the door; I had to stay out of the Ball Room, Kairi was the only one allowed in.

-Axel-

I knew I couldn't keep myself up for long, and the drinks I had had were starting blur my vision and my face was turning a bit red, tequila was a strong drink after all, mixing it with wine was something someone from a mad house would attempt and after to night I was someone that came out of a madhouse. I should have never pulled off that stunt.

Dad dragged me over back to prince Larxene and I pouted at her as I swayed.

"My, Axel are you ok?" she asked looking at me horrified.

"Yeah, peachy fine like peach" I said bursting into laughter for absolutely no reason and I saw Larxene's face wrinkle.

"Axel behave" dad told me but I only stuck my tongue out at him.

"Good heaven's Axel, what has gotten into you?" I head mom ask as she walked to us, I knew I could drink and that I usually got drunk, but not to the point to crawl like a worm like mom usually got herself and I knew that tonight I had over exceed the amount of alcohol I could take in and that only brought two things out of me, the worse and most notably the good. "You, hush…I blame you" I said pointing and flashing my hand on mom face and she looked horror struck. "You should have never married this piece of ice here next to me" I pointed at dad, "You could have married the flower guy, but no, you just had to marry him"

"Axel shut up before you say something that will get you in trouble!" mom shouted at me.

"What more trouble I can get inside of" I said and I knew the drinks were even starting to affect my speech now "he's always yelling at me because I never do anything right, well I'll do something that will make me happy and him the most miserable man"

-Roxas-

Kairi and I ran back in, even if I got into trouble, I knew I had to get Axel out of where he was before I did something stupid.

"I LOVE A SERVANT!" I heard Axel yell and I froze, "I don't want no princess I just want Roxas and nothing more!" Axel was standing right in the middle of the ball room with yet another bottle of wine as he drank from the bottle, "I propose a toast" he said. "I will like to thank my dad, for making me the most miserable man in this land and for being such a great dad that lives my life for me…thanks dad, thank you for everything, even for hating my life…" he downed the rest of the bottle. "Princess Larxene, I don't want you, I already have someone" he looked at where Kairi and I were standing and she looked at me.

My face was pale and I was gasping for air. I couldn't breathe. Axel loved me, but there was one problem with that, did he have to say it out loud? Damn you Axel! What are you doing this for? You're humiliating me! He was drunk, he really didn't love me like he said he did, it was impossible someone like him would do that, he was just drunk and making fun of me!

"I love you Roxas" he said.

"Roxas" I felt Kairi grab my shoulder and I took my shoulder from her as I glared at Axel and tears came out of my eyes. I wanted to hit him so bad. Just one punch, that'll shut him up, my mind screamed. No, I couldn't do that, I would get in trouble

Everyone was staring at me as if expecting me to say something. I turned on my heels and ran out the Ball Room letting my tears spill as I ran back to the safety of my room, where I knew I could cry and curse Axel's name for being such an idiot. Once inside the room, where Sora was sleeping I ripped the ring in my finger that Axel had given me and tossed it to the ground, the ring disappearing in the darkness where it ended somewhere I did not know and hoped I would never find it.

-Axel-

"Can you tell me what the hell was going though your mind yesterday?!" my father shouted as he glared at me, his face red with rage. I remained silent, knowing I was in a situation I could not get out of easily "you and your messing around can cost us our chance to merge with Hollow Bastion"

"Like if I care" I mumbled under my breath.

"Axel you should care!" mother said, "Is not only your father's name that's at risk, your name too is at stake here"

"Well, why do I have to do what he says?" I protested "Why can't I choose?"

"Because I am your father and because you have no other choice" dad said, the vein in his head pulsing.

"Then just tell me to jump off a bridge; at least that is something I will be glad to do for you!" I shouted at him, and that would make him happy for that matter.

"You're lucky I haven't!" he shouted back annoyed, "I am itching right now to tell you to go do that"

I stared at him with my mouth open, did he really mean that seriously.

"Why do you treat me like that?" I asked and I knew I had said something wrong, "Is like I'm not your son at all, just some ordinary kid you adopted"

I saw mom and dad exchange horrified glances and I knew that I had said something that they knew something about.

"What makes you think that Axel?" mom asked, "Of course you're our child"

"Well it doesn't feel that way" I protested.

"Axel I am only telling you not to do stupid things" dad said, "I just want you to marry this girl, it doesn't have to mean anything to you, you just have to think of it as something that will pass soon and in time maybe you'll fall for her" I noticed his voice had changed from how rough it was usually when he spoke to me.

"That would be lying to myself" I said, "I don't love her and I never will, I will only hurt her in the end"

"Well you can't be like a servant like you said when you were drunk last night" mom said, "thank god you weren't meaning that seriously"

If only she knew.

"What ever, the point is, just do this marriage" dad said, "That all you have to do and forget about everyone else" I hung my head; he wouldn't change his mind about this. "Now go and see Princess Larxene, she will want an explanation about what happened"

-Roxas-

I huffed as I finished taking off the bed clothing from Prince Axel's bed as fast as I could, I wanted to be out of there more than anything at the moment and I didn't want to be around him more than that it was necessary. I still couldn't believe how he had said that I front of people of high society, it was bad enough I was a servant and the people from the monarchy always treated us like dirt, this would make things worse now, they would make fun of me and it would be worse if Axel and I were caught in the same place together, they would only make thing worse.

I worked fast putting up the new sheets, grabbing the olds one form the ground and turning to the door with the dirty one, but at that moment the door opened and Prince Axel came in and he looked glad to see me. I was too, but I couldn't let that show. It hurt to know that he loved me, but it hurt even more that I couldn't let him know that I loved him back.

"Hi Roxas" he greeted casually and I just glared at him, walking past him without a word. "What's wrong with you?" he asked as he chased after me.

"Nothing" I mumbled as I opened the laundry shutte and let the bed sheets fall down to the washroom and closed it shut.

"Nothing?" he asked. "Roxas are you ok?"

"Yes I am ok" I said whipping around at him with my fist ready. "Stay away from me unless you don't want trouble"

"The one with trouble would be you if they find you raising your hand at me" I quickly lowered my fist but remained with my hand clenched just in case.

"Just stay away from me" I said and I took off walking not expecting Axel to grab hold of me and turn me back to him and hold me in place by my arms.

"Roxas I meant what I said back there" he said.

"I told you to stay away form me and next time I won't care if I get in trouble if I hit you" I said as I pushed off his arms.

I took off running so he would grab hold of me and he didn't follow. God how my heart broke when I said that! I felt horrible. I loved him, I loved him so much, but I didn't want anybody finding out that I liked guys. No one knew about that secret, only Vexen knew, since he was with Marluxia and I knew I could trust it to him, Sora didn't know much but I knew he suspected of it, Riku, he was never around me most of the time, so I didn't know if he was aware or not, Kairi, Axel's sister knew, and she even sometimes tried to get me to confess to Axel but I always chickened out and Granny Olette knew, she saw through everyone.

"Hold up there you!" an incredibly, familiar, annoying and irritating voice called m and I stopped. "I want to have a word with you servant" Larxene as I turned to her.

"Yes?" I said trying to put my best smile; witch.

"It's about yesterday…is what Axel said back at the ball true? That he loved you?" she asked and that hit me as if she had just slapped me square in the face.

"Excuse me!" I said with wide eyes.

"I'm talking about what Axel said last night at the feast…that he…loved you" she said and I noticed the words weren't coming easily out of her mouth, maybe this was hard for her to believe.

"I don't know and I really don't care" I huffed as I started to walk but Princess Larxene grabbed hold of my arm.

"He doesn't love me does he" she said.

I looked at her confused.

"Why are you asking me this?" I asked, "I don't know"

"What about you, do you love him" that one caught me off guard and I fumbled for words.

I couldn't deny that I loved him, I just couldn't, but my pride and ego were too much and I shook me head, to which she gave a sigh, though I couldn't tell if it was from relief.

"Good, guess that's all settled then" she said, "I didn't believe Axel at first about when he said he loved me, but I guess I was just over reacting" she entwined her arm with mine and pulled me to walk with her. I couldn't believe what she said, Axel loved her? Didn't he say back at the feast he loved me? Or was it only because he was drunk? But then why did he tell me that he meant what he had said? God what had I done wrong to deserve this? "Riku told me that you were Axel's personal servant, what can you tell me about him? Is he a good guy?" Princess Larxene asked.

"Um well…I…he's a good guy…yeah…you can say that" I said, my voice quivering as I tried to process my thoughts carefully to try and understand everything I had just been told.

"What does he like?" she asked.

"About what?" I inqured.

"You know, personal stuff, does he like sports, favorite foods, anything like that"

"Well…in food I would have to say a flambé would be his weakness, he doesn't eat them, he inhales them!" I said, "You should see them when he eats them!" I saw a smile tug at Larxene's lips and she tried to hold back her laugh.

"What about places" she asked.

"Hang me like a fool on that one princess, I can't tell you" I said and I saw her look at me shocked. I supposed she wasn't expecting how rough I sometimes got when I usually spoke with someone in a friendly conversation. "Sorry…I mean, Axel almost never leaves the palace unless he has to go on business trips, he's always stuck here"

"So he's never left the palace before?" she asked surprised.

"Not that I know" I said.

"Why is that? Why can't he leave the palace?" Larxene asked.

"Because his father doesn't let him, he thinks Axel might do something stupid that might ruin his name" I said, "His father has never trusted him"

"I know how he feels" Princess Larxene said, "not that my father doesn't trust me, he just never wants me to leave for fear that I might do something strange, guess all of us in aristocracy have that rotten luck, none of our fathers want us smirching the name of the family"

"Shit happens" I said and she looked at me with wide eyes. Language Roxy, language! My mind screamed and I gave a sigh. "Sorry about that" I apologized.

"At least you get to be what you want" Princess Larxene. "Anyways, it was nice talking with you, but I must take my leave, I have some things to be done before night falls and they're a lot" she let go of my arm and I was glad I was free from her now. "I hope we get to talk soon, so I'll se you around…erm…what was your name?"

"OH, sorry about that, I'm Roxas" I said.

"Good, see you around Roxas" she said waving me off as she opened the door to her Guest Room and closed it shut.

Ok, that was a complete unexpected chat. Why was she talking to me? Normally people from Aristocracy did not associate with people like me or anyone who wasn't above or at their level. And why was she so interested in Axel's….that's when it hit me God Damn Her!! I mentally screamed. Was she really trying to hit on Axel? No-duh why was she asking those questions then? I wanted to shoot myself. She was really trying to get Axel to love her? It was hard for me to believe that.

But Axel didn't love her for real did he? My head was starting to hurt from all that Larxene had said and everything I already had. I gave a sigh…I needed some rest.

Well…that's all for now, so now slap me in the face and tell me I'm an idiot for not uploading it soon!