A/N Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for the reviews/adding to alerts! I've been debating on writing a story for a couple months now. This is my first fanfic and I didn't know how people were going take to it, but since I've gotten some love, I'm going to post the next chapter. Oh thanks to fiery dragon164 and court hale for the first reviews!

Edward POV

I have never wanted to die as much as I do right now. Why couldn't Alice see this coming. I had to sit in that tree afraid to move the slightest, so Jacob Black couldn't see me. I tried not to look, I tried not to listen but I couldn't stop myself, I was so close to Bella, I had to know. My sweet, sweet Bella...

"I dropped the twins off at Sam and Emily's, and they said they'd drop them off tomorrow afternoon. I told Em that Eli and Masen had colds and gave her the meds. Sooo… looks like we have the whole house to ourselves, Mrs. Black.", he said wiggling his eye brows.

As soon as Jacob Black spoke these words, my world literally shattered. They weren't just married but had kids, twins. Eli and Masen the names hit me hard, Eli?- Elizabeth? And Masen? Did she name them with me in mind, was she holding on, did he know? Was there hope?

Bella didn't even get a chance to put the dishes in the sink, before Jacob picked her up and carried her upstairs. I watched as a light came on upstairs and bella started giggling. I couldn't take it, my nonbeating heart was ripping apart at the seams. I quickly dashed down the tree and started to run. I found myself in our meadow, no its mine now, just mine, all mine. Alice must of seen me, because before I knew it I saw a little pixie between the sheets of rain.

"How bad was it?" she asked, while sitting down on the ground.

"She's married, to a mutt! And has two pups with him!" I wanted to die.

"What?! Bella? Bella Swan? Your bella?...I'm sorry, if I woulda seen it..." Alice said confused.

"She isn't mine Alice! So stop! She's his! God how could she do this, I told her to stay out of trouble, to live a NORMAL life, not marry some mutt and have his spawns!" I felt bad, I didn't mean to yell I had no one to blame but myself. Alice was silent.

Edward its ok, I'm angry too. Alice thought.

"Today when I went to see if I could get a job at the hospital I heard Angela's thoughts. She said…she said that bella hasn't even graduated from the community college yet. God it all makes sense now! I need to see her, I need to know why."

"Please let me go with you. I want to know too, I want to see her."

"I didn't even get to say goodbye" alice added in her thoughts.

"Ok come on, there's this tree, you have to be still, I don't want that wolf knowing we're back yet."

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Talk about an awkward situation. When Alice and I got back to the tree, Bella was sleeping and the mutt was staring at her, just staring, God I hope I never looked that stalkerish. He could at least sleep, I had nothing to do at night but stare at an angel. You could feel the lust and sexual energy leaking out of the house, I didn't need Jasper there to tell us. I was angry, I was sad, I was disappointed, I was depressed. Where's Jasper when you need him?

God she is so beautiful, she's mine. I am so happy he left. She still thinks about, I know she does. When she's distant. Does she still love him?- no he hurt her, left her. And the dreams, the night talking. Sigh. That caught my attention.

"Alice, I just heard what the mutt was thinking. She still thinks about me, maybe even loves me. She mentions me in her sleep from time to time. I need to see her, to talk to her, to explain!" I said, with excitement in my voice for the first time in six years. Alice closed her eyes and I could see it in her mind, me sitting with her in her kitchen, talking, smiling, touching her hair. Alice looking in a crib, Bella smiling, happy. I looked over to Alice and she was smiling.

"See Edward I get to see my sister again!" she was bouncing up and down on her butt, shaking the tree. "Calm down Alice, Jacob might see us." I hissed.

That's when Bella did the one thing that could give me hope. She whispered "Edward", sighed and rolled away from him.

A/N 2: Reviews plllleeeaassseee and another chapter will go up…its kinda like strip poker, but backwards…